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Aura colors.
Red: Anger, fear, jealous, mean. stress, annoyed, startled
Orange: Thoughtfulness, courage, confidence, curious,
Yellow: Optimistic, happy, friendly, kind
Green: Peaceful, compassion, down-to-earth
Blue: Sensitive, moody, concern.
Violet: Benevolence, conceited, self-absorb
Pink: Love, friendly
Gray: Depression,sadness, exhaustion
Black: ill/sick, imminent death
White: Normal, calm
We are now on a private jet. Gustavo got us a private jet immediately after find out James has gone back home. Our mission is to get him back, he said.
Carlos is now asleep on Logan's shoulders while he is reading his medical books to pass the time, right across from me. Maybe he's doing that to see is James has a mental disorder or not. Both of their energy is white why my guess that mine is grayish-blue. Still can't see them!
"I got it!" Logan suddenly say cheerfully, making Carlos shot up.
Carlos' aura turn to bright red for startled. Logan too but for only a sec. "Wha- what- what happen? Are we there yet?"
"Not yet Carlitos." I say looking at him.
They turn white again.
Logan turn to him. "Sorry baby. Go ahead and go back to dreamland." He smile and lay back on his boyfriend's shoulder.
"What's up?" I ask Logan.
"Maybe James is having PTSD." I raise my eyebrow in confusion. "Post-traumatic stress disorder." He say giving to me his book. It was upside-down so I turn it and read about it and seeing the symptoms.
It didn't help since I don't even know when it happens, I just know it's in the past. Not sure how abuse is a sudden shock, when if you do it to others (which I highly doubt James did that.) He he hasn't change his behavior except for sadness. I understand about the cringing the the cry at night, him acting in the day. Hiding it very well, then. He didn't harm me. He still do his daily activities. If he has PTSD, he would change that and stay in one place forever, cowering in fear or something. He is in pain. At least he didn't drink. He stopped cutting, not sure how, saying that it's addicting. He eats normally. I just can't see the problem here.
I return the book back to Logan and he stare at me in wonder. I just shrug, saying I didn't find anything and I don't even know. He keep on reading while I turn by head, facing the window staring at clouds floating by.
I sigh.
James, please, if something is wrong, talk to me. Don't give me tough, impossible-to-solve clues. This is better said than done.
After about 43 minutes later, we landed and head straight to James' house. We knock at the door and Mrs. Diamond answers. She's dress up in a business suit. Whitish-orange aura swirling around her.
"Hello Mrs. Diamond. Is James home?" I ask so very politely.
"No, he just left to go see his dad in-" She stops and stare at us in sympathy. She must notice our sad, concerned, desperate faces and offer us to come in.
"Would you boys please come in." She offers and we walk in sitting on the couch. I wasn't even expected her to be home since she's always busy with her cosmetic business.
We were also in a rush to find him, but since she offer us in, we walk in, because no one, and I mean no one says no to Brook Diamond.
"So, what brings you boys back to Minnesota?" She ask sitting on a big leather chair across from us.
"We were hoping to find James." Carlos says. "He ran away without informing us."
"Yes, and he was here and now he left. You boys look worried when you came in, is something a matter?"
I look at her in wonder. I thought she knew. I mean if this is the first place James visits, he should've told her what's wrong.
"He's been distance lately." Logan answer. "Like something is bothering him, he said something about painful memories. He refuse to tell us. Keep giving us hints, like he's trying to tell us something, but it looks like he's trying to cover it up."
We told her everything that had happened, minus the cutting and got beat up and went home in the middle of the night situation. Until Carlos burst our bubble and told her.
She froze, aura turning blueish gray, but more gray showing. And that's when she burst into tears, covering her face in her hands.
All three of us just stare worryingly.
"Oh not again. Not again!" She sobs. Again? What happen again? She stops and shows her mascara running and staining face. I have to admit, that creeps me out, especially if it's on her face. I don't know about the other two though. She stands up and walk away to get cleaned up and she came back about two minutes later.
"Okay, now that you'll all cleaned up." Carlos say awkwardly but cautiously. "Why don't you tell us more about what's going on with James."
"Because it looks like you know something." I say slowly.
"Please don't bother her with those questions, please don't bother her with those questions ever again." Logan mumble repeatedly. He's terrified of her. We all are in a way.
She clear her throat and begin. "Okay, you know, before you guys went to LA and form a band?" We all nod. "Yeah, before that, you guys were 15."
"16." We all corrected.
"Right, but at age 15 it all happened. Remember when James went to Seattle on vacation for the summer for about a month?"
We all nod again.
"There had been a little incident."
"A car accident?" Carlos ask.
"No Carlos." I say. I remember the day when he went on vacation there, and no one had died! Or got injured, right? "Proceed please." I say.
"Right, uh, during that time, Mr. Diamond got drunk and-"
"I knew it!" I burst out. I mean, I didn't, but it sounds like he got drunk and abuse James, but it looks like James didn't got abuse, so maybe Mr. Diamond abuse his brother! Yep, James has a brother. "Your husband abuse Shane, right?"
"No."
"No?" I ask confuse, then what is up? What else?
" James abuse Shane."
"What?" We all ask in shock.
"How? What happen?" Logan ask.
"I thought it was my husband that got drunk, but it was really James."
"How! He's underage!"
"Yeah, but listen. He did got drunk, a bit, I had to go to work so he have to bring the two with him but little did I knew, he went to a club, end up empty minded and made James drink." So, James did got drunk once and I bet he's not gonna do it again! He shouldn't do it again. " But it was an accident."
"How?" Logan ask.
"How should I know? I wasn't there. Anyways, after they got home James started hurting his brother, thinking he's to blame for his headache in the morning since they always mess with each other all the time." Not a surprise. "After pinning Shane to the wall and attacking him for thinking he cause the headache, James passed out and end up freaking him out."
"What happens after that?" I ask getting interested in the story.
"Then for weeks, Shane had been ignoring James and try to get as far away as possible. James was so sorry and upset about what happen after realizing, he started cutting for the first time."
I thought for a moment But confuse about something. "Wait, he told me he witness and did it to someone, not telling me who until now. So how did he witness it if he abuse him?"
She shrugs.
Then I got another question in mind ."And a a few weeks ago when it all started, it started when he took a little nap. I observe him carefully, he hadn't moved in his sleep he's been motionless in his sleep, speechless, and distance. And I woke up finding him in tears."
"It's happening again. Because after Shane had ignore him, he end up having nightmares, but his nightmares are so vivid. He end up witnessing himself hurting his brother in his dreams. When he's observing, he doesn't move in his dream. He told me after he woke up afterward. Afterward, me and my husband got a divorce and he stays in Seattle and me and James went back to Minnesota. I was about to take Shane with me, but he refuse. Still horrified of James."
"So that's the memorable pain he was talking about." I mutter to myself.
"So James got drunk, blaming Shane for his headache by abusing him, after that he stop and Shane had been ignoring him, James was so devastated and feeling sorry for what he done, he blames himself by cutting himself ." Logan say and Mrs. Diamond nod.
So he did had continuous nightmares, just not noticing it. He had vivid nightmares about himself watching and witnessing himself harming Shane. And when he got beat up in the middle of the night while I was waiting for him and I found him at the door standing on the threshold, a mess, that's what happen! He told me they mugged him then he end up punching and hurting them, that's when his memory of him doing that to Shane came back!
Okay, I think I have all the clues I need.
Logan stands up "Thank you for the help Mrs. Diamond."
"Yeah, thanks." Carlos stands up too.
"Wait, where is James now and what is he doing there?" I ask.
"He's in Seattle visiting his dad." I have a feeling he's doing more than that. Visiting Shane, trying to make him talk to him.
"Okay," I say stand up. "Okay, thanks for the help Mrs. Diamond."
"Anytime boys." She give us a warm smile and made our way out the door. After it's close, I look back at the window and saw her bawling her eyes out, gray aura around her-even though it had been there ever since he made her tell us the event. Now I regret even making her tell us the story. I starting walking looking down at the ground while we walk to the airport.
"Wait, Kendall?" A voice broke me out of my thoughts. I look and see Carlos, the one who ask.
"Yeah?"
"Back in LA, you found James in Minnesota, but he went to Seattle. We should have just go North instead of going Northeast first then go West."
I stare, gawk at him. Since when did he know where La, Washington, and Minnesota are located in US?
"We didn't know he was going to Seattle afterward." Logan say.
"Oh."
When we got to the private jet, we fly off the Seattle.
When we got there, I search Jame's phone again to find Mr. Diamond's house. Hoping that he's there. But when I stop I found we weren't in a neighborhood. We were in a graveyard. Why are we here.
"Why are we were?" I ask the guys.
They shrug. Why is James here? Did someone die?
"I found James." Carlos say and I look in his direction and saw my boyfriend crouch down in front of a gray marble. We all run over to him and stop and let out a gasp when we see the lettering on the gravestone.
"I am so sorry, for everything." James whimpers to the stone.
Aw, wow, what is that? So who do you think died? Isn't it obvious Well, whatever, review please :) Later
