Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight.


Chapter 11 – The F word

EPOV

I woke up the next day with Bella snuggled up by my side.

"I was wondering when you wake." Bella murmured.

"How long have you been awake?"

Bella pressed her lips against my neck. "Doesn't matter."

My mouth was extremely dry. Thankfully, I didn't have a headache.

"How much did we drink last night?"

I felt Bella shrug. "No idea."

My memory from last night was quite blurry. I wanted to ask Bella what she remembered but I was embarrassed.

What I remembered most clearly was how the night ended. Bella and I were role-playing and I had to admit, it was quite enjoyable.

"Why are your cheeks red?" Bella asked, stroking my cheek.

"No reason." I said, my arms tightening around her. "I love waking up with you by my side."

Bella sighed in what I hoped was contentment. "Me too."

Bella started kissing my neck. I hummed in satisfaction. Bella moved to place small kisses along my jaw.

"M-maybe we should brush our teeth first."

Bella shook her head and pouted. "I need you now."

I smiled and climbed on top of her. After placing soft kisses all over Bella's face, I took off all the remaining clothes on Bella and myself.

"God, Edward. Take me." Bella breathed.

Groaning, I pushed inside of her.

It was different this time. Bella was less enthusiastic as I moved in and out of her. She moaned and panted but there was no screaming, no passion.

Had I done something wrong?

Bella was yet to reach climax when I came inside of her.

"Um…do you want to try again?" I asked, while I was still inside of her.

"No. That's fine."

I pulled out awkwardly. "So uh…what do you want to do now?"

Bella smiled softly. "Lets go out and have breakfast."

"I can made pancakes." I suggested.

Bella raised her eyebrows. "You can cook?"

I nodded proudly. "Kaure taught me."

"Well let's see what you got."

We found some clothes in my closet and got dressed before heading downstairs.

Bella offered to help with the pancakes but I refused her. So instead she was sitting on the counter top, seemingly in a trance.

"So er…what's on your mind?"

Bella didn't reply. It was obvious she was deep in thought.

"Bella?"

Bella looked up.

"Sorry, what?"

"Are you okay?"

She sighed softly and nodded once. "I'm fine."

Fine. I thought back to a conversation I had with Emmett a while back.

"If a girl ever says the F word, you're screwed."

My eyebrows furrowed. "The F word?"

"Yeah. Fine. If a girl says she's fine. It means she's not fucking fine at all and you probably did something to fuck shit up."

Had I done something to 'fuck shit up' as Emmett had said?

After placing Bella's pancakes in front of her, I went to sit across from her and watched as she took the first bite.

"Oh god…it tastes so good…" Bella was practically moaning.

"You really think so?"

"Hell yeah. You have to cook for me more often." She said, taking another bite. "Mmm…"

I couldn't help but notice that this morning Bella was more vocal in the kitchen than she was in the bedroom.

Oh god. That was it, wasn't it? My lack of skill was getting on Bella's last nerve. And I actually thought I was improving.

We ate in complete silence. When we both finished, Bella grabbed our plates and went to the sink.

"Do you use the dish washer to wash your dishes or do you hand wash them?"

I got up from the dining table and went towards Bella. "Don't worry, Kaure will be here later this afternoon. She'll wash them."

"No its okay, I can –"

"Can we talk, Bella?"

Bella looked frightened. "What about?"

"Um…can we go to my room?"

Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion but she nodded before following me up the stairs.

We both sat down on my bed and remained silent for a while.

Bella was the first to break the silence. "So…is everything okay?"

"Yeah. I don't really know how to say this…"

"Please don't tell me you want to break up. I mean…I –"

"What? No, of course not!"

"…Okay…"

"Are you getting tired of me, Bella? Is my lack of sexual…knowledge frustrating you or something?"

Bella kept her head down. I really wanted to see her face.

"No, no." She said, quickly. "I mean…I wish we were more…adventurous, you know, like last night, but if that's not your thing then it's not your thing. I want to be with you regardless."

Oh god. I knew I was displeasing her. I was such a good-for-nothing boyfriend.

"What do you mean adventurous?"

Bella was still avoiding my eyes. "I don't know. Never mind."

"Bella, please."

"I don't know. Whenever we have sex…" Bella trailed off.

"Yes…?"

"…It's always you're on top…or I'm on top…I want to try other positions and do things like role-play."

Okay, that was unexpected.

I got off my bed and kneeled in front of her, cupping her cheek. Her cheeks were dark red.

"Lets do it then."

Bella gave a tight smile. "Edward, you don't have to do that."

"I want to."

Bella smiled, standing up and pulling me up with her. She wrapped her arms around me.

"You're sweet." She said, before letting go of me.

"So er…what are we suppose to do?"

"You could you know, dominate me. Take over, be rough and punish me."

I tilted my head to the side, questioningly. "Uh…and how am I supposed to do that?" I felt so stupid for asking.

"Fuck my mouth. Spank me. Pound the fuck out of me. Whatever you want!" She sounded frustrated now but her words were a serious turn on.

Okay Edward, dominate her. Take over. She's your girlfriend and you have to please her.

"Okay Bella, get on your knees and take off my pants."

Bella smirked as she got onto her knees and slid my pants off along with my boxers, exposing my hard on.

All of a sudden, her mouth completely covered my dick but she wasn't moving.

Did she really expect me to fuck her mouth?

I started moving my hips back and forth. Her mouth was so inviting, and warm, and wet.

Without thinking, I laced my fingers through Bella's hair and started to pick up the pace.

As soon as I heard gagging sounds coming from Bella's mouth, I froze. She looked up at me questioningly.

I quickly removed my hands from the back of Bella's head. "God, I'm so sorry."

Bella stood up slowly. "What for?"

"I heard you gagging Bella. I'm sorry for treating you like a piece of meat. You're much, much more than that to me."

Bella groaned. "I know that. And a bit of gagging never hurt anyone. We're just role-playing Edward. I just wanted to try something new that's all."

Anything to please her, Edward. Anything.

"Bella?"

"Yeah?"

"Take off all your clothes and go lay on the bed."

She hesitated before stripping out of my shirt and boxers and lying down on my bed with her front down.

She was an absolute vision.

Bella turned to me. "Now what?"

I stalked towards her. "You've been a bad, bad girl." I said as I kneeled beside the bed.

I stared at her ass. Did she really want me to spank her? I had never hit a girl before.

She wants this. Just do it, for her sake.

I raised my right hand. It was just hovering over Bella's bottom.

Come on, Edward. It doesn't have to be hard.

In exaggerated slowness, I let my hand fall.

My hand landed on Bella's behind but it sure as hell wasn't a smack. It was more like a tap.

God this was so embarrassing!

Bella looked up and laughed once.

Without thinking, I ran towards my bathroom and shut the door. I sat on the floor against the closed door with my face in my hands.

Why would Bella want to be with someone as awkward and abnormal as me? I'm such an idiot. I can't even do something as simple as spanking.

I groaned. My face was completely flushed. I could feel the heat radiating off me. I felt so humiliated it wasn't even funny. Well for Bella it was.

After taking a couple of deep breathes, I stood up and went back into my bedroom. I needed to apologize to Bella for running out on her like that. That was not very polite of me.

"Bella?" I said as soon as I stepped out of the bathroom.

I looked around. Bella was gone.

Damn it!

I grabbed my phone and went to call Bella. She didn't pick up.

So I tried again. No answer.

I sighed.

Bella is too good for you anyway. She deserves better.


The next morning at school, I waited for Bella at the usual spot by the cafeteria. I really wanted to fix things.

"Edward!" Jessica said, as she walked towards me with Lauren and a couple of others girls that I didn't recognize.

I tried to hide my irritation by smiling. "Good morning."

"You look really nice today." Lauren said softly. I noticed she was staring at my crotch.

I looked at the other girls and noticed that Lauren wasn't the only one.

Oh shit, is my fly unzipped?

I looked down at my jeans. Everything seemed to be fine.

My zipper was zipped. My button was buttoned. No stains. No hard on.

So what the hell were they looking at?

I cleared my throat.

Jessica and Lauren were the only ones who looked up.

"You know, Edward, you have really nice eyes. You should start wearing contacts so we're able to see them clearer."

"Oh er…I got contacts for Bella but she preferred it if I wore glasses so I'll probably stick to my glasses for now."

"Aren't you a sweet boyfriend?" Jessica turned to the other girls. "Don't you think Edward's sweet?"

They all nodded with smirks on their faces.

How much more awkward is this going to get?

Out of nowhere, I heard a huff. Bella walked straight passed me. She didn't even look in my direction.

"Bella!" I called out.

Jessica grabbed my arm. "Let her go, Edward."

Roughly, I pulled my arm out of her grasp. "What?"

"You probably don't know this but Bella is one crazy bitch."

I narrowed my eyes. "Please don't speak about my girlfriend like that."

Lauren scoffed. "If she's your girlfriend, why did she just ignore you like that?"

All the girls started laughing.

"I have to go to class."

As I walked to class, I could feel eyes on me. I looked up to see people whispering to one another while glancing at me in amusement.

"Hey, Big Boy." A blond girl I had never seen before said as I walked passed.

It was getting pretty weird around here so I stared at the ground as I walked.

"Hey! I'm talking to you."

I looked up to see the blond smiling at me. She extended her hand towards me. "Hi. I'm Jane. I was at Eric's party on Saturday."

I awkwardly shook her hand. "Oh er…hi…I'm Ed-"

"Edward. Yeah, I know."

I said nothing and waited for her to continue.

"I was wondering…maybe you and I could go out to dinner some time."

I couldn't help but wonder what the hell was going on. Something was definitely up.

"I have a um…its complicated." I said, avoiding her eyes.

"All the more reason to go to dinner with me. You can get your mind off things. Or…you could come over and we can watch a movie." Jane said with a smirk.

I shook my head. "Thanks but I just don't think I'm up for it."

Jane opened her mouth to speak but I cut her off. "I have to go class. Bye."

As I walked away I heard Jane and another guy talking.

"Rejected!"

"Fuck off. His huge cock is mine. I know it."

I turned back to look at them. Jane looked taken aback when she saw me looking while her friend was trying hard not to laugh.

Were they seriously just talking about me?

I raced to class but not before looking around to see if there was any sign of Bella. Obviously there was none.

Throughout class, all I thought about was Bella.

I wanted to be the one she thought about constantly. I wanted to please her and make her smile. I hated that she was mad at me. I hated being apart.

I was walking down the halls at lunch when I saw Bella talking to Jane.

"You're not good enough for Edward. You're gross and rank and annoying."

Bella's head was bowed down submissively. I found that rather strange since Bella was always one to stand up for herself.

I walked towards them and cleared my throat. "And you, Jane, are nasty and impolite and a liar."

Bella looked up at me nervously as Jane huffed and walked away.

"Are you okay, Love?"

Bella nodded and hid her face in my chest, wrapping her arms around my neck. I kissed the top her head and rubbed circles in her back.

"Please don't be mad at me. I'm sorry for being demanding." Her voice was muffled but I could hear her clearly.

"I'm not mad. I thought you were mad at me. You left."

Bella pulled back so she could look me in the eyes. "Because you were mad."

I pulled her into me again. "I could never be mad at you. Lets just put this behind us."

It was a nice sunny day so Bella and I ended up sitting under our tree on the oval. My back was against the tree and Bella laid her head on my lap.

"So what was with the Jane girl?"

Bella huffed. "I don't know. I've noticed that ever since I said that thing on Saturday night…people are acting different."

"Yeah, people are acting different. But what thing did you say?"

"Don't you remember?"

"What is it?"

Bella sat up. "Don't hate me okay. I was drunk and stupid."

"I could never hate you."

"You know…how I said you were…big."

"Oh…" So that was why I kept getting all these stares. I thought I was dreaming when Bella told everyone about my package. Guess not.

"Are you mad?"

"No, of course not."

"Hey Edward!" Mike yelled as he ran towards us with a ball in his hand.

Bella climbed onto my lap and wrapped her arms around me. "Piss off, he's mine."

"Oh come on, Bells." Mike said before turning to me. "Want to play some football? Fucking Rob is dropping out of school and we need someone to take his place on the team. We just wanna see what you got first."

I raised my eyebrows in astonishment. "I'm failing gym. You really think I can be on a team?"

"That's coz you never participate. Come on. All you need to know is how to run, throw and catch."

I scoffed.

Bella ran her hands through my hair. "That would be so hot."

I turned to Bella. "Really?"

Mike snickered. "Yeah, man. So fucking hot. Now lets go."

I looked at Bella. She smiled encouragingly. "Go, go. Have fun."

Football wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. Mike and Eric spent ten minutes explaining how the game worked before we started kicking the football around. Bella sat on the sidelines watching.

Apparently Rob had played on the defence line but me defend? I wasn't so sure that was a good idea. I could never participate in a fight or any type of confrontation so I was pretty sure I'd let them down. I insisted they let someone else take Rob's place but they wouldn't hear of it.

The bell rang and people started heading to class. I walked over to Bella.

"Exhausted?"

I shrugged.

"Do you really want to go to class?"

Suddenly an idea popped into my head. The idea came from one of the porn videos Emmett had given me. "Yeah actually, I do. Just give me five minutes. I need to catch my breath."

"We'll be late."

"Good."

Five minutes later, Bella and I were walking towards our class. We went down the hall and I turned into an empty classroom.

" Er…what are you doing?"

I held the door open for Bella. "Get in."

Bella's eyebrows were furrowed but she did as she was told. I made sure the door was locked before I turned to Bella.

"Edward, what the hell are you -"

"Bella. Get on your knees."

"What?"

"You heard me. Get on your knees."

"What for?"

Bella looked so confused it was adorable. I tried to sound mad and impatient. "We don't have all day you know."

"Edward -"

I started undoing my jeans. "I know you cheated on your test, Bella."

Bella's eyebrows furrowed. "What test?"

I ignored her. "Now if you want me to keep my mouth shut, you better open yours."

Realization finally dawned on Bella and she grinned, dropping onto her knees. She pulled down my jeans, along with my boxers and out sprang my prominent erection.

As soon as I stepped out of my jeans, my dick was enveloped in Bella's wet, warm mouth.

I was pretty sure that the pleasure Bella brings me would ever go away.

"Oh…my god…" I moaned as I placed my hands on the back on her head. My eyes shut involuntarily.

Bella hands were placed firmly on my hips and I could feel her tongue running along my shaft. I really hoped she wasn't uncomfortable.

I looked down to see her expression but I couldn't. Her head was moving back and forth at a rapid pace and she wasn't looking up.

I tried to growl. "Look at me."

Bella looked up at me through her long lashes. Even though she was sucking my cock, Bella still looked pretty innocent.

Her movements suddenly came to a halt and I could feel Bella attempting to take more of me in her mouth. It felt really, really good.

And then she gagged.

I gently pushed her backwards and stepped aside. I didn't want her to cause Bella any discomfort.

I knew that this would displease Bella so I continued to play our little game.

"That's enough." I narrowed my eyes at her. She looked up at me with those big innocent eyes and I just wanted to pull her to me and kiss her senseless.

"Take off your pants and go bend yourself over one of those tables."

I was sure I heard Bella giggle as she walked away. I shut my eyes tightly and took deep breaths, trying to keep my cool.

I went to stand behind Bella before leaning over to whisper in her ear. "Hold on tight."

"God…" Bella breathed. "Do it. Now. Please."

I stood up straight. "Well aren't you just the little…slut?" I winced at my harshness.

"Indeed I am. I'm your slut, Edward. Will you fuck me now?" She sounded impatient. I was glad she wasn't offended.

I grabbed at Bella's ponytail and tugged it. "Don't tell me what to do."

Bella whimpered as I cupped Bella's pussy. It was extremely wet. "I think slut would be an understatement."

Without a second thought, I pushed inside Bella and started thrusting in and out of her.

"Fuck!" Bella yelled.

I reached over and cupped Bella's left breast with my left hand and covered her mouth with my right. "Keep your mouth shut. Do you want someone to hear you?"

Bella replied with a muffled no.

Bella was gripping the edge of the table tightly as I continued pounding in and out of her. Obviously I wasn't as gentle as I usually was but at least Bella was much more vocal this time. Hopefully her muffled screams wouldn't disturb the classes. I moved my right hand to cup Bella's right breast. Her nipples were hard.

"Oh god. Right there! Right there!" Bella panted.

Our position was new and different, but it still felt good. Every little movement was exhilarating and now Bella was wiggling her hips as I thrust in and out of her. Her movements made it that much more intensifying.

"Oh god! Edward! I'm coming! I'm fucking coming!"

I groaned. "Me too…"

I increased the pace going at it harder and faster.

We came together. Hard and fast.

Bella and I were still panting heavily when turned Bella around and gently stroked her pink cheek.

Ever so slowly, I moved forward and pressed my lips against hers.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door. "Who's in there?"

Bella's eyes widened. "Shit! Shit! Shit!"

We quickly put our jeans back on.

"Go sit down." I whispered to Bella. She took a seat in behind one of the desks.

I swiftly walked over to the door and opened it. Mr. Greene was standing on the other side. He looked irritated.

As soon as he saw me, his expression changed. He seemed confused.

"Mr. Cullen, what's going on?"

"Um…Bella isn't feeling well. Her stomach was hurting so I got her to sit down in one of the empty classes."

Mr. Greene looked over my shoulder to see Bella sitting down awkwardly. Her face was flushed and she was still panting slightly. At least she looked the part.

"Are you okay, Ms. Swan?"

Bella nodded.

"You could have gone to see the school nurse. She is quite capable of taking care of you." Mr. Greene said, crossing his arms.

"I suggested that too, but she didn't want anyone else to see her like this, which is why I took her to an empty classroom."

Mr. Greene sighed. "Perhaps you should go see the nurse now."

"Can I please just go home? I'll get my dad to take me to the doctors or something." Bella said softly.

"I can take her home."

Mr. Greene hesitated for a moment. "Fine. But I'm only saying yes because the two of you are consistent in your grades…and attendance."

"Thanks, Sir."

Mr. Greene left and Bella and I went towards the parking lot hand in hand.

Bella and I drove our respective cars back to my place and we ended up watching TV.

Well, we weren't really watching TV but the TV was on while we talked.

Once again Bella's head was on lap. I stroked her hair absentmindedly.

"What we did today was so fun. Thanks, Edward. You always know how to make my day."

"You know it was difficult for me to treat you like that."

"I know. But you have no idea how turned on I was."

I laughed. "I'm glad I pleased you."

"You always please me."

"Maybe next time you can dominate me."

"I always dominate you. You're my slave remember."

I heard a gasped before I heard her voice. "Excuse me!"

Bella quickly sat up and we both turned around to see Esme standing by the doorway.

She was glaring at Bella.

"What the fuck did you just call my son?"