Chapter 46: Shocking Truth

After everything I have been through, I never thought I was going to say this again, but: I'm happy! Actually, I'm the happiest girl in all the worlds. Seriously, I have two good friends who really care for me, a very nice, gentle and handsome boyfriend which I hope I'll marry in some years, and I somehow see this Organization "jungle" as a home. Who cares if I'm a replica? I'm happy the way I am, and that's all that matters. To make things better, Roxas and I are going on a mission together today!

Xion walked into the Grey Area ready for leaving to her mission. She looked for Roxas, but he wasn't there yet, and he didn't show up for breakfast either. The girl shrugged and sat on a couch and started reading a book while she waited for the blonde. Saix noticed her slacking off and approached at her.

-Number XIV, where is Number XIII? –the Luna Diviner asked, Xion took away her eyes from the book and stared at Saix who was staring at her also, well more glaring than staring. The girl glared at him also and answered.

-Is it too hard to call us for our names? –the girl teased. Saix glared at her even more and sighed.

-Xion, where is Roxas? –Saix said trying to sound calm, but he couldn't making Xion smirk in victory.

-I don't know. I guess he overslept. In the mean time, I'm reading a really interesting book so, leave me alone. –the girl replied getting back to her book. Saix stared at the girl for a moment and smirked.

-The main character dies on the end. –he replied getting away from the girl who glared at him.

-Damn it, Saix! –she yelled angrily throwing the book away from her. The girl sighed bored not knowing what to do while waiting for her boyfriend. Getting her feet on the little table in front of her, the girl started remembering the conversation she had with Axel the last day.

Roxas and Izumi were sitting on the floor enthusiastically playing Mario Kart at Xion's room, yelling and glaring at each other every time one of them beat the other. Axel and Xion were on the girl's bed watching and laughing at Roxas and Izumi.

For a moment, Xion got distracted and start thinking on Sora. Deep inside her, she felt guilty because Sora was asleep and he wouldn't be able to wake up thanks to her. Being asleep without being able to wake up is the same thing as being death, did that made her a murderer?

-No…I'm not. –Xion said in a low voice, but not low enough for Axel not to listen

-What?

-Ummm, nothing, nothing! –Xion said nervously not wanting to tell anyone who she sometimes felt while she remembered Sora.

-Come on, you can tell me. –Axel insisted making the girl sigh in defeat. Before talking however, she made sure Roxas wasn't listening; she definitely didn't want him to know about this.

-Axel…is it fair to live at someone else's expense? Sora is technically dead thanks to me. I don't think it's fair for him; he hasn't done anything to deserve it!

-You're right, maybe it's not fair for him, but you don't have anything to do with that. No one can blame you for that! If there is someone to blame, that would be Xemnas.

-Maybe…but still, I'm here enjoying my life with you, having fun with my friends, eating pizza like if there is no tomorrow, and where is him? He is sleeping who knows where, maybe dreaming with his friends. That, if he can remember them... –Xion explained sadly. Axel stared at her understating why she felt that way, scratching the back of his head not knowing what to say to make her feel better.

-Let's talk hypothetically. What are you ready to give in order to wake up Sora? -Axel asked directly surprising Xion with the question. The girl took a few minutes before answering.

-I remember him as a good guy, so maybe I could give…my life? Maybe… –Xion finally said. Axel raised an eyebrow, Xion wasn't sure about her answer and Axel could notice this easily.

- Well, remember that if for some reason you were to disappear, Roxas would need to disappear also in order for Sora to wake up. Remember that he has many of his memories also, not only you.

-Yeah…

-Anyway, it's not your fault he's on that state. You're not responsible for it, so you shouldn't feel bad for him. –Axel advised, Xion smiled and turned to him.

-Yeah, you're right. I would be a fool if I gave my life for someone I don't actually know. Besides, I may not have a wonderful life like other girl of my age, but I'm very happy,. as long as you two are by my side.

-Axel is right. I don't have to feel bad for him; it's not my fault he's on that state. –Xion said aloud, even though no one was near to her. Just after that, Roxas entered the Grey Area making the girl smile.

She got on her feet and ran towards him ready to hug him, but stopped as soon as she saw him. His clothes were wrinkled, and he had a really bad face which reminded Xion of two guys after a whole night of drinking.

-Morning…-Roxas greeted extremely tired making Xion giggle.

-Dear, looks like someone had a hard night…

-Not really. As long as I remember I slept perfectly all night, but for some reason I feel extremely tired. –Roxas replied sitting on the couch. Xion stared at him worriedly and placed her hand on his forehead to check his temperature.

-Are you sure you're not sick?

-I'm not sick, and my temperature is normal. Besides, how are you supposed to feel it if you're wearing gloves?

-Oh. That's right. –Xion realized starting to laugh while taking away her glove and placing again her hand on his forehead.

-Stop it, Xion. I'm just tired. Let's just finish this stupid mission. -Roxas said taking away Xion's hand from his forehead and getting on his feet

-Are you sure you can do your mission?

-Yeah. Let's go. –the boy said opening a dark corridor and stepping in it. The girl sighed and followed his boyfriend.

Roxas and Xion reappeared on a roof from a building on Agrabah. Specially that day, it seemed for Roxas it was hotter than usual which he obviously cursed due to his condition. A few seconds later, Xion appeared as he placed her hood up to protect her from the sun.

-I hate this place; I always end up with a lot of sand on my beautiful hair.

-What do we have to do? I want to be on my bed already…

-Actually, we have to investigate the ruins we found the other day, remember?

-Yeah…I fought a really tough Heartless in that place.

A few minutes later, Roxas and Xion were on the desert ruins not too far from Agrabah. Once there, they started walking and investigating anything that looked suspicious for them. Even though the ruins were fascinating, there was nothing suspicious or that could be useful for the Organization there. After a few hours of searching, Roxas and Xion decided to take a break and sat down next to a statue that gave them enough shadow.

-I think this mission is useless. There is nothing here. –Xion said after drinking water from a bottle. Roxas nodded in agreement.

-You're right. We should go…wait, what's that? Over there? –Roxas said pointing at what seemed a huge tower next to some sand mountains.

-A tower maybe? That looks interesting. Let's go and see. –Xion suggested while Roxas was drinking water from the bottle.

-If we don't have other choice…

Roxas and Xion teleported and reappeared on the feet of the giant tower which had no entrance. They examined the building carefully until Xion spotted there was an entrance very high, and teleported there. Once up there, they entered the tower, there was a lot of dirty and destroyed furniture in it, and two stairs: Ones that lead to the highest area, and others that lead to the lowest part.

-Which way should we go? –Roxas said, Xion went outside and gulped noticing how high they were and got back into the building

-You know I hate high places and I think we're high enough. Let's go down instead, yes? –Xion pleaded making Roxas laugh a little as they started walking down.

As they descended, the place started to get darker and darker, which was another thing Xion was scared of, so she decided to create a small ball made of light to illuminate their way down. After some minutes descending, Roxas started to feel dizzy and sat on the stairs just in case he fell unconscious.

-Roxas, are you ok? Is it because of the memories? –Xion asked pretty concerned for the boy

-No…I feel…weak. –the boy replied as his vision started to blur and he listened to Xion's voice each time was farther. Just after that, a huge roar was heard from the bottom making an echo in the whole tower.

-What was that!? –Xion said scared as the tower started to shake followed by other roar. Xion feeling really scared, hugged Roxas who was practically unconscious. The girl gulped and illuminated the bottom of the tower to see what was going on and as soon as she did a huge Heartless scared her off roaring at her again.

The Heartless had the form of a giant flying dragon and his eyes were scary and yellow. Xion started trembling from fear hugging Roxas who still didn't know what was going on. The girl gulped, scared but knowing she had to fight summoned hey Keyblade and got in front of the beast.

-All right, give me your best shot! –the girl said aiming at the Heartless with her Keyblade. The dragon just stared at her for a few seconds and roared again.

Xion got terrified because of this, grabbed Roxas and carried him on her back and started running up escaping from the monster, feeling incredibly strong because she was able to hold the boy's weight and still run at a considerable speed. She turned back and noticed the beast was following her at an incredible speed also making her run faster. Xion decided to use her wind magic to jump higher so that she could get up faster.

She arrived at the entrance of the cave and was about to exit the tower when she remembered they were on a real high place, the girl fell to the floor panting as the dragon flew from behind her and grabbed her with its claws.

-Xion…what's going on? –Roxas said as his dizziness went away.

Xion couldn't answer because she was too scared because the Heartless was flying higher and higher. Roxas gasped when he realized how high they were. The blonde summoned his Keyblade ready to hit the dragon, but Xion grabbed her Keyblade so that he couldn't hit the monster.

-Xion! What are you doing? –Roxas shouted angrily as tears from fear start falling from the girl's eyes

-WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU'RE GOING TO GET US KILLED. –the girl shouted back.

Roxas shook his head ignoring the girl and once again tried hitting the Heartless. After a few blows the monster growled from pain and released them from a really high place. As the two teens were falling at a really high speed, Xion managed to hug Roxas and start hitting his chest with her hands.

-YOU'RE A FOOL! –Xion shouted as loud as she could at Roxas's face.

The blonde knowing that the girl wouldn't react at time to save their lives decided to hold her and place her on his back as they were getting near to the floor. Just as they were about to land to a sure death, Roxas used his wind magic in the floor to reduce their speed and they fell safely on the soft but yet hot sand.

-We made it… -Roxas said panting, for some reason that little use of magic weakened him as his vision started once again to blur.

-I…am…alive. –the girl said panting heavily as the monster started to fly at a high speed at their direction. The girl managed to react quickly and dodged the monster who tried to catch the girl with its jaws landing in the sand.

The girl used this chance and summoned her Keyblade and started hitting the Heartless with it. The monster reacted and once again tried to bite the girl, but she dodged the attack. The dragon started flying in circles around Xion, and then tried to catch her with its claws, but this time Xion was prepared and defended herself in a shield made of fire severely hurting the monster. Xion was about to hit the Heartless once again but it used its tail to hit the girl and throw her into the sand.

As the girl was stunned on the sand the monster used the chance to crush her and try to bury her into the sand. The girl growled not only because of the pain, but also because of the hot sand in which her body was trying to get buried. Xion tried to fight back, but it wasn't easy for her in that condition, fortunately for her Roxas came to her aid and hit the monster with a strong hit on the head releasing her.

-Are you ok? –Roxas said helping her to get on her feet

-Yeah…I guess… -Xion said still stunned for everything. They both stared at the monster that apparently was unconscious. Not wanting to take any risk, this time Xion used her Keyblade and then her air-light slashes to hit the monster who quickly was defeated.

-It's over… -Roxas said relieved, but still not feeling well. Xion noticed this instantly and got next to him. She decided enough risk was for him to go to this mission on that state and teleported back to the castle.

As soon as they arrived, Roxas had a short shower and went to his room to rest. Xion also had a short shower and then to Roxas's room to take care of him while he was asleep. While the boy was sleeping, Xion was once again reading the book Saix ruined for her. A few hours later, Axel arrived worried for his friends.

-So…what happened? –Axel asked making the girl sigh

-Well, we were attacked by a monster twice our size and we nearly died. Same as always. –the girl joked making Axel laugh

-And Roxas…

-I don't know what's wrong with him. He said he's been feeling weak since the morning. He also said that he didn't rest anything in all night. –Xion explained. Axel stared at her cautiously making her feel uncomfortable

-And how are you feeling?

-Me? I'm perfectly fine. Actually, I feel better than any other day, so refreshed and strong.

-That's what I feared. –Axel said closing his eyes. Xion got mad when she heard Axel's words

-Excuse me?

-This is happening because you're borrowing a little more power than you ought to be. –Axel explained, but his explanation just confused even more Xion

-What!? –the girl said clearly confused. For some reason, this irritated Axel

-What's wrong? Did they forget to build you with common sense? –Xion gasped in surprise and pain as her eyes widened. Axel gasped also realizing what he just said and as he saw the pain on the girl's eyes.

-Axel…-she muttered with pain lowering her head and staring at the floor.

-Xion…I'm sorry. I didn't mean… -Axel tried to apologized, but was interrupted by the girl

-It's ok, Axel. You only said what you really think about me. What's happening to Roxas? –Axel was about to reply the girl's previous words, but her sad look on her sapphire eyes made him stop.

-Look, you know you were created to duplicate Roxas's power, right? If he's getting weaker and you're getting stronger…well, that means you're borrowing a little more than you ought to be. –Axel explained. Xion stared at him surprised.

She always thought she was built so that they could have two Keyblade wielders between them, but she never imagined she was just a part of the plan so that Roxas could get even stronger.

Just now she started to remember Xemnas's words and understand them completely. If she were to disappear, Roxas would inherit all her power, and maybe even the Keyblade. But that was not the worse, she realized now that not only her existence was preventing Sora from waking up, but also there would be times were it will affect Roxas. The girl bit her lip starting to feel nervous and feeling a lot of doubts on her head again.

-That means…this will keep happening? –the girl asked with fear as Axel nodded.

-Actually, I'm surprised that this is the first time it happens. –Axel said sincerely.

Xion started remembering even more, the days were she still didn't know Axel. Maybe the reason Roxas fell unconscious for so many days was also because of her, those were the days she learned she could also wield the Keyblade. And what will happen if things started to get worse? If because of her Roxas fell unconscious on a dangerous mission and gets killed because of her?

-Xion…I'm sorry. I didn't want to say that. –Axel apologized again, but Xion ignored him

-Why…why is this happening to me? –the girl said closing her eyes and running away from Axel. The girl listened to the pyro's voice calling her back, but she didn't even dared to look back. She wanted to be alone.

As she ran, she closed her eyes trying to get out of a nightmare, but all she gained were the memories from Sora and the girl with red hair who looked so much like her. She opened her eyes again while shaking her head trying to erase those memories who didn't belong to her from her mind.

-Why? Why is this happening to me? Just when…I thought things were going to be…better. –the girl said to herself as tears fell from her eyes.


Well, just when everyone thought things were finally starting to get better, Xion starts to get doubts again. What will happen in the next chapter? Stay tuned in order to find out!

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