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Aura colors.

Red: Anger, fear, jealous, mean. stress, annoyed

Orange: Thoughtfulness, courage, confidence, curious,

Yellow: Optimistic, happy, friendly, kind

Green: Peaceful, compassion, down-to-earth

Blue: Sensitive, moody, concern.

Violet: Benevolence, conceited, self-absorb

Pink: Love, friendly

Gray: Depression,sadness, exhaustion

Black: ill/sick, imminent death

White: Normal, calm


"... Kendall? Don't scream. Please, what ever you do, don't scream." James say slowly.

"Why?" That's the only thing I can manage to get out for now.

"I-I, uh, I was," He stumbles. " I accidentally cut myself and I try to stop the bleeding, but things got out of hand."

"This- this was no accident! This is a purpose action you're taken!"

"Kendall, please don't be mad at me!" He stumbles to stand back up. I come up and hold his arms by his sides.

"Why are you doing this?" I raise my voice, even though I tried so hard not to since it's only the middle of the night. I didn't mean to. I was just so scared.

His eyes water, bottom lips quivers. I guess I must have scared him, but if I did, then his aura will be red with fear, but it didn't. It's the same dull color of gray that never changes.

His voice softens. "You won't understand, Kendall." Then he started yelling. "NO ONE WILL EVER UNDERSTANDS!" He push me to the side and walk out of the door, slamming it hard, not remembering, or not caring, that there other people in this apartment too, who are in bed.

What don't I understand? I mean I know James my whole life. His entire life's perfect, just like his face. What must have bothered him?

"James..." I sigh, throwing my head up and walk out the door. I poke my head out the door. "James!" I call quickly. But the whole apartment is completely quiet. I hear whimpering again from my right. I turn and saw James facing away from me, side leaning against the wall. I gently touch his shoulder but when he felt my touch, he nudges away. I pull my hand back slightly.

"No one will understand." He mutters.

"You're right James. I don't understand. Why did you just cut yourself? Don't you know how dangerous this it?"

"I was trying to get rid of the pain."

"No, the only thing you were doing was let yourself exsanguinate to death."

He squeals.

"What are you planning on doing next behind my back? Smoke? Drink? Burning yourself?"

"You wouldn't understand my agonizing pain, Kenny. You won't understand. No one will." He started to calm.

"What are you talking about? I've known you my entire life? Nothing agonizing had happened to you."

He said nothing.

What is he hiding? Does he have a secret I've never knew about? Something that me, nor anybody else knew about?

Then I hear Logan in the other room yelling, "Kendall! Would you please stop James' little mood swing?"

"Right on it Logan." I call to him and look back at my gray-aura boyfriend.

"Hey Jamie, do you have a secret? Something I never knew about? Something you've never been able to tell people because you're afraid you'll be embarrass or the past will harm you?"

He said nothing.

I look down at the floor. Hands stuff in my sweat pants pocket, rocking myself with my heels and toes. "I'll tell you my secret if you tell me yours." I say looking up at him with my eyes. I wanna tell him. I trust him anyways. He won't think I'm crazy and need help.

"I've known everything about you Ken."

"Not everything, not my recent one." I smile.

He said nothing. I frown. His back has always facing me. never turning around.

"Wanna know what it is?" I ask, but he just shrugs, showing that he doesn't care if I tell him or not. "Okay." I whisper and lean in to whisper in his ear. Though, it's not life anyone else can hear it, right? "Okay, I can see people's auras." I reveal and lean back. And when he didn't reply or comment, I ask. "Isn't that cool?" Nothing, I sigh. "Look James. What I see is not you. I mean your aura has been gray for weeks now and it never changed. Even when your mood changes, your aura doesn't. You know what gray means James? It means depress you're always depress. If you're really feeling agonizing pain, then your aura should be red. Even in the day, when you're all smiling, you're suppose to be yellow, not gray, and most of all, when you're with me," I pause taking a shaky break, feeling like I'm about to cry myself. " You're aura's suppose to be pink, not gray. It always been pink when you're next to me. No matter what." I voice starts to crack.

"What? That you think that since I'm not pink whenever I'm around you, meaning I don't like you anymore?" Well, that's part of it.

"What? No, it's just- I don't want to see you like this. I mean you're gray, I want to help, so your aura can change colors again. Colors never lie. I see you gray all the time. I'm worried about you. Now I told you my secret, now it's your turn."

"No one will understand Kendall. No one will. Even if I tell you, you'll still won't understand."

What can't I understand? I'm the best problem solver of the group. If I don't understand it at first, then I will solve it one by one like a puzzle.

"Look, if you don't want to tell me, you don't have to. But I will get the information out of you. I won't bother you. But I will if I see you harm yourself, or doing something new like drinking, doing drugs, or changing your eating habits to not eating at all."

He stays silence again.

I take a deep breath out and say, "If you're ready to talk to me, you know where to find me." I say and open back the door wider, that was ajar. I step in.

"Kendall?" James mumbles.

"Yeah?" I ask poking my head out again to face him, but he still didn't face me. But when he only turn his head to look over his shoulders for me, I see his tear stained cheeks, and they're still sliding silently.

I was hoping he would say something like 'Thank you.' or something like that, but instead he just say, " You're an expert of puzzling. Find all the pieces and put them all together. But don't be expecting me to give you the hints. I might give you it, but didn't I was." He turn back forward and stop at the slide. He turn back around and said. "Go ahead Kendall. Play a very difficult, challenging game of Blue's Clues." That's all he said until he slide down the swirly side alone. I walk forward and glace down the balcony. Seeing him tucking myself on the couch with blankets instead.

"Did he just say play a game of Blue's Clues?" I slightly jump as I hear Logan's voice right behind me. I turn around and saw him and Carlos. I see Carlos' energy is a bit gray for exhaustion or Logan is just orange.

"Ooh, we use to love that show, remember Logie?" Carlos ask hugging his arm turning yellow.

"How long have you guys been standing behind me?" I ask hoping they didn't hear what I told James.

"Only the part when he told you to play a game of a children TV show." Logan say.

"What is going on with him?" Carlos ask.

I turn back to look down at the couch where James is with blankets. "I don't know. But I'm going to play his hard-to-find, puzzle solving game and find out. I'm scared guys."

"Us too." They both say worriedly.

Sorry it's a bit sorter than the last one. Well, review please!