Chapter 15: Letting it out

Disclaimer: Vampire Academy and its related plotline and characters are the property of Richelle Mead.

So here is chapter 15 it isn't terribly exciting, but it does give you a few different points of view. I try not to rewrite scenes all the time in different POV unless I feel it is necessary to know what that person is thinking. Also remember Rose is insecure because in the past Dimitri has professed his love, taken it back, told her they cannot be together etc… so she is a little confused and nervous. Don't worry I like happy endings although how we get there might be a little rough. The next few chapters take place in Russia. I don't know much about it nor do I speak it. Just keep in mind that all discussions between the Belikov's take place in Russian, however they will appear in English because I don't know Russian.

RPOV

"Okay." I agreed. I was about to cry I was so disappointed that he was embarrassed our our relationship and I didn't want to cry in front of him or anyone else so I quickly made my excuses to the rest of the room and was going to follow him up the stairs.

"You're crazy if you think I'm letting you go up the stairs yourself." He said as he scooped me off my feet into his arms bridal style. It felt so right being in his arms. I don't know if he felt the same, but I rested my head in the crook of his neck savoring the scent of his musky aftershave. He carried me up the stairs and we stopped at the room at the very end of the hall. He opened the door easily and carried me inside. The room was dimly lit by a small lamp on a bedside table. There was a double bed, a dresser an armchair, and a book case that was filled with western novels. This must have been Dimitri's room when he lived here. He sat me down on the bed.

I had always liked being in his room at the academy. It was decorated much the same as it was here, just the bare essentials. Not that I'd done anything with my room at the academy.

I was so lost in thought that I didn't notice that he was staring at me.

"What?" I asked trying to be non-chalant.

"Do you want to talk about anything?" he asked kindly.
I didn't know if he was talking about the occurances of the past week or if he meant us.

Either way I wasn't ready to talk. The torture I'd gone through was too painful to relive right now and if he was going to end things with me I'd rather not know about it just yet.

"Nope." I said fixing my eyes on the view out the small window. The sun was going to set soon and I could see Abe's guardians keeping watch over the house. I felt safer that they were out there. I shouldn't feel afraid. I'm going to be a guardian in less than three months. I shouldn't be afraid. But I was.

"Rose?" said Dimitri taking my hand in his.

"Yea?" I said snapping back into the present. "Where were you just now?" he asked still looking at me with concern. I didn't meet his gaze. I didn't want to tell him how terrified I was. He'd definatley be embarrassed that I was acting like a child if I told him that.

"Just tired." I lied. I was a little tired, but I didn't want him to keep interrogating me.

"Rose you know I can tell when you're lying." He said.

I sighed.

"I know you're not ready to talk, but when you are. I am here to listen." He said sounding more like my mentor than my lover at this point.

"Thanks Comrade. I'll let you know I said before lying down with my back facing him.

I thought he'd leave at this point so I was surprised when I felt the bed dip under his weight as he lay down next to me. He pulled me flush against him and wrapped his arms protectively around me.

"It's okay to let it out Roza." He whispered against my neck.

No sooner had he said that then the dam broke and the sobs wracked through my body. I cried and cried I didn't know how long we lay there. I didn't say anything, but he kept whispering softly in Russian to me and stroking my hair. It was oddly comforting. I must have cried myself to sleep because the next thing I knew I was waking up to Adrian's voice. I rolled over. Dimitri was gone.

"Hey there Little Dhampir." Said Adrian with a goofy smile on his face.

"I'm glad to see you in person this time."

I launched myself into his open arms. "So am I." I cried.
"Thank you so much for being there for me when I needed you. Thanks for not giving up on me."

"I would never give up on you Little Dhampir." He said his voice thick with emotion.

"I can't live in a world without the bad ass warrior Rose Hathaway to keep me in line." He teased.

I looked him over. His hair was a mess there were dark circles under his eyes and it looked like he'd slept in his clothes.

"Have you fed recently?" I asked.

"That's not important." He replied.

"Have Lissa and Christian?"

"Shh, Rose stop worrying about everyone else and just take care of yourself for once. We'll all be alright."

"Adrian, I meant what I said."

"What is it you said Little Dhampir?" he asked

"I love you." I said kissing him softly.

"I love you too Rose." He said hugging me tighter.

"Thanks for healing me."

"Lissa did all the heavy lifting I was just there for backup he said humbly."

"No I felt what you did and saw how you looked after." I said.

"Thank you." I said again.

"Anything for you. Little Dhampir now let's get you downstairs for dinner. You must be starving. Olena Belikova has been slaving away down there. It's not easy to make dinner for 14 on short notice." He laughed.

"Is Abe still here?" I asked.

"Yes he is. Why?"

" I just wanted to make sure he didn't leave before I could thank him." I lied.

I didn't know if he wanted it to be public knowledge that he was my father, but I also didn't want him to leave without at least getting his phone number if he'd let me have it.

DPOV

I carried Roza up to my room glad to be away from the prying eyes of my family. They were wonderful and I loved them a lot and I knew that they would love Roza as well, but she was the very first girl I'd ever had to worry about introducing to my family and I was nervous. They were very nosy and I knew that they were lying in wait to pounce on her for information about us the second she was feeling better.

I lay her down gently on the bed. The bed that belonged to me when I lived here. She was staring out the window her eyes were vaccant. She had a similar expression after she'd been rescued in Spokane. One could only speculate how much trauma her psyche could handle before she shut down completely. I wondered idly what she was thinking about. A lot had happened this past week and I knew it would take a while for her to readjust if she even could. The Strigoi had inflicted so much torture on her and there had been nothing I could do about it. I hated feeling so powerless. I was confident that my Roza was strong and that she would overcome this as she had in the recent past. She had made it out of this alive when no one else would have. I wasn't even sure I would have.

She was tough and that was what I loved about her. I asked her if she wanted to talk about anything, but as per usual she said she was fine. I of course knew differently, but I wasn't going to her for information before she was ready. I just let her know that when the time came I would be there for her to listen.

She lay down facing away from me. I knew she was hurting and I wanted so badly to comfort her and this house was the one place where I never had to hide from anyone. I lay down behind her and pulled her body against mine. I wrapped my arms around her tightly.

"It's okay to let it out Roza." I said and it was as if she were waiting for my permission before she broke down into sobs. I held her close and whispered in her ear in Russian.

"I love you Roza. No one will every capture my heart the way you have. You're my everything. I could never live without you. I will never leave you. You're the only one I'll ever love."

After a while her sobs quieted and her breathing evened out. I knew she'd fallen asleep. I covered her gently with the blankets and slipped out of the room.

I walked downstairs and it was quite a crazy scene before my eyes. My sisters Viktoria and Sonya were chatting lightly with Adrian, Lissa and Christian while Abe and Janine were having what looked like a tense discussion on the other side of the room. One minute they looked almost amicable and the next it seemed like they wanted to murder each other. I'd have to figure out what was going on there later. I really didn't like Abe nor did I like the thought of him hanging around Rose.

As I walked into the kitchen I could smell that my mother had been cooking. She and Karolina my eldest sister seemed to have things under control.

"Is there anything I can do Mama?" I asked.

"No everything is under control in here Dimka. You could get down the plates from the shelf if you want." She said.

"Of course."

I went about getting down the plates and thought about how many we would need. There were 14 of us including Abe Mazur's guardians. I didn't expect that they'd actually come inside to eat, but you never know. I was still puzzled as to why he was still here and what his relationship with Janine Hathaway was. I got out napkins and silverware and some bowls as well.

"How is Rose?" asked my mother with concern.

"She's coping as well as to be expected." I replied.

" Oh Dimka she is everything I've ever hoped you would find." She said overjoyed as she past me on her way to the sink.

I Beamed. "Thanks Mama. That means a lot to me."

"How is her mother dealing with you two being together? She is underage is she not?"

I had been hoping to avoid explanation.

"She is." I replied. "Guardian Hathaway was not too happy with me at first, but she has accepted us." I said warily.

"That's wonderful Dimka. Rose is so perfect for you. Age is just a number." She said.

"Here hold this." She said handing me a large platter while she took the
Pelmeni out of the pan and put them onto the platter. She then went to the oven and pulled out the Kholodets one of my favorites a pork dish and put that onto another platter. She had gone all out in just the few short hours I'd been upstairs with Rose.

"Karolina is the Cabbage done?" she asked.

"Yes Mama. I'm just getting the bread out as well."

"Wow I wish Dimka would come home more often Mama almost never makes kvashnya." Exclaimed Viktoria as she entered the kitchen. She was my youngest sister and I hadn't seen here since she was eleven.

"Come here you little brat you." I said scooping her off the ground and twirling her around in a circle.

She squealed and laughed as I tickled her to death like I used to when she was a kid.

"Dimka put me down." She screamed between laughs.
"I've really missed you kid." I told her before pulling her into a giant bear hug.

"Then next time don't wait five years to visit." She said punching me in the arm. Of course it didn't hurt, but I feigned a slight ouch to make her feel good.

"So I can see Rose and I will be fast friends." She said with a gleam in her eyes.

I laughed. They were so similar they would get along thick as thieves. They could do some major damage if left alone.

"I'm sure you will." I commented sneaking a quick taste of my mother's bread.

"Dimka! Put that down." Scolded my mother slapping my hand away from the bread. Even at the age of twenty-four she could still make me feel like I was ten years old again.

It felt so good to be with family. I hadn't felt this much at peace in a long time.

Please Review I am hoping to hit one hundred this chapter!! Also, do you think there's going to be Abe drama or something going on between Rose and Adrian???