ENJOY~
Everyone in the room stood for about half a second before I could find my voice.
'RUN' I screamed at the top of my lungs, 'RUN NOW' and as quickly as I said it I had already found myself halfway down the road running at top speed, I let my vampire instincts completely rule trying to find the trail of the scent, the scent of my daughter but either my senses were not strong enough or my daughter was too small to have a potent scent right now. I ran hopelessly, not knowing where to run, what direction, where was she? What had stolen my precious minutes old baby? She must be so scared. I think that's when it had become too much, I vomited a fountain of blood and collapsed to the floor, buried in pain and blackness.
'Carlisle, what happened to her?' I felt Jacob's hot hands all over me and Carlisle's cool hand on my head. Jake's voice was pained, more than pained; it was completely consumed with anguish. My eyelashes started to flicker.
'She's okay I think, she just had a panic attack and fainted.' He replied, his voice laced with uncertainty and fear I think it was.
'Oh Nessie' Jake grabbed me upright and crushed me to his chest and I felt his hot tears down my back and I started to cry aswell.
'Jake where is she? Did you find her?'
He shook his head and cried harder. 'The trail completely disappeared' he choked 'Everyone's still out there searching, but I had to come back for you, you were covered in blood and on the floor, Nessie I thought you had died.'
I cried even harder. Silly Jacob, worrying about me when our daughter was gone, who would do such a vile and repulsive thing? Where had they taken her? Oh my goodness. The pain was too much to bear, I felt like I was sinking back into the black hole that had won earlier.
Jake pulled me back to look deep into my eyes.
'Don't you dare leave me and faint again, we're in this together, we will find her, and we have to.'
The rest of that evening I sat in the main house on the sofa with Jacob next to me, his arm wrapped round me tightly. I felt so wretched sitting inside when I should be out there with the rest of them searching for my daughter but I was no use, I kept blacking out from the pain and I was a liability out there. I wasn't as fast as the others and I would just slow them down. Jacob and Carlisle had stayed with me. Jacob because I couldn't bear to be without him in this state and Carlisle because my health was slowly deteriorating right now. The pack was guarding the house, just for safety measures and the Denali coven had joined everyone else on the hunt for Scarlett. My heart and chest ached just thinking of her name, her beautiful little face I had just known for five minutes. She was MINE. How can someone steal something that belongs to someone else? I was so mad I got up off the sofa and started throwing things around and trashing things, and as quickly as the anger had came it was replaced with despair and anguish. I fell asleep completely exhausted and worn out as I drifted off to sleep in Jacob's arms. This happened each night, after I finished my episode I would tire myself out so much I would fall asleep with Jacob crying with me and cradling me.
It had been about a week and a half since Scarlett had been taken and about a week and a half since I had seen or heard from any of my family. I was starting to go insane, Carlisle had given me strong drugs to stabilise my mood and to help calm me down but all they did was make me numb and sleepy. I must be putting Jake through absolute hell. I rarely spoke to him and I had refused to drink a drop of blood or consume an ounce of human food. I was aware I was slowly killing myself but I was beyond the point of caring.
'Nessie it's been nearly two weeks, if you don't eat or drink anything you'll die'
I shrugged and rolled over on the sofa ignoring him.
Jake pleaded. 'You think I'm not going through hell as well?' he stood up and he was shouting. Like really shouting.
I turned around and faced him. His was mad, real mad.
'I'm going through absolute hell but I'm not starving myself! What good will it do when we find Scarlett and her mom is DEAD?' I flinched at his harsh words but he just continued.
'WHAT THEN? WHAT WILL BE THE POINT, JUST EAT, JUST TALK, AND DO SOMETHING! YOU'RE SO THIN YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'RE ABOUT TO SNAP IN HALF. YOU CAN'T JUST CURL UP AND WAIT TO DIE. YOU'RE GIVING UP. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE STAYING STRONG FOR OUT DAUGHTER. FOR ME' He yelled.
And then I started crying again, my breathing was ragged and I was crying so hard I thought I was going to drown in my sorrow. 'I'm sorry' I mumbled through the tears.
And then his face crumbled and he picked me up in his arms and cradled me like a baby.
'I'm sorry' he whispered into my hair 'I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry' and he just kept saying it over and over again until carried me back onto the sofa and fell asleep, exhausted.
I slowly got up and walked over to the mirror. I looked terrible. My collar bones, my hip bones, my knees, my shoulder blades, every bone in my body was jutting out even through the baggy clothes. I had already always been too thin but this was beyond thin, I was anorexic and if I didn't eat I was going to die from anorexia. My face looked gaunt and I no longer looked like the beautiful Renesmee at my wedding or at the beauty pageant. My hair had lost its shine, it had even lost its curl, it hung in limp, lank waves past my waist and my face was ghostly white. I kneeled down and started to cry again. Not for my appearance, for the loss of my daughter, for all the pain Jacob was feeling, for the absence of my family.
It could have been hours or days later, I don't know but Carlisle found me on the floor curled up and I had stopped breathing. Carlisle had had to resuscitate me. He said I was lucky to be alive. He had had to force feed me blood through a tube three times a day since then, it was a disgusting experience. Jake stayed by my side, telling me stories, memories of the past, when I was little, our wedding night and all the little minor details of our relationship. And it did help, it made me feel better, until I had to close my eyes and go to sleep and then all the pain would come back again and I would start to fall into that dreaded black hole. The only comforting thing was that Jake was there with me by my side all the time, holding my hand, and his touch seemed to make everything better even if it was only for a little while.
Exactly three weeks and two days since Scarlett and my family had disappeared I heard the front door creak open and Bella walked in silently followed by Edward. Their faces were cold and broken and they looked gaunt and ghostly. The only thing I concentrated on though was their bare empty hands, which were not cradling my daughter. I started to hyperventilate but Jacob calmed me down before I could sink back into that black hole.
Edward slowly walked over to me and sank down in front of me on his knees and held both of my hands.
'We have looked everywhere, we can't find her, but we have figured out a few things. Firstly whoever took her were obviously a vampire, and obviously a skilled vampire. The other thing we know for definite is that he or she were watching us, spying on us, waiting anticipating for the exact moment.'
'That doesn't help anything' I said angrily and pulled my hands out of his. 'Just go.'
That's when Bella came over and interrupted, 'Nessie we haven't given up, I know how awful you must feel, how awful we all feel.'
'NO. YOU DON'T.' I shouted. 'You don't have any idea how I feel, whatsoever so why don't you just go.'
She held my arm and I yanked it away.
'If you won't find her, then we will.' I looked over to Jake who was nodding.
Edward stood up. 'That's not wise, we don't know what danger lies out there, I think you should let us handle things, you're not in any fit state to be hiking all over the world. I won't lose my daughter.'
'What. Like I lost mine?' I retorted.
He hung his head sadly. 'I'm so sorry, none of us knew this terrible thing would happen, it's just completely awful, how someone could be so cruel, so sadistic, but we will find her but for now you need to get better and heal and we all need to become strong again, for Scarlett.'
It might not feel like it now but somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe we can break through.
In the next chapter we will be introduced to whoever does have Scarlett and we will find out where she is and why ~
