~ This is a EquiusxNepeta fan fiction. I don't think this ship deserves enough love. It makes me so happy! Deal with it. Anyways, I hope you like it. It's about their relationship going from Moral to Matesprit. SBurb never existed in this world. I also was really doped up on medication when I wrote this, so I apologize for spelling and grammatical errors in advance. ~
~ sBurb nonexistent
It had been several solar sweeps since I had seen my friend Equius. He had grown more mature since we had last seen each other, or at least that is what I had gathered from trolling him. He had promised today he would visit my hive, and I being incredibly excited had gotten everything ready for him.
My hive had been cleaned to perfection. Like the sort of perfection that makes a perfectionist sigh in relief at the sight.
Though, I hoped he wouldn't mind my new appearance. I had let my hair grown long and my shirt had been changed out out for a tank top. I liked my hair long now as it was fun to brush out, and my tank top made it so much easier for hunting with all the movement going on.
My body was also now clearly toned from my vigorous hunting sessions with my lusus. I wasn't chiseled, but there was strength under my light grey skin. My back had also acquired a few new scars from a few 'mishaps' while hunting, but I hadn't told anyone about those. I was too... Nervous.
I couldn't tell anyone.
At least... not yet.
My thoughts went back to Equius, it had sounded like he had a matesprit. My shipping wall was saying so, even if I didn't know the troll. My feeling though we're getting in the way of my rational thought. I felt jealous and angry, but if I said anything about my feeling for him I would run the risk of hurting our relationship. I loved him too much to do that. He was the most beautiful being I had ever seen inside and out, even if he was marred from battling robots.
Nobody was ever perfect, but for me he was perfection.
Hearing a knock at my door, I hopped off my bed lightly. I was barefoot. It felt better. I was in rather revealing clothes a chest strap over my breasts to keep them from moving around and shorts, but I trusted Equius not to do anything.
Opening the door, I smiled upwards. It was him: my darling one and only Equius. He looked at me seriously through his broken glasses, but I could've sworn I saw him blush blue. He nodded down at me.
"Nepeta is so happy to see you!" I said reverting back to how I used to talk as I hugged him tightly. It had been awhile. He smelled of sweat and stale washing soap. it was comforting. He place a large hand on my head and ruffled my hair careful not to rub my horns. I was still short, but I was up to his chest now. He was feel defined and I could feel it even though it was under the thick tank top material.
"So, Nepeta how have you ben?" He asked in his low and deep no nonsense voice. He was in the same clothes as usual, but that was troll fashion. It didn't exactly exist.
"Nepeta is doing purr-fect as her friend Equius is here!" I purred. I was acting like a little grub again. Damn it. He wasn't going to approve of it, but he for some reason chuckled softly. He had never done that before. I think he was happy or at least thought I was being funny, which he had never done before.
But, even so, that wasn't so bad right?
"Nepeta is sorry," I pulled away and out of our hug, as much as I didn't want too. "For her forward behavior, and She has a question, why did you come to visit after so long? Don't you have a matesprit by now? Shouldn't you be spending time with whoever that is."
In my heart, I wanted to kick myself for asking that. My secret love for him was killing me.I had been the latest bloomer of the rest of the group our trolls and the most innocent. But, Equius, even he had been an ass once in awhile, had tried to help me out. He had been my Moral for the longest time now. We supported each other through thick and thin, but I wanted us to be more than that. I really, really did.
Trying to push my thoughts out of my head, I listened to his answer. I had half missed it:
"-peta, You should be pleased with me staying here. I need time away from my hive, and you are the only one I trust enough to stay with." He voice was clear and precise as always. I also like the last sentence of his answers.
I laughed cheerily at his answer to keep me from squee-ing.
"That wasn't mean to be funny."
I flushed and nodded. He was right. Blood colors meant everything now. It could make you the boss. You could control someone. Even, it could control who you mated with. It was so, so stupid. I didn't agree with it! But, every single time I did something against him. He got all... Weird.. Like weird-weird. Like Sollux on mind beds action weird.
"So, show me around, " he ordered me, and I complied.
We were already in the one technical room, which made up almost all of my house, but the guest room was a little cave in the cave. He seemed bored, but put up with me and my chatterand we stopped in front of the guest bedroom.
"So, this room, Nepeta is showing you, is your room Equius," I showed him in. A curtain blocked the room off before I opened it. It was a simple room. A hammock was the bed, it was hung between two walls covered with a blanket and pillow, and there was a rug lying lifelessly on the floor. An empty dresser was to the side of the room. It was a little dusty, but cozy. My sort of cozy.
He nodded, and I couldn't tell if he was happy or sad or upset. He wasn't hard to read except when he was deciding.
"Yes.. Yes this will do just nicely." He nodded and explored the tiny space. I leaned against the entryway into the room watching him. My emotions of wanting and logic were combating in my head.
I wasn't going to last much long against them either of them. I was going to either either embrace him or get trampled by my emotions and common sense. Neither of those would be very pleasant to say the least.
Embarrassment had shown her shy face and was twisting through my mind now. I couldn't just tell him I liked him. He had told me that low bloods were not to confess feelings of affection to higher bloods. It was the other way around, but if I didn't confess soon, it was going to kill me. I loved and cared about him so much more than anyone. Anyone or anything.
I would destroy my shipping wall to be with him!
I wanted to be with him forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and... You get the point.
"Equius," I said softly walking up to him. He raised an eyebrow at me in curiousity. I stopped when I got up to him. All of my courage was being put on the line. "Can Nepeta tell you something?"
I asked that in my cutesy voice. The voice he had learned he couldn't resist even if he was a high blood. He nodded slowly and tentatively. He was not for sure if he should get ready to fight playfully like we usually did in our rare RP sessions, or if I was being serious.
"Nepeta needs you close you eyes though and bend down,so as she needs to whisper it in your ear."
"Is that an order?" He asked all serious. "Nepeta, you're a low blood, you know your place."
"Nepeta beckons to you to do what she says." He didn't look so happy, but he did was I asked. I placed my hands on his shoulders.
The actual act of doing it was harder to do that I thought. I don't even know what possessed me. I was being hopeless romantic again. But, I think as our lips met or the first time, we both realize the raw passion we had for each other. Something more than the pale quadrant participants should have for each other.
He didn't push me away as I thought he would've. He hugged me closer to him for the briefest of moments to my utter surprise. His lips were dry and chapped, but full and warm. He kissed me back again, I hugged his shoulders. Lips meeting again for another tender embrace
Our height difference was a lot more obvious now.
As we pulled away, we both stared at each other both of us embarrassed but happy. I could tell. His cheeks were flushed like they always got when he was. I also saw through his glasses for the first time and seen that his eyes were deep set and a deep blood orange.
It was a beautiful color.
"Nepeta, I believed you had a matesprit." He worded it slowly. He sounded a little stunned. I didn't blame him. I shook my head slowly. He blinked in surprise. At least it looked like a look of surprise.
"Nepeta thought you had a matesprit too. Nepeta rests her head on your shoulder embarrassed about what she did as she is shy," I actually was following what I was saying. It was difficult for me not too. I felt like a grub being cuddled by their kind lusus, but also incr-rredibly nervous. I was trembling.
"Nepeta, I-I think it would be proper to move our relationship to the flushed quadrant." His words made my heart race. I was so excited. I didn't think anything could've held me to the ground. "As you were forward with your emotions, I-I think you were dis-disobeying a rule."
"Nepeta is very sorry for not being right, but she couldnt help herself," I nodded in agreement with my words. He always acted so strange when people disobeyed orders.
"N-nepeta... Since yo-you are my, 'my'," he emphasized my. "Matesprit, I think we need to see the deal of the flushed quadrant as well."
I think I knew why it was called that. My cheeks were hot, and I was embarrassed. I hadn't thought about bucket filling yet even less that doing it with someone, but the idea of being the closest I could possibly ever be with him, made my heart light with joy.
~ To Be Continued ~
