Chapter 1

May 7, 2011

Shit! I thought as I went flying around the curve too fast and almost ran off the road. I had just dropped Seth and Leah off with Billy and Rebecca and I was so off schedule. I didn't know that Rebecca was going to be there or that she planned on going with Billy and the kids to Seattle to see their cousins. She was more chatty than usual this morning, which is saying a lot, but I couldn't stop her. She's been trying so hard to have a baby for so long, that I didn't have the heart to tell her I couldn't listen to her latest trial with IVF. I also didn't want to explain to them why I was in such a hurry. People, including Jacob's family, had been hounding me for some time to start dating again, but I just wasn't comfortable talking about it yet. Besides, was this a date?

I knew that my babies were in good hands with Grandpa Billy and Aunt Becca, but it was the first time I had been away from them overnight since Jacob died. I took a little longer than usual to say goodbye and made them promise to call me as soon as they got to Seattle. The trip from Forks back to Port Angeles was so familiar that I felt like I could have made it with my eyes closed. I let my mind wander to the last time I had seen him.

"Oh my God! Bella, you have a note on your car from Edward!" My roommate, Rosalie, came flying through the dorm yelling. I couldn't help it, my head snapped up from my Psychology book and I ran over to grab it from her.

"We'll talk about why you are taking notes off of my car later." I looked at her, "but did you read it?"

"Of course not Bella." she looked hurt. "I just saw the perfect handwriting on the front and knew that it must be from the elusive Edward that you try so damned hard not to talk about!"

"There's nothing to say!" I snatched the letter away from her and began reading:

B-

I was at UW tying up some loose ends. I couldn't remember which dorm you lived in, so I drove around the parking lot of all of them looking for your big ugly truck. I sat outside for a while hoping that I would get a chance to see you, but I had to get home. I've missed you. I know I shouldn't be here or writing you this letter, but I couldn't stop myself. Anyway, I will be in Forks for another week or so before I leave for Dartmouth. I would love to see you one more time before I go. Please call me.

Love always,

E

My heart sank. He was really going that far away. I couldn't help but wonder if his leaving had something to do with me.

"Oh my God, Bella, you're fucking killing me! What's it say?" Rosalie was staring at me with those huge blue eyes. I handed her the note and let her read it. "Are you gonna call him?"

"I don't know yet." I said, all the while knowing that was bullshit. Of course I would call him.

"Bullshit! Of course you're going to call him." Rosalie knew me so well. It still surprised me that we had only known each other for a few months. We were as different as two people can be, but at times, it felt like we had been separated at birth. That is if you don't look at us. Rosalie is tall, leggy, and blonde. She's incredibly gorgeous and turns heads everywhere we go. I, on the other hand, am short and plain. I have always described myself as having shit-brown hair and eyes. I have never understood why this beautiful person would give me so much of her time and attention. Kind of like I never understood what Edward saw in me. Apparently, I was right with that one…

As predicted, I called him as soon as Rosalie left for her next class. His mother, Esme answered the phone. "Bella! I'm so happy to hear from you. How are you dear?"

"I'm good Mrs. Cullen. How are you?"

"Please call me Esme, or Mom. You will always be a part of this family." she continued talking for a few minutes, but I had no idea what she was saying. It felt like a knife was going straight through my heart. I knew I was still in pretty bad shape when that one little comment could totally throw my world into a tailspin. "Let me get Edward, dear. Hold on just a minute."

"Thank you Mrs… Esme." I said as she laid the phone down. Then I heard the most beautiful sound in the world.

"Bella! I was afraid you wouldn't get the note." no affirmations of love, no telling me that he wanted to try again, but in my heart, I was sure that it was exactly what he wanted.

"Technically, I didn't get the note. My roommate did."

"Oh. So do you think you could spare some time for an old friend in the next week? I can come to Seattle if that would make it easier." The words old friend breaking my heart just a little bit more. I knew that I should tell him no, but I couldn't get the right words out.

"Actually, Charlie has some fishing tournament this weekend. He will be gone, and he's asked me to stay at his house and wait on some big package that he's expecting." I had actually told Charlie that I wasn't coming, but I was sure that he wouldn't be too upset that I changed my plans… As long as he didn't know Edward was involved.

"Great! So I'll come by Charlie's Friday evening. Around 5:00?"

"Sounds good. See you then." I was thinking to myself that it was going to be a long week.

"And B… I really do miss you."

Trying to hold back the tears, I quietly said, "I miss you too. See you Friday."

The rest of the week seemed to take forever. I had two exams that week, thankfully, so at least I had something to do. On Thursday night, Rosalie asked me to go out with her and some friends, but I knew that I wouldn't be much fun, so I told her that I had to study some more. I knew the material forwards and backwards, but she didn't need to know that. As soon as she left, I took a pain killer that was left from when I had my wisdom teeth removed and went to sleep. Tomorrow couldn't come soon enough.

I flew through my exam and practically ran out of the class. I had packed my bag the night before and thrown it in the truck before I left for class. As I was walking to the parking lot to get my truck, my head started throbbing. The medicine that I had taken to help me sleep didn't seem to agree with me. I was afraid to take anything though, so I just got in the truck and headed to Forks.

I had planned to make it to Charlie's in time to take a hot shower and put on something a little nicer than the jeans and long sleeved tee that I had worn to class, but as I pulled onto my street, I saw the silver Volvo already sitting in my driveway. My stomach started doing crazy little flip flops and I forgot all about my headache for a few minutes. He was leaning against the side of his car with his Dartmouth hat on, and he was even more beautiful that I remembered him being. I practically jumped out of my car and flew into his waiting arms. Everything felt right in the world. I was exactly where I was supposed to be. Then I remembered my headache and groaned.

"What's wrong?" Edward looked me over appraisingly and didn't seem to like what he saw. Well if he would have been here at the right time, I could have made myself a little more presentable.

"I have a headache. I'll be fine though, I just need to get some Advil." Edward pulled my ponytail out and ran his fingers through my hair to rub my scalp. It felt like heaven.

"What have you eaten today, B?" but I was having a hard time focusing on his words because his hands on me felt so damn good. He pulled my head back to make me look at him and asked again with a bit of a smirk on his face.

"Um, I don't remember." Why does he always make me feel like a bumbling idiot?

"Let's get you some food and caffeine." You always get a headache when you don't eat enough or get your caffeine."

Edward grabbed my bag out of the back seat and headed to the house. He found the key in the same spot Charlie had been hiding it since before I was born and opened the door for us. I hadn't been home in a few months, but absolutely nothing had changed. I sat down at the table while Edward got me a Coke, some Advil, and a sandwich. He sat down and said, "Eat."

I devoured the sandwich, remembering that I hadn't eaten anything since lunch yesterday. Somehow he was always right… the headache started to go away. We talked about college and about the year he spent at UW before I got there. I asked about Carlisle and Esme, and I even asked how Emmett was doing (even though I knew that Emmett had never been my biggest fan). I couldn't bring myself to ask about the one person that I was most curious about… Jessica.

I got up from the table to put my dishes in the sink, and Edward's arms wrapped around my waist. He kissed my head and asked if my headache was gone. I told him that it was getting better, and he grabbed my hand to pull me to the couch in the living room. Sitting with him on this couch brought back so many memories, some of which made me blush just thinking about. As if he knew exactly what I was thinking, Edward began to chuckle.

He turned me around so that my back was to him and laid me down in his lap. He started rubbing my hair and shoulders which felt so damned good. We didn't talk. I just lay there and enjoyed his hands being on me. Soon, his hands started rubbing my collarbone and upper arms. Without realizing it, I arched my back and moaned slightly. Edward smirked at me and dipped his hand into the top of my shirt. I looked up at his beautiful face to see sheer desire.

I sat up and turned my body to give us both easier access. I pulled Edward's head to me and kissed the side of his mouth. He responded with a small groan and licked my bottom lip. I took his tongue into my mouth. My entire body was reacting to the kiss. His hands that had been tangled in my hair began to travel down my arms. He held my hands for a minute while we kissed, and then he began playing with the hem of my shirt. It was almost as if he were asking permission, so I took my hands out of his perfect hair long enough to reach down and pull my shirt off. I couldn't help but wish I would have had the time to change into the cute little bra and panty set that I had brought with me, but I didn't think about it for long.

Edward's thumb began stroking the underside of my breast through my bra. I arched into him and moved a hand under his shirt to rub his chest. "You feel so fucking good B."

I didn't think I could get any more turned on until he said that. I crawled into his lap straddling him and kissing him even harder. I pulled his shirt over his head and began kissing his shoulders and chest. Moving my way up his neck to his ears, I began thrusting my hips and rubbing against him. As I nibbled on his earlobe, Edward thrust his hips and I felt his erection straining against me. He reached behind me to unclasp my bra and pull it off. I straightened my back so that my breasts were close to his face. Edward took my right nipple into his mouth causing my whole body to react. I grabbed Edward's hair and rubbed my hips against him again causing him to groan. Edward's pants appeared to be making him uncomfortable, so I unbuttoned them freeing his enormous cock. I shifted my body so that I was able to completely release him and take him in my hand.

Shit! Shit! Shit! I thought as I almost missed my turn and had to cut off another car to make it onto the highway. Serves me right for thinking about Edward that way. I need to be thinking more about the fact that I ran into him the next night at the movie theatre with that bitch, Jessica Stanley. Remember Bella, he married her… not you. I could tell myself repeatedly that he and Jessica were divorced and that he was coming to see me tonight, but none of that mattered anymore. I couldn't wait to see him tonight and let whatever happened happen, but I could NOT become emotionally involved with Edward Cullen again.

I pulled into my long driveway halfway expecting Edward to be waiting for me although he wasn't expected for about two hours. Thankfully he wasn't there yet, which gave me the time I needed to take that shower and put on that cute bra and panty set this time. Hey, you never know… I also had to put the finishing touches on the Ziti and decide what to wear. It was unseasonably warm for May, so I thought I might even wear that little sun dress that I bought when I took the kids to Hawaii over winter break.


A/N - This is my first FanFic, so please feel free to review any constructive criticism you may have. I would love to hear from you!

What the hell happened at the movie theatre? How did Bella react???