Chapter 28: Spirit Practice & Spilling the Beans

Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Academy I only wish I did.

Shout out to Dusky Girl my 200th reviewer. I hope you liked your early update!! Shout out to Kim & as to where I got the idea for this story? Well it was kind of a mixture of me being ticked off that Dimitri was turned Strigoi and me wanting to make a better end. I still wanted Rose to go to Russia to meet the Belikovs and I wanted her to meet Abe because I like him. I also wanted to add some cool stuff to the bond because it frustrates me that it hasn't grown since the beginning. Keep reading to find out just how much it will grow!!!

Enjoy!! Remember all Italics take place silently.

RPOV

I headed off towards the library where I knew Lissa was studying or so she liked to call it with Sparky.

I found them in the way back making nice as usual. I stood there a minute and then cleared my throat loudly. They broke apart guiltily.

"Sorry." Lissa apologized through the bond.

"That's okay." I sent back. "I'm used to it."

"Hey Chris can you leave us alone for a few minutes." She asked sweetly.

"Sure, catch you guys for dinner in a while?" he responded.

Lissa and I had been practicing blocking each other out and sending messages through the bond. I could still feel her emotions and get her messages much easier than she could read me. If I projected enough I could speak to her easily, but she didn't feel my emotions as strongly although I think that would come with time. We practiced her slipping in and out of my head. She was almost to the point where she could enter at will, but getting out was another thing. She usually found herself stuck until the strong emotion was over.

I on the other hand had plenty of practice blocking her and Sparky out. I tried showing her, but it she got frustrated rather easily. I don't know how Adrian puts up with her while they're practicing spirit.

We were sitting in one of the student lounges no one was around.

"Try to slip into my mind." I told her.

She closed her eyes and concentrated deeply.

"Are you with me?" I asked silently.

"Yes. I'm here." She answered.

"Okay now try to pull yourself out. Concentrate on your body. Think about where you really are and focus on getting back there." I said coaching her.

It took a few minutes but she was able to pull herself out.

"See that wasn't so hard was it?"

"Sure because you're sitting right here with me and you're not in bed with Dimitri." She said rolling her eyes.

"It's not so easy when I get sucked in unintentionally." She groaned. "How did you manage it for so long?"

I shrugged. "It's not fun."

"Hey I haven't been sucked in recently is everything okay between you two? I mean I thought now that you didn't have to hide things too much anymore that you'd go at it like rabbits." She said with a blush.

I sighed as I thought about what had transpired between us in the gym just over an hour ago. I know I told Dimitri I wouldn't tell anyone, but I hated keeping things from Lissa. I'd promised her no more secrets after she found out about me and Dimitri.

"Things have been a little strained." I admitted.

I could feel her compassion. "What's going on?" she asked.

I didn't know if I should tell her, but I really really wanted to. I needed a girl to talk to about this and it's not like I could go to my mother. She would freak out and kill one or both of us. Lissa was my family. I needed to vent a little. He was driving me insane.

"Okay please don't tell anyone. I promised Dimitri I wouldn't say anything until we knew for sure, but I can't take the pressure anymore." I said hurriedly.

"You know you can trust me." She said softly. "I wouldn't tell. Not even Christian. Cross my heart." She said with a smile.

"Okay, but let's talk privately." I said winking a little. She understood.

Author's Note: (All Italics are when they are speaking privately through the bond)

So I guess while we were in Baia Dimitri's grandmother who is sort of a witch or a psycic of sorts told him that because I am shadow kissed and I've been healed by Spirit that it's possible for he and I to have children together.

Oh my God Rose! Seriously? That's the best news ever. I was worried that you two would eventually decide not to be together for that fact.

She was so excited she was about to burst. I only wish I felt that way about the whole situation.

Well actually I never really thought about being a mother. I'm going to be your guardian it's not like I'll have time for that anyways. I don't want to do to a child what my mother did to me.

I could feel her disappointment almost immediately.

Don't say that Rose. I want you to have a full life. A husband, children, vacations everything I have I want for you. You're my sister and I won't accept anything less for you. Just because you are going to be my Guardian does not mean I expect you to give all of that up. I told you before I love you and want you to be happy.

Thanks Liss.

Wait so what does that have to do with your relationship being strained right now. I thought that would be good news? Doesn't he want children someday?

It is good news I guess in the long run and yes he does, but… I trailed off. I didn't know how to say this.

But what?

We haven't been safe because we didn't know it was a possibility and now we are waiting to see if I am pregnant. I blurted out.

She gasped.

Oh My God! She squealed jumping up and hugging me tightly.

That is so exciting. Are you nervous? Do you want to be? Is he okay with that? Are you getting married? Are you happy?

She kept firing questions at me in my head so fast she was practically hyperventilating.

Liss calm down. I don't know how I feel. I'm really nervous and scared. I'm way too young to be a mother. We didn't even know this was possible or we would have been careful. No we are not getting married. Is that even legal? He said everything will be okay and that he'll take care of me, but we both agree that it isn't the right time for this. If I were it would totally wreck my chances of being your guardian. I wouldn't be able to take my trials and I'm pretty sure that either Janine or Abe would kill Dimitri on sight if they find out.

I guess that's true. She responded calming down a little.

Besides he's been driving me insane ever since we got back from Russia. He follows me everywhere. It's like he thinks I'll do something wrong or stupid or whatever. He doesn't trust me. He says he does, but he treats me like a child. I want to be his equal and I'm afraid that he won't be able to see me as anything other than his student. We had a big fight in the gym about an hour ago and I don't know where we left things. I mean we're not even sure if I'm pregnant and we're already fighting. What if I am? I asked trying to hold back tears.

Oh Rose. I'm so sorry. I think he's just worried. You are younger than him and he's probably scared that you'll freak out or something. Give him a chance. How soon will you know if you are or not?

I don't know. I thought about taking a test, but I'm too scared to find out. It's only been a little over a week anyways so it's too soon to tell.

Well maybe you'll get your period.

True. I really hope so. I'm not even sure when it should come. Everything has been so screwed up with my body since the attack.

Well think positively. If you are we will all be supportive and it doesn't mean you can't be assigned as my guardian. Remember Adrian and I are a force to be reckoned with and we always get what we want. Everything will work out. Whatever happens you'll have all the love and support we can give you okay? And Don't worry about Dimitri. Talk to him tell him how you feel and do it when you are more calm. She said.

What do you?? Oh you were there? I realized that I was so upset she probably got sucked into our fight.

She blushed

I was only there for a few seconds. I didn't even catch what you were yelling about. I just saw the look of hurt in his eyes at whatever you said. What I really felt was your anger and guilt. She said.

I nodded at her. We should get to the cafeteria it's dinner time.

Remember what I said. We'll be here for you no matter what. She reiterated.

Thanks Liss! I really needed to hear that.

We embraced tightly and there were a few tears sliding down my cheeks. To an outside observer it must have looked like I burst out crying out of nowhere since no one would have been able to have heard our talk.

"Isn't it amazing what spirit can do?" she asked as we walked towards the cafeteria.

"Yeah it is." I said remembering my conversation with Adrian. For the first time I truly believed that everything would be okay.

Aww doesn't everyone wish they had Lissa and Adrian for friends??? So let's take a vote. Who wants Rose to have a baby? Who doesn't? Please give your response in your review. Not saying I will follow the majority, but there's always the possibility.

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