AN: *Slowly comes out with hands raised*

Please guys don't shoot me. It's been months since my last update and I apologise profusely. I'm not going to go in to specifics and tell you why I haven't updated in so long, yadda yadda. I'm here now and I have a new chapter for you.

A little warning for chapter content: Expect swearing and probably alot of it later in this chapter, so don't say I didn't warn you. Yeah I'm fifteen and some of you probably have something to say about that but hey, you probably did or do alot worse when you were or are close to my age. So you know, any problems? Don't read. It's pretty simple.

But to everyone else, Enjoy the chapter you have all been waiting for.

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Previously...

"I was just about to walk out when Edward grabbed me by my elbow halting my movements. I looked up at him and started when i realised how close his face was.

"You and i are going to talk whether you like it or not" he said, his scent surrounding me. I pulled my arm from his grasp, stumbling a little.

"Later" was all i said, then i walked out the door."


I looked down at my plate glumly, pushing my peas around in circles, making shapes in the smeared mashed potatoes. I never really liked peas. Sure I'd eat them if I had to but I wasn't particularly hungry tonight so I wouldn't bother. I'd just pass them off to Emmett when Esme wasn't looking. They were mushy on the inside, slippery and green on the out, slid down my throat when I'd chewed them and tasted like dirt. Hello gag reflexes.

"Psst. Jelly Bean? " whispered Emmett as he nudged my shoulder, almost ramming me on to the table. Jeez Em, subtlety never was one of his finer points but that's what made him Emmett I guess. I smiled slightly before whispering back.

"Yes Em?" I asked, laughing lightly still pushing the musty green globes around my plate.

"Peas." was all he said. Of course no other explanation was needed. I turned my head to smile at him before checking what everyone else was doing.

Esme and Carlisle were talking to Edward quietly at the other end of the table, scolding him by the looks of it. Hah!Jazz and Alice were whispering in each others ear. I looked away quickly, that familiar pang of jealousy making itself known once again. They were always so caught up in each other. It was cute and adorable yet at the same time, I was envious. It was almost mocking, their relationship. Alice was lucky she had Jasper.

"Bells?" Emmett asked again, his voice fulled with worry. I looked up at him and smiled, hoping to reassure him with my eyes that I was OK. Of course I'm not but he didn't need to know that.

"Sorry Em, got lost for a second" I laughed, but it was forced. Emmett was still looking at me with concern. He may be a foolish oaf sometimes but aside from Edward and Alice, he knew me better than anyone else.

I picked my plate up, looking around once more before stealthily scraping the peas on to his plate. I put my plate back in front of me and picked up my glass, swirling the red wine before taking a sip then subtly spitting it back into my glass. It had gone flat. I heard someone snicker so I turned to see Emmett and Rosalie's shoulders shaking, Emmett trying to full his mouth up with peas, hoping to quench the urge to laugh out loud like I knew he wanted to. Bastard.

"Flat, Bella?" Rose asked her eyebrows raised slightly, smirking. Crap they saw.

I stuck my tongue out at her, ever the mature one. She returned the sentiment then rolled her eyes at Emmett who was still trying not to laugh.

"Emmett shut up" she hissed at him but I could see the amusement in her eyes.

He sat up straighter and tried to look innocent, keeping a straight face. I turned back towards my plate and noticed it was completely empty. I stared for a second,confused before remembering I gave what was left to Em. I heard him snort followed by his boisterous laughter. I closed my eyes feeling like an idiot but also wanting to laugh at my stupidity.I could feel my cheeks heating up before deciding to just go with it and laugh.

I looked at Rosalie noticing the look she was giving me 'You're completely nuts'. It was either that or 'Stop encouraging him'. It just made me laugh harder before I saw her shoulders quiver slightly before she shook her head hiding her face in her hands.

We continued to laugh for a few seconds before realising that there were others present who probably thought we were crazy. I tried to get as much air in me as I could, hoping to calm down. It worked after a bit and I lightly patted Emmett's back who was trying calm down as well. Rose was fine.

I heard someone clear their throat.

I looked towards the other end of the table. Esme had an eyebrow raised and was looking at us in amusement. As was Carlisle, Alice and Jasper. Edward however was staring straight at me, an unfathomable look in his eyes. I quickly adverted my own and looked at Esme again.

"Are you kids alright?" she asked us, once Emmett had calmed down completely, coughing every once in a while.

"Uh huh" we three said in unison. I felt my eyes widen slightly before I turned my head to look at Rose and Em, who had both done the same. I looked away quickly.

Awkward.

Carlisle, Alice and Jasper snickered quietly, Esme however just shook her head at our antics. The rest of dinner passed on quietly without a fuss. There was still a bit of tension in the room and I'm sure it was just my own and Edward's.

When everyone was finished the men did the dishes whilst myself and the girls including Esme resided in the living room with a cup of tea or coffee in our hands.

"How you holding up Bella?" Esme asked quietly, looking at me with so much motherly concern it made me want to cry.

"I'm....." I trailed off. I wasn't sure how I was at the moment. I was pissed at Edward yet I wanted him so badly. I was dreading the talk that was bound to happen in an hour or so knowing someone would end up yelling. Probably Edward and I would yell back. Not to mention I missed my babies. I was glad Tanya wasn't here but I felt guilty we left her, well Alice and Rose left her really, in Seattle. I'm surprised I haven't gone grey with all the stress.

"I'm 'holding up' I guess" sighing quietly, rubbing my hands on my face. Esme patted my knee, it was comforting to say the least.

"Are you going to talk to him?" Alice asked from the sofa. Esme and I were on the loveseat and the other two were on the sofa.

"Not so sure about talking, more likely yelling but yes. Tonight actually" I said looking at her. She smiled apologetically at me.

"I just....don't know what to say. I'm sure 'I'm sorry for not telling you, you've been a father for four years' will work " I chuckled humourlessly, shaking my head.

"You'll be fine B, It'll come to you. Besides it's his own damn fault really. " Rose said nodding at me. I smiled, I wasn't sure if that was suppose to make me feel better or what. But she tried. Esme kissed my temple, stroking my hair lightly.

It was quiet for a while but it wasn't awkward or uncomfortable. Rose decided to break the silence.

"Still I'm glad we left that bitch at the mall. Can you imagine what she looked like when she realised we weren't there?" she asked, not really looking at anything in particular but managing to seem as if she were really imagining it.

Esme shook her head, trying not to laugh. I turned to look at Alice, we both shared a loaded look before bursting in to belly shaking laughter. Esme joining us not long after. Only Rose.

"Hey, hey what did we miss?" I heard Emmett's voice before he walked in to my line of sight plonking down next to Rose who was laughing as well. Jasper sat next to Alice on her other side whilst Carlisle sat on the floor near Esme's feet and Edward took one of the armchairs.

After I calmed down I decided to answer Em's question.

"It was nothing Em, just being girls is all" I said still out of breath. He nodded not bothering to ask. Men.

"So any plans for you girls tomorrow?" Carlisle asked.

"Nope" Alice and Rose said in unison, popping their P's.

"Yeah, I'll be spending the day with dad and the twins tomorrow" I said "Then maybe I can interrogate him" I chuckled slightly.

"Interrogate?" Jasper asked, his eyebrow raised slightly. I nodded seriously.

"When you and Ali dropped us off the other day he was being very....secretive almost. I told him I'd come over today with twins but he practically yelled at me saying, no and that he was busy. Either he's done something stupid, in a gang or has a new girlfriend. I'm pretty sure it's the latter though" I said in a very matter of fact way.

"I hope so, I haven't heard anything about it around town though. Maybe it's someone on the reservation. Charlie's been alone for so long" Alice said smiling at me. I returned it. Out of all my friends she was the closest to my father. He loved her like his own as well.

We talked for a while longer before Esme and Carlisle decided to go to bed. They kissed us goodnight and headed up the stairs.

I looked over at Edward, he was talking to Jazz quietly about something. God he was so.......ung, Stop it Bella.

"I'm going to go have a shower" I said to everyone. I got up and kissed them all on the cheek, except Edward who was glaring at me. I mouthed the words 'When I'm done'. His eyes softened some before he nodded.

I trudged upstairs, tripping over the one at the very top. God, how embarrassing.

The shower was some what comforting. The hot water as it beat down on my back, releasing all the tension I had in my body. I washed my hair using my mango and papaya shampoo. After being told time and time again I smelt like strawberries and freesia in the past by Edward I'd decided it was time to change a few things. They way my hair smelt was one of them. Although I loved the idea of smelling like fruit.

I shaved what needed to be. Sometimes early motherhood made you forget these things, taking care of two babies inadvertently I barely took care of myself. When it came to my babies however I would do anything. Although it was a nice to have sometime to myself.

Afterwards I changed into my pyjama's. A dark blue ruffled satin nightie with spaghetti straps that reached about mid thigh. I couldn't wear sweat pants like I usually would. With Alice in the house, she'd burn them then take me shopping.

I left my hair to dry naturally and rubbed myself down with ST. Ives Collagen Elastin which smelt nice. I left my clothes in the hamper nearest the door. Their were two others that belonged to Edward and Tanya. Ugh.

I crept down the hallway and in to my room, shutting the door softly behind me. I turned around and flipped the switch before jumping back in to the door and clamping my hand over my mouth, to muffle the shriek that left me lips.

Edward was sitting on my bed, eyes wide in...shock?. What the hell. He was the one sitting in the dark. In my room.

I gingerly brought my hand down and clasped it to my chest hoping to slow my now racing heart. I glared at him from across the room. He had the decency to look ashamed.

"You know, it wouldn't have hurt to wait until I was actually IN the room! and you didn't have to sit in the dark" I hissed at him, still standing by the door. Yeah I was being a bitch but he scared the shit out of me.

He smiled apologetically, I rolled my eyes. He wasn't mute so a few words would have been nice.

I slowly walked towards him then perched myself on the armchair nearest to the bed. Which was about a metre give or take a few centimetres. We sat in silence, this talk was inevitable but I'll be damned if I have to say the first word. Yes, I'm a coward but only when it came to Edward.

I tried to look anywhere but directly at him. It worked for about a second before my eyes went right back to his face. He was looking at me still, well rather everything below my neck.

"Eyes up here" I said, smirking slightly wiggling my fingers at him.

His head snapped up and I could see his cheeks tinge a slight pink before he smiled at me. Not just any smile, his dazzling, panty dropping, crooked smile. I know my eyes glazed over just a bit. Before I realised he wasn't suppose to have this kind of effect on me, well he was I just wasn't suppose to show it. I looked down at my hands, wringing them nervously waiting for the onslaught.

Then just as suddenly, the atmosphere changed. The tension was back and I could feel it, crashing against me. I immediately tensed knowing this was how it started.

"Bella" he sighed. I didn't acknowledge him but he knew I'd heard him.

"Bella, are they mine?" he asked more clearly but I could hear something underlying his words.

"Y-Yes" I croaked, barely getting the word out, knowing he was talking about the twins.

"Why? Why didn't you say anything!" he all but growled. That's what it was underlying his words before. Anger.

"I-I...." I stuttered trying to get the words out but they just...couldn't. He wouldn't have any of this though.

"Damn it Bella! TELL ME WHY YOU NEGLECTED TO TELL ME ABOUT MY CHILDREN. OUR CHILDREN!!" he started to yell. I heard the bed creak as stood up in agitation, his heavy footsteps, loud as he paced across the room.

"Because I...Because..." I clamped my eyes shut, hard. This was a lot more difficult than I originally thought. I put my head in my hands, trying to think, to speak, to do anything.

"Because you what! Fuck Bella! Tell Me Now!" he half growled, half yelled.

"I didn't want to ruin your life" I said quietly. I knew if he'd found out I was pregnant he would've came straight home. Dropped everything and for what? His pregnant girlfriend? I didn't want that. He had a once in a lifetime opportunity and I didn't want to ruin that, he'd hate me for it.

"You didn't want to ruin my life?" he seethed "You didn't want to ruin my life?! That's all you have to say Bella!"

"No, fuck!" I huffed as I stood up from the chair "Damn it Edward, You tried so hard to get in to that College. All year that was all you and your family ever talk about. When you finally got your letter of acceptance, you were ecstatic. Fuck! and when you left....If I had told you about the twins you would've come straight home-"

"Of course I would have, I fucking LOVED you Bella!" he yelled, glaring at me. His body quaking with anger.

"But I didn't want that!" I yelled at him, I could feel my eyes starting to tear up "You would've dropped everything for me, all your hard work, just...gone. Out of 600 Edward, you were one of the lucky 10 to get in. Six hundred. I didn't want that on my conscience, you would've hated me. Regretted it and I didn't want to ruin that, I loved you too much to do that. Please understand." I begged "It was all for you"

"Don't you think I should have been the one to decide that?" he fumed "So it was all for me?! Don't you dare say that this was all for me Bella! It wasn't your place to make that decision for me, you had no bloody right!"

I shook my head and dragged my hands through my hair before dropping down on to the chair again. Tears streaming down my face.

"I was scared too. I was only seventeen Edward, with two babies inside me." I whispered shaking my head again, "And I was going to tell you."

"You were going to tell me? Fucking when Bella! That's what I want to know, would you have told me at all. God, I missed you, I fucking missed you, then when I finally see you after four years, You walk in the door with twins in both arms, OUR KIDS Bella! and how my ENTIRE family fucking knew! Except me and I'm their father! Do you know how much that hurt?!" he yelled pulling his hair in frustration.

My head snapped up at this. I looked at him incredulously. How fucking dare he.

"How much you hurt?" I seethed acid dripping from every word "How much YOU hurt?! How much you fucking missed me?!!" I yelled standing up, glaring at him in rage. He looked shocked, yeah that's right buddy. You unleashed a fucking monster now.

"You know what Edward FUCK YOU! How much you missed me?! I hardly heard from you at ALL! And you sure as hell looked as if you didn't miss me, with Miss shimmy fucking lip glossed hussy on your arm!" I yelled even more. I was already starting to lose my voice and I'd just started.

"Tanya? Your Jealous?!" he yelled "This is all about-"

He stopped abruptly when I growled.

"Don't. Don't. You. Dare." I got out through clenched teeth, jabbing him with my finger on every word "Don't you fucking dare Edward! I'm not jealous, pissed off and angry is what I am! don't for one second think that I'm jealous of HER when you don't know shit"

He stood there, his mouth opening and closing.

"And how much you hurt?!" I yelled crying now "What about me, Edward? What about me!!" I stopped as my body shook with force of my sobs, hunching over, almost as if I were in physical pain. I collapsed from the force of it, losing all my strength. I couldn't yell, I didn't want to fight. Not anymore.

"What about me?" I whispered, my hands clasped over my eyes "You promised Edward, You fucking promised!" I said louder, my voice breaking.

I looked up at him now, tears still streaming down my face. His hands were balled in to fists at his sides, his eyes were clenched shut but I could see them, HIS tears

"You promised me" I sobbed "You promised that I'd be yours, You promised you'd marry ME Edward" I cried, almost gasping the words out. I looked at him again, his body started to quiver. In pain? I wasn't sure.

"I was going to tell you, I was waiting for you to come home, It was suppose to be a surprise" I whispered, sniffing a little.

He started to sob now but he was still standing, his eyes still clasped shut. He was visibly shaking now.

"Then you called, told your parents that you had met someone else" I shut my eyes again, trying to forgot the moment they had told me, tears trailing down my cheeks as I rocked backwards and forwards almost like a child with my arms folded across my chest.

"I hurt you?" I asked my tone of voice saying it all.

"Well you broke my fucking heart Edward Cullen" I whispered, loud enough for him to hear. Pain, in every word.

He collapsed, taking me in to his arms and rocking us, one hand wrapped around my waist the other in my hair. Heavy sobs wracked his frame and reverberated in mine. My hands came up to grip the back of his button down, scrunching it up in my hands as I clung to him.

In the end what we both did was stupid. I should've told him about the twins, he was right, I had no right to keep them from him. But he should've loved me forever like he said he would. Like he promised he would.

"I'm sorr-" he tried saying but I cut him off. It was too late now, for both of us, Sorry wouldn't fix anything.

"Don't Edward, we were both stupid, we can't change anything now, so just....don't" I whispered. He nodded pulling me closer to him as held me tightly.

We didn't move from our place on the floor, still rocking side to side, even when Emmett burst through the door.

"Jelly Bean?! Edward what the fuck did you do!" he fumed, I could hear him coming closer. I couldn't see him as I was facing the other side of the room.

Edward let me up when I struggled to stand, I turned quickly and walked towards Emmett.

"Please Em, not now" I pleaded, we didn't need this now.

"But he fucking made you cry JB" he growled, shaking. Jeez, him and his brother sure got angry quick.

"No, no, no, Em please. Alot of things were said tonight and just.....please Emmett. We were both stupid we know that now, just leave us be for tonight Okay?" I begged and asked at the same time. Pleading with him to understand.

His eyes which were flaming with anger only moments ago, softened completely. There's my Emmy Bear, I thought affectionately.

"Okay Bells" he said before smiling lightly at me. I smiled back and held my arms up, he wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me so I could wrap my own around his neck. I hugged him to me, well, he hugged me to himself, tightly.

"Love you Jelly Bean" he whispered to me. I giggled slightly.

"Love you too, Emmy Bear" I whispered back.

I loosened the hold I had around his neck and kissed his cheek as he let me slide down to the ground. I quickly grabbed the hem of my nightie completely forgetting its length and held it down. I didn't want to give Edward a free show.

"See you in the morning" Emmett said before pecking me on the forehead. He looked towards Edward and nodded.

"Night Bro, sorry" he said, smiling hugely. I shook my head at him.

"Night Em" Edward said as Emmett turned around and walked out of the room closing the door behind him.

I turned around to Edward. He looked like shit, but he was still incredibly hot. I'm sure I just looked like shit and all. He was staring down at his hands, I sighed quietly and moved towards my bed flicking the lamp on, before walking back to the door and flicking off the light switch.

I walked towards Edward and held my hand out to him. He looked up at me, almost like a lost little boy. He looked so much like Cameron in that moment, I could've cried.

"Come on, you're sleeping with me tonight" I said. He looked at me, asking with eyes if I was sure. I nodded.

He took my hand as I helped him up. I walked to the bed and pulled the duvet back, I motioned for him to get in to which he complied. I turned off the lamp before getting in next him.

He put one arm beneath my shoulder as I tucked in to his side laying my head on his shoulder, draping my other arm across his waist.

Then I slowly found myself drifting off in to a dreamless slumber but not before I felt him kiss my forehead.

Edward


So there you have it. Hoped you all liked.
I did warn you about the language content, so if it did offend anyone I apologise.
I'm really not too sure about doing an EPOV so I don't think I will. Maybe at the end
when this story is finished or if anyone thinks they'd like to have a go at doing an EPOV themselves then PM me.
Next update should be soon because it is the school holidays here in NZ but I will be updating sporadically and can not promise regular updates.
And yeah...I guess that's it. Oh I also apologise for any spelling mistakes/typos.

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