Story No. : 02-SOE-004
Name : What Depression Leads To…
Rating : T (Maybe M for some people…)
Pairing : Soul x Maka
Genre : Angst / Romance
Warning : Depression, violence, suicide.
Description : Sometime after the Kishin Ashura was destroyed, Soul begins to fall into depression. The cause: His one and only meister.
x-X-Beginning of Story-X-x
Soul sat alone on the edge of his bed, thinking about his meister, Maka. What did she do that made Soul feel so threatened by her? What did she do that made Soul feel different about her? What did she do that made Soul have feelings for her?
Then, it hit him.
Maka always considered him as her weapon partner, nothing more, nothing less. And for some reason, Soul hated her for thinking that. If only she knew what Soul was going through…
…But that was the thing, she didn't.
Maka didn't know Soul was suffering from depression. Soul had done his best to keep it a secret from everyone. He kept it a secret from all his friends. He could picture the effects that his depression would have on them. Kid would be mortified, Liz would feel sorry for him, Patti wouldn't understand, Black Star would probably not care, Tsubaki would feel the same way Liz felt, Maka…
…Maka would be crushed. So for those reasons, Soul chose not to reveal the fact that he was depressed to anyone. He had even used some of his pocket money to by anti-depressants, and hide them away in a hiding place that even Maka didn't know about.
"Soul, it's almost time for school." Maka said from the kitchen, through Soul's closed door. He gave one last sigh and popped open the anti-depressant container. He took a single pill, and quickly hid away the rest. Soul unlocked his door, and walked into the living room.
"Soul, hurry up and take a bath!" Maka said, throwing a towel over his head, while she continued working on breakfast.
'Thank god Blair is working, or else this day would turn from uncool into completely chaotic.' Soul thought. He walked into the bathroom.
About five minutes later, Soul walked out of the bathroom in his yellow shirt, jeans, and his favorite black jacket. Maka nodded her approval, and gestured for Soul to sit down. He took a seat opposite of Maka, and quickly ate up his breakfast. Maka finished only five seconds after Soul.
Ready for school, Soul and Maka mounted Soul's bike, and he drove both of them to school.
xXxXx
"Are you okay, Soul?" Maka asked. "You seem awfully quiet."
"Of course I'm alright. Just a little distracted…" Soul said quickly. He didn't want Maka guessing and making assumptions, mainly because they were usually correct. And the last thing he needed was Maka onto his case.
"HELLO, MY SERVANTS!" Black Star yelled, looking down on Maka and Soul as if he were god. A ninja sword in his right hand told them that Tsubaki was in weapon form.
"NOW, BOW DOWN TO ME, MORTALS!" Black Star shouted at the top of his voice, but Soul and Maka only heard it as though it were a whisper. Angered, Black Star jumped down and looked them in the eyes.
"Well, if you're so cocky as to ignore a request from your god, then I guess we're gonna have to duel!" Black Star said. "And when I win, you will have to treat me as your GOD!" Soul and Maka looked at him as if he were crazy. Both of them didn't know what to say. A fight with Black Star? Some might say that Soul and Maka would win. But some would say that Black Star and Tsubaki would win. (A/N: *Cough* BSL *Cough*)
"Black Star! We can't fight our friends!" Tsubaki protested, but a single wavelength from Black Star told her that he didn't want to be talked out of it.
"Fine. If it's a death wish you want, it's a death wish you'll get!" Maka said intimidatingly, as Soul transformed into a dark grey and red scythe with a red eye connecting the scythe blade to the hilt. Maka caught him with her right hand, and gripped him in her usual fighting stance.
"So, you ready to bow down to the great Black Star and beg for your life?" Black Star asked.
"Never." Maka said. By now, almost half the school was watching their fight. Maka and Black Star ignored them, and faced each other. Black Star made the first move.
"Speed Star!" Black Star yelled, moving at incredible speeds in hopes of distracting Maka and creating an opening. Maka dodged Black Star's attack, and brought Soul in a deadly arc similar to the letter U. Black Star did a back flip to avoid it, and landed a couple of feet away from Maka.
"Tsubaki, Enchanted Sword Mode!" Black Star commanded, as Tsubaki transformed into the cursed enchanted sword. "Shadow Star!" Black Star's shadow proceeded to attack Maka, who dodged each of the blows and blocked the few she couldn't.
"Soul, Soul Resonance." Maka commanded simply. This is what Soul had been dreading. During Soul Resonance, thoughts, feelings, and emotions were exchanged. But, Maka would probably not notice. So, Soul obliged.
"Let's go! SOUL RESONANCE!" Both of them shouted, as Maka started sending wavelengths to Soul, who sent them back, stronger than before.
'For Maka, I will win this…' Soul thought. He broke down the emotional walls he had put up to block himself from his feelings. Maka felt herself being filled up with emotions of care, trust, and love. They gave her so much power that she felt like exploding. But instead, she passed them back to Soul, who prepared for the Genie Hunter.
"GENIE HUNTER!" Maka shouted, as Soul glowed with energy, and changed shape. Maka rushed forward, and sliced the air where Black Star previously was. He narrowly avoided, only to be met with Soul. Black Star guarded with Tsubaki, but the force of Soul and Maka's Genie Hunter was so great that Black Star was blasted backwards, where he quickly regained his footing.
"Soul, where did all this power come from?" Maka asked Soul through her wavelength.
"N-nowhere. I just had a lot of power sealed inside." Soul said, frightened that Maka might find out. Black Star charged again, and Maka swung Soul to prevent Black Star from impaling her. He dodged again, and Maka kicked his stomach, and Black Star flew backwards. Then, Maka looked at her scythe with annoyance.
"I don't believe you." Maka said out loud, not bothering to cover her emotions. Soul morphed back into human form, and stared into his meisters beautiful emerald-green eyes. 'Good god, tell him!' Maka screamed to herself, but she couldn't muster the courage to say it. She was biting her tongue, trying to keep herself from blushing, and barely succeeding.
"Soul, you're my weapon partner, and…" Maka began, and seemed to be trying desperately to search for the last words. However, Soul's heart was breaking… badly.
'I'm just her weapon partner? I'm not anyone special to her? I'm not her boyfriend, close friend, or even a friend to her?' Soul said to himself. Before Maka could force out the last words, Soul had already taken off in the direction of their shared apartment.
"COWARD!" Black Star screamed in the distance, but Maka paid no attention to him.
"Soul, wait!" Maka yelled, running after her weapon partner as fast as she could. But, Soul had the advantage of timing and adrenaline.
"See?! Even Maka Albarn FEARS the great BLACK STAR!" Black Star yelled at the top of his voice, pointing his finger to the sky.
"Black Star, we should go after them." Tsubaki said.
"Why?!" Black Star demanded.
"Well, I'm not sure. But I have a bad feeling about this…" Tsubaki said, and the two of them ran after the scythe meister and her weapon.
xXxXx
Soul ran into his bedroom and quickly shut the door. His emotions were a mess and his depression was back, stronger and more powerful than ever. Soul searched frantically under his bed for the loose floorboard where he hid his pills. He found the floorboard, and brought out the container that only had a few anti-depressants left. He opened the lid, and gazed triumphantly at them.
To a normal person, the pills would look like pills. But to Soul, the pills were beautiful. They would give him what he wanted the most…
…A way out.
Soul put the pill jar down onto his desk and wrote a short note. Then, he grabbed the pill jar and emptied the entire contents into his mouth, and swallowed. He seized up, as he could hear the rush of death approaching him, ready to erase him from this world. Soul embraced the feeling, and waited patiently for death to take hold of him.
And then, he fell onto the floor and closed his eyes for the last time.
And only a few seconds later, Maka opened the door quickly, only to discover that she was too late.
"Soul!" Maka screamed, moving to lean at her side. She lifted his head with her arms and began desperately to shake Soul awake, tears streaming down her face.
"Soul… please don't leave me! Please! Soul, I love you!" Maka sobbed. "Please, open your eyes! SOUL!" It only took her a few seconds to know it was futile. Her Soul was gone, and she hadn't even told him her feelings yet. She buried her face into Soul's neck, and remained in that position for over 2 minutes.
Then, Maka's eyes fell onto the note on Soul's desk. She set Soul down gently with trembling hands, and walked over to pick it up. She read it from the top.
To whoever finds this,
My name is Soul Eater Evans. I'm fourteen years old, and I suffer from depression. I suffer it because the one person I love doesn't love me back. And just now, she broke my heart. So, I searched for a way out, and I found one. Suicide isn't cool at all, but it's a way out, and I desperately need one.
And would someone please tell my meister (Maka Albarn) that the person I love is her?
-Soul-
Maka reread the note three times before she had finally understood.
'It's…all my fault.' Maka thought. 'Soul has saved me so many times before, been my weapon and my best friend. And how do I repay him? By breaking his heart…' Her feelings were starting to get more negative by the minute. 'I never even got to tell him that I do love him…' Maka soon realized that there WAS a way.
She could die.
Maka ran into the kitchen, and reached for the sharpest knife in sight. She studied the blade, as it would be her door to Soul. Then, without a second thought, she drove the knife into her stomach.
Maka sank to the ground of her kitchen, clutching where she had stabbed the knife in pain. She left it in, and dabbed her right fingers in blood. Then, she proceeded to write words onto the floor. She smiled as she wrote the last word, and then died peacefully.
xXxXx
Black Star burst into the room, knocking the front door off its hinges, while Tsubaki walked in slowly. The first unusual sight they caught was the open door to Soul's bedroom. Black Star and Tsubaki went inside to investigate, and caught sight of Soul's limp form. Black Star quickly rushed to his side.
"Soul! WAKE UP! YOUR GOD IS HERE!" Black Star yelled, doing his best to shake the albino awake, with no success. Tsubaki gently felt Soul's pulse, and instantly recoiled when she didn't feel anything.
"He's… He's dead." Tsubaki stated, which instantly froze Black Star. He dropped Soul with a face that clearly indicated his complete and total shock. Just then, Tsubaki turned and saw Maka's blood-covered corpse. Her tear-filled eyes widened, and she immediately left Soul's side to check up on her.
Maka's emerald eyes were still open, but they were completely lifeless and dark. Tsubaki did the only thing she could do.
She gently placed her index finger and her thumb on Maka's eyelids, and closed them.
"It…It was suicide…" Tsubaki said sadly. Black Star carried Soul's corpse from his room, and lay him down next to Maka. Then, he joined their hands. Tsubaki looked around, and saw that there were words written in blood on the wall. They read:
I love you Soul, and I'll join you soon.
x-X-End Of Story-X-x
Posting Date: Saturday, 03rd November 2012
Word Count: 2,045(Not counting Description and Author's note)
A/N: I know it's sad and tragic, but that's how I wanted it. Hopefully you liked it, and please don't kill me for killing of Soul and Maka. *Hides under desk in terror*. And I guess now is as good a time as ever to inform you about the Avenger!s. Check out Ali's essay at : www. fanfiction. n*e*t* /topic/119079/72071336/1/Essay. (Remove the * and the spaces)
~Omega02x~
