Chapter 5
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"Uh… what are we going to be doing?" Beck asked, slightly awkwardly. The news of us breaking up had spread like a wildfire, so everyone had their eyes peeled, as if, if the blinked, they would miss something very important. Oh, please. Mind your own damn business, I felt like saying, but restrained myself.
"You will simply improvise a romance scene between two lovers. It can be about absolutely anything! Ready… action!" he said, using wild hand gestures. He didn't even give us a chance to reply when he said 'ready'. This really isn't my day. How the heck am I supposed to improvise a damn romance scene with my ex? I seriously felt like killing Sikowitz. I huffed and rolled my eyes. Beck had his poker face on, but I knew him well enough to know he wasn't finding this situation very comfortable. Who would? I realised then that everyone's eyes were glued to us, waiting for one of us to do or say something. I decided to just start the damn scene.
"How dare you kiss her?" I screamed at him suddenly. He looked taken aback. I was referring to him kissing stupid Vega on her second day here.
"It was a stage kiss, it's what you do when you're acting and you have to kiss someone!" He screamed back. I think he knew what I was talking about, and I'm pretty sure everyone knew that this was going to turn out to be more than just a performance.
"Well, it wasn't necessary, was it? You just love the idea of hurting and humiliating the heck out of me!" I screamed back. We never really talked about what happened. Sure I had gotten upset, and he comforted me, saying he wouldn't leave me (Liar), but ever since then; I've been a little more protective of Beck.
"You know I obviously wouldn't want to hurt-" He started, but I cut him off. Yeah, it was SO obvious he would NEVER hurt me! Where the fuck has he been these last few days?
"Oh, yeah, sure! I could totally tell when you didn't bother to open the door leaving me humiliated, or maybe when you offered your car to slam my face in, or maybe when you humiliated me in front of everyone when you said you weren't happy with our relationship! Yeah I can totally tell how much you care about me," I screamed back.
"Jade, I never wanted to hurt-" Again, I cut him off.
"Well, too bad, since you already did. You know what, forget I even brought this up, just stay out of my life and I'll stay out of yours. Goodbye." I said. I was shaking with hurt and anger. I had to get out of here, so I grabbed my bag and stormed out of the door, before Sikowitz could say anything. I stomped to the janitor's closet, the place where I usually go to when I'm annoyed or angry or upset. Yes, I Jade West, get upset. I pulled open the door, to find no-one in there. Good. Even if there was someone here, I'm pretty sure it was obvious what I would do to get them out of there. I slammed the door closed and slid down the wall, burying my face in my hands. Tears kept slipping down my cheeks, as I cried silently. Of course, just to seem like the good guy, he would say that. He obviously doesn't care about me! He wanted to see my face slammed in a fucking car door! What kind of guy would say that! And yet, I still love the fuck out of him. Too bad he doesn't feel the same way. I sighed. I was surprised my voice sounded so full with venom when I talked to him, because honestly, all I wanted to do was forget about the world, and our stupid break up and just kiss Beck like there was no tomorrow. I got up, wiping my tears; my make-up must be so smudged right now. I went to the girls' bathroom to clean up my make-up problem wiping the make-up away, while tears still rolled down my cheeks. Where the hell do all these tears come from? I leaned both my hands on the sink and started at myself. I looked so drained, so tired. And I really was. Sighing, I applied fresh make-up and stalked out of the bathroom. I really didn't feel like attending classes, so I decided to skip the rest of the day.
I slammed the front door shut and ran up to my room. I just wanted to forget about the world, forget about our break up, forget about the damn emptiness in my heart. Ugh, listen to me; I'm turning into a sap. I blasted music from my pear phone a collapsed on my bed. I buried my head in my dark purple pillow and breathed in and out, trying to calm myself. I was listening to Who Knew by P!NK. I can really relate to this song. I listened to the music, trying to calm myself. It wasn't working; I feel like crying even more. I couldn't hold it in; I started crying my heart out. I really want Beck back, but I know that he no longer loves me. Why can't it be like before, when it was us against the world. Where did we go wrong? I got lost in the song, listening to the lyrics.
You took my hand, you showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh, that's right
I took your words and I believed
In everything you said to me
Yeah huh, that's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever, who knew?
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no, no no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
For their long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever and ever
Who knew? Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we, until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened?
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
And that last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling, who knew?
My darling
My darling, who knew?
My darling I miss you
My darling, who knew?
Who knew?
I fell asleep listening to that song, tears still fresh on my cheeks, hoping he would actually visit me in my sleep. At least there, everything will seem perfect; exactly the opposite of how everything is now.
Again, it was a really bad ending and REALLY SORRY! Sorry for the late update as well! I'll try to upload faster, don't blame me, blame school. I'm not really proud of this chapter, and I'm sorry if you wanted the improv scene to go differently! I won't be updating for a few weeks- I've got Exams coming up! Sorryyyy! I'll try and make it up to you guys after my exams!
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