A/N I don't own Twilight

Thanks to Lel and Sherry. You're the best!


- Bella -

I'm here, and I've knocked. My hearts skips a beat when you open the door. You look tired, beat. A three-day beard, hair too long and figure lanky. But your eyes light up when you see me, my frayed nerves soothed by your happy gaze. I was afraid you wouldn't want me, wouldn't need me like I need you.

Overwhelming.

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Your arms around me in an instant. I hum, content. Cry. Your embrace is just like I remembered. Hiding my face in your neck, I smell lilac, sunshine, musk on your skin. It's still you. Your body warm against mine, I want to disappear in your arms. Hold me tighter, make it real.

I love you.

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We stumble into your apartment, your parents so rich you don't use a dorm. Should we talk? Perhaps not now. I look around. Your place cluttered with stuff, I can't help but chuckle. You sweep me off my feet, turning my laugh into a squeal. Your bedroom, again. The same, but different. No rush this time, but no delay either.

Come closer to me.

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"I missed you," you whisper, the words delivered between frantic kisses. Hands and lips on my skin wherever you can reach. My hands claw at your clothes. Off, I want closer. Closer to you. Feverish heat, something rips but we ignore it. Hold me, love me.

Make me yours.

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Unlike last time, the last barrier disappears. Suddenly shy, I am naked before you. My hands come up to cover, but you stop me with a word. "Don't." With words and with touches, you tell me I'm beautiful. I can cry I'm so happy.

And I am yours.

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Your skin on mine, goose flesh trails in the wake of the heat. Satiny soft, with steel muscles underneath. When did you start to work out? My nails on your back, your body rippling as it shudders. I do that to you. Hammering hearts, you look into my eyes as your hand travels down.

Yes, do it, please.

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The sensation incredible, I buck and cry out. You look on, mesmerized, and try it again. Seeking out what I like, your mouth on my breasts and your hand down there until I shudder and groan. Hiding my face in your neck, helpless in my desire. I claw at you, an anchor in the haze. You hum in my ear.

Closer. So close…

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Your thoughts pushed out in a whisper, I can feel your breath on my skin. Quiet reassurances and other words I'd never think to hear from your mouth. You like to talk dirty and it ignites a fire I did not know was slumbering inside me.

Have me.

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Sensation blooms in my stomach, so hot and delicious and altogether addicting. Coaxing me to let go, I shatter and come undone, held together in your strong arms. You hold me tight until I come down, grounding me. Never let go.

Hold on to me.

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Wanting to reciprocate, my hands trail down your body. So deliciously familiar, yet so wonderfully new. Cupping you, you exhale in a groan. Have you waited for this, too? So hot, so soft. So strong. You stutter, then hide your face in my neck and just enjoy. You mumble in a sigh.

"So much better than webcams."

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You won't let me finish, cutting me off when it becomes too intense. Moving over me, I marvel at the feel of you between my legs. So safe, so exciting, so gloriously satisfying. Your body around mine, you completely enfold me. You seek my gaze and I nod.

Take me. Claim me.

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Pushing forward, you slide home. Your breath on my face as you exhale, your eyes closed in sensation. So good, this, so good. The pain barely there. Don't move just yet, let's just enjoy this. I have you, and you me. I have waited a lifetime, and now you are here. Our gazes meet and we smile.

Yes.

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Moving, carefully at first then with more vigor, the precision taking my breath away. "I love you," you breathe. "I can't miss you again." I won't tell him yet. Not all arrangements are completed. I hope he will understand my decisions.

Support me.

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Coherent thought disappears as we get lost in our joining. Moving, holding, gripping. Wet kisses and moist breaths, everything disappears in our lovemaking. Finally, finally. A tear escapes and you kiss it away, smiling with soft eyes. You understand. No need to talk right now.

You know.

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The conclusion too quick, overwhelmed by the newness of it all. So beautiful in your pleasure, I decide then and there I won't ever stop watching you. I won't ever stop loving you. A friendship morphed into something more, it could easily get awkward. But it isn't.

It never will be.