Title: A Little Too Not Over You

Author: MyHiddenEyes/Dokuhan

Fandom: Total Drama Island

Pairing: Noah/Cody

Theme: #25 – Fence

Rating: PG-13

Summary: After a horrible fight Noah and Cody's relationship ends, but both discover how hard it is to let go.

Disclaimer: I own none of the rights to these characters; they're just puppets for my over-active imagination.

Warnings: Slash, established relationship

Author's Notes: Somewhat based off the David Archuleta song…shut up. My music taste is usually much different =_=

Alyssa and Brody are the names of two of Noah's siblings that a friend and I use. (The same friend who also uses the Dasari and Booker surnames)


Had it already been two months? It felt like ten years, the days just seemed to never end for Noah. None the less, the ache in his chest still felt fresh and his mind kept wandering back to the same time and place.

Was it still only two months?

Fuck. It was.

He didn't feel this way after his last break up, so why now?

On this very day, two months ago, he and Cody had had a major fight. It wasn't like those normal fights couples had either, one that could quickly be fixed with a few text messages, some kisses and just saying "I love you". No, this was huge – big enough to build a fence in-between the two boys and make things seem like they couldn't be repaired. It had started with him and Cody talking about moving in together after their high school graduations, both of them had been granted scholarships to the same university and it would finally give them some privacy from Noah's siblings and Cody's parents. Soon though the conversation became heated and before either one knew it they were practically screaming at each other.

"Get out! I never want to see your face again!" Noah had yelled, his eyes filled with intense anger.

"Fine then! Have a nice life!" Cody had yelled back, his voice thick with the sobs he was trying to hold back. He had turned around and stormed out of Noah's room, lifting his arm to wipe away the tears that fell out of his eyes.

Almost instantly he had regretted everything he had said and felt anxiety pool in his stomach. His heart kept telling him to go after Cody and apologize like crazy, but his feet wouldn't move and his brain kept saying to stay angry.

He tried to leave the past behind and get over it. That's what he had done with his first, and only other, breakup. But Noah just couldn't do that this time.

And it wasn't like he wanted to talk to anybody about it either. His older brothers and sisters, especially Brody and Alyssa, had tried to find out what had happened between them only to find out their baby brother wasn't going to let the information go willingly. They should know after all, Noah wasn't always so willing to show his emotions. He always preferred just giving a sarcastic comment or not expressing the feeling at all. He had decided it was probably for the best anyway, teen romances never last that long anyway.

Or it could have been a much deeper reason. Nobody else knew it, but two weeks after going their separate ways Noah had seen Cody with another boy. Knowing that the other boy had moved on so much easier than he did had only made the horrible feeling in the pit of his stomach come back even stronger. He and Cody had loved each other for over two years, yet Cody could easily forget about Noah and move on.

It wasn't like he could just avoid Cody and this mystery boy either, it seemed like no matter where he went he saw them. Sometimes sitting together. Other times holding hands. He had even caught them kissing a few times! Luckily he went completely unnoticed; Noah didn't want people thinking he was a stalker.

He couldn't help but vaguely wonder if his previous ex had felt the same way seeing him and Cody together. He laid on his bed for a few minutes, his mind swimming and eyes remaining unfocused. Sighing again the egg head turned on his side and picked up a small, slightly worn photo album from his nightstand.

Never in his life did Noah think he would actually be thankful that his older siblings constantly intruded on him and Cody. In the past few weeks he had looked at these pictures so much that he had memorized where each one was in the book. Looking through the snapshots seemed to make it seem like these good times were only yesterday, instead of months ago. Maybe this was why he couldn't get over Cody, it kept reopening old wounds – the boy was too hard to forget in the first place and living in the past never helped.

"We're not together anymore. It's over."

Dammit.

Why did the truth have to hurt so much?

The corners of his eyes started to sting and he had to swallow the lump in his throat. No, he wasn't going to break down. Noah was going to be strong; he was going to move on. It wasn't going to be easy, but he was going to get past this.

His first step: try to leave the past behind. With a sad sigh he opened the drawer of his night stand and placed the photo album away. He wasn't ready to fully leave the memories behind, but it was a start. The second step: stop being so reluctant to leave the house. Noah shouldn't just stay inside because he didn't want to risk running into Cody and his new boyfriend. Besides the fresh air could probably help clear his mind.


An hour later Noah found himself sitting in a park not to far from his house, feeling even more miserable than before. It was no use, no matter where he went everything seemed to remind him of the times he and Cody had spent together. Almost every place he passed had a memory attached to it.

With a pitiful sigh he sat down on one of the swings of a swing set that had probably seen better days. His head hung low as his hands turned into fists. "This is all pointless," Noah muttered "Cody's moved on and I'm still stuck in the past. It's over, Noah. Face it."

"…Noah?" said a familiar voice.

Noah's head shot up as he found himself staring right into the face of Cody. He scowled "What are you doing here? Waiting for your new boyfriend?" he spat "Well don't let me being here bother you, I've seen you two together enough times."

Cody shifted as he rubbed the back of his neck "We're…not together anymore."

"Oh gee. What a pity. You must be so heart-broken." The know-it-all looked away, not wanting Cody to see how much he was hurting. He was happy they had broken up, and it disgusted him – acting like a jealous bitch definitely wasn't in his character.

The small boy sighed before sitting down on the swing next to his ex-boyfriend. He wrapped his hands around the chains before muttering "He wasn't you."

Noah flinched a little at this. "What?"

"He wasn't you, Noah." Cody repeated, his voice cracking a little "I left Andrew because he wasn't you."

Noah turned around to look at him as the tech nerd's voice started to thicken and stammer.

"I t-thought if I w-went out with someone else that…that I could get over you, b-but I can't. I still love you, Noah. I…I don't want to be with someone else."

Cody choked down a sob as he closed his eyes, tears streaming down. He hadn't wanted to break down in front of Noah, but he couldn't help it. These two months had been hell for him as well. He had tried to hide it all behind a smile and move on, only to find out he couldn't. He wasn't happy without Noah, he still loved him and nothing could change that.

"Cody…"

Cody opened his eyes only to find the other boy leaning over, kissing him. Shock kept him from reacting and Noah soon pulled away.

"I don't want to be with anyone else either. I'm not over you – I'd never be over you. We could give this another shot…if you're willing."

Cody smiled a little at this "I thought you were smarter than this, Noah."

Noah arched an eyebrow at this. Before he could say anything though, Cody wrapped his arm around Noah's shoulders and sent their lips crashing back together. The tanner boy smirked against the kiss before placing his hands on both sides of Cody's head and deepening it.

Both soon broke apart, lightly panting. Cody smiled at Noah before speaking

"That answer your question?"


Yeah...don't make comments about the song okay. I have a varied music taste even if most of it is classic rock and emo-ish.

Thanks for reading!