Here's O. It's a little angst filled. It's about the guilt that Luffy felt after Ace died.
I don't own One Piece dammit!
Odium
Monkey D. Luffy was a lot of things. He was childish, dangerous, an idiot, naïve, a monster, a savior, a protector, and a fighter. He could accept all these facts. He could acknowledge that some saw him as a hero for freeing them from a tyrant and others viewed him as an abomination for being the son of Dragon. He could handle all that. For the people who thought that he was a hero and someone to be praised or reflected that he was an abomination and should be put down like the beast he was, they were all people he had no real connection to. They were people he had saved along with a nakama or they were those who were afraid because he was a rising power. Either way they held no real meaning to him.
So he felt nothing outstanding when they proclaimed their hate or love to him. He just stared in pity at those shallow enough to hate him for who his father is or showed a startlingly blank face to those who called him a monster for the deeds he had performed to protect a nakama. He smiled calmly at those that confused gratitude with love and waved happily at the ones who thought they had fallen for him for the part of him that had liberated their homes.
None of these people mattered in the grand scope of things, call him cruel, but the things that mattered; that he would die for were his nakama. He would destroy whole towns, level mountains, and rip rivers from their beds for his nakama. They were the only ones he would let matter. Them and the ones they held dear, he would never let his nakama be hurt in any way if he could stop it. Be it emotional, physical, or spiritual.
So when Monkey D. Luffy had a dream, mere days after the death of his brother, best friend, and lover. Ace. Saying with a sneer that it was all his fault that he had died. That it was his fault and that he hated him something in Luffy broke. When he woke up the hurt still hung thick in the air and dampened his usual jovial aura so much that when his crew was finally reunited they all promptly hugged him whispering words of comfort. But when the hugs and the words didn't help they all stepped back and looked, they observed him, took meaning from his eyes that they always thought would never ever grace their captain. Their captain, their pillar of strength was at his weakest right now. He had fallen down at some point and wasn't' trying to rise. He had given up.
They all pondered what had caused their captain to be this way and finally found out in the form of that same dream coming back to Luffy. It was a night that none of them would ever forget, their captain who shined confidence, who gave off a presence of power, and who was so very brave was torn. He was defeated, in his dream something had caused their captain to recede inside himself. When they tried to talk to him all Luffy would do was mumble incoherently, it wasn't until the sun was almost up that they finally were able to make out what their traumatized captain was saying. He was apologizing; over and over he was asking Ace to forgive him, to love him again and to not hate him anymore. They were stunned, this is what had been torturing their gallant captain?
When Luffy finally came to and became aware of where he was he gave them all a hollow smile and apologized to them for making them worry. The Straw-Hats just smile back at him and told him that Ace would never have blamed him, that Ace was probably right at that very moment looking down at him with wishes for him to keep moving and fulfill his dream. That Ace could never hate him, for Ace was his older brother, his best friend, and his lover. Ace would want Luffy to be happy. They explained all these things to their captain who listened with rapt attention. Who at the end of their speech smiled in a way that broke their hearts. Luffy had realized what they said had been the truth, he knew that Ace would never blame him for his death, but Luffy blamed himself still. And it was possible that he would forever blame himself.
