Story No. : 02-SOE-006

Name: Love Controls All

Rating: T

Pairing: Soul x Maka (This is not a Soul x Jacqueline fanfic, even if the pairing is implied!)

Genre: Angst / Romance

Warning: Attempted Suicide / Violence / Fluff / Self-Harm / Out Of Character

Description: After Maka discovers that Soul and Jacqueline spend a lot of time together, Maka fell into depression. She turned to cutting in order to escape, but things took a turn for the worse when she heard rumors that Soul was actually dating Jacqueline. She didn't know it wasn't true.


x-X-Beginning of Story-X-x

Why?

Why me?

Why am I the one suffering? I should be happy for Soul. He's dating someone who's kind and beautiful. She's better than I am, and Soul deserves the best. He's been through a lot, and I can't help him. Maybe Jackie can succeed where I failed, and bring him happiness. I can't even bring him happiness. All we do is insult each other. I'm useless. I failed to save him. I failed to save him from that kishin. I don't deserve him. He deserves so much more than me.

Maka ran these thoughts over in her head a million times on fast replay. She sat in the bathtub, sobbing hard as she ran the knife over her wrist. Without warning, she dragged the knife across, leaving a very deep and long cut. Maka embraced the feeling of pain, loving what little comfort it provided. She brought the knife across her wrist and cut herself again…

And again…

And again…

By the time Maka was satisfied, there were already five long cuts on her arm. Nobody would notice. Nobody would care that she was cutting. She turned on the bath tap and ran her bleeding arm under the hot water, ignoring the stinging feeling as the water washed over her cuts and cleaned the blood from her arm.

"Maka, what's taking so damn long?" Soul asked from the other side of the bathroom door.

"Just wait a minute, I'm not done!" Maka shouted back, turning off the water and using several plasters as crude stitches. She bandaged up her arm, and quickly got dressed in her usual school uniform and black trench coat. Maka carefully washed away any blood and tidied up, so that Soul wouldn't know that she was cutting. Then, she unlocked the door.

"Finally! What took you so damn long?" Soul asked angrily.

Maka-Chop!

Maka's hard-cover book made contact with Soul's skull, leaving a very large dent in his head.

"That was for disturbing me!" Maka said angrily, walking into the kitchen, leaving the unconscious form of Soul who had a fountain of blood coming out of his head. She grabbed an empty cup and poured herself a glass of milk. She drank it quickly, and decided against having a large breakfast. Maka took out a sandwich and ate it quickly. After the small snack, Maka sat down and waited impatiently for Soul to finish getting ready.

xXxXx

When Soul heard that Maka was out of ear-shot, Soul quickly got to his feet and ran into the bathroom. He locked the door behind him, not wanting Maka to get tired of waiting and decided to come in here and Maka-chop his brains out. He took a quick shower and got changed into his usual yellow shirt, olive green jeans, and favorite black jacket. Then, he unlocked the door and walked into the kitchen.

"Ready to go?" Soul asked.

"I've been ready to go for ten minutes." Maka replied. "You just took so long." Soul shrugged, and both of them walked out of their shared apartment and towards the parking lot in front of the building. Soul mounted his bike and started the engine, while his meister climbed on with him, holding on tightly. Both Soul and Maka ignored the light tints of red in their cheeks, and brushed it off as just a natural reaction.

After only a five-minute drive, Soul and Maka arrived in front of the DWMA, with two familiar faces looking at them.

"Good morning, Maka. Good morning, Soul." Tsubaki said cheerfully.

"Well, Black Star how's the show?" Soul said, fist-bumping his best friend Black Star.

"The show's great, but now we can get the REAL show started!" Black Star said enthusiastically. Both Soul and Black Star went off to go harass some students about how the great Black Star defeated the kishin, and how Soul could just enjoy the show. Both Maka and Tsubaki sighed and sweat-dropped as they saw their partners just annoying some other students. Then, Maka caught sight of Kim and Jacqueline walking into the DWMA, with Soul following them at a distance.

"What are they up to?" Tsubaki said.

"They're probably off to go chat about something." Maka said, doing her best to keep her voice calm and absent of any jealously or anger. However, Tsubaki noticed. "Is something wrong?" She asked.

"No!" Maka said a little too quickly. "Nothing's wrong. It's just that we should get to class." Maka instantly hurried off, leaving behind a very confused Tsubaki. She just sighed, and walked after her friend, being sure to get Black Star away from the other students before hurrying to class.

Something's up… Tsubaki thought. At the time, she didn't know she was right.

xXxXx

"So Soul, what's up?" Jackie asked, curious about what was going on between Maka and her weapon. "Nothing much. Maka's still being very secretive, so I don't really know much about what's going on with her." Soul answered. Jackie looked at him with confused eyes. "What does that mean?" She asked, worried about Soul's meister.

"She's been avoiding me, lately." Soul said. "I don't know what's up, but it can't be good."

"Does she think we're dating?" Jackie asked. "…Possibly." Soul answered.

"Well, then you'd better tell her it's not true. We're just friends." Jacqueline said simply. Soul nodded and walked off. "I'll be sure to tell her." He said.

xXxXx

"Well class, what should we do today?" Professor Stein said. The entire class knew what he was going to say, but they got a very pleasant surprise when he announced something different. "I know. Today will be physical training. This means that two meisters I select will duel each other." The entire class nodded. "Well, who should be chosen...?"

"Pick me! Pick me!" Black Star shouted, jumping up and down in his seat, with Tsubaki sweat-dropping and trying to calm him down. Maka just sighed and waited patiently for Professor Stein's decision.

"Meisters Maka and Black Star will be chosen for today. And their weapons Tsubaki and Soul should come in front as well." Professor Stein announced. Black Star was overjoyed, and quickly rushed to the front of the class, followed by a very reluctant and worried Tsubaki. Maka walked to the front of the class, with Soul following in her wake.

"Face your opponent." Stein said. Both Black Star and Maka faced each other, sparks flying in between their eyes.

"Scared?" Black Star asked. Maka smirked. "You wish." She replied. Both Soul and Tsubaki transformed into their weapon forms, and were caught by their meisters.

Something's wrong, Maka thought. Soul felt… heavy. Normally, Soul was as light as a feather, but now he felt like he was weighing her down, as if he were made out of steel. He wasn't burning her hands like once before, but it was still unpleasant for Maka to hold. She didn't have time to ponder why, as Black Star took no time waiting to attack Maka with Tsubaki in Ninja Sword mode. Maka parried with little difficulty, while Black Star aimed for Maka's head with his right food. Maka blocked with her left arm, but felt something come loose.

Shit, Maka thought. She felt some blood slowly leak out of the cuts she had given herself earlier. "Maka, your arm…" Soul began, but Maka instantly shut him up with a single thought that was transferred over their connected wavelengths. Maka attacked again, recklessly lunging and slashing at Black Star, who dodged and blocked every single attack that Maka dished out. Then, Black Star started attacking again, but each of his attacks was blocked by Maka, who had resorted to relying completely on her weapon to block. Then, the Dark Arm meister did the one thing that would bring him to victory.

"Black Star, Big Wave!" He yelled, hitting Maka's left arm with his soul force. Blood exploded out of the wound as every single cut that Maka had inflicted on herself opened. Combined with the wavelength that Black Star had blasted her with, the pain was enormous. She immediately collapsed, and didn't get up again. Her left arm felt weak and numb, as if her very soul was leaking out along with the blood.

"Black Star! How could you hurt your own friend?" Tsubaki asked in protest. Black Star just stared in shock at his fallen team leader. "I didn't hit her that hard, Tsubaki!" He complained back. In the meantime, students were getting up from their seats, pointing and looking at them in shock.

"Stand back." Professor Stein commanded, as Soul transformed back into human form. "Soul, take Maka down to the infirmary. Black Star, we'll have a talk later." Soul nodded, picking Maka up and supporting her as much as he could. Then, he guided (or rather, carried) his unconscious meister out of the classroom. Black Star just stood there, with a very confused and slightly angry expression etched on his face, with Tsubaki complaining at him through their soul wavelength.

xXxXx

Maka woke up lying in a white bed wearing her green and white striped pajamas, with her left arm bandaged and in a cast. She looked around frantically, searching for Soul, Black Star, Tsubaki, Kid, Liz, Patti, anyone.

"Hello, Maka." The voice of the school nurse Nygus said. Maka looked at the school nurse, which was looking at her intently. Even though half of Nygus' face was covered in bandages, Maka could tell that she was worried. "How long? How long have you been cutting?" She asked.

"About two weeks." Maka said sadly. "At least five cuts a day." Nygus looked at her with growing concern, wondering what could be causing this. Maka was known for being unbreakable, as well as incredibly brave. "What caused it?" Nygus asked. Maka didn't answer.

"Well, you can go home." Nygus said. "But you have to tell someone. If not me, then why not Soul or Tsubaki?" Maka shook her head, indicating that she didn't want anyone to know. The school nurse sighed, and walked off, leaving Maka alone so that she could get changed. She quickly slipped out of her pajamas and put on her usual school outfit. Then, she tucked her pajamas into her school bag and quickly slung it over her shoulder.

She left without another word, trying to get home as quickly as she could.

xXxXx

When at home, Maka threw her bag aside and sat down on the nearest chair, sobbing. How could she have known? Why? Even Soul didn't notice, and we live in the same apartment! But then again, he doesn't care about me at all. All he cares about is Jacqueline, and she's all that matters. Of course, she's better looking than I am. She's also a lot more useful. What am I? I'm nothing. I don't deserve to live… Then it hit Maka on what to do. She was going to die.

She rushed into the bathroom and pulled her knife from its hidden spot in a secret compartment in the bathtub. Maka looked at the knife happily, as she got into the tub. She held the tip of the knife close to her neck, and instantly washed away all thoughts. She was going to do it.

She was going to end her life.

Just then, Soul walked into the bathroom.

"Hey Maka, what are you-?" He cut himself off when he saw his meister about to end her own life. "MAKA!" He yelled at the top of his voice, transforming his arm into a scythe blade.

CLANG!

Soul blocked Maka's neck from her knife, which ricocheted helplessly of her weapon's scythe arm. Maka looked up at her weapon with shock, to see that Soul had the exact same expression on his face. Maka's eyes filled with tears, and she punched Soul directly on the jaw, sending him flying back.

"YOU IDIOT! WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!" Maka asked angrily, while her scythe looked at his meister with shock, massaging his jaw. "Why?" Soul got to his feet, and moved closer to Maka, who backed away. "Because I love you." Maka's eyes widened, since this wasn't the response she had been expecting. Soul closed the gap in between them and enveloped Maka in a tight embrace. Maka hesitated for a moment, before finally giving in and started hugging Soul back.

"But what about Jackie?" Maka asked. Soul let go of Maka, and looked into her eyes. "We were never together. All this time, she's just been helping me better understand girls." Maka was both relieved and worried. Does that mean that all this time, I've been cutting based on a lie? Soul just smiled, and embraced Maka again.

Maybe love does control all, Maka thought.

x-X-End of Story-X-x


Word Count : 2,121

Upload Date : Saturday, 01st December 2012

A/N : I'm SOOOOO sorry for not updating in a while. I've just had other story ideas on my mind. There was one for Minecraft, one for Fallout, another for Soul Eater, and even one for Kingdom Hearts! So, I'm really sorry for not updating. And from the looks of it, you might have to wait awhile for the next update…

~Omega02x~