Chapter 4

Bella's POV

What Had I Over Looked?

The worst pain I'd ever felt physically, would've been when I fell from out that tree in the park. Broke three bones in my arm. That was pain. Hurt. But this…this was something more than just that...

Earlier that Morning

"Bella that last party was amazing," Tina gushed over the phone while I took a gulp of hot coffee. "Ethan and I are really happy and it's all because of your parties, Bells. Thank you."

I smiled and laughed lightly "It was mostly you two clueless beings. Though I am glad that I could help…" I trailed off hearing the garage door opening. "Hey I got to go! Later!"

I ran out to the garage, hoping Renee was awake and ready to give me the details about what happened the last month. What I wasn't hoping for, was my mom smiling, with fear flashing in her eyes, and finding three finger-like bruises on her neck. I lightly touched her arm and she flinched away before noticing me, "Hello, Bella, how were the parties?" She asked faking her cheerful tone and cautioning me with her eyes.

Phil started getting their bags, a scowl written across his face as he watched Renee and I. What's his deal? I thought before answering Renee's question. "Great; Tina and Ethan finally got together as did Ray and Robin. They are so happy!" I said writing a question on her arm I knew she could feel:

What the hell happened to your neck, Renee?

"How was your month-of-bliss, huh?" I asked keeping the charade for Phil's sake.

"Oh my goodness…it was amazing, Bella! You would have loved the blue water. It was so blue it looked clear." She said happily while writing one word across my arm that changed our lives in more than one way:

Phil!

I blinked astonished "Phil?" I mouthed to her. She nodded once. "That's…unexpected," I said to my answer to both replies. I looked up at Phil, was it his intentions to hurt her? What had I over looked? I asked myself. "Phil, did you enjoy yourself?" I asked making conversation while helping Renee out the car.

"Yes. Very much, but I'm glad to be back." He smiled, I think it was supposed to be sweet and innocent , but now it just looked friggin' creepy and evil.

"Same," I agreed pulling Renee into the living room, "its good having you guys back."

The phone rang suddenly, Renee jumped at the simple sound and Phil glared mercifully at her.

I furrowed my eyebrows What the…? "You ok, Renee?" I asked glancing at Phil, who was still glaring at her.

She nodded "Sorry, Bella, just it was…s-so quite before i-it rang," she smiled fakely.

I answered the phone "Hello?" keeping my eyes on Renee. "Hey Ethan, hey Tina, hey Adam," I greeted giggling slightly. "Why are we four waying exactly?"

"We heard you mom was back and wanted to say hey!" Ethan and Adam coursed the 'Hey!' I laughed and put them on speaker. "They wanna speak to you." I whispered to the woman in question.

Her face lit up a little knowing my friends still thought about her. "Hey guys," she cheered happily, momentarily forgetting a glaring Phil right behind her.

While they chatted I decided to help Phil with the bags "I'll help. C'mon," I offered grabbing two extra suitcases and clomping up the stairs with Phil in tow.

"Thanks Bella," he sighed, "would've taken me two trips, thanks."

"The least I could do, you make Renee happy and I'm willing to do anything to make it stay that way. Thanks Phil." I smiled making my way to the door…

Two seconds later, there was a cold sting running from my jaw line to my eye. Tears flooded my eyelids, I gently traced my fingers across my the spot and looked over at Phil. "You are not allowed to call me Phil. I am your father and you will treat me as you treat your father. You will call me just that, too." He ordered smacking me again. My cheek was now a blazed with stings, the tears began to slowly make their way down my cheek and down my neck. Next thing I know, I'm on the floor and staring at Renee's boots."Bella, this is a new rule in the house, what we say goes, you fail to do as we ask or tell you to do, you will get punished, painfully." Renee's voice was not motherly as it had been not even two minutes ago. "Phil will mostly be doing the punishments since I'm still weak from the trip." I could tell she was smiling.

"Let this be loud and clear, Bella," Phil's voice was right next to my ear now. "You will not tell this to anyone that is not in this house right now. If you do…well…I'm sure you don't want to know what I'll do to your precious mother." The threat was promising that's for sure. His voice made an icy chill run down my back. His voice as cold as death.

"Mom!" I choked pass my tears, "What did I do to deserve this?"

She glared at me almost as icily as Phil's' words were. "Are you kidding me? You took everything from me!" she yelled and peered down at me. "Your father and I were just fine till I had you!" she pointed her tan finger in my face, I didn't move from it."It's your fault I had to pack up one day and abandon everything on my own. Your fault why I had to move from my family. And finally I can tell you this: it's your fault me and you father got a divorce. I didn't want a kid, Charlie did."

This revelation came as a huge shock to me. Then again, I also knew I had been the cause. Deep in my mind, I knew I was the reason for all the havoc in my mothers and fathers life. "Mom…I'm sorry, but its not like I was asked to be born!" that earned me a hard kick in the ribs. I cried in pain as more came, soon I was too weak to move or speak.

"Just keep your mouth shut and do what we want you to," Phil griped shoving me, still on the ground, with his foot out their room for their privacy.

I didn't move. Even if I wanted to, I don't think I would've been able to. So I just laid there. Crying, thinking, and finally around 8:46 that night I finally fell asleep, in pain and hurt. Something told me, that this wasn't just a onetime thing!

There's chapter four. Chapter five'll be up soon!

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