Okay, I have kept my promise... in turn this chapter is not as long as I like but... oh well I still think it will suit your fancy. I hope u don't murder my story... soo reviews r always welcome. Any and All request and suggestions r welcome (u know as long as u aren't like "Have a giant sponge bob crazed squirlle kill everyone!" of corse)

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I don't want to feel this way...I don't want to live without you.

No, Seth please don't! I kick myself for not just saying it. I couldn't though. I could never commit to something like that!

I start to phase and can feel the heat consuming me but I stop before I finish the change.

"To be hurt. To feel lost." I pat my pockets franticly searching for my phone. Only one person has that ring tone. I finally find my phone and fish it out of my back pocket as quickly as I can and I press talk. I gasp as I hear his voice.

"I'm sorry." He says in a sad tone.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" I ask and then regret it as soon as I do.

"What? It's okay if you run away but not if I do?" His voice rises.

His tone upsets me and I yell back, "It wasn't what you thought! You were wrong!"

"What do you mean?!" His tone drops.

"Seth I can't- You know I can't- Three words!- I haven't even told my mom that in five years!" I yell into the phone.

"What?!"

"You know I can't say it. I don't- I'm not like you. I can't just tell people how I feel. I'm terrified of it. It's not even like commitment problems it's fear. Absolute fear." I can feel myself shaking. "Seth, I didn't say anything because I couldn't." He says nothing. I stop shaking and wipe the tears from my eyes. I hang up so he doesn't hear the gasping sobs.


"Kait?" I hear Seth call from behind me. I'm curled up in a ball on the ground feeling empty. "Kaitlyn. Are you… okay?" He sounds scared but I can't bring myself to turn around. I feel if I do that I might just fall to pieces.

"No," I say and some how find the strength to sit up. "When you ran, I- I felt so- so… lost."

"I'm sorry." He gets on his knees and speaks to me softly. "I have never wanted to hurt you."

"I don't want to be the person left with the broken heart. I don't want you to ever leave me- I- I-"

"I know. I'm never going to leave you." He tells me. "You can trust me. You can tell me exactly how you feel… when your ready. I promise you forever." He gives a small smile.

I feel weak but hold his gaze, "Seth, you understand that I'm no good for you, right?" I ask not wanting to hear the answer. If he agrees, I can't open myself up just to be hurt. That's why I don't admit to my feeling- all they do it hurt you.

"You're wrong." He says seriously, "Don't ever say that again… please?" He is quite for a moment then, "Let me love you."

"You can't." I tell him

"I can." He disagrees.

"I can't." I tell him.

"You can." he counters

"I think you might be wrong." I say quitely

"Let me love you." he begs

We stare at each other for a long time. He's right. I feel a pull in my chest. His eyes search mine looking for something. I stare back. My eyes slowly drift down toward his lips. My own quiver with longing. I pull back and Seth moves forward. He's not letting me get away this time. My back is against a tree and there is no where for me to run to.

"Don't run." He tells me with so much longing in his voice. My breath catches and I lean back against the tree. He moves so that his hands are on both sides of my middle and his face is just above mine. "Please." He wills me to stay.

"Your right." I tell him and close the gap between us.

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