She thought saved by the bell, she was going to answer it, to give her a few more moments to get her courage.
"Hello" Jack sat back and waited for her to get off the phone, he really wanted to know what could be bothering her so much.
"Oh my gosh…." Jack sat up, reached over to Sam who now had her head in her hands, trying to hold back tears.
"Sam what?" Jack whispered.
"I will be in the next flight out, thank you" Sam hung up, shocked at what she had just been told. Now she knew she needed to go she had to come clean with Jack first.
"Sam what was that about, is something wrong?"
"Jack…I need to tell you, what I was planning on telling you, please let me just say it, but please keep an open mind."
"Of course sweetie, whatever it is you can always know, I'm here no matter what."
"ok, when I had that fuss with you….well the other you….it hurt me, and the weeks that followed did as well, I couldn't take the coldness from him anymore, that's why I left I just wanted to disappear that's why I had no record of anything, Jack I loved you so much I wanted to just give up everything to be with you and when that happened I couldn't handle it."
"Sam I'm so sorry I wish I would have gotten back here sooner to explain and keep you from leaving."
"Me too, because if you had we ….*sniff*…about a month or so after I had left…I found out I was pregnant…" Sam couldn't hold back the tears now for sure, she looked away ashamed.
Jack reached out touched her cheek " oh sweetheart you didn't go through that alone did you? I mean you had someone there to help…..I should have been, I should have went after you search harder."
"Jack its not your fault…I choose not to be found, and yes I had a friend Stacy she was the receptionist from my doctors office, she helped me through everything, she actually had to help deliver him. I went into labor at home." Jack's eyes started watering, he had a son, it was a boy.
"It was a boy?"
"Yes…..but Jack I couldn't raise him on my own the way he needed to be…" Sam starting crying again "Jack gave him up….I gave away our son…."
Jack took her in his arms and just held her let her cry it all out, she had kept it all in for so long, he couldn't be mad at her, he was mad at himself for allowing it go the way it did.
"Sam it's ok, baby I understand you had to do what you thought was best for him…"
"Your not mad?"
"Of course not, did you name him?"
"I gave him his first name only I figured the adopting parents could give him the middle, I named him Jonathan" Sam looked up at Jack into his eyes which were now filled with tears, she knew he was hurt that she gave him up, but he wouldn't admit it to her.
"Well he's got a good name, but I'm sure where everything else counts he will be just like you. So I assume it was a closed adoption, no chance in seeing him?" Jack thought it wouldn't hurt to ask.
"It was a closed adoption, I never knew where the adopting parents were from or were going to be living, I thought the temptation if I knew it would eat me alive."
"That's understandable" Jack said with a hint of disappointment in his tone.
"But actually I had them put in the papers that if anything happened to both the parents, that I would be listed as his Legal guardian…*sniff*…and…" Sam staring at her hands and crying once again.
Jack put his hands on hers she looked up with a sad smile if there was such a thing "That phone call was just that….the mom and dad went on a business trip left Jonathan with a close family friend….the plane went down…they said I could come and pick up Jonathan….Jack I'm happy but sad at the same time those poor people….." Jack let out a breath, tears falling
"It's ok…I know I feel the same….but Sam OUR SON is waiting on his real parents to come get him…."
Sam looked up she couldn't believe it she had been given a chance to fix this, and have the family she had dreamed about, but most of all it was going to be with the love of her life Jack.
"Let's go baby" Jack pulled her up, they hugged, he leaned in and kissed her. Then they went to pack a bag book a flight and go get their son, to bring him home. Seeing it was close to midnight they made arrangements for a flight first thing the next morning. They curled up on the bed and just held each other through the night, neither able to sleep, he asked her to give him the details of her pregnancy and the birth, he wanted to know everything. So they stayed up pretty much all night talking, they finally dozed off.
The next morning, Jack awoke before Sam so he went ahead go their bags together and put them in the truck, then he went and got Sam up and ready to go, and they left the house knowing next time they came home they would be a family.
