STEFAN'S POV
This was good. Elena now knows how I feel about her. We kissed. I felt my happiness then turn into guilt. Sure Damon and I have had our fights including Katherine but I still felt like I had betrayed him by kissing her. I ran my hand through my hair and walked into the house. I hadn't been back since last night.
Just tell her that you want to be with her.
Those words were all that rang through my head as I walked slowly to the kitchen. Damon was gone. He was out for a…well meal. I heard dishes clashing in the kitchen. I walked slowly around the corner to see Elena bent over the kitchen sink. She was in a long gray sweater, almost a dress. Her hair was thrown back in a messy knot. She turned to look at me.
Deep black circles had formed around her eyes. Her face was pale, too pale. Her cheekbones were more prominent than usual. Her usual light, creamy brown eyes were now dark, like a black. The deaths had definitely taken a toll on her.
She looked down.
This was my chance to tell her how I felt.
"Can we just forget about what happen?" she blurted out.
I felt my heart fall to the ground. She wanted to forget. She still wanted to be with him.
Her eyes looked up at mine.
"Stefan, I really enjoyed last night." she said.
Exactly! I thought in my head.
"But." she said.
Oh great there was a but. I felt my heart sink again.
"I really like Damon." she said. "In fact I love him."
The words were like a dagger to the heart.
"I enjoyed talking to you last night. You were there for me, but I just can't do this to Damon." she said.
I grabbed her hand. It was cold, somewhat lifeless.
"I love you Stefan." she said. "But I'm just not in love with you."
I looked up at her trying not to show my disappointment.
"You're like a brother to me." she said. "A brother that I can have forever." A tear started to slide down her face.
I put my feelings aside and wrapped her into a hug. If she thought of me as a brother than I would stay close. After all she had just lost her brother I was all that was left to fill that category.
"I'm sorry Stefan." she said. "I was stupid to kiss you and lead you on only to say I just want to be the best of friends."
"Don't be." I said. "I shouldn't have done that. I know how much you love Damon and I know that he loves you." I said.
She forced a smile.
"Friends?" she asked.
"Forever." I replied.
ELENA'S POV
I pulled my hair down from the messy bun and brushed out the knots. I had to at least try and look good. I slipped on some lose jeans and a baggy shirt. I grabbed a north face sweater and pulled that on. It didn't matter what I did I still looked like a wreck.
Damon walked through the door.
"Hey." he smiled.
My stomach lurched when I saw him. Guilt was overpowering me. I didn't mean to do what I did it was out of sadness. But it was too late the damage was already done. I just thanked god that Damon didn't know.
"Hey." I forced out words.
"Are you ready?" he asked.
"yes." I replied.
I had to identify the bodies. This was terrible, one of the worst things to ever have to do.
We rode in silence. It was still silent as we walked through the hospital doors. The nurse brought us down the stairs to the room. I stopped right outside the door. He put his arms securely around me.
"I love you." he said.
"I love you too." I choked out.
We pushed through the doors and there were two bodies covered by thick white sheets. I felt the tears rush down my face. Two brawny cops stood off to the side with blank stares. Damon walked me over to the side of one of them. He nodded to the doctor who flipped the sheet down.
In front of me of me sat my beautiful brother. He had chalky white skin and his hair was less silky than usual. I put my hand on his chest. There was no heart beat. There never would be again. The tears came harder. There were multiple cuts on his head from the accident, bruises. Just seeing them stabbed into my heart.
His lips were a pale pink.
Damon wrapped his arms around me.
"If you're not ready, that's okay." he whispered into my ear.
I shook my head. I had to do this, get it over with.
I looked up to the cop and nodded.
The doctor put the sheet back over Jeremy's head.
I walked around to the next table. The lump in my throat grew and I was soon drowning in my own tears.
The doctor pulled the sheet down and there lye my Aunt Jenna. She had the same chalky white complexion as Jeremy. She was worse though. Much worse.
There were multiple cuts covering her face. But one that was more attention stealing was the one on her eyebrow. It ran down from her eyebrow to her chin. The scar ran over her lips and part of her nose.
Her red hair was pushed back from her face. I nodded and the sobs got worse I turned my face into his chest and let my tears flow.
"I'm very sorry." one of the cops said.
I felt Damon nod.
"You can go out the back." the doctor said, pointing to the door in the corner of the room.
I felt my feet being lifted off the ground and my body moving. Damon had swung me up in his arms. I didn't even try holding up my weight.
He sat me in the car and I turned towards the window. I didn't want Damon to see me like this.
"I'm sorry you have to deal with this." I said between sobs.
"Elena I love you and I want to be here for you, no matter what." he said. "And I know that I wasn't there for you last night. But Stefan was and it kills me that I couldn't put my own problems behind to help you, but I can and I will. I will be here for you whenever you need me."
I gulped. Suddenly the guilt was seven times worse.
I rode home in silence. I couldn't bring myself to look at him. I didn't deserve to.
Okay so sorry i have been MIA for the past days! And also for the sad chapter but it had to be done. The next chapter will probly be just as sad but i can't help it. Anyways i hope you will still read after this whole sad fest lol
xoxoxo -Malerie
