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So, the first chapter doesn't really follow the timeline, I think it's more like a prologue type of thing.

Pay attention to the dates before each chappiee(:

Hope you guys don't get confused(:

So yeah, enjoy(:

January 4th, 2010.

It all started with a dream.

A stupid, meaningless dream.

There I am, alone.

Surrounding me is plain, white, emptiness.

Like something you see in movies.

Where you're in one, huge white room.

Except it isn't a room.

There are no walls.

No ceiling.

Just a big, empty space.

I look around me, but nothing is there.

At first I start to panic.

Where am I? I think.

Where's Carly? Spencer? Freddie?

And then I see him.

He appears out of nowhere,

And he almost starts to glow.

Something about the way he looks just makes my heart jump.

He's beautiful.

His chocolate brown eyes look deep into mine.

He has a grin on his face as he walks towards me.

I walk in his direction, to get closer to him faster.

He approaches me.

He gets closer.

So close our noses almost touch.

He grabs me by my waist.

My heart pounds rapidly.

He pulls me in as if to kiss me.

I shut my eyes with anticipation.

But he never does.

He just stands there,

His arm around my waist,

His lips only an inch away from mine.

So I lean towards him.

But I'm stuck.

I cannot move.

I can't reach his lips.

I think I am trapped.

Like I can't move at all.

But then I move back a little bit.

I can only move backwards.

I can only move backwards.

And all this time,

He isn't even making an attempt to get closer.

I'm trying.

Why isn't he?

Why is it so hard to get close to him?

Why can't I move.

Suddenly, I realize I've been here too long.

She appears behind him, and he turns around to face her.

I try to pull him back, but he's getting bigger.

Or am I getting smaller?

I am shrinking.

I tug on his pant leg to get his attention,

To tell him I'm still here,

But by now he's staring lovingly into her eyes.

She wraps his arms around his neck, and they get close.

Closer than we were.

As their lips meet, things seem to happen in slow motion

And the second they begin to feel each other's embrace,

A powerful force comes out of nowhere pulls me away.

I scream, but they're too consumed in each other to notice.

Until I vanish.

Until I no longer matter.

Unimportant,

Unloved,

Forgotten.

And then I woke.

And for some reason, my heart raced for the rest of the night.

A feeling I could not find the words to describe.

Both revolting, and yet, absolutely perfect in every way.

And at that moment, a horrible thought flickered through my brain.

Kind of like Freddie.

SNEAK PEAK AT NEXT CHAPTER:

And for some reason, I always feel like it's worth it. Because that tingle, that empty feeling in my heart, it gives me such a rush, I can't help but smile.