Chapter 17
Journal Entry for Wednesday December 10, 1997
I saw that neurosurgeon today, Dr. Ultameier. He said that about half of the bullet fragments can be removed. The others are too deep in the skull. Hearing that made mom a nervous wreck. He decided to operate sometime next year, seeing as how I'll have to be in the hospital for quite a few weeks after I get the operation done.
But for now, I'm glad to be feeling like my normal self. Mark came downstairs this morning to wake me up, and when I didn't tell him to fuck off, he actually smiled.
This has to be a record for me over the past few months; I haven't had a migraine since Saturday. I haven't had a headache since Sunday.
I called Lauren to tell her what I found out from Dr. Ultameier. She was happy for me, and said she wishes me luck. The other thing she said, which made me happy, is that she dumped my successor as boyfriend. (If he had dumped her, then I wouldn't be as happy).
Mom is keeping a close eye on me since she found out that I took marijuana and scotch and champagne and all those things when I was trying to get rid of those voices. (That's the way I want to think of it. I mean, I had no intention of ending my life, just of ending those voices' lives).
So, even though I'm getting eagle eye treatment, I'm glad things are back to normal now. Brad is ev-
Damn it. Sorry about that, my nose started to just absolutely gush blood. I don't know what's up with this. Maybe it has something to do with all of the drugs and whatnot that I've been putting into my body over the past three months.
Well, I'll have to write more later. It's hard to wrtie wit a blody noose.
-Rany
Mark's POV
It is certainly nice to have Randy back to his old self again. But I just wonder how long he'll be his old self again until he goes back to being the King Asshole he has been for pretty much the entire past three months.
I mean don't get me wrong, I feel sorry for him, having the bullet pieces stuck in his skull and all, but that doesn't justify his behavior the first time he tried to commit suicide. Yes, he was under a lot of stress, but so was everyone else, and none of us tried to commit suicide.
Now, I'm not saying I haven't thought of suicide myself. Originally it was just because dad was dead, but the past couple of times I've thought about it, it's been because of all the shit (for lack of a better term) that Randy has pulled. But, fortunately, I haven't been stupid enough to actually follow through with any of these attempts. Luckily mom hasn't seen any of the cut marks or scars on my arms.
Brad's POV
So, how long will Randy be Randy before the dark, bastard side of him takes over again?
I'm not saying that he's an actual bastard, but that's just the way he's been acting lately.
The truth is, I don't think Randy will get better. I think this is just going to haunt him the rest of his life.
It seems like just yesterday that it was me and him hanging out, being mean to Mark.
Then Randy hits puberty (or his equivalent), and everything changed. All of a sudden, he cares about saving the environment and corruption in politics, and healthcare crises.
I still can't believe that he's tried to commit suicide, twice now. Plus, the last time he tried, he had to drag my pot into it.
You know, I think I'm wrong. I think maybe some of this is my fault. I mean, I hit puberty, and then just kind of left Randy in the dust, so he had to go out and find other interests. Maybe if I hadn't done that, he would come and talk to me about his feelings, rather than trying to commit suicide. I don't know. I just wish that someone would be able to get to the very bottom of this before Randy tries something stupid again.
Maybe I should suggest to mom that she try to get him to talk to a shrink.
A/N: Well…Now all is good and right in the land of Randy's Thoughts. Randy is acting like himself, Mark and Brad are happy that he's back to normal. Everything is good.
Okay, well, everything is good and right except the nosebleed that Randy got.
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As always, thank you for reading.
-Yours truly, Randy Taylor
