Sam and Jack both agreed they would wait to tell the team, at a get together that following weekend. It was hard but they did pull it off. As they were getting ready that Saturday morning for everyone to come over Sam was working in the kitchen like old times, while Jack was on the back deck working with the grill. Sam had the radio on when she heard a song that just stopped her dead in her tracks, she walked over and turned it up…….

She's quiet this morning she can't say whySends her husband off to work with a kiss goodbyeUnlocks that old diary turns to the third of MayAdds another tear to the pageAnd it's lonely being the only one who knows the truth

Sam couldn't believe it so far this song sounds just like what she has been gone through. She listens on, while thinking of her son.

She has a secret that she can never tellOne wrong decision still puts her heart through hellDoes he miss her does he forgive herThe love that they shared will always be a secretOnly she knows she still loves him and she hates the choice she madeWishes she could find him tell him why she walked awayEvery day gets harder living' with herselfBut she knew he's be better of raised by someone elseGod, it's lonely being the only one who knows the truth

She can't hold back the tears she feels like such a no good mom, she gave up her son. She looks up and sees Jack through the window. She thinks to herself he has a right to know, but things are so good, she don't want to ruin has a secret that she can never tellOne wrong decision still puts her heart through hellDoes he miss her does he forgive her The love that they shared will always be a secretOnly she knows she still loves him and she hates the choice she madeWishes she could find him tell him why she walked awayEvery day gets harder living' with herselfBut she knew he's be better of raised by someone elseGod, it's lonely being the only one who knows the truthShe has a secret that she can never tellOne wrong decision still puts her heart through hellDoes he miss her does he forgive her The love that they shared will always be a secretShe unlocks that old diary turns to the third of MayAdds another tear to the page.

The song fades off the radio, and she hears Jack on his way in, she turns away hoping he wouldn't see her tears. Luckily he went straight in the other room, giving her time to wipe her face and get cleaned up. She turned the radio off, went to take a quick look in the mirror, her eyes were a little blood shot from tear but maybe no one would notice. Just then the doorbell rang, she went to answer it was Daniel, Janet, Teal'c and Cassie.

"Hi guys, come on in." Everyone walked in hugs were exchanged, Janet be the most observant she stopped looked at Sam.

"Hey you ok?" Janet asked

"Yea I'm fine" Sam lied

"No your not, you have been crying, Sam what's wrong" Sam knew she wouldn't get out of this but she had to wait to explain, after they had told everyone about her and Jack's engagement.

"Look Janet ok yea there is something bothering me it has to do with, what we talked about that night, but after we eat and everything we can sneak away, and talk ok?"

"Alright but I not going to let you forget it. Let's get out side before the guys think we aren't coming."

They headed out back, everybody fixed their plates, they all ate and just talked about all kinds of things. Then once everyone was finished, Jack winked over at Sam.

" Hey guys I got something that I need to tell you, well it's actually Sam and I have some news…..We are getting married." He walked over and grabbed Sam's hand.

"wow that's great" Daniel stood up and went over and gave them hugs.

"Yea Sam that is awesome!!!" Cassie was so excited.

Janet came over smiled softly at Sam, she knew kind of now as to what was bothering Sam. She hugged her pulled back and told her

"Everything will be fine ok?"

"ok Thank you!"

"So why don't we ladies go inside and get to chatting about how we are going to plan this wedding, while you guys plan the honeymoon." Janet spoke up, she wanted to talk with Sam.

"Ok lets go" So Janet, Sam & Cassie went inside, while the guys stayed outside.

"So it's the fact you said yes to marry him and now you feel guilty for keeping the secret." Janet said as they went to sit down in the living room, Cassie had a look of confusion written all over her face.

"What secret, Sam what is mom talking about?" Cassie asked

"Cassie sweetheart it's a.." Janet started but Sam interrupted her.

"No Jan it's ok, Cassie the easy way to explain is to go out and say it, but you have to promise it won't leave this room….you promise?"

"Of course Sam you can trust me."

"Ok, look before I left Jack and I had a one night thing, I thought it was more but that next morning he was enraged and angry, said it was a mistake. After that the weeks that followed he was still being so cold, so I left, not knowing that it really wasn't him."

"Ok, is there more?" Cassie asked intently waiting on Sam's response, but wasn't expecting what was coming.

"Yea, Cass I found out not long after that I was pregnant….I brought it to term, a little boy, But with the memory of Jack's reaction, just on sleeping together, I didn't think he would want a child, and I couldn't raise him as a single mother, so….I…gave him up for adoption." Sam now crying, Cassie came over and hugged her.

"It's going to be ok" She told her.

"I think you should be honest with him." Janet spoke up

"Janet I don't know if I can do that, he is going to hate me, and it's not like we can just go get our son back."

"Yes but you can't just keep it in you are not even married yet and you are already feeling bad about keeping a secret from him."

" What if he doesn't want to be with me anymore after that, I don't think I can take losing him too"

"Sam he isn't going to hate you he is not that type of person, especially not with you, He loves you so much, just sit him down and tell him the wholes story he will understand."

Sam nodded she had the courage right then and there, Janet seen this and figured it's time to leave so they could have the talk they so needed. She left Sam in the living room, they said their goodbyes and she went to go get the guys to leave.

"Daniel sweetie, we need to go."

"What why so soon, are you ok?" Daniel asked not sure as to why they were ready to go so soon.

"Jack….Sam is in the living room she needs to talk to you, don't worry but look be as understanding as you can." Janet turned to leave.

"Come on let's go"

They said their byes and Jack headed to the living room, and found Sam he could tell she had been crying, he went over and sat down next to her, put his arm around her and whispered in her ear one simple word it made her melt.

"Always" Sam turned to him looked up into his eyes.

"Sam honey whatever it is we will get through it, ok? I promise, just tell me what it is."

Sam was just about to sat something and her cell phone rung.