My point of view
Things that took 14 minutes boiling an ostrich egg, Michael Jackson's thriller video, it also takes 14 minutes to get from the Molina arena to st. jude hospital. In those 14 minutes three lives hang in the balance for the rest of us there was nothing to do but wait I guess that is why they call it the waiting room. I was rolling back and froth I could not stay still. My feet were tapping against the wheelchair feet pad things. I look over and saw evan and everyone that I was still talking to. The girls were crying and the guys were just holding the girls. John was there but no one knew if it was for randy or just for his nephew. Right now I did not care as long as he did not start anymore drama because right now I have more then enough to handle I do not think I could take on anymore stuff. Ashley walks over toward me and hug me and whisper" calm down just relax he will be fine he loves you and your son and his daughter and the baby you are carrying, just relax before you stress out and something happens to the baby" I look at her and whisper softly" he does not know that I am pregnant I was going to tell him but I did not know the time never seem right, god Ashley I can't lose him or Camden or alanna, I can't be alone, I am not good alone you know I did not tell anyone this the first few months after miz kidnapped me the only person I protected was Camden, I did not care if I get kick, punch, or humiliated in front of his friends, everything I did I did for Camden to keep him a live and safe, but every time I closed my eyes I saw randy and his blue eyes looking at me, prom night not the movie but my prom night was playing in my head like a movie, it was like I could not have my knight in shine armor for real but I could have him in my dreams, I can't lose him' Ashley just hugs me and I just sat there and felt tears in my eyes. Ashley my best friend was hugging me and comforting me and my friends were doing that but my own brother wasn't. a little while later everyone was getting tired and most were a sleep. Evan look over at me and I was still moving and he gets up and grab my arms and said "would you please stop moving" I look at him and look at me and sigh softly and said he will be ok, you know I am not sure this is going to be make you feel better or worse I hope better so I am going to tell you anyways, you know when he had the shoulder problem and re-injury because he crash motorcycle. I nod my head because I remember john telling me that he messed up his shoulder in a match with batista and then he did it again the same place in the motorcycle accindent. Evan said well john call me since I know the guys from ovw anyways your brother was off getting a drink and randy family was getting food and I walk in and he was wake I am not sure if anyone else knew or not but anyways he look over at me and said hey and he said is john sister here and I replied and told him no and I was surprise he did not ask for his girlfriend or his mom or sister but he was asking about you, when john walk in I look at randy thinking randy would tell john to call you or something but randy didn't, then when john left he ask me to call you and I did do you remember that. I look at him and nod my head and said yeah I told you I could not come because Camden was in the hospital because he head a allergy reaction to something. Evan said yeah then a few days later u called and ask me if he was ok and I told you yeah he was just wanting to see you and do you remember what you said. I replied that I could not come because I could not tell him that Camden was his son because he was engaged and I did not want to screw things up between him and sam because they had a daughter. Evan replied so if u ever doubt that randy loves you think about how much he cared about you when he was not with you, because he ask for you and no one else he loves you more then anything and no one can take that from you. I smile because that made me feel better in some weird way. When the doctor came out and told us that the kids were ok and that they were sleeping now. I felt a little better I mean come on they are Orton's if they can wake up and be fine so can their dad. John said I will go stay with Camden. I replied no I am but I am going to make sure their father is ok, you know the person that I care about the person you ruin things for. John said look we are not going to talk about that now I told you why I did it if u hate me that is fine, but we are family you still have to love me. I did not say anything I knew what I wanted to say but I knew if it came out of my mouth that I would regret it the moment it came out. John said ok whatever. He walk away and everyone just looks at me and I knew the look. It was the look of pity, sadness, and feeling sorry for me.
When the doctor comes out and told us that they had lost randy several times but right now he was sleeping in a coma kind of state. I let everyone and his family go see him first since I was afraid to go see him. So I want to go check on the kids who were both ok and only get hit with glass since they had cried and the guy shot the glass to shut them up. Camden right arm and leg was stitched up and alanna left arm and leg was the same way and they had a few cuts in other places but it was the opposite from each other. After telling them that I love them and that I would be back, I closed the door. I bump in to ted and cody and nearly jump out of my own skin. Ted hug me and said hey it just us we did not mean to scary you. I sigh softly and felt both guys hugging me and felt a little bit better. It was kind of sad my own guy friends were treating me better then my own blood ok john is not my blood family but still he is family. After they pull away from me they left to go get some food with everyone else and I just told them to bring me back something. Then I roll down the hall to randy room and it felt like forever before I get there and my arm lift like a ton when I try to raise it to reach the handle and then it felt like a feather when I try to open it. When the door open I saw him just laying there and the machine making noises. I move into the room and jump when the door shut it made a loud noise. Ok maybe it was a soft noise but my nerves were on edge and it sound louder then it actually was.
When I get to his bed I put my hand on top of his and said hey, the kids are ok they have some cuts and stuff but they will be ok, everyone was here to see you including john I think yeah my brother shows in weird ways that he comes or maybe it was for just Camden I do not know but at least he did not start any drama. I felt tears roll down my cheek and I get out of my chair and I laid beside him.
End of point of view
Ted brought me some fries and a sandwhich and a green tea and said what do u like green tea or coke. I smile and said either one is fine I am not really hungry or thristy. Ted replied I know but if we do not take care of you, you know he would wake up just to kill us. I giggle softly and said yeah you are probably right thanks ted. Ted hugs me and said" well we are going to go back to the hotel call us if anything changes, ok" I nod my head and said you get it. The moment the door shut I move into the chair and grab the fries and finished them off in no time. I could not remember the last time I ate anything with out puking it back up and the fries were spicy curly fries and that was her favorite like abury's. I took a sip of my green tea and just sigh and look out the window and for the first time in my life. I just look out the window and starting praying. I said hey yeah I know I do not do this a lot but you answer the last one when you let my brother and randy find me so I hope you could do me one favor and gave me another miracle, if I have to I would let you glad take the last breathe you give me, I would gladly give you my heart from my chest, I'll glad take his place if you would let me Make this my last requestTake me out of this worldGod, please don?t take the him away from me and my child and alanna." I felt tears in my eyes. I get up from the chair and I move back to my wheelchair and moves back to randy side and said I am waiting right here for you to wake up ok, no one will take me away, not my brother or anyone ok the kids but that is because they will probably be scared when they wake up but I promise I won't be gone long just I will be waiting for you, I have something to tell you I am not sure how you will react but I need you hear to tell you. A few minutes I fall a sleep with my head on his shoulder.
The next morning I open my eyes and I saw where we were and realize that what happen last night was not a dream, it was a real nightmare. I get out of the bed just to go see how the kids were and they were both up and watching tv cartoon and eating breakfast and they did not look scared at all. Then I turn and I saw why it was jeff and Ashley. Jeff said how is randy. I replied same he is a sleep I just came here to check on the kids. Jeff said we get randy stuff in my truck and yours and alanna and Camden stuff. I nod my head and replied thanks. I stayed with them for a while and then I want out and I bump into randy mom and she hands me a notebook. It said randy's happy place on it. I said what is this. Randy mom said just read it. I nod my head as I saw her going into her son room to check on him. I open the first page and smile it was a picture of me and him on prom night and then there was another picture the night he won the title for the first time and the next night his team turned him and the other pictures were just of the hall of frame with his dad was in the class, another one was Camden first birthday, and the last one I saw was of me and it said above it the morning after prom sleeping next to my angel. I smile softly and blushed softly and I just look at the picture that he took of me that morning. The next page said this is my private journal this is for you asia I do not know if you are ever going to read this or ever see this. But I love you yeah I am getting to married to sam but I can't get what we did out of my head or how you looked with your head on my shoulder and your hair was on your shoulder and how it was placed. Sam has never made me feel the way that you did that night. every time I see you my heart racing and I get all tongue tied. John's family adopted you but you still have that southern accent that grab my heart and never let go. If you are reading this my mom was nosey and she found it and wanted to give it to you or I give it to you because I am sick or something but if I am not ever with you that is fine just wanted to tell you that u are always going to be my angel always and for ever asia bear.
I look and read it once again and smile softly he had loved me for the longest time and I was slightly mad. Why was I mad that the man I loved was laying in the hospital bed after he get shot. Well he took so long to tell me how he feels about me that just made me mad that he wanted so long. I know what he is going to say when I ask him. He would say that he did not tell me because he did not know how I feel about him and that he did not want to make me feel uncomfortable or he was to scared to tell me how he felt about me because of who my brother was and that part I would not have blame him for since well my brother found out about us and had been a jerk about it ever since.
a moment later I heard a voice saying he wanted to see his daddy. I look up and see jeff with Camden in a wheelchair and Camden holding on to a bear and the animal him and his dad had built together. I said ok come on. We go down to randy room and I was not sure if this was the smart thing or the right thing but I just wanted to make my little boy happy and if seeing his father made him happy then that is what I was going to do for him. When me, Camden and jeff came to the room and randy was still out of it. Jeff look at me and hugs me and I was so scared. Camden said hey daddy I was a big boy I was not scared ok a little that noise was so loud but me and alanna are ok we both have little fish wires in us I do not know the word but yeah but we are ok I promise, but everyone says you are sleeping we need you to wake up, mommy does not like hospital when she is in them I do not think she likes them now either so please wake up I promise I will be really good if you wake up please. Camden was start now. I go over toward him and gentle put him in my arms and held him as I let the little boy cry. Camden said mommy does daddy not love me anymore he is not waking up. I replied no Camden your daddy loves you so much it just his body is not letting him wake up right now but everything will be ok I promise. Jeff told Camden back to his room and randy mom just stayed there for a while and then left.
It started to rain and I just watch it rain and then I heard the door open and look and saw ted. He said how is he. I replied still in the coma state nothing has change. Ted said he will come back god he talk about you non stop and would not shut up when he was not riding with you and john he was with me and cody god he would not shut up I know he cares he will come to you. I smile and giggle softly and replied I hope so I need to tell him something. Ted said you are not breaking up with him are you. I giggle softly and replied no ted I am not it's a good thing that I have to tell him. Ted said oh ok.
four days later I had not get much sleep and the kids were out and Ashley was taking care of them for me. The kids left with Ashley when they want to another town but I stayed with randy. The nurse told me I had to leave so she could check on him. So I decide to get me some food and just to get some air. A few hours later I laid next to randy and said" hey you have to wake up, I have to tell you something it can't wait I do not know if you can hear me but I want to tell you because I can't wait, randy I love you so much the reason why I was sick was because I am pregnant please come back to me and our family. I soon fall a sleep and the next morning I felt his arm around my stomach and a softly voice said" good morning beautiful it is a beautiful morning with you by my self looking into your beautiful eyes and knowing this is and there is no other place I would rather be then right here ok not in the hospital but still right here with my baby girl. I look up and see randy and smile and kiss him softly.
