I've never thought someone like me could feel an emotion such as this. Love.. Until she ran into me that rainy morning, whilst hurrying to school. Never one for being on time I had later discovered, she had yet again woken up late and had to rush to school, and in her rush, bumped into me and my paperwork. I see the image of said paperwork steadily soaking up the April rain shower as she ran off, shouting her apologies; not only to me but at other people. I remember staring at her retreating back whilst my poor notes lay sodden on the floor. I see that same retreating back hurry out of Crown. I want to follow her, but I just can't. There's no way, after all this, she would ever even consider going out with me. I'm just the Jerk, Mamoru-Baka. I clench the hands I had just run through my hair in anger. I couldn't help being the bad guy!

My best friend, Motoki, sighs in annoyance and resignation. I can see he wants to make a comment about how I should be nicer to "little Usa-chan", but he can't say it. He knows how I feel about her. He knows other things. He knows what I'm like, how I'm not like, how I should be like but can't be.

So he does not say anything. I don't utter a word either. We just sit in silence, the sounds of laughter and chatter, and pouring rain surrounding us, suffocating me. I see that Motoki wishes I could be more open with my emotions, instead of having to turn my love into cruelty and humiliation. I wish that too. I wish that the beautiful angel who fell into my life could fall into my waiting arms, where I could love her forever. [AN - I'm sorry, that's terrible, I'll change that at some point.]