Chapter 16

It was Thursday the day me and Ashley were going to go to the doctor office to find out if I was pregnant or not. Last night I give john what he call me to get which was a hat and t-shirt for a fan that he just run into at the club. I had not talk to randy yet I was mad and hurt and most of all just confused. He told me he love me and yet he check on me, not with my best friend but what made it worse was it was the one female I hated more then anything. No one knew what I saw I did not want to tell anyone because if anyone know it would get back to john and I would not hear the end of it. As we sat in the waiting room my knee was bouncing up and down like really fast. The only reason that was going on was because I was nervous. My hands were shaking as well, if I was pregnant I would be rasie child alone again. I mean I knew randy would be there for us but right now I was so mad at him that I could not even look at him. I knew I had to tell him but right now my body was fulled with angry. Ashley look over at me and said are you ok. I look at her and I knew I had to tell someone and I knew most likely Ashley was the one person that would not say a word. I said no I am not. Ashley replied what is wrong. I said you know last night john called me and told me to go get something for him out of his room. She nod her head and said yeah what about it. I replied his room was next to Kelly's and I heard her and a guy going at it, I was laughing because my brother would have to hear that all night long and be miserable well I heard the guy saying something about the viper is going to get you all night long well I thought it was kelly telling the guy to call himself the viper because we all know how bad she wants randy anyways, she said something else or the guy did and I get mad because if john heard them he would think randy was there and he would tell me all about it and it might not have been randy so I go over to kelly room before I want downstairs, I want over there because you know john he hates that me and randy have a little boy together, he hates that me and randy love each other so much, so I wanted to shut her up and the person that open the door" I stop as tears roll down my cheek and Ashley look at me and said tell me. I replied it was randy he was sleeping with her Ashley he told me he love me that me and him forever, he stood up to my brother for us and then seeing him cheating on me last night I do not know I am not sure I want to be with him anymore god I love him so much" Ashley hug me and told me that everything would be ok, but in my heart and in my mind I was not so sure.

we had been waiting a hour and I was about to lose my freaken mind. My phone was going off and I knew who it was and I turn off the phone. I was glad that no one knew where we were at, if they did randy would be there and bugging the crap out of me and trying to apologize or something. We told Evan and he told us that he would just tell everyone we want to the mall or that I want with Ashley to autograph signing. Finally they call my name and they do the testing and asking question in the back. Ashley said if you are do u want a another little boy or a girl. I smile softly and said I do not care as long as he or she is health that is all I care about. Ashley nod her head as we just sat there in the room waiting for the doctor. I was the most impatient person you will ever meet in your life and waiting on doctors about some test result was driving me nuts. It felt like the walls of the room were closing it on us. It felt like I could not breathe I was so nervous and scared. Finally the doctor walks in and said hi I am dr. miller and we have the test results and congrates mrs. Cena you are two weeks pregnant. I was shocked and I did not know what to say. I was happy to know the truth and I was sad and scared because me and him were well I did not know what me and him were at the moment. He had cheated I could not trust a guy that cheated once a cheater always a cheater.

Me and Ashley walk to her car and get in and head back to the hotel and I called evan and told him we were on our way back since he had ashely daughter and my son. Ashley said hey can you watch marie for me I have to go meet matt hardy somewhere. I nod my head and replied sure. We get back to the room and me and the kids watch tv. Camden said can I go see my daddy. I replied maybe later. The truth was I was going to let ashely take Camden to randy. Right now I was not ready to face randy.

Meanwhile Ashley see kelly and grab her and said what the heck why did you do that to asia and randy they have a son together. Kelly replied it was good money and beside he is a big boy, if he really cared about her he would not have slept with me. Ashley said good money? What does that mean?. kelly said I was paid to get randy to sleep with me and trust me it was the best 100 dollars I have ever made. Ashley could not believe what she was hearing. Ashley said who paid you. Kelly replied I am on a don't tell don't ask thing. Ashley said fine then you go up there and tell asia that someone paid you to do that. Kelly replied no. Ashley was getting mad and said I will make you pay for this later trust me. Ashley walks away and walks past john. John said what is going on. Ashley replied none of your business but if I found out that u had something to do with what happen I will personal not have a problem tell everyone what a low life brother u are. John replied I do not know what you are talking about Ashley look I am worried about asia she has not answer her phone all day and evan told me that she was with u so where is she at. Ashley said upstairs watching the kids. John said is randy with her. Ashley replied no um he is not it just Camden and marie and her. John said oh ok well just tell her I wanted to talk to her and you know that I talk to vince and she might be getting a job with us. Ashley said I will tell her me and her promise the kids we could go to the pool for a little while.

A hour later there was a knock on the door and it was Ashley and me and her took the kids to the pool area and I saw randy and alanna and I wanted to run the other way but thanks to Camden that was not going to happen. Camden said daddy. He runs to him and hugs him. Randy kneel down and picks him up and said hey buddy. Camden replied I hang out with evan today he is so cool and he showed me how to do some wrestling moves and he show me how to do his air bourne move like some of it and he said I could be a wrestler just like you and him and uncle john some dad. Randy replied that is great buddy. When Camden was talking randy was just looking at me. I did not say anything or even look randy away. Ashley said come on guys get in the pool. Camden, marie and alanna all get in and so does Ashley. Me and randy stay out of the pool which at the moment I was not sure if that was a good idea or bad one but I was banking on being in the middle of the good and bad part of this whole thing. Randy walk over and said I have been calling you and texting you all night last night and all day to day why did you answer me or call me back or something. I look at him and replied u text me and call me after you finished with kelly or before. I look at him and he notice the green look in my eyes was not the normal angry green it was midnight green pissed off angry green worse then the hulk look I get when I am around kelly. Randy said I know you won't believe me but I was drunk and I was idiot and I am sorry. I wanted to hit him and smack him. I was angry I was hurt I was just so mad. I said randy get away from me I do not want to talk to u, I do not want to see you I just do not want this. I saw ashely and she just nod her head and I left. Later that night I decide to go to the gas station down the street from the hotel and I grab me a thing of ice cream. I saw my brother talking to kelly and I felt a rage to go over there. Well I felt like going over there with a knife but the only thing I had was plastic and plastic does not hurt. If I did anything to the blond chick I wanted it to hurt and not just hurt a little bit no hurt like her body was being torn in half. Yeah I know I have a lot of angry in me oh well. John and kelly did not see me and I get very quite and I move toward them.

Meanwhile john and kelly were talking. Kelly said are you kidding me, it is not my fault she heard the drunk idiot give me my money or I will tell everyone. John replied you wouldn't. kelly said yeah I would plus I will tell your sister and randy. John replied u won't. I could not hear what they were saying because they were mumbling and talking really low. I thought I heard your sister and randy but I did not hear much after that or before that. I wanted to get closer but my rage in my body was telling me or sending signs to my head saying danger danger do not get closer go not get closer. I just thought about going back to the hotel and I bump into randy and he look at me and I just look at him. Randy said can u please just listen to me please. I replied why so you can tell me some other lame excuse of why you cheated on someone u say you love, randy if you cheated on sam with me, then cheated on me with kelly I guess I should believe once a cheater always a cheated. Randy said I was drunk and I thought she was you. I look at him and replied I am not stupid randy she is not me she is blond I am a brunette she can walk I can't so you must have been really drunk or something. I felt the hot tears building in my eyes as my heart was breaking looking into his ice blue eyes. He look so hurt and so miserable but I was the one who was hurting and I was the one who was miserable.

Randy kneel down and put his hands on top of mine and said baby please you have to believe me I never wanted to hurt you, I promise you forever and I meant that promise please. I look at him and shook my head and replied you know Christmas night when we were together after we fall a sleep I look at u and I watch u sleeping u look so peaceful and happy and so relax and I felt so luck the world was quite and we were alone with your arms around me I felt loved and I felt happy and for once in my life I felt safe and free, you know when I saw you in her room and her coming behind u and hugging u, I felt so sick to my stomach and was not the virus, it was not something that I ate that was bad, it was like someone stab me in the heart and twisted the knife to make sure it get in there deep enough to hurt me"

I roll away from him and I get to the hotel room and broke down and I roll in to the bed room and laid down on the bed cuddling up in a little ball. I did not know this but I was not the only one who heard kelly and john talking but the other person who heard them talking heard more then I did. I just cried my self to sleep

It was two in the morning when my phone was going off and it was from cody. I ingore it and then I get another text from ted and I ingore it I figure they were trying to get to me because I was not talking to randy. Then christian, evan, ron, john morrison, rey, jeff hardy, matt hardy, maria, melina, mickie james, gail kim were all texting me. I sigh and thought I am not going to sleep now. Cody voice mail saying call me please I need to talk to u I know you do not want to talk to randy that is fine but I need to talk to u about randy. I sigh and I knew I was right about one now lets see about ted. Ted said hey it is ted bear, look i know you are mad at randy and that is fine but u really need to come meet me and a few other people down at the waffle house yes I know waffle house is kind of crazy since it is so early but come on please. I sigh and I was getting a little mad since I was right about the boys being worried about randy. I look at evan and everyone text and the moment I saw evan. I felt sick to my stomach.

Evan hey asia I know you might not believe me and I would not say it if I did not hear it my self john paid kelly to be with randy please come meet me so we can talk love ya your air bear.

I giggle softly since evan and I were really close and we just talking and I start call him air bear. Because he has the air bourne move and he is really tiny but he is sweet heart so I call him a bear. The rest of the text were basically the same thing but the girls said that kelly was talking about how good randy was and how john paid her. All these people tell me this I grab some clothes and put them on and I get in my chair and I head down to the waffle house and I heard everything that evan heard from them and I get mad and I head back to the hotel and to john room. I bang on the door and there was no answer and I bang harder still no answer. I was so mad I was just in raged that my own brother did this to me. After he did not open the door I left and went downstairs on a man search to find my brother.

Ashley see me and see the look of murder on my face and said asia calm down please just calm down. I replied have you seen my brother. Ashley said yeah I have he is out side talking to liz. I thought it is two in the morning and he is out side talking to his future wife now I am going to do this in front of her I do not care. Ashley said what is wrong. I replied my brother is a dead man walking and if I have anything ot say about it, he is going to be six feet under. Ashley said I will let you handle what you have to. She walks away and I go out side and see him out side and I see liz and she look at me and said uh oh. I felt angry and said how could you.

John look at me and said how could I what. I replied you paid kelly to sleep with randy. John said no I did not pay kelly to do that and if I did randy man enough to know what is right and what is wrong. I said he was drunk. I stop and said he was drunk and you knew kelly wanted him that is why oh my god I did not think my brother was a self centered a hole, but now that I do I am leaving you behind. I start wheeling away and he gets in front of me and said wait asia. I replied no you know more then anyone that I hate cheaters, that my mom cheated on my dad that I have trust issues with guys in general and you use that to your sick gain or something it is twisted and sick god. I replied randy loved me or loves me and you keep getting in the middle of us like you are some jealous freak, you know when and if randy finds out the last person I would want to be is you or kelly. John said would you listen to me I was trying to protect you to show u he is a cheater. I replied he was drunk john I bet u were the one buying the drinks. I wheel away and I head back upstairs and when I head upstairs. I felt sick and I want to the bathroom and puke.

When I get back to the hotel I did not go to sleep I just look up at the ceiling thinking of me and randy and realize that my brother messed up everything. When it was six in the morning I left a note and told Ashley that I was going downstairs and I get into the gym and see a punch bag and I just start going nuts on the punching bag. I did not have any groves on and my hands were getting blood red. I finally stop when I felt someone pull me away and wrap a cold towel around my hands when I look up it was evan. Evan said hey me and randy are tag team partners tonight. I replied that is great man but right now I can't talk to him, do you know how dumb I would sound hey sorry randy you did not cheat my brother paid you or paid kelly to take u to get to me to show me or make me thinking u are lying cheating a hole. Evan said look he is so mad and hurt right now look I want to win this match ok I want to show the fans and everyone I am more then just a high flyer I want to show people I desreve title shots and getting to tag with people that use to be champions can show people I desreve to be in the same area. I said I know that evan you know that heck fans know that I promise but I can't talk to him right now. Evan kneels down and replied ok just for me talk to him just please the guy is miserable I would be to if the girl I love more then anything was not talking to me and mad at me for something I did not mean to do. I sigh evan was not making me feel any better but he was making me feel a lot worse.

Me and evan want to go get breakfast. I saw my brother sitting alone with liz but liz did not look to pleased with him either. I did not blame her heck I was still feeling like rolling over there and smack him in the face in front of everyone. I knew that was stupid of me but come on he ruin me and randy. Then I see randy and I just froze. I could not move, I could not breathe, he had the look on his face and that look was oh my god scary. He had the look that he has in the ring. I look at evan and he look at me and I whisper" does he know" evan shug his shoulders and replied I do not know I know I did not tell him maybe cody or ted did. I just watch randy to see what he was going to do. He walk over and sits down next to liz and john and start talking to them and acting civil. It hit me he had no clue at all and john was his best friend this was going to hurt him as much as it hurt me. Evan said look like he does not know. I nod my head and replied yeah. I want so bad to roll over there and tell him. But I had already mess with his heart once or twice I could not do it anymore.

Later that night when it was going to be a seven on seven my friends and my brother fighting on one side against the nexus. I was happy and then shamus and edge and the miz and them loser came out. After that was over and I knew randy was going to be going back out there. I wheel to his locker room and I wheeled in and said hey. He look at me but did not say a word. I thought about what he said in the ring that we are not friends but if we have to we will fight together and we will act like it. I said randy. Randy replied I did not cheat on you, ok if you came here to yell at me could you just leave. I said I didn't, I just came to tell you good luck. I lied I knew what I wanted to tell him but I remember that evan need his tag team partner in the right frame of mind. Randy look at me and said thanks. I replied you are welcome look miz is fighting ron and ron is going to get hurt I want you to stay back here with the hart dynasty do you hear me. I nod my head and smile and replied yeah. I felt sick to my stomach and just look at him and I wanted to tell him by the way I am having your kid again. But it did not seem like the right time. Ted came back in since he just won his match and hug me and said hey. I replied hey. Ted said so did you tell him. I look at him and ted notice the look and said oops. Randy look at me and replied tell me what. I said I will tell you later. I was about to wheel out and randy get in front of the door and pull me back in and said no tell me now. I replied john. I stop and sigh softly and said that I have a job here. Randy replied that is great news. He hug me and the moment he hug me god he smell so good like sweat mix with ole spice and baby oil. When he let me go I cussed in my head I did not want him to let me go ever. I said I am going to go. I wheel out and roll to the bathroom and get sick and then use water as mouth wash and pop a lot of mints. Later that night when randy won his fight and rko evan. I made sure evan was ok and he was and then I saw randy sitting in his locker room and the door was cracked and I see Camden in there. I made sure they did not see me. Camden said are you mad at mommy. Randy replied no I love your mommy and you and alanna very much. I smile softly and I felt my heart strings being pulled. Camden said then why are we in the room with Ashley. Randy replied because people make mistakes and I made one and your mom is still mad at me for it. Camden said you mean with the Barbie girl I saw my uncle talking to her a lot I do not like her. Randy replied why don't you like her. Camden said because mommy does not like her and mommy is good judgment on character. Randy smile and hug his son and said yeah she is. When Camden fall a sleep and randy thought he was alone. He sigh and said my son know his mommy so well and I did not cheat I mean ok I did a little but it was not like I had control over what I was doing, I mean I love her so much and then talking to john today about she calling me a cheater and saying once a cheater always a cheater no that was not right me and sam were unhappy and me and asia are happy god I am idiot I lost her forever and she desreve better then me. I heard him and I knew I had to say something so I wheel in and said he is lair, john I told him once a cheater always a cheater yes but randy. I felt tears in my eyes and said he know I had trust issues and he was toying with me and you, he paid kelly. Randy look at me and said he paid kelly what does that mean. I said 100 dollars to sleep with you I think he did not know I would find out and he would tell me later and break us up but evan over heard him and kelly was telling the girls. Randy look at me and walk over toward me and said so u believe me. I replied randy. He look at me and hug me and said please believe me please I do not love kelly, maria, or anyone else the only girl ok the only four girls I love are u, my daughter, my sister and my mom. I smile and hug him and kiss his cheek softly and said I love u and our son so much and little alanna I think of her as my daughter to. Randy said good she loves u to, but I have to go do something I will be back I promise. I nod my head knowing where he was going but I did not have the heart to stop him.

Meanwhile randy walks into john locker room and said why, why did u do that to your own sister and to me, I told you once if you did something stupid you were going to lose us I guess my warning really did anything, you know when she wheel away from me and would not talk to me all day for the past two days I hated my self I wanted to die and when I ask u earlier could you help me and u said yes, the funny thing is u could have help me and you just realize that me and your sister are together forever whatever you like it not. John said whatever I paid her yes but u want upstairs on your own. Randy punch him and push him and people start coming and it took ten people to get them apart and keep them that way.

When randy comes back he is mad and I could tell and we go to his car and then I felt someone grabbing me from behind and said don't scream you do and u will regret it, if you do what I tell you to, there won't be any harm. Randy see the person with a gun and said Take my money, take wallet, take my credit cards, Here's the watch that my grandpa gave me,Here's the key to my carMister give it a whirlBut please don't take the girl. The guy point the gun at randy and said just shut up. The kids start crying really scared and my legs were not strong for me to stand up and felt like jello and then I lost my balance and fall to knees and then I heard a loud bang.