For those of you who are confused at the storyline I hope this chapter helps clear up any questions you have. The rings were used as a protection spell to protect Elena and Damon, but to find out why and when they have to go back in the past and remember the events that lead up to the rings. They will discover good and bad things and their love will be tested, but will they come out standing and will they make the same decision that lead them to meet on the road in Mystic Falls in 2009..well you'll have to read. Their will be twists and turns and some sexy delena moments coming up.
I don't own the vampire diaries and I don't own the characters.
This takes place after the events in my fanfic Soulmate always find a way.
The POV's will be from Damon and Elena.
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Chapter 2- Deja Vu, The first time
Damon's POV
"Damon?" I woke instantly when I heard her voice, Bonnie. I was still in 1862 but on the other side of my room was Bonnie Bennett. How the hell does this keep happening to me? One magic trick after another, my life is officially fucked up.
"Bonnie? How are you here and what the hell is going on?"
I study her features and a smile spreads across her face. "I did it. It worked. Look I knew I had to find a way to contact you so I found an old journal in your desk so I decided I'd try to connect with you through it. I didn't know it'd work, where am I by the way?" She found a fucking journal and used it to do some witchy juju contact spell, sounds like Bonnie alright.
"My room." I gesture my hand around. "In 1862. So, what is going on?"
"Right. Well you've been here for what a night or day or something?" I nod and she continues. "Well have you had a deja vu moment? Kind of like you've done this before but try as hard as you can you can't remember?"
"No, not really why?"
"It's coming. Look the journal I found it wasn't yours, it belonged to Elena I think. I read some of it and I had a deja vu moment. There's a lot about you by the way."
What the hell is she talking about? At least she had answered one question without it being asked. Elena Gilbert was definitely alive during this time and this is not some fucking tripped out dream. "What deja vu moment witchy? You weren't alive yet..."
"I know. But history repeated itself kind of. You know, the triangle. Elena, Stefan, You...it all happened again just like the journal said it did in 1862."
I shake my head. "No, not possible. After I put on the ring I woke up with Elena in my arms. I was in her bed Bonnie, which is very very improper in this time period but if she were with Stefan why would I have been with her?"
She gives me this 'Are you serious' look and sighs. "Look, Damon you can't change what happened. I've read the journal and Stefan courts her. But you're Damon and she's Elena, you don't give up on each other."
"Okay fine. How do we get back home Bonnie?"
"You have to remember. You have to live life just like you have already The only thing you can change is what happens after Katherine..." She says something else but I can't understand it.
"Bonnie? I didn't hear the last part. What did you say about Katherine?" There's no answer. "Bonnie!" I didn't realize I had yelled her name until Stefan barged in the door looking very surprised.
"Brother, do you have a girl in your room?" His eyebrows go straight up and I can't help but look around.
"Um...no. Why would I have a girl in my room little brother?" He looks at me like he's searching my face for something, what I have no earthly idea. "Well now that we've had this chat, I'd like to get to sleep. I've got big plans tomorrow Stefan." I get up and gently push him back out the door. "Goodnight little brother."
I lean back against the closed door. This cannot be happening. Yeah I was happy that Bonnie had found a way to reach me even if it was very twilight zone. It meant that she was searching for a way to help, but something told me it was up to Elena and I right now. I didn't want to do anything to change what had happened back then, I was very curious to see how this all played out now that Bonnie had assured me that yes Elena had been here with me when I was human. I couldn't help the feelings I had toward my brother though. I still remembered everything we had gone through in the future when it was 'the triangle' as Bonnie called it. I finally laid down on my bed and forced myself to go back to sleep.
The next morning I didn't stay around for breakfast, sure this had to be what happened before because no one questioned me. I rode my horse to the Gilbert house with only one thing on my mind, Elena. I had to see her. I had to be with her, but I had to do it the right way. I had to ask for Johnathan Gilbert's, well now I guess I can say her father's permission. I knew it was a long shot, hell even now at just 17 I didn't have the best...reputation. I had done things that I never wanted Elena to know about, or now even remember.
I arrived at the house and my heart sank, Stefan was here. I decided to hang back and see what was going on. He was waiting on the porch and then Elena came out. My God, she's beautiful. I mean yeah I'd seen her in dresses like this before for the Miss Mystic parade but now it felt like I was really seeing her for the first time. Stefan leaned down and kissed her cheek and that's when it happened. Deja vu.
I turn my horse around and quickly head to the one place I know I can really be alone to think. The quarry. I dismount and tie up Duke and start to pace. Bonnie had said I'd have a deja vu moment. I saw Stefan kiss her on the cheek and I remembered, I'd seen it before. The damn witch was right, it had all happened before. History had repeated and now I had to live it again. Suddenly words came back to me, something I had confessed to someone in the future. I don't remember if it was Rose, Andie, Elena, or some random girl in a drunk moment, but I remember the confession perfectly and it's exactly how I felt now. "There's only so much hurt a man can take." I repeat the words like a mantra.
I'd taken a lot of hurt and I was on the verge of breaking. I couldn't take anymore. I had found happiness and had lost it just as quickly. I sink down and sit looking out over the quarry, what the hell was I supposed to do now? I had no fight left in me, I was tired of fighting. The tears fell silently down my cheeks and I hastily wiped them away. I knew I had to let things go, I had to live life just like I had until I could figure out what Bonnie said I had the power to change. I'd always thought I'd have Elena by my side but I should have learned by now that that was never the case. "You're Damon and Elena you don't give up on each other."
The words played in my head immediately following my mantra of 'There's only so much hurt a man can take.' I sighed and got back on my feet, just like I always have. Bonnie had been right, I would never give up on Elena. I was, for lack of better words, a love struck idiot when it came to Elena. I'd help her remember. I would show her how much I cared for her, well how much I do care for her. I'd...woo her, romance her, give her subtle little hints here and there. With my mind made up I headed back to the Gilbert house.
I didn't bother knocking, I went to the tree next to her window and started to climb. The room was empty and I knew by the look of things that the maid has already done her duty in the room until Elena returned from wherever Stefan had taken her. I knew that he'd probably find out sooner or later that I was planning on still pursuing Elena, and I know how he'd react. He'd fight me, but I knew how I would have to respond too, I'd have to take the advice Elena would give me in the future. "Be the better man Damon." I walk quickly and quietly over to the desk and pull out paper and a pencil.
My dearest Elena,
Be with me always. Take any form, drive me mad, only do not leave me in this abyss where I cannot find you. Oh God, it is unutterable. I cannot live without my life, I cannot live without my soul!
-Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights
Yours always,
Damon Salvatore
I opened the drawer and pulled out her journal. In the back of my mind I wondered how I'd ended up with this journal in the future but first I knew I'd have to put the note somewhere only she would find it. I opened it to the most recent entry and placed it on the page behind, of course she'd still write in the journal. Nothing was more important to Elena than remembering everything, so I placed the note inside and climbed back down the tree. With each step I took I felt...reassurance. It felt right to be doing this. I would get her back in time and we'd figure all this out together, that much I was certain of. A love like the one that Elena and I share has overcome so much, it was almost like it was destined to happen.
Elena's POV
I had woken up, gotten dressed, and ate breakfast in a daze. I still felt out of place, like I didn't belong here. I didn't know what a girl in this time was supposed to do with her time and luckily I didn't have to be alone for long. Elliot, who I guess is or was my brother, asked me to walk with him outside. I went with him because he seemed to be the only one around who knew what was going on, or at least I think he did.
"So, Elliot. I know this might sound...off but do you know..."
He cut me off with a smile, "That you don't remember any of this?" He gestured to the garden and the house. I nodded. "Yes. I know. I was there when the rings were made and spelled."
That was saying a lot. "So this was my life?" I look back towards the house and it seems a little intimidating. It's...grand. 3 stories, very elaborate, and the furniture inside looks very expensive as do our clothes.
He nods. "Yes and yes you and I are very close as siblings. We are very...honest and open with each other."
I wonder what he means by open and honest, but I like the fact that he says we were close. It makes me think of Jeremy, I miss him. "How open and honest exactly?"
He looks around before he answers in a whisper. "I suppose you got Damon out of your bed before Susanna came in to get you dressed?" I stop dead in my tracks. I didn't think anyone knew about that, I had figured it'd be bad for people to know. "Yes, I know Elena. Your secret is safe with me. Damon is my best friend but I also know he's a good man and that he's crazy about you."
Before I can question what else he knows and can fill me in on we are interrupted by, Susanna he said her name was, the same woman that helped me get dressed. "Miss Elena. Mr. Salvatore is here to see you, he's waiting out front." My heart picks up, Damon. I quickly walk towards the head of the house with Elliot not far behind. Just as quickly as my heart picked up it sank, it wasn't Damon.
"Stefan?" I question him, did Damon send him with a message or something?
"Elena!" He walks over to me and kisses me on the cheek. What's going on? "Are you ready?" I'm not sure how to answer. I don't remember what I'm supposed to be ready for.
I hear Elliot clear his throat and step up next to me. "Mr. Salvatore. I hope you don't mind but as my little sister is still only 14 I'd like to accompany you on your picnic. I would also like to get to know the young man who is courting my little sister." Courting? Stefan is courting me, I thought Damon was going to. Stefan looks taken back by this a little but he quickly hides it, he looked a little disappointed that he wouldn't be alone with me truthfully.
"That'd be fine Mr. Gilbert."
"Elliot. It's Elliot." He holds out his hand and shakes Stefan's hand.
Stefan had gone to tell the man who worked in the stables to bring the carriage around when they got the horses ready. Elliot had assured me that he wouldn't leave me alone with anyone, except for Damon, until I remembered my life here. It was strange going on a picnic with Stefan, but he was sweet. I could see why I would have been smitten with him. It was late afternoon when we got back and Stefan excused himself to go home, it still felt awkward when he kissed my cheek.
Dinner had passed and I was surprised to be getting glares from Amelia. I felt bad that I didn't remember if we were arguing or if this was simply sisterly rivalry. After dinner I had decided to take a look around. I found the library downstairs and I was surprised to see some of the books I did. Jane Eyre, that was always a favorite of mine. Romeo and Juliet, A midsummer nights dream, Wuthering Heights, that's where my hand lingers. I'd always loved this story the best out of all of them. The timeless love, it was something that every girl dreamed of. I shook my head and headed upstairs.
Elliot must have seen me because he came out of his room and ushered me into what looked like an upstairs sitting room. "Elena, I didn't get a chance to show you the house yesterday. Do you have any questions I can help you answer? I want to help you remember."
I was curious about the house. "I haven't seen anyone upstairs really besides you and I, why is that?"
"Our bedrooms are the only ones up here, for now. Amelia's is downstairs and so is Fathers. Theodore, since he is still young, sleeps in the room connected to his. This is why I know Damon sneaks in from time to time. We have a system down to tell him when to leave, do you remember?" I look at him surprised, and shake my head. "Well, if I ever knock on your wall 3 times that means that I hear someone on the stairs. If I knock just once it means Damon you better leave now because my father is coming up here and believe me Elena, he would personally deal with Damon if he found him in your bed." Wow, apparently things haven't changed that much over a century in a half if siblings still have secret knocks for each other.
I am curious what happened to John Gilbert's wife, my mother. "Elliot, our mother...is she...?"
His eyes become sad, "Yes. She passed the day after Theodore was born." He didn't say anything else and I didn't ask. It was hard to lose a parent, I knew that pain well enough.
"I have one more thing I've been wondering about, but I don't know if you know or not." He raises his eyebrows and motions for me to continue. "Amelia, she told...father I was alone with Damon. She's also been...glaring at me. Do you know why?"
He tenses and I can see the answer on his face. He knows but he doesn't want to tell me. This is never a good sign. "Yes, I know why. Amelia...she had talked with Damon a few weeks ago. I don't know what was said so I can't tell you, but she fancies him Elena. She has hopes that one day Damon might want to court her. I've tried to talk to her but she won't listen to me."
"How old is she? She can't be much younger than I am?"
"She's turning 13 in two weeks time. She's one year your younger. And if you didn't know I'm just a few weeks older than Damon and you are a couple of months younger than Stefan."
I ponder this. Family really has a way of being messed up. Amelia, my sister, is pining after Damon who probably has no clue.
"Amelia knows Damon won't court her though. I think everyone in town knows that one day Damon will ask for your hand, either in courting or marriage. We've all seen the two of you together and it's different. You both are different with each other than you are with anyone else. It's not surprising though, you both are kind of the same." I look at him questioningly and he continues without missing a beat. "You've both lost your mother, due to a younger sibling being born. You helped him grieve and he helped you, you were strong for each other. Damon and you, it's like a moth to a flame. I had told him at first to stay away from you, he's done some pretty...bad things, but he's always done the proper thing by you. I could tell over time how much he cares for you and I like that about him. I like the way I know that he will always choose you first and put you first, it's what a gentleman should do. So sister, that is why I approve of the relationship you have with Damon. Father will come around one day."
The thought makes me smile. I like the fact that Damon had to prove himself to Elliot. It also leaves me to wonder what kind of things Damon has done to get such a reputation with everyone. I say goodnight and head towards my room. I call Susanna to come help me undress and once I'm ready for bed she takes her leave.
Once the door closes I head over to my desk, I've taken to writing in the journal every night. I open it up and a note falls out onto my desk.
My dearest Elena,
Be with me always. Take any form, drive me mad, only do not leave me in this abyss where I cannot find you. Oh God, it is unutterable. I cannot live without my life, I cannot live without my soul!
-Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights
Yours always,
Damon Salvatore
"Oh Damon." I know he must have seen me with Stefan at some point today. It happened at that moment. I remembered. It came to me in flashes but I remembered my life here now. I remember running through the gardens here and at the Salvatore mansion with Stefan and Damon not far behind. I remember Damon holding me as we said our final goodbyes to my mother. I remember the first time Damon kissed me. Every hug, every touch, I remembered it all. I remembered my family and I even remembered when Amelia became jealous of the attention I was getting from Damon. I stared at the note and held it even tighter in my hand, this was how Damon would get me. Damon had a romantic side and I'm sure no one but me would ever see it.
I tucked the note away in a secret compartment I had found in the desk and started to write in the journal. The entry was short tonight but it said everything it needed to.
Dear Journal,
I remember. Damon wrote me the most romantic note, a quote that Heathcliff told Cathy in Wuthering Heights. I remember it all. I can't wait to see Damon tonight, just like I have every night for years. I think I'm falling in love with him all over again.
Elena
I was startled when I heard the pebble hit the window but my heart also started to beat quickly. I was sure that this time it was Damon. I open the window and sure enough I see him smiling up at me, he quickly climbs the tree and is closing the window behind him. I don't wait for him to say anything. I throw my arms around him. "I remember Damon!" I feel him sigh and he returns my hug just as fiercely.
"I do too Elena. I love you."
With those words I knew we'd get through this. We were no where near done remembering everything we needed to in order to get back to 2012 but I knew we'd do it together. We'd take it one day at a time and it all started tomorrow. Before I could pull out of his embrace I hear a knock on the wall followed by Elliot's raised voice.
"Father! I think Elena is already asleep, is it urgent?"
Damon and I froze looking at each other, what would happen now?
