Men are dogs.

What am I doing?! I yell at myself.

I'm in Seth's arms. Curled up in his… bed. I look down- THANK GOD! I still have my pants and shoes and stuff on. But what the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here!

"Your up." Seth breaths in my ear.

I get chill bumps. Dammit. "Seth… what happened last night?" I ask him trying not to sound as terrified as I feel.

"I'm not sure…" He smiles, "But you finally let me kiss you." His grin widens.

"I did?" I ask.

"And you joined the pack." He states with a wider grin.

"Oh. My. God." I say slowly, "You did this just so I would join the pack?! I can't! God, I have to be there for Bri! I have to be there when she phases!"

"NO! God, no! No, Kait, I love you." He rubs the tears from my cheek.

"Yes. Of coarse. Why wouldn't I?"

"Because I'm no good for you. I'm broken. Just the way Shaun left me."

Seth flinches at the name Shaun. "No, your perfect for me." He smiles.

"You can't fix me." I tell him.

"I don't need to. Your perfect."

Then his grin vanishes, "What do you mean 'I need to be there when she phases'?"

"Bri? She's going to phase soon. I can smell it on her. She smells like wolf lately." I say. Bri is my sister. She was born the month after dad… died. She hasn't phases yet. But she's going to.

"What do you mean? You sure it's not just all the wolves she hangs out with?"

"What do you mean all the wolves? She only hangs out with me."

"And me, and Collin, and Paul-"

"PAUL! My little sister has been hanging out with PAUL?!" I scream.

"Shhh," He cradles me in his arms, "I thought you knew."

"Bri is the chick Paul has been hanging out with?!" My voice rises again and I pull away from him. "I have to go- God that boy is going to get a piece of my mind!" I jump of Seth's bed. I knew I shouldn't have trusted him. All guys are the same. They're better to be held at a distance. Once you open up to them-

"Don't leave." Seth whines.

"Seth…" I start, "I knew I shouldn't have given in." I shake my head and leave him sitting in his bed with a shocked look.

"Bri…" I walk into the house feeling odd. I'd spent the night at a guys house… again. Last time I did that I came home with a broken heart and a phobia of getting close to anyone. One year ago. It was harmless, or so I thought. It was my sweet sixteen and I almost ruined my life. I wonder why the pack didn't kill me for doing something so stupid. I was stupid, alone, and young.

"Bri!" I yell trying to distract myself. I won't let my younger sister do the same thing as me. I won't let her go down that road. And being with Paul is just the first turn on that road.

I run up to her room and push the door open. Thank God! She's alone. "What, Kait?" She ask me.

"What's up?" I ask. Man, Kait. For someone so smart that was a really stupid thing to say.

"Nothing- hey, weren't you wearing that yesterday? Come to think of it, were did you run off to yesterday?" She spins around in her chair to face me.

"I'm seventeen. It doesn't matter."

She raises her eyebrows, "Where were you?" She ask.

"I was with Seth okay! But that's not what I came to talk to you about. You can't see Paul anymore."

"You and Seth?" She raises her eyebrows up and down.

"It wasn't like that!"

"Did you profess your undying love to him?"

"No! I don't love him! He's just a guy- just like the rest of them!"

"So you just sleep with anyone then?"

"I. Did. Not. Sleep. With. Seth!"

"Then what were you doing… all night… with Seth… Alone?"

I throw my head into my hands. "I did not have sex with Seth. I sleep there yes. With him yes. But I didn't not hook up with Seth last night!" I scream.

"OKAY! Jezz…" She mumbles, "And what do you mean I can't see Paul any more? We're just friends. And there is kinda an age difference." She says like it's oh so obvious.

"Just, stay away from him. Okay?" I don't want my sister hanging out with hormone crazy, angry, lonely, male wolves.

"No, and actually were going to the movies tonight. Maybe you and Seth could come." She says and turns back to the computer.

To be hurt. To feel lost-

"That's Seth!" Bri says.

"Oh, I'm soooo going to beast you when you phase." I mumble.

To be left out in the dark.

"Hello?" I say even though I don't really want to talk to him. But at the same time I do. Something deep inside wants to be back in that bed with him.

"Kait, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. Can you please come back?"

"Why so you can have another shot at getting in my pants?" As soon as I say it that feeling inside regrets it.

"It wasn't like that! I didn't touch you, unless you wanted me to! I didn't even kiss you until you made the first move." He's right. That is true. But the majority of me doesn't want to believe it.

"That's what Shaun told me. That's what every guy says. You gonna tell me 'I'll be the only one' next?" I slam Bri's door.

"But you are." He whines.

A small part of my heart breaks. The rest is just angry. "Maybe the next girl will believe you when you tell her that." I hang up and my entire heart shatters.