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This takes place after the events in my fanfic Soulmate always find a way.
The POV's will be from Damon and Elena.
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This will be strictly from Damon's POV. Be sure to let me know what you think. I promise the drama will end soon and things will start to speed up and delena will officially be on.


Chapter 5- To dance or not to dance

Damon's POV

Stefan knew. It was a simple as that. It had been days since I'd spoken with either Elena or Stefan. The ball was approaching and I knew my presence was mandatory, as George Lockwood is my only best friend besides Elliot Gilbert. I don't particularly want to go, it's not like George is the one they are celebrating it's his older brother Henry. We don't get along. Nevertheless I need to escort someone to the ball, so I can show my brother that I am able to be with someone besides Elena. That's a lie. Damn that voice in my head. I walk up to the Fell house, knock and wait patiently.

"Mr. Salvatore. How may I help you this afternoon?"

The male servant, lovely. "I wish to speak with Miss Melanie if she's available." He nods and I walk in. Melanie Fell isn't my first choice, my first choice is naturally Elena. "Mr. Salvatore." She blushes as I take her hand and kiss it.

"Miss Melanie. I was hoping you would do me the honor of letting me escort you to the Lockwood Ball? I know it's short notice but it'd be my honor." I can see how giddy she is because I'm asking her. It's no secret that she is hoping one day I will court her, everyone in town has known for a while she likes me.

"I'd be honored Mr. Salvatore."

"Then I shall pick you up this evening. Good afternoon Miss Melanie."

I take my leave and head home. I arrive home only to be stopped by Stefan.

"Brother. We need to talk."

I roll my eyes. "Not now Stefan. I have to get ready to escort Melanie Fell to the ball tonight. And you should get ready to escort Elena." I effectively walk around him and up to my room. I shut the door but before I can get to comfortable I hear someone clear their throat. "Holy shit! Bonnie! Not again. What do you want?"

"We need to talk. You're changing things Damon. It's affecting the future. STOP!"

Is she seriously yelling at me? I shake my head. I'm not doing anything I wouldn't have done the first time, except asking Melanie to the fucking ball. "I'm not doing anything out of the ordinary. Keep your voice down before everyone in the house can hear you."

"You are Damon. I've been watching." She's been what? She couldn't give me any help the last week or so. I walk past her and open the window, I need some air. "It's like how it is with the ghost thing. I can watch you and Elena but I can't talk to you and you can't see me unless you want to. So you obviously want me here, what's the matter?"

"Elena. That's the problem. She's with Stefan!"

"She doesn't want to be, any more than you want to be with Melanie Fell." I raise my eyebrows. She knows something, saw something, and she's keeping it private. I sigh, I can't ask her. Elena is still her best friend and I won't snoop around in her life. "Look, Elena may be good at faking around Stefan but she still is holding out hope for her real life Heathcliff to come through for her."

My jaw drops and I freeze. "You heard that?" She doesn't answer so I turn to face her. I see her nod her head. "Okay so yeah I did get off the book when I was talking to her. What did I change Bonnie? What's happening there?"

"Chaos...just kidding." I must have given her a look she didn't like because it took her a minute to add the just kidding part. "It's mainly Jeremy, but it's her parents too. He's getting weaker as a vampire and blood wasn't helping, they're having a kind of memory loss type thing and I had no clue why so I asked Grams."

Weaker and memory loss? "Mhmm and what did Sheila have to say?"

"You are supposed to be with Elena. I was confused when she said it but it kind of makes sense given what I've read in the diary she kept. By the way put in a suggestion that she should want to talk to me because I haven't been able to reach her yet and it is HER diary. If you show up to the ball with Melanie then the entry won't be the same, the event that changes everything won't happen and I don't know how that will affect Jeremy or her parents."

Wait wait wait. I start to pace as I think about everything Bonnie has said. This choice is affecting the Gilbert family. Weaker, memory problems, and I'm not with Elena at this point in time. This is getting fucked up, we can't possibly have that much power over the family line unless we make love tonight. Shit, it hits me. "Bonnie. That entry you mentioned, do Elena and I...get together tonight?" I know she will know what I mean by together without giving her the details.

She shakes her head. "No. I will say you eventually do but not tonight. You fight for her and something big happens with Stefan. She didn't write what but apparently Stefan makes her very upset and she runs to you. But I know you Damon and I know if you go with this Fell girl you will drink and probably do something to screw all this up."

I can't argue with her. I probably will. I shake my head as I make my way towards my bedroom door again. I cannot believe I'm taking advice from someone who isn't even fucking born yet. This town is really going to despise me now for telling Melanie I can't escort her. "Fine. I'll do it Bonnie. Keep me posted on Jeremy, Miranda, and Greyson." I see her nod out of my peripheral vision and then she vanishes. If we were back in the 21st century I'd definitely be in a padded cell.

The walk to the Fell's house is surprisingly quick. I waste no time in asking to speak with Melanie again. "Melanie you're a nice girl but I can't escort you. I'm sorry it would only be getting your hopes up for nothing." After about 5 minutes of waiting for her to respond to anything I just told her I'm not surprised when her hand smacks my face. I deserved that. I don't say anything as I turn and walk out of the house. I decide to take a detour on the way home and stop by Elena's room. I climb up the familiar tree, she is not in her room and luckily the door is closed again. I go in only because I'm curious as to why her diary is open on her desk, surely she doesn't want anyone to read it. Maybe she was expecting you. These voices in my head need to shut the fuck up, she didn't even know I would come by. Yet, I sit down and intend read her last entry as I see my name in it multiple times. "Curiosity killed the cat." I say out loud as I begin to read.

Dear Journal,
I told Stefan yesterday about Damon and I. He has every right to know but I still didn't tell him everything. I didn't tell him how much I loved that Damon wanted me. He could have any girl in town and yet he wants me, it's like a dream. I couldn't tell Stefan because I was afraid of what he'd do. I saw the anger in his eyes at just knowing that Damon and I were almost together physically. I don't want him to hurt Damon. I'd hate Stefan if he ever laid a hand on Damon, especially because of me. I'm also afraid that Damon would hurt him if he fought back. Damon is older and stronger and even though Stefan knows that my feelings for him are purely that of a friend I still couldn't bear for him to get hurt. He holds out hope that it could be more. I'm giving it a try, but it's hard. I spoke to Damon yesterday as well, he's lonely and sad and heart broken, even if he won't admit it. He can't hide his feelings from me, I know him to well. I know he's avoiding Stefan and I know he's avoiding me, it hurts. I can't be myself anymore, I don't know who I am without Damon in my life. He told me to let him go but I can't, he basically told me yesterday to be happy with his brother but I can't. I love him and I won't give up. I won't make the same mistake that countless others have in the books he reads. He admitted, somewhat, that our relationship mirrored that of Cathy and Heathcliff from Wuthering Heights, I won't be like her. I won't marry someone I don't truly love with all of my heart. I have to go now, we are getting new dresses for the ball. I think I'll get something that Damon would like, hopefully he will save me a dance so I can talk to him.
Elena

Consider me killed. I broke her heart, damn it! She cares for Stefan though, I got that much out of this entry. She also cares for me as well, what a shocking twist. I never really wanted her to let me go and I don't really want her to be happy with Stefan, I just want her to be happy period. Without thinking I pick up her pen and start to write.

Look on the next page. -Damon

I flip the page over and write the letter.

Dearest Elena,
I'm sorry. I know I've said that a lot over the many years I've known you but I mean it just the same. I look forward to seeing you at the ball, even though it will be on my brothers arm. I can't write much here but I have to say this, quote you this.
"There you see the distinction between our feelings; had he been in my place and I in his, though I hated him with a hatred that turned my life to gall, I never would have raised a hand against him. I never would have banished him from her society as long as she desired his. The moment her regard ceased, I would have torn his heart out and drank his blood. If you don't believe me, you don't know
me, til then I would have died by inches before I touched a single hair on his head!"
It doesn't matter if Stefan were to raise his hand against me, I would never hurt him Elena. I wouldn't hurt you like that.
I know you care for him and I love him too, he's my little brother. I never wanted to hurt you and I never wanted you lose who you were. I know that you want my to love you, in a physical sense and I want that too. But before I do that I have to earn your fathers acceptance at the very least.
I love you.
I'll be seeing y
ou.
Damon
PS. Yes I'll save you a dance my love. Always.

Before I knew it I was dressed and walking into the Lockwood mansion. The family knew how to throw a party I'll give them that much. I walked over to where George was standing with Anna, the girl he was currently courting. I could feel the town staring daggers into me, probably for what I did to Melanie, but I could care less. I was only here to dance with Elena. "George. Miss Anna." I nod my hello to them both.

"Mr. Salvatore."

"Damon. Heard about Melanie, this wouldn't have anything to with Elena would it?"

George knew too much. I rolled my eyes and leaned against the wall with my eyes on the door. I never answered him and they both knew that meant a yes. The time seemed to pass slowly and then I saw her. She looked beautiful and she was right, I loved her dress. It was a blueish purple color with black lace trim. It looked gorgeous on her and it brought out her natural beauty. My thoughts were halted when I saw my brother place his hand on her lower back. I shook my head and pushed away from the wall.

I needed a distraction. I made my way to where they were dancing and asked Rebecca Lockwood to dance. This seemed like a good choice, she was only a year younger than myself and she too didn't have the best reputation in town. She wasn't a bad dancer, we actually danced quite well together but that's about all we did well together.

"So, Damon. Do you need a drink?"

"You know me too well."

We walk to get our refreshments and I excuse myself to the balcony while she heads back to find another boy to dance with, or maybe even do more than that just to make her parents upset. I shook my head and leaned against the wall and looked over the railing. I like to look at the stars at night, it's peaceful. I was about to head in to leave when she came out on the balcony.

"Damon. I believe you owe me a dance."

I look at her in surprise. "Elena. Where is Stefan?"

"Dancing...with Melanie Fell." I raise my eyebrows and down my drink. "I heard what you did Damon. Why did you do it?"

"You." She doesn't look surprised. "I wanted to take you and it wouldn't be right to her hopes up for nothing. I do owe you a dance. Would you like to dance Miss Gilbert?"

She holds out her hand and I shake my head. I put my arm around her waist and lead her back inside and onto the floor. The near touch, how fitting for Elena and I. I see Stefan watching us and I can see that he does indeed want to hurt me. First we raise our right hands, careful not to touch, and walk around each other. We raise our left and do the same. We then raise both and circle once more. My heart starts pounding as we come forward and I take her in my arms for the waltzing part of the dance. I'm looking right in her eyes and I can see that she never did let me go. She still has this hold on me, my heart melts and I feel whole for the moment. We don't talk like she wanted but I know we don't have to. Sooner than I'd like the dance is over and my brother comes to ask for the next dance. I have no place to say no.

I can feel her eyes on me as I walk away and out the door. I can't stay any longer. I find myself back in her room and I wait for her. I don't know how long I've been staring out her window but I hear her open the door. I slowly turn to face her and I smile when I see she's smiling at me.

"Damon. I thought you didn't want to come back here."

I didn't, yet I did. "I can't stay away anymore Elena. I love you." I sit on her bed and put my head in my hands. "This is still wrong. You're still being courted by my brother but I love you." I feel her sit next to me and pull my head up to look at her.

"Stefan isn't courting me. I couldn't get his hopes up for nothing."

I can't believe the words she's saying. I look into her eyes, searching for an answer and I find it. She loves me. "I never wanted you to let me go. I was stupid Elena." I wrap my arms around and an idea form in my head. "How about I make it up to you? Cheer you up a little bit." She just nods her head. "Okay. Close you eyes and I want you to picture Bonnie okay?"

She pulls back to look at me. "Bonnie can't reach us here. It's no use Damon."

"Trust me. Do it." She closes her eyes and I can see her concentrating hard. "Bonnie." I nod my head as Elena's eyes snap open.

"Bonnie?!" She pulls completely out of my arms and goes to hug her best friend.

"How Jeremy and the parentals?" I have to know if this is the right path to go down.

"Stronger." She turns to Elena now. "I miss you Elena. We want you both to come home but I know now that it's important for you to remember. There are big things that you and Damon overcome together."

Elena comes back to sit by me. We talk with Bonnie for a while and then the connection starts to face until she's gone completely.

"Thank you Damon. I know I shouldn't ask but will you stay tonight?"

I know I shouldn't but I really want to. I undo my tie and take off my shoes. "Might as well let me help you out of your dress my love." She stands and I undo the buttons. She slides it off and lets it fall to the floor. I pick it up and lay it across her desk chair. "That's my favorite dress don't ruin it Elena." She giggles and I can't help but laugh.

"Come join me Mr. Salvatore?" She raises her eyebrows as she crawls in her bed.

"Do you have to ask Miss Gilbert?" I crawl in next to her.

She sits up and undoes the buttons on my shirt. I look at her questioningly, "It's only so you'll be more comfortable Damon. We don't have to...I just want you here. I feel safe with you here."

I pull her close to me and hold her tightly to my chest. "You're always safe Elena. This is Mystic Falls, what could happen here? But I like having you next to me. Get some sleep."

I feel her breath start to slow until I know she's asleep. I kiss her lightly on her head, "I love you Elena." Normally I would have left but instead I closed my eyes and started to fall asleep with her in my arms. I was on the brink of sleep and I could have sworn I heard a loud knocking. It would sound once then stop then start over. I also heard a door open and a chair pull out like someone was watching us. Now, I was convinced it was a dream. No one would do that. I tightened my hold on Elena and nuzzled closer to her.