that would be nice.

pretending.

it's the one thing i'm good at.

like pretending that he loves me.

josh.

that's his name.

joshua anthony hotz.

swoon.

at least at first.

but i can deal with this, because like i said, i'm good at pretending.

pretending that he listens to me when i say my little things to him.

pretending that every touch, every kiss, every fuck isn't just for show-and-tell.

pretending that i'm not about to do this.

because, you see, i've cryedsobbedshed tears for this boy.

and he doesn't love me.

so i'm leaving.

not like how you think though.

no, i've decided another way out.

i'm losing myself in my pretending.

maybe i'll go to a nice white place where the people tell you you'll be okay, and they keep the doors locked all the time.

or maybe i'll just be lost in myself, holding his hand as he lovingly carresses me.

i'd be okay with either.

because really, either way, there will be no more massie block.

and that -

that would be nice.


okay, so totally random drabble/oneshot. you can hate it. i don't mind. sigh

so this goes out to DemonicMoonBabe, but i promise you, whoever you are, i'll write you a better one soon. i PROMISE!

anyways, review with your thoughts on my werid and terrible drabble/oneshot.

those are much appreciated:)

xoxo, join. me. in. the. thunder