Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Journal Entry for Tuesday, December 2, 1997

I got out of the hospital yesterday; my mom got out the day before.

My head hurts me all of the time now, but I'm trying not to take the amitriptyline unless it gets to be really horrible. And it's worse than a typical migraine. It feels like someone is pounding on my skull with a steel hammer.

I've also been hearing those same voices. They don't say anything is the problem. They speak words, and they speak English, but there are so many voices talking at once that I can't understand anything any of them says.

I haven't slept since I left the hospital. I mean I haven't slept at all. But oddly enough, I'm not tired at all, which bothers me because my body feels tired, but I can't sleep. My mom won't give me any kind of pill to help me sleep because she doesn't want anything like a few months ago to happen.

Lauren called earlier today and talked to me. She isn't pissed at me, but she has started seeing someone else she said. But she still wants us to be friends. I just said 'yeah, sure'.

My life just seems to be disintegrating. What'll be next? I'm not sure if I even want to know.

My head hurts me all of the time now, but I'm trying not to take the amitriptyline unless it gets to be really horrible. And it's worse than a typical migraine. It feels like someone is pounding on my skull with a steel hammer.

I've also been hearing those same voices. They don't say anything is the problem. They speak words, and they speak English, but there are so many voices talking at once that I can't understand anything any of them says.

I got out of the hospital yesterday; my mom got out the day before.

Lauren called earlier today and talked to me. She isn't pissed at me, but she has started seeing someone else she said. But she still wants us to be friends. I just said 'yeah, sure'.

-Randy

A/N: What's up with repeating the paragraphs? (I did do that on purpose). You'll just have to keep on reading to find out.

I know this is a short chapter, but the next one will be up soon, and it is longer.

As always, please R&R. Getting a review just makes me so happy.

-Yours truly, Randy Taylor