Chapter ten

" asia ? Is there something wrong? Did I say the wrong thing?"

"Randy," I barely even whispered, and for the first time since he had told me how he felt he saw a flash of something in my eyes, but it was not what he wanted to see, "I'm sorry, but I can't do this," I shook my head, tears slowly beginning to fall down my cheeks.

"What?" he shook his head, over and over again, trying to stop my words from sinking in. he knew he had told me if I didn't want this, then it would be okay, but he hadn't really expected a no then, "You don't... want to be with me?"

"No, it's not that..." I caught myself before I finished my sentence, and pulled my hands away from him as I began another, "You don't want to be in a relationship with me, Randy."

"You're joking, right?" he laughed bitterly, "I just spilt my guts to you, and you tell me that I don't want to be with you? I love you. I want to be with you, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, I want..."

"To take care of me? To do everything for me because I can't?" I was crying heavily now, and my voice was harsh as I pointed down to my legs, "You have no idea what you're talking about. You don't want to spend the rest of your life stuck with someone like me. You have the perfect job, the perfect life, Randy... and I will not spoil it for you. I'm sorry, but I won't let you throw away everything you have because of me."

He sat sat completely frozen, watching as I struggled to pull herself off the bench and back into my wheelchair. he wanted to just accept the fact that I didn't want what he did, but he couldn't bring him self to do it, because there was still something that he didn't know...

"Do you love me?" he spoke up, barely above a whisper.

i had barely moved a few inches before I stopped moving completely, his words obviously hitting a soft spot. he gasped, hoping... no, praying, that that soft spot was that i felt the same as he did.

"That doesn't matter, Randy," I shook my head, my eyes on the floor.

"It's the only thing that does matter!" he growled, taking a hold of my shoulders and pulling me around gently, so that I was once again looking his way.

I wasn't getting away with this until he knew how I really did feel, "I need to know, asia . Do you love me?"

"I... I..."

"Tell me the truth, please," he was practically begging with me now, but he seem like he didn't care.

"I... I do," my eyes glazed over, and a fresh batch of tears began to fall. A sob broke out from my throat as I began to talk again, "I love you so much. I've loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you, Randy. I had even been planning to talk to you about it, before the accidents... but afterwards? I couldn't," i shook my head, and he ever so slowly lifted his hands to wipe away the tears with his thumbs, "I couldn't d o that to you, ask you to be my boyfriend, when I was like this, so... so useless and damaged"

"Useless? Damaged No, asia..." He began to protest.

"Don't," my voice was so harsh as I interrupted, that his mouth closed with a snap of surprise, "How could I ever be the perfect girlfriend for you? I'll never be able to talk walks with you; I'll never be able to do things for you that a normal girlfriend would..."

He could feel his own eyes burning as he looked at me now, so broken. he had always loved how amazingly brave I was about everything that had happened, but this... this didn't change how he felt about me. In fact, it made his heart swell to double its size, if that were possible. It made him want to protect me, to comfort he. he wanted me to know that he would always be there as a shoulder to cry on, that I'd stand by me no matter what. he wanted me to know that he wanted to be with me forever.

"I don't want those things, Asia... and I don't care how many things you have to say to me to try and scare me away, because none of it is going to work. I love you, and the only thing that I want is you. Forever."

The moment he said that I froze. There was reason I mean I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be his girlfriend. I wanted us to raise our son together. I wanted that so bad but john hated it. I love my brother and my brothers are the only family I have since they adopted me. They were the only family I knew I could not lose them over randy. But me and Camden could not lose randy. But the moment he said he wanted to be with me forever was the same moment my head start spinning.

He wasn't sure what it was, but all of a sudden, my tears started to disappear, and my eyes refocused on his own. He didn't say anything as we stared into each other's eyes... instead; he allowed me the time I needed to decide what I was going to do. Time seemed to last forever as he waited and I thought, but finally, I spoke up... with one, simple question.

"Forever?"

A smile as wide as he could possibly muster grew across his face as I inched over, and pulled me into the tightest hug he had ever given me. His own tears had spilled from his eyes and down his cheeks by that point, but he didn't care. All he cared about was the fact that I had accepted... and that I loved him too.

"Forever," he whispered as we pulled away, only to find our faces barely inches apart, "I love you."

"I love you too, Randy," I shook my head, before pulling him towards me to share our first of many kisses as a new couple.

Then we heard a knock on the door and I pull away from him and smile softly. The door opens and I see john and the kids and smile softly. Camden was dressed up to toe in john gear. I giggle softly and look at alanna who was in blue jeans and a legacy t-shirt. John said "there you are I have been looking all over for you, I thought the stupid moron grab you again see this is why I do not like it when u are alone u go off and you could get your self hurt" I roll my eyes big brother john was a big pain in the butt if u ask me. I said "sorry I saw that randy get hurt and I just wanted to make sure he was ok, beside no one is going to hurt me half the locker room is scared of u and the other half is my body guards I think I am safe and beside I am safe with randy" I was mad at him. He had told me his friend had been sad and miserable for months and now I knew why. I wanted to pop him, hit him and never stop. John said how are you, randy. Randy replied can't fight tonight but I will be fine just need to relax so I think I am going back to the hotel. John said great now I have to find a tag team partner. I look behind john and I see evan. Me and evan became friends in this own process. I smile and said how about evan, I mean edge attack him how about u pick evan. Evan look at me and replied yeah I mean that sound like a good idea pick me. John said ok I will pick evan but you go to my locker room with the kids and randy and don't leave until I come and get you. I sigh and replied ok or I could just go back with randy. I was going to finish the sentence when john give me the "do what I say no back talking" look. I hated that look especial from him and said ok ok come on lets go to uncle john locker room and watch him get his butt kick. I was in a bad mood and that line was just to show him that I was in a mood. The kids and randy want in front of me and john grab me and pull me back. John said what was with that attitude" I said we will talk later I am very disappointed in you out of all people. I roll away leave him to think about something as he head off to his match. He announced that randy was not fighting that evan was and the fans want nuts. Randy look at me and hug me and kiss the temple and said you know what fans like I like that. I smile as me and the kids and randy watch and john and evan won their match.

Later that night randy and alanna and john and Camden and me were in the hotel room. John took Camden since Camden was a sleep to his room. Randy look at me with a sad look on his face knowing I did not want to leave. I lean over and kiss his cheek and said" look we know we care about each other trust me we will be together soon I promise" john said asia come on I am tired and we have a long drive ahead of us let move. I hated it when he want all marine act. I wanted to smack him as hard as I could but I had to talk to him.

Randy laugh when he saw the look on my face and said you better know before general butt head comes back I will be thinking of u, my angel good night. I smile and I left his room. When I roll into john he had Camden on my bed and he was on the couch watching tv. I roll over and turn it off and get in front of it. He look mad and said what the heck. I replied what the heck u are going to ask me what the heck, you told me your friend was sad and depressed for months guess what u had something to do with it, randy blame him self for me falling or getting push down the stairs randy blames himself for me getting kidnapped I know he did not blame him self before I land in the hospital I know u said something to him you are jerk, if you are mad that I did not tell you about me and him on prom night fine but u had no right to take it out on randy and make him feel like crap, you had no right to take another six months that Camden could have gotten to know his dad away from him, I thought u cared about me and your nephew but I guess I was wrong" I roll out of the room and I roll into the room to Camden and laid down beside him. I softly rub his back and said" do not worry baby boy you will meet your daddy soon I promise. I soon fall a sleep beside him