I woke the next morning, my face buried in chocolate hair that most definitely didn't belong to me. My arm was tucked around a slender waist and thin fingers were tangled in mine. Her chest rose and fell softly as I debated whether or not to get up now, or wait for her. As if she could hear my thoughts, she suddenly roused and rolled over to me. She blinked and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. Those eyes. Auburn and shining. Warm and soft. Damn, she was beautiful.
"Good morning." She said, her voice rough from a night of drinking.
"Yeah." I replied in a soft tone. We looked at each other for a moment longer, and suddenly I was bombarded with images of last night. Her lips. Her hands. Her skin. Fuck. We both cleared our throats and shook off the visible tension that had coated the room. I rolled out of bed and ran a hand through my hair as I thought about what my next action should be. I knew for certain that I couldn't be in this room for much longer. I stood and walked out of the room and into my bathroom. I looked at my reflection, noting the hickey gracing the crook of my neck. Soon her reflection occupied the space behind me and I looked up at her with cold eyes.
"I should get going." She said, pointing behind her. I nodded my head and we shared another tense glare.
"I'm sorry." I blurted out as she was about to turn to go. She paused and looked at me, curiosity ebbing her features.
"For what?"
"For kissing you." I said simply, hoping to convey the kind of distance I needed to protect myself.
"I'm not." She said simply, shrugging before she left.
I shook my head as I looked back at my reflection. I had just thrown myself back to square one. God dammit.
Well, you know. If I can't beat this crush. I might as well enjoy it.
So I got ready for school, regretting the fact that we got so drunk the night before. My head was pounding as I pulled into the parking lot and parked my car. I waltzed up to the front door with my sunglasses on and a coffee in my hand. Today was going to be rough to say the least. But I was going to work with it.
I got to my locker and dug out the things I needed, closing the door and gently as I could granted the headache I had. Looking over to Vega's locker, I saw her standing there talking to Cat. I strutted towards them, and when she saw me coming, I had to suppress the smirk threatening to ruin my facade as I watched her eyes trail up and down my body.
"What's up, losers?" I asked.
"Jade! We were just talking about you." Cat giggled excitedly.
"Oh, I hope it was Vega talking about how I'm such a good fu-"
"Fun loving friend." Vega said, cutting me off completely and casting me a warning glare. I looked at her with an innocent smirk as I shrugged.
"Jade hates fun." Cat said confused, as she passed a strange look to Vega and then me.
"I hate a lot of things. But I can tell you one thing I don't hate. The sound Vega makes when I make her cu-"
"Come out to go shopping like she did last night." Vega saved herself again, this time jabbing me in the ribs with her elbow.
Cat's confusion overtook her bubbly nature as she tried to piece together just what the hell I was playing at. Vega looked so nervous, I wouldn't have been able to control my laughter had this little spectacle not been the determining factor about whether or not I could execute this properly.
"Okay." Cat finally said, her airy voice getting drowned out by the bell. The entire hallway erupted as students made their way to their classes. As Vega tried to leave, my hand shot out and grabbed her wrist. We shared a terse glare until the majority of the hall had been cleared.
"I have to get something out of my locker." She said, her voice forced as Cat nodded simply and flounced off in the direction of her class. As Vega rummaged aimlessly in her locker for something she clearly didn't need, I took this as my opportunity to up the anti.
I leaned into her back, pressing myself against her as my fingers gripped her hips. Her breath hitched as I used my nose to move the hair away from her ear, "You know, we really should do something about this sexual tension. It's almost...palpable." I whispered before biting on her ear lobe before walking away, cackling like the crazy bitch I was. The crazy bitch I acted like I was.
I spent the next two class periods debating on the next way I was going to torture Vega, realizing at this point that I was also torturing myself. But hey, if she can act disinterested and detached, I can do it twice as well. So fuck it.
As I strutted down the hall before lunch, I made a point to hold my head high just in case my path should cross Vega's. As I made my way by the bathroom, a hand shot out of the door and yanked me inside, shoving me against it once it closed. My gaze fell on a pair of auburn eyes and perfect cheek bones.
"Vega." I said, keeping my voice firm.
"You're a tease, Jade." She whispered as her lips moved against mine.
"Tell me something I don't know." I said in between kisses.
"Tell me what happened with Beck?" She asked when we broke apart for a break, our chests heaving and our lips chapped.
"He didn't do anything for me anymore. We've been over for a while, Vega. You know that." I told her, wondering why she would choose now to bring up a topic long put to rest.
"Just checking out the competition." She replied in a low voice with a coy smile. She leaned in for another kiss, though I dodged it and looked at her, abandoning this succubus-style attitude I held for the purpose of distraction.
"You've never had any competition. You know that." I said in a soft voice as my brow furrowed in frustration and I shook my head slightly.
The lust in her eyes ebbed as she took a step back and swiped the pad of her thumb against her lower lip. She looked irritated with me. I had given her nothing to be irritated for, so that instantly fueled my own frustration. I looked at her with a pained expression, one I knew she would easily be able to read.
"What, did I ruin the mood?" I asked snidely.
"Little bit." She replied tersely.
I scoffed, shaking my head and crossing my arms, "Why are you doing this?"
She shrugged, "Because for a long time, there were no strings here. This was just what we did. And then, that changed. You..."
"No. Do not. Don't you dare try to spin this on me. You were just as much into this as I was. Or do I need to remind you of all the late night pillow talk about how much you liked me and how badly you wanted to be with me. Then you bail out like...like I've got the fucking plague or something. I'm sick of this shit, Tori. I'm not just some science experiment. And then you go...you go and you give me that bull shit last night." I said, my voice growing louder.
"What are you talking about?" She asked me incredulously.
"Of course. Of course you don't remember. Because that would just make this too easy." I said snidely, shaking my head as I began pacing around the bathroom. She did nothing but watch me for a moment, clearly sensing the festering anger building up inside me.
"What is it?" She asked as she reached out for my arm to cease my movement.
"You told me you love me." I looked at her with harsh eyes, my words coming out sharp like knives.
Her eyes grew wide and she stared at me in shock, "I didn't...I mean, I do, but..." She stammered.
I shook my head, "Save it. Seriously. I'm done."
"Jade, no. Come on. We've got at least a half hour before this period is over. Just stay here with me. Please? It's just us right now. Let's leave everything else outside of this room. Just us. Like we used to." She said, her voice growing soft as she took a step closer to me, rubbing my arms gently before cupping my cheek.
What the hell was 'us'? Two girls who supposedly hate each other but can't keep our hands off of each other. Friends who love each other but are too scared to admit it. Enemies.
"No. Not now. I...Just no." I said as I took her by the wrists and lifted her hands from my face.
"What's making you leave, Jade?" Tori asked, stopping me from my retreat from the restroom.
"The same thing that isn't making me stay." I answered her simply before leaving the bathroom, and trying again to leave her out of my life.
It's a little messy. I figured Jade would be wrecked with these conflicting emotions. Going back and forth with being vulnerable and trying to act as though she's got everything under control. Ugh. Poor Jade. Feedback is welcomed and much appreciated. Until next time!
