Chapter 47: Doubts

Xion was sitting on her bed curled up making of her body a little ball, while her head was resting on her arms. It had been a few hours since her "discussion" with Axel. She had already decided to stay in the Organization, even if that meant Sora wouldn't be able to wake up. But if her only existence was affecting and risking Roxas's life, things were different. She wouldn't forgive herself is something were to happen to him because of her.

The sudden sound of a knock on her door startled her. The girl raised her head staring at the door doubting if she should open or not. A few seconds later someone knocked her door once again. With a sigh she got on her feet and walked to her door. Before opening, she cleaned her eyes, hoping that no one will find out she has been crying a lot recently.

-Xion…you're awake? –she heard Roxas's voice from the other side of door. She stayed there as once again the doubts struggle her. The girl gulped before opening the door. She saw how Roxas was leaving; maybe thinking she was already asleep.

-Roxas. –the girl called him with a small smile. Roxas could barely hear her voice, but was enough for him to turn around and stare at the girl.

-Oh, I thought you were already sleeping.

-Come in. –the girl said turning around and walking back into the darkness of her room.

As Roxas was walking into her room, she turned on the light. He thought it was weird for her to be in complete darkness, especially because she was so afraid of it. Roxas gasped and felt a pain on his chest when he noticed the state of the girl: Her eyelashes were wet and her eyes were red and seemed really tired.

-Xion…-the boy muttered walking to her. Xion knowing Roxas had already find out she was crying stopped holding her tears and burst into tears as she hugged Roxas as strong as she could.

It took a few moments for the boy to react and hug the girl as she was crying on her chest. Roxas felt the pain on his chest again knowing that he was the reason the girl he loved so much was crying like maybe she had ever done. The boy closed his eyes trying to think on a way for the girl to stop crying, but maybe that was impossible at that point.

Just after he woke up, Axel told him the reason he had been feeling weak the whole day, he didn't believed him at first, but after thinking it slowly, he realized that Axel's words made sense. After the red haired told him Xion's reaction after finding out about the same thing, he didn't doubt to come and talk to the girl. And now, as he was standing there, hugging and trying to comfort her, he knew he made the right choice.

After some minutes, Roxas and Xion sat on the bed and started talking about what had happened that day. Roxas explained the girl he already knew the reason of his weakness and that he didn't blame her for that, after all, it wasn't her fault. Xion smiled after hearing the boy's words, he surely was too nice for his own good.

Roxas was ready to live getting weak every now and then as long as the girl always remained by his side. Xion had always thought Roxas was a real good person. He had already helped her in lot of tights situations, but this time, this time she wouldn't let him risk his life for her. She was now seriously thinking on leaving the Organization again, but this time she would do it so that she could go back to Sora. That way, Roxas wouldn't have to suffer anymore because of her.

-Roxas…remember I told you things were never going to be the same? Well, I was right. –Xion said suddenly with a weak smile on her lips. Roxas stared at her for a few seconds and sighed.

-We're going to get through this. Don't worry.

-How can you even say that? Roxas, maybe you do not understand this: If you hadn't wake up at the moment that "dragon" had us on its claws at that height, we would probably be death by now. What will happen if you start feeling dizzy on a mission and you're alone?

-I'll be ok, Xion. I'm sure if we tell the Vexen replica about this, they'll find out a solution. That's what we're going to do tomorrow, understood? –the boy replied with a smile.

Xion blinked for a few seconds staring in disbelief at the guy, expecting him to be joking. The girl sighed resigned when Roxas stared at her with a "What's wrong?" face. Obviously, Roxas wasn't the smartest guy.

-Roxas, you're completely missing the point. –Xion said while she shook her head

-What?

-Roxas, I was created to duplicate all your powers, and that includes the Keyblade.

-I know.

-Well, if I'm taking energy from you, that means that if by some reason you were to die, all your power will be transferred to me and vice versa. And that is exactly what Organization XIII is waiting for. In other words, they're waiting that one of us absorbs the other. –Xion explained as she felt more tears coming from her eyes.

That was their sad reality. In the end, the two teens who loved each other had their destiny already decided. In order for one to survive, the other would have to give his or her life, and by any means she was going to let Roxas be the one to sacrifice for her. She had already been a hassle for both Roxas and Axel, but that was not going to happen again.

Roxas stayed in silence processing the girl's words. Now he started to understand why Xion was so worried. He didn't know now what to say to make her feel better, maybe because he himself didn't know what to think to make himself feel better. How did things got so complicated for them?

-So…what do you think we should do? –Roxas said staring at the girl's eyes.

-Want to know what I think? I think you will all be better without me. All I do is to cause problems to you and Axel. I'm sick of being a hassle. –Xion said not daring to see at the boy's eyes. Roxas placed his hand on the girl's cheek making her finally stare at his eyes.

-You're not a hassle, and you're wrong. I don't know what would have happened if you hadn't been by my side all this time. –Roxas said caressing the girl's cheek. Xion lowered her head staring at her bed not sure about the blonde's words.

-Really? Tell me what have I done for you?

-You really want me to tell you? Well, let's see: When I fell into a comma, you brought me those beautiful shells, one for everyday I was asleep. Also, on our firsts missions, you saved me from that giant Heartless. ALSO, you saved my butt from Saix the day you woke up from your comma. AND ALSO...

Roxas continued telling Xion about all the times she had helped him. The girl couldn't help but to smile at every story. She hadn't realized before, but the two of them had a lot of adventures together. They were always doing something funny, or getting into some trouble for which Saix will scold them later.

-Oh, and remember when those stupid Dusks used to draw in my face? You scolded them and for some reason they obeyed you. –Roxas reminded. Xion laughed when she remembered all the pictures the Dusks used to draw on Roxas's face for the first time on that night. The girl got closer to the boy's face and kissed him.

-Roxas, thank you for everything. You always make me smile and laugh when I need it. –the girl said caressing the boy's face with the sweetest of her smiles.

-Whenever you need it, Xion. It's late now, you should get some sleep. –the boy said kissing the girl's forehead making her giggle. The boy got on his feet to let the girl get some sleep, but she stopped him grabbing his head.

-Wait, could you stay with me tonight?

-Of course, Xion.

The next day, Roxas and Xion had a really difficult mission on Neverland. They had to defeat a giant flying Heartless called "Ruler of the Sky". Even though this monster could fly just like the one they had fought on Agrabah, Xion wasn't that scared this time because she could at least fly and knew she wouldn't fall off.

On the other side, once again Roxas felt weak and dizzy during the entire mission, but he tried not to make it so obvious so that Xion wouldn't be worried. Fortunately for him, the girl didn't find out.

After a hard battle fighting the Heartless, they somehow managed to defeat it making it fall into a ship not to far from them. The two teens high fived on victory when they saw the heart coming out of the defeated monster. After a short rest, they went back to Twilight Town to have ice cream with Axel who was already waiting for them.

-Hey lovebirds, I thought you weren't coming today. –Axel greeted with a smile. Roxas and Xion greeted him also with a smile.

-Hey Axel, how was your mission? –Xion asked while sitting on her usual spot.

-It was strangely easy. How was yours?

-It was hard, but we managed to do it. What's better is that Roxas has with a lot of energy and strong, right Roxas? –the girl turned to him with a smile.

-What!? Oh…yeah. I've been feeling really good today. –Roxas lied trying not to worry his friends. The girl smiled pleased with his answer and gave a bite to her ice cream.

The trio stayed there happily talking and joking about absurd things. Axel was happy to find out Xion was in a good mood. He really thought the girl wasn't going to show up today after what happened yesterday, but it seemed Roxas had talked with her and convinced her everything that happened to him wasn't her fault. After some minutes, Roxas needed to go to the bathroom and he left for a few minutes.

Just after Roxas left, Xion changed her smile and sighed relieved, like waiting for Roxas to leave. Axel blinked a few times and stared at the girl confused by her reaction. The girl turned to him and a weak smile appeared on her lips.

-You're not going to ask? –Xion said noticing Axel's long silence. The pyro scratched the back of his head and asked the obvious question.

-You wanted Roxas to leave, why?

-Because I've been lying. Axel, I don't know what to do. –Xion said staring at the people down on the street. Axel nodded understanding the girl's feelings. In the end he was right, Xion was thinking on the conversation she had with him yesterday.

-I don't know Xion. You have to do what you think is better for everyone. What your heart tells you to do. –Axel advised placing a hand on her shoulder.

-Well, if I had to do what's better for everyone, I should go back to Sora. That would help him to awake and I wouldn't hurt Roxas anymore.

-But… -Axel added knowing something else was troubling the girl

-…But if I do that, I would only do what the Organization planned. If I were to disappear, Roxas would get stronger and that's exactly what the Organization wants to.

-I know. Xemnas is only waiting that one of you absorbs the other. But why does it bother you if Roxas gets stronger? Even if that's what Organization XIII wants, it wouldn't be that bad. And think about it, if you go back to Sora, Roxas would definitely betray the organization, and I would too.

-You too? –Xion gasped surprised yet happy

- Xion, I don't want you to go. You're my best friend; remember your dream of being together the three of us for the rest of our lives? Well, that now is my dream too. –Axel said staring at directly at Xion's blue eyes. The girl smiled and hugged him. Axel wasn't too used to the Xion's ways of showing affection, but always she hugged him, he felt the need to hug her back.

-Then…what should I do? –the girl said pressing her face stronger to Axel's chest. The pyro sighed and took away Xion from him grabbing her from the arms and making sure she was staring at his eyes.

-Xion, this is a decision you have to take by yourself. No one can decide for you. But I want to tell you, whatever your decision, you can count on me. –Axel said sincerely. Xion stared at him for a few seconds and then smiled, strangely Axel understood her more than Roxas did.

-Thank you, Axel. You're the best. –the girl said getting on her feet and opening a dark corridor. Axel stared at her in confusion

-Where are you going?

-I need to be alone. I need some time for thinking and clear my mind. Tell Roxas I had something important to do. –Xion said stepping into the dark corridor and disappearing in it.

Axel sighed and finished his ice cream. Even if he didn't show it, he was really worried for Xion. But he couldn't help her in this decision, for once; she had to do what she thought it was better. He could only hope she decided wrong, so that they could all stay together forever.

-Where's Xion? –Roxas voice snapped him out of his thoughts.

-Oh, she said she had something to do and went back. –Axel explained making Roxas nod

-Oh…

Meanwhile at The World That Never Was, Xion not wanting to be near anyone decided to go to the Dark City, sitting on the top of Memory Skyscraper. No one ever went there, so she knew she'll have some time on her own for thinking. She had her hood on so her hair wouldn't get wet by the slight rain.

After a few minutes being there, she suddenly listened to a dark corridor opening on her back. The girl glared at the dark corridor, she wanted to be alone at all cost, and yet she was now being bothered by someone, probably Roxas she thought. However, the girl gasped in surprise when she saw the person who stood out of the dark corridor.

-…Riku. –the girl said after a few seconds.

-Xion, it's been a while. –the boy answered walking to her. The girl lowered her head feeling somehow ashamed of being with him. The boy noticed this and smiled placing a hand on her shoulder. The girl finally stared once again at him.

-Riku, I…I still don't know what to do. I have a lot in my mind right now: Sora, Roxas…

-But if you're here, that means you're thinking exactly about this, right?

-Yeah. You know? I sometimes wonder what will Sora do if he where in my position...Or if he knew MY position right know, what will he choose. –Xion wondered staring at Kingdom Hearts

-If Sora knew your position, he wouldn't let you sacrifice by any chance. He'll prefer that everything stayed the way it is. You staying with your friends, and he staying the way he is now. Asleep. -Riku replied surprising Xion with his answer. It took a few moments for Xion to react.

-He surely is a nice boy then. I wish I could meet him... -the girl replied with a smile

-Well, I was sent here to take you to Sora, but this is what we'll do: I will give you seven more days to take a decision Xion. In seven days, I'll be waiting here for you. If you don't show up, I'll take you back by force. You AND Roxas, you want it or not. –Riku warned opening a dark corridor. Xion smiled when she heard Riku's words.

-Fine, but listen this carefully, Riku. Whatever my decision, I'll come here anyway. But if I decide to stay with my friends, I'm gonna get rid of you once and for all. –Xion warned back with a confident smile on her lips. Riku smirked at her words.

-Just like you did the last time, huh?

-I can defeat you now, Riku. It won't be easy like the last time. –Xion smiled. Riku laughed as he disappeared on the dark corridor. The girl sighed and sat once again where she was before Riku came.