Chapter 36

Ed's POV

Spring Break and Sucky Plane ride!

Five months later

"Whoo! Yeah! Spring break baby! Yeah!" Emmett, that's all I'm saying!

I heard my Bella laugh from behind me. "Hey..." I breathed entwining our fingers. She blushed and ducked her head. I chuckled and pulled her towards my car. "Meet up at my place. I have an announcement to make. It involves all of you!"

Bella was silent on the way, just playing with my fingers. She always did that when she was deep in thought. "Where are we going?" She asked pulling out two plane tickets with the landing date and location covered with black plastic. "I mean, every couple got a pair and now we have a pair." I didn't like it that she didn't include us as the other couples. Yes, we were not dating, but I know she cared for me and I try to show her every chance I get how much I care for her.

"That's the announcement. We're going out of state for spring break!" hey eyes widened. "Trust me, it'll be fine."

"Charlie?" she asked playing with my fingers again.

"Already taken care of," she sighed. "What?" She shook her head. "Come on, tell me!" I pulled into my driveway, cut the car off and turned to her, "You can tell me anything!"

She shrugged, "I just...hate it when people know things that I don't. Especially if I'm apart of the things that they know. I hate being out of the loop! Its so...so frustrating!"

I chuckled. "Sorry hon, but if it makes you feel better...no one knew about this. All the others, they as much as you do! Just me and everybody's parents knew about this before hand."

"Why you though?"

I smiled. "I planned this Bella. You'll like it!" Then I got out and helped her out,softly caressing a deep scar on her hand.

We walked inside and sat down and waited for the others. Amber and Jake were the first through the door. Holding the envelope in her hands, they sat down. Finally, Alice, Jasper, Emmett and Rose ran through the door. "Sorry."

I shrugged and pulled out mine and Bella's tickets. "Ok guys, do you know what these are?"

"Um...plane tickets?" Alice guessed grabbing hers and Jasper's tickets.

"Yes Alice." I rolled my eyes. "Does anyone know where we are going?" No one answered. "Ok, Amber, Bella, don't freak. But Nessie is visiting the cabin daily, and apparently the nightmares are very rare now and her and Seth are closer. I think revisiting your past would help you."

"And why are we going?" Rose asked.

"Well, Arizona has plenty of sun, beaches, hot! Thought you would like it!'" I said hoping they'd agree. "Plus, were going to be away from the 'rents! What could be better than that?"

Emmett and Rose shared a look. "Individual hotel rooms?" Emmett asked pulling Rose closer to him by her waist.

I shuddered. "Yeah. Alice and Jasper, You and Rose, and Bella and I," I looked at Bella, then Amber. "How do you girls feel about that?"

They shared a few looks before Bella looked up at me. "Will you be with me the entire time?" she looked so scared. So innocent.

I nodded. "Yes. I won't leave your side til you ask me to." I ran a hand threw her long gorgeous hair. She smiled back at me, her love for me shining through her eyes. "Will you go?"

Amber grabbed Jake's hand. "As long as Jake doesn't leave me, and Bella is safe," she glared pointedly at me, "I'll go!"

Bella nodded in agreement. "When do we leave?"

"Tomorrow night."

"WHAT?" Alice and Rose yelled in horror. "You give us only a few mere hours to pack!?" Rose said. "You're fucking crazy!" Alice finished.

I went to retort, but Bella started talking first. "Then I suggest you go and start packing then, huh?" A smirk on her face.

Rose and Alice stared at her for a few seconds, before turning on their heels and running out the door. The Porsche pulled out the driveway not too much later.

Emmett looked at Bella in shock. "Are you PMSing?"

I slapped my forehead and grabbed Bella's hands, calming her as much as I could.

"Emmett, I just have a headache and they were yelling, not to mention, they were dissing Edward. I didn't want to hear that!" She sighed. "When you see them, tell them I said sorry for snapping at them? I'm just not feeling well."

He nodded before walking into the kitchen.

"You feeling, ok?" I asked rubbing her scalp with nails. She hummed in contentment. "Feel good?" I asked amused. She smiled and hummed again. "Wanna go lay down?" She hummed again in agreement. "Amber, Jake, you guys are welcome to stay in your room. Rose and Alice will be back in few hours. So, do what you want. Bella and I are going to lay down. You know where we are if you need us." With that, I picked up Bella and slowly started towards the stairs. She didn't protest, snuggling into my chest and wrapping her arms around my neck. "Tried?" I asked walking effortlessly up the stairs.

Bella nodded. "Yeah. Damn nightmares have been getting worse. I don't know what to do..." her voice trailed off and a soft snore followed.

I smiled, kissing her forehead tenderly, eliciting a strong electrical spark. "I'll fix you..." I whispered before opening my door. I sat her on the edge and grabbed a pair of sweats and a large t-shirt of mine. After pulling the t-shirt over her head first, then I went underneath it, unbuttoning her blue blouse and pulling off her shoulders.

"What are you doing?" Bella asked grabbing my hands, her droopy eyes as wide as they could be.

"Getting your shirt off. I know you can't be comfortable in that tight blouse and those skinny jeans." I said explaining why my hands were underneath her shirt at the moment.

She nodded in agreement before lifting herself off the bed and onto the soft carpet floor. She dropped her jeans and kicked them off. The white t-shirt did very little for imagination at the moment in time. Showing her creamy skin that was placed on her tight thighs. I could make out the healing scars from her past experiences.

"Edward?" She asked sleepily, still in the large t-shirt.

"Yeah," I looked up at her eyes, not wanting to come across as another Mike Newton.

"Can I have some shorts? Its actually quite hot tonight." She noted a hint of a blush on her cheeks.

I nodded and ruffled through my dresser. I couldn't find any shorts, but boxers were acceptable. Right? I grabbed a pair of light blue plaid boxers and handed them to her. "Are these ok?"

She blushed deeply and nodded. "Yeah. Just like shorts." then she just slipped them on. "I'm so tired!" she groaned leaning back against the pillows.

I smiled and kissed her forehead again, loving the electrical spark that zapped my heart, reminding me that I loved this woman and could ever only love her.

Grabbing the couch she had slept on the last few times, I pulled it out and put it where it normally would have sat; right in front of the large window that over looked our back yard. I snatched a few pillows from the side of the bed that Bella wasn't on, and a blanket. I sighed laying down and getting comfortable.

"Edward?" Bella called from the bed. I jumped up from my spot and walked over to her. "What are you doing?" She asked sleepily.

"Going to bed..." I stroked her face softly. "Goodnight Bella."

"Goodnight Edward..." she opened her eyes as I backed away. "Stay with me Edward? Please?"

I sighed once again and grabbed the pillows I had taken. "Yeah. I just thought you'd want to sleep alone..." I layed down on the bed.

She smiled snuggling into my chest. "Never..." she sighed out then hesitantly kissed me cheek, before falling asleep.

Five hours later

I was awoken by the beautiful creature beside me, she was writhing and crying in her sleep.

"Stop! P-please! EDWARD!!!" she screamed but didn't wake up. "Stop! D-don't! NO!"

"Bella!" I whispered pulling her closer to me. "Baby calm down." I kissed her sweaty forehead. "Its ok, calm down." I gently shoved the pieces of hair that were matted to her head back. "Baby please! Calm down!" She stopped shaking and twitching. The tears lessened and eventually stopped completely.

"Edward?" she sighed. It didn't sound like a normal sigh, though. "Ed-ward..." she sighed again.

I smiled chuckling at her words. "Oh Bella..." I pulled her closer to me,wrapping both arms around her. "I love you too, Bella! I really do."

(AN: Bella want's to get freaky! =})

The next morning

(B's POV)

"Ok. Here we are." Edward dropped me off at my driveway. "I'll pick you up at 5:00."

I nodded and smiled. "Thank you, Edward." I resisted the urge to kiss him, he didn't feel the same. He would have told me by now!

I walked inside my house and up my stairs. Charlie was at work and Amber was at Jake's. They'd be home around one or two and pack Amber's stuff.

I nearly smiled at the memory when Charlie found out about what Stephen and Alex had done.

Flashback!

"HE DID WHAT!?" Charlie yelled through the house. I cringed in my bed and immediately regretted it, pain shot through my sides. I gasped at the feeling. "Where is she? Where's my daughter?" he bellowed while running up the stairs.

"Dad?" I asked as my door busted open. Behind him was a freaked out Amber, a grim Jacob and a worried Edward. "Dad, calm down. You're scaring Amber. You know she can't take yelling and cursing. Especially from men!" I scolded him.

Immediately he stopped seething. He looked apologetic. "Sorry Amber. Just no one seemed to tell me what was going on while I was gone."

She nodded in understanding. "Its ok, Charlie. If it was my daughter I would act the same. Probably worse!"

Charlie sighed looking me over. "Are you ok?" he asked not touching me, but sitting on my bedside. "Are you scared of anyone or...me?"

I shook my head. "No Daddy. I love you."

He let out a deep breath. "Thank God!" then he was hugging me. Not tightly, but not gently either. "Bella,if I had lost you? Oh, I don't want to think about it! Where are they? Stephen and Alex?" He asked me.

I didn't know, I didn't really care either. "Their knocked out, in the questioning rooms, at the police station." Edward answered stepping forward. "I told Karen and James, not to do anything to them until you came home."

"Why would you do that?" Charlie asked, not mad or upset just curious.

"Well, Bella is your only daughter. So I thought...well you'd want to get some anger out on them,just as Amber and I did!" He smiled cheekily, I grinned back.

"Mmmm...sounds like a good idea!" Charlie mused, a maniacal grin spreading across his face.

I didn't like it. "Dad, don't get into the habit...of hitting things...people when you get m-mad...please."

The smile immediately fell. "Bella, do you really think I'd do that!?" he asked a frown falling on his face, hurt coating his voice.

I smiled sadly. "No. Sorry Daddy," I hugged him. "Just being cautious."

A few minutes later, Charlie left, muttering something that sounded like "...gonna kick these guys asses for hurting my baby."

End Flashback!

I smiled, the next day, he was fine and refreshed of all his anger. Alex and Stephen were charged with Attempted murder, kidnapping two minors, rape, and sexual assault a few weeks later. Turns out, if Edward and the others hadn't came and got me within the next couple hours, I would have died from dehydration, starvation and lose of blood.

I stepped into my room. My room was somewhere I normally didn't spend time. This is where all the nightmares usually start and the hallway is where they usually end. I sighed. Nightmare. The terrors of my nights. Every night, I am plagued with memories of Phil, Renee, Alex and Stephen. Sometime, they're 'what-if' dreams.

'What-if' dreams, are the ones I hate the most. What if, I never got in touch with Edward? What if, Phil, Renee, and I never got into that car crash? What if, I never met Amber? What if, Edward never knew me? What if, Edward was repulsed by me? What if...? What if...? What if...?

Nightmares. Everyone has them. Not everyone is scared of them. Nightmares. They can change some people. For better or for worse. Nightmares. They can bring back your pain, or they can numb it. Nightmares. Nightmares...

When, if I ever, will I get a good dream? Will I forever be plagued by my fears, my personal...tormentor? Will I ever be free of my punishments?

"Maybe...this will be my cure.." I muttered to myself. Giving false hope to my conscious. Just so it would stop replaying last nights nightmare.

Nightmare!

Stephen and Alex, they had me chained to that godforsaken chair again. Nessie was sitting in a chair next to me, lifeless. They had slowly killed her before my eyes. They were after me now, but they were not going to kill me. "Please! Just k-kill me!" I screamed. They acted as if I hadn't even spoken. "Stop! Please!" Alex shoved his fingers into me,i screamed. My mind not having time to wrap Edward around itself.

Stephen pulled out a knife and started slicing my stomach and breasts. "D-don't!" I cried feebly, hoping, praying Edward would bust through the door soon. "EDWARD!" Was what I screamed when Stephen shoved himself into me! My mind had wrapped him around itself. I began rocking my hips to his. "Edward..." I moaned ignoring the slices I got when I spoke. "Ed-ward..." then everything went black.

End Nightmare!

What-if dream. Stephen didn't kill Nessie. Edward did show-up. And I never even thought about retaliating to Stephen's thrusts!

Two hours later, I had two suitcases full of clothes and toiletries. One held clothes for recovery and one held clothes for the New Bella! I just hoped that Edward's plan worked.

"Bella? You home?" Amber called, I heard the clatter of the keys and the stomp of four feet.

"Who else would be?" I asked when she and Jacob came to my doorway. "How was your day?"

"Ok...boring...tiring...uneventful...fun...boring...take your pick." Jake joked hugging me tightly. "Are you done packing?"

I nodded. "Yeah. Just finished. Now that my car is back. I'm going to say my good-byes to Charlie and then going to see Edward."

Jacob and Amber nodded, smiling like they knew something. "Sure, sure. Be careful." Amber cautioned.

I nodded and slipped on my chucks and my slipknot hoodie. "Don't forget to pack your bikini!" I yelled up before I left.

At the police station

I walked in the small police station. Greg snow sat at the front desk, nearly asleep. "HEY!" I called, he jumped like four feet in the air!

"H-hey, Miss Swan," he breathed in relief. "You here for Charlie?"

"Yes. Is Charlie in?" I asked leaning away from him; he was getting too close.

"In the back. Would you like me to show you, Rene- I mean Bella?" he offered, hoping I wouldn't notice the slip-up. But I did! Quit quickly too!

"What did you call me?" I asked getting pissed off. He went to answer. "I am NOT my mother! Renee was a selfish bitch! I am not! Renee had no heart! I do! And its still beating! Unlike Renee's! So you can go fuck her corpse and get your needs over with, while I go say hi to my father!" I started to stomp off, but stopped. "Oh by the way, you can go ahead and start cleaning out your desk. Greg!" I smirked before opening the back door.

"Bells! Hey kiddo! Hows it going?" Charlies two colleagues that were on duty today called enthusiastically.

I smiled at each call and answered them. "Hey Karen! Sup Jimmy! Fine, just saying bye to Charlie!"

"Where you headed?" Karen asked propping herself on James' desk. They secretly loved one another, but they wouldn't tell the other.

I smiled smally, "Me, Amber, Jacob Black, The Cullen's, and The Hale's are going to Phoenix, Arizona for Spring Break."

Their eyes widened. "You're going home?"

I shook my head. "I am home. I'm just going to go face my fears."

They nodded. Turns out, Lauren Mallory texted everyone in her small phone the recording, and everyone sent it to someone else. So, all of Forks, La Push and most of Port Angelas, knew mine and Amber's story. It was hard to accept, but no one longer messed with us. Except Lauren, Jessica, Caroline, Bonnie, Mike, and Tyler! They just wouldn't give up!

"Well be careful! And don't do anything I wouldn't!" James joked.

I smiled, "Which would be what exactly, Jimmy?" He knew I had him there. If he answered, he would be telling Karen what he wanted to do to her.

"Bells! Thought I heard you!" Charlie smiled hugging me tightly. "What are you doing here? Your flight leaves in a few hours."

I nodded hugging him back just as hard. "Came to say bye. And that I'll miss you. Plus, your guy up front, Greg Snow, I fired him."

"WHAT? Why?" Charlie asked pulling away from me to look at me. "Why?"

"He was creeping up on me. He called me Renee and he was staring mine and Amber's chests last time we were here! So, I told him to pack his shit and that he was fired!"

Charlie looked surprised, Karen and James, were quietly laughing in their seats! "Oh! Ok, yeah. He's fired!"

I smiled then let it drop. "Are you sure you're ok with this?"

He nodded. "Yes! You're seventeen! Be seventeen! You can take care of yourself! Plus, you can't be scared of everyone for the rest of your life!" he smiled gently. "I trust Edward and Jake. They'll take good care of you girls. I love you, Bells!" I wiped the tears in my eyes. "My pager just buzzed. Someone in La Push...some teens broke into someones house."

I smiled wrapping my arms around him in a hard hug. "I love you, Daddy. I'll call you when we land, ok?" he nodded, then kissed my head and left.

I looked over at James and Karen. Karen was missing and James was looked at the womens' bathroom. "James?" he slowly, reluctantly, turned to me. "Just tell her how you feel. I know that's not a guy thing to do, but just do it already! She likes you too!"

James was quiet for a minute. "Ok, fine. I'll asked her out, if you and Edward finally get together."

I sighed. "I can't guarantee it, but I'll make a move. I promise." he sighed then smiled. "OK, I'll see you later Jimmy. Later Karen! See you in two weeks." I called the last part loud so she could hear inside the bathroom.

"Bye Bella! Be careful! Have fun!" she called back.

I smiled when I got in my car, and called dialed the number to my favorite guy in the world. The guy I loved more than anything.

"Hello?" He answered slightly out of breath.

I couldn't help but smile. "Running a marathon, are you?" I teased turning onto the main road. "Mind if I join?"

He chuckled. "Not at all! I'll grab you a bottle! No seriously, that's fine. Where are you?" I smiled and beeped the horn twice. "Ah! You're already here! How did you know I was going to allow you in?"

I shrugged turning the ignition off and getting out. "I would've came in anyway. You'd have to deal with me!"

"And that would be a bad thing?" he asked, his warm breath suddenly on my neck, above my most sensitive spot. His warm arms wrapped around my waist, and the line went dead.

I trembled as a snapped my phone shut. "You j-just h-h-had to scare me, huh?" I asked chuckling shakily, trying to ignore his warm breath traveling down my neck and into my shirt.

He chuckled darkly, pulling me darkly. His lips grazed my ear. I bit my lip. "Its part of my nature!" I could feel the whisper of his lips moving against each other. I couldn't move; my brain clouded with fog. "You wanna go inside? Get warmed up? Watch some movies?"

I barley heard him, but I did feel my feet leave the ground. "Whoa! Edward, warn me next time, please?" he chuckled lightly kissing my forehead, murmuring something I didn't catch. "What?"

He sat me on the counter in the kitchen. "I said...that...that you were beautiful!" I knew he was lying, but I blushed anyways. "Your blush, your eyes that make me want more, your gorgeous hair that tortures me every time you flip it. Your soft skin that craves a hand to caress it. Your...your soft full lips that taunt me. The want I feel towards you. For you." he leaned his forehead to mine, our breath mingling together. "You're so beautiful, Bella. In every way. You don't even don't know..." he leaned forward, my breath quickened along with his. I felt my eyes flutter close as his lips brushed mine...

"Hey Edward, where's the-WHOA!" Alice squealed delighted, then she turned bright pink. "Uh...I'll just a-ask you...er...later." then she ran out the room with a huge grin on her face.

I sighed, moment ruined. We sat in silence for awhile, but I couldn't handle the thought of him regretting almost kissing me. "Edward," he looked at me, "do you think this'll work?" I asked looking at the tickets on the counter.

He nodded wrapping me in a hug. "Yeah, it'll work. I'll be there. The entire time. Unless you want it different."

I nodded into his chest. "I-I might blank out at times, remembering things. Don't freak out, if I do. Please. Will you try to understand that I don't have control over what I do and say? That I'll doing a lot of remembering, forgetting, and forgiving? Will you try? Please? I can't do this alone, Edward. I'm going to need you."

He nodded to all of it, kissing my cheeks, then my nose. "I won't leave your side. I won't judge you by your past...ever again. I can't lose you again, Bella."

After that,we sat in his room, til 5:10 in the afternoon, watching scary movies. Well, I think he watched, I was thinking of what could have happened if Alice hadn't been in the house? Would he have kissed me? Would I'd liked it? Would I had kissed him back?

Yes! To the last two! Edward was good at everything; of course I would enjoy his kissing him. Yes! I defiantly would have kissed him back! If kissing him was as amazing as his touches, hell yes! I would love kiss him! Too bad I'm too much of a wimp! I would never be the one to make the first move in the relationship. He meant too much to me to screw this up. I never felt this way with Alex. So I couldn't take this relationship into my own hands.

"BELLA! EDWARD!WAIT UP!" Amber and Jake's voices reached my ears.

I turned to see Amber clinging to Jacob side as they scrambled and dodged through the crowded terminal. I stopped walking, along with Edward. My hand gripping his tightly. "Well, if you two didn't tangle up in one another for hours at a time, you wouldn't be rushing!" I said once they had caught up, out of breath but still smiling.

Amber glared at me through her multi-colored bangs at my tease. "Oh shut up, Bella!" Then whispered, "You know you don't mind the alone time..." I blushed bright red, she smirked. "Though so."

The plane ride was boring and long. Amber, Jake, Alice, and Emmett broke all the rules. The stewardess' got on mine and Amber's nerves. Constantly eyeing Edward and Jacob, sucking on the tip of their pens, asking what they could do for them. Trying to get out men-ok Edward wasn't mine, but still!-to sleep with them! They only stopped-for Jacob-when Amber deliberately crawled into his lap, and stayed there, glaring at the bitches if they even tried to look at her Jacob. Ok, maybe it wasn't boring per say, but it sure as hell wasn't normal.

While getting off the plane, every stewardess stood at the front of the aisle, saying bye and their thanks for traveling so-and-so. Just as Edward and I walked passed, they all held out their hands, a little piece of paper evident in their grasp. Finally, I had just had about enough. I waited until Edward walked off the plane to look at the girls. Their faces went back to fake. "Ok bitches, listen, and listen good! He will not be calling you. He will not be needing your assistance to give him a good time. Because he will be with me! He will be wanting me! He will be needing me to give him an amazing time! So don't weep when he doesn't call you!"

That was the end of the plane ride...soooo it may have been a bit odd!

I am sooooo sorry! I'm grounded! Yes I am grounded for 1st time in a very long time! I almost got suspended for cussing out this stupid kid that kept on hitting me, and then that same day I sorta, accidentally kicked a huge whole in my wall! I swear I just meant to prop my foot on the wall, but now that whole is like...HUGE! So...the 'rents are out now...this will be the last update for while...unless they leave again!

So review as much as you can! Wish me luck when I finally show my mom what I've been writing (I refused to show her til I was finished, but caved!) and that she won't ground me even longer!