Author Notes:

OMG! You people will not know how sorry I am! T_T My connection was down for a whole week and I had no way into posting this chapter! I'm so so so sorry! I wish you're still around and following this story *looks around the deserted page* XD. But hopefully, this chapter will allow your sad hearts to lighten up a bit about Sasuke's and Naruto's messed up relationship and forgive me for the late update! Enjoy!


Sakura threw the other notes on Naruto's tear-filled living room table and sat beside him on the ground with an annoyed expression resident on her lovely features. Rolling her eyes at the mess that was named Naruto, she watched him weep in agony.

"Sakura-chan! That's just horrible of you! I can't put another word inside my head! It'll explode, I swear!" He whined, grabbing his buzzing head.

Feeling her annoyance reach its max, Sakura flamed her mouth at him. "Yes you can, and you will! This ain't a game, Uzumaki! Our midterms are just around the corner, and you still haven't studied a single thing! You don't even know what atherosclerosis is and the teacher was talking about it for three straight days!"

Pouting, Naruto knotted his brows in frustration. "Lots of people don't know what atherosc-ca-caalatorious is and I've been busy!"

"Atherosclerosis, baka, atherosclerosis. And even if you were busy, you're not the only one who is, I'm also busy, but I still find time for studying!"

"You're a bookworm! You live to study!"

Sakura smacked her friend on the head with her neat biology notebook and crossed her hands over her C-Cupped chest. "Stop whining, idiot, and get back to memorizing, God knows your brain works only on memorizing worthless basketball moves!"

"Hey! They aren't worthless!"

"When they can't help you stop from repeating your first year, they are worthless. And why the hell has that hand of yours stopped copying?"

A fine, threatening pink brow was raised and Naruto shrieked away in fear. For after all, if Sakura decided to take her papers and leave, he was seriously in for repeating this year, since all his time he was juggling a basketball instead of a book, it left his brain void of any information that would be marked educational.

Hmph-ing the nasty words inside his throat, he spoke. "I'm writing! Get off my case already!"

"You'd thank me when you don't get kicked out of the team for having lower than the standard marks for sport. Anyways, arguing with your stubborn ass has left me itching for something to drink, I'm going to help myself to some of your chocolate milk, want some?" She asked, making her way towards Iruka's beloved kitchen.

"Nah, just orange juice, there is a cart in the fridge,"

About fifteen minutes later, Sakura emerged from the kitchen with a mug of hot chocolate milk and a glass of fresh orange juice that she had chosen to squeeze instead of just pouring that industrial cart that Naruto apparently thought was a fresh juice, into a glass and serve it.

"Here, relish."

Naruto smiled at the cold beverage and took it from her, realising just how parched he really was when the juice met with his throat. He gulped it down in one go and placed the empty glass with a satisfied look on the table.

"Thanks Sakura! That was refreshing!"

"Glad you liked it, and for that, we'll take a five minutes break, rest your mind before you start on another question."

The blue eyed teen nodded and slumped on the scattered papers. "I'm soooooo tired~"

"Are they keeping you busy in the club?"

"Something like that, we have only three more games to win the cup. So everyone is on edge. And Tenten is making us go through hell," his body shivered remembering his former practices, "literal hell!"

Giving an understanding smile, Sakura blew on her hot chocolate milk, readying her tongue to have a sip. "She wants you to win and do your best 'm sure. Ummm…Naruto?"

"Yes?"

"Isn't there any new news about Sasuke-kun or his condition?"

In one second, the bright face turned one eighty degree in the opposite direction, causing Sakura to mentally sigh. It had been about a week since the day Naruto had turned into a corpse and came to the school in that condition; she had tried to extract the information out of him, but he refused to say a word to her, and every time Sasuke's name would come up in a conversation, Naruto would grow very quiet and a hollow cloud would appear over his head.

She would have to be blind to not notice that something came up with Sasuke, but her idiotic friend refused to tell her anything about it!

"Naruto? You with me?"

The blond shook his head and smiled at her. "Yeah, I am. I just don't have anything to tell you, Sasuke still hasn't come to school, and Neji said that most likely, he won't be attending this semester with us."

"You…you okay with that? Not seeing him again?"

"…He wants it that way…and I have no right to be a rock in his path."

"I hardly think you are a rock."

"Yes, I am. He said so, he wants me to seriously stay away, I mean, he bit his own lips when I tried to kis-" Naruto clapped his hands on his lips at his slip out, and two pair of horrified blue orbs looked at her.

Sakura just removed his hands from blocking the words coming out and smiled softly. "I know, Naruto. You don't need to hide it from me; in fact, I'm offended because you think you need to hide it from me!"

"You…you know?"

"Yep, maybe before you even realized it yourself. Your every move was hanging on him, you spoke about him almost every two seconds; you were drowning without knowing it, but I did."

Naruto looked at his hands laying on the ground helplessly, trying to get over the shock that she actually knew what he was trying so hard to hide and then asked. "Drowning, as in drowning in love?"

Sakura grinned, bearing her teeth. "And what sweet drowning that is!"

"No, Sakura, you are mistaken. I'm not drowning or anything, we don't love each other." He clarified, shaking his head with a scowl at the notion.

"Uzumaki, stop with the lying already! I have no problem with you loving him! Yes, it came as a shock and I felt like ripping your throat for falling for such an ass at the beginning, but I know you don't choose who you fall for! And besides, you two looked so good together that I just couldn't think of a better match to stand beside Sasuke-kun than you."

Naruto raised his head to smile faintly at her, feeling genuinely pleased that his best friend had actually felt that way.

"Thank you, Sakura. I'm really happy to know you agree to something like that. But I'm not lying either when I say we don't love each other. Sasuke hates me. He said so; he doesn't want to see my face. As I mentioned earlier, when I tried to kiss him, he bit the inside of his mouth to draw blood and forbid me from kissing him. He went to the length of hurting himself to keep me away. I'm disgusting to him! If that's his love, then I don't want to know what his hatred is!"

"Hmmm…this doesn't sound like the impression he gave off whenever I was around though."

"Impression when you were around?"

"Yes." She chirped, taking her mug and sipping from it. "He glares at me as if I'm the worst whore who has ever walked this Earth and I didn't exactly mind since I don't think so highly of him either. But I can understand why he was holding a grudge and acting so overprotective of you; it's because you were once in love with me. So, I just passed it off as a lion protecting his territory."

Naruto's eyes pulled out of their sockets and he blinked them back. "You…you knew? You knew about my feelings?!"

"Well, even if I didn't want to, you were gloating over me and I remember seeing you drool once. Your emotions are very honest Naruto and you can't hide them. You love him. I can see it written in bold lines across your forehead and he also loves you, but for some reason, the two of you can't…or refuse to see that simple reality."

"Sakura, have you been hearing me correctly?! He hurt himself to stop me from kissing him! How the hell does that translate in your mind as him loving me?!"

"And I'm sure there is a very good reason why he has done that." She put a hand under her chin thinking. "You've said that Sasuke-kun can't see anymore, right?"

"Yes?"

"And the docs still don't know if it's temporary or not, right?"

"Yes?"

Sakura's brain went into the thinking territory and when the answer hit her, she felt like rolling her eyes at the dimwit beside her.

"Naruto, you're a very stupid human being, you know that? You should think with your head a bit more! It's obvious why he has been treating you like shit and saying dumb stuff to keep you away! Sasuke-kun doesn't want you to get hurt spending the rest of your life with a blind man! He wants you to live normally, away from him and his messed up family, and he is saving no means into seeing that goal happen."

Naruto's golden brows met in a state of confusion. "No, he wouldn't do something like that, he knows how important he is to me and I did say I don't mind being beside him…even if he is blind."

"That's why he resolved it by hurting himself, he knew that if you were the one being hurt, you'd just pounce back and stay beside him ignoring his wishes, and I think hurting you will do more damage to him than you, that's why he went for the alternative. Hurting himself. With a full knowledge that you'd give up if he was placed in any danger."

"But...but…"

"Think hard, Naruto, everything fits like this. Sasuke-kun was very lovey-dovey with you, and he wouldn't change that over the course of one night. He was too overly attached for that to happen."

And the mouse inside Naruto's head started running on his dusty wheel, linking Sakura's words with the reality that he'd experienced through the past few weeks. His eyes widened at the hard truth that washed over him like a raging sea wave.

"Sasuke…THAT FUCKED UP ASS!"

Sakura had to steady the table and the glass of empty juice not to fall with Naruto's sudden dash towards the front door. She frowned at the papers scattered around; but her mouth soon took a sweet smile to it. If she had known that the truth was this simple, she would have forced Naruto into telling her the minute he came corpse-ing his way towards their class. Shrugging the stupidity of her friend away, she continued sipping on her chocolate milk, enjoying her free time 'till Naruto would come back with another set of worries.


Naruto slipped behind the third guard and ran into the familiar huge house. He had gotten a bit lost at the beginning, but when he saw the pond, he knew he was on the right track. His eyes scanned trough and settled on the white door his idiotic friend lay behind, he cursed when he was spotted and made a sprint towards Sasuke's room before he got caught.

Swinging the sliding door wide open, Naruto's eyes only saw a raven sitting on his royally comfortable and big bed while trying to remove the blindfold off of his eyes.

"SASUKE! YOU FUCKING BAKA!" He shouted and jumped over the bed, earning himself a loud jolted noise from the abused Sasuke and some background noises that went deaf to his red-with-anger-ears. Grabbing the collar of the faint blue Yukata with both his hands, Naruto made sure to explode all of his emotions into the other's face. "How dare you?! How dare you take away my decision to stay beside you! Fuck if you can't see! I don't care! I'll still be here! You have no right to take away my heart and step on it, Uchiha!"

"Nar-"

"NO! You've done your share of worthless words! It's my turn to talk and for your royal ass to listen! You broke me; you broke both of us with your selfishness! And for what?! To keep me away from being beside you when you need me the most?! To let me live a normal life?! Well, a flash news to you, buddy! My life has never been normal! And will never be normal! You can't just sacrifice us for me! I will never be happy like that! I need you to be with me and you need me! This is where we should be together! Stop being such a dick and just let me be with you!"

Naruto felt his anger release when those black eyes he adored dearly slipped right from under the blindfold; his right hand moved so slowly and pulled the damn thing away revealing a full access into Sasuke's eyes that he'd missed so much. He traced his fingers across Sasuke's eyelashes and settled them into his soft hair. Softly linking their foreheads together, Naruto whispered.

"Sasuke…I…I lov-"

"AHEM!"

Startled out of his skin and the near kiss he was about to give to the heir of the Uchiha's thrown, Naruto spared a look around him, a look that he should have spread the moment he barged in. In a flash of a moment, his face turned as red as a tomato.

The whole room was packed with people wearing white lab coats and on their heads stood a proud looking Tsunade and Kakashi apparently amused at Naruto's behaviour. A strong arm came to circle around his waist as he heard a sigh escape from the raven whose lap he was occupying.

"Excuse me, doctors, but would you mind giving us a minute?"

Tsunade grinned and started cooping her team out. "Sure, half an hour should suffice?"

"Yes."

Nodding his thanks towards the place the voice came from, Sasuke tightened his hold on the blond's waist when he felt Naruto bury his embarrassed face in the crook of his neck. Chuckles and giggles soon reached both their ears when the doctors stepped out of the room. And Naruto wished if he could just die right that second.

"No kinky-sex, you two!" Kakashi warned before closing the door behind him.

"Naru-"

"Why the hell didn't you tell me there were people present?! I looked like a complete idiot!"

"Well, if you had stopped interrupting me the first time I spoke like you've just done, you could've known."

Naruto felt his head explode in red and he slumped back onto Sasuke's warm chest. The chest he'd longed to be in for a period of whole three weeks, no, they were close to a month now; a whole month of being forbidden from Sasuke's touch. He didn't know how he'd survived up until now.

"Sasuke, I'm still standing by my initial words, you're a baka. How could you decide to cut me off like that? Do you know how much I've been hurt?"

The blank eyed teen felt his way towards Naruto's cheek, gently taking the other's heat towards his cold fingers.

"Naruto, do you know what it means to be with a blind person? You'd have to be alert at all times, special care will have to be done for me, and no matter how long, you'll feel the burden; the drag I'll be putting on your life. You'll grow weary and tired of the big responsibility. And be it sooner or later, you'd come to hate the decision you've made. Your eyes will always fill with sadness and pity each and every time you look at me. And the passion you're feeling right now will die off and burn into loathing. You'll also come to hate me and then hate the self that made you decide to remain by my side. Staying away from me now, when nothing between us has evolved seriously, is the best option for both of us. Believe me."

Naruto chose to kiss the cold hand hanging by his cheek and lean forward to touch his forehead to Sasuke's before whispering in a quiet and tender tone for only them to hear.

"Uchiha, you've just proven to me, in words, how much of an idiot you can be."

"Naru-"

Placing a finger on those rosy lips that became fainter over the weeks, Naruto spoke. "Hush, it's my turn now. Let me tell you something about the future, Sasuke. No one knows what lays in it. It may turn out like you've just said, but it may not. I trust you, and I need you and I want to be with you. Care for you and spoil you. If I was given the chance to spend my whole life with you, then I don't care if you don't have eyes, hands, legs or anything."

"That won't be enough, you'll regret it, and when you do, it will be too late."

Naruto shook his head with a sweet smile. "No, I won't. And you know why I won't?"

At the tender tone coming on the blond's lips and the nearing of Naruto's breaths on his face, Sasuke felt his own heart quicken. He released a shaky, "why?"

"Because…I love you. I love you, Sasuke. From all of my heart! It took me a while to make sure. But now, I'm certain. And I know how mushy and extremely gay it may seem for me to say this, but I do believe I'll die if I'm left without you."

Before Sasuke's mouth could come up with any words to respond, Naruto closed his own over it. Kissing with all his passion placed on the table. He wanted to fly to the moon the moment Sasuke's lips kissed back. A stray tear fell from his eyes. He was doing a lot of crying these days and he didn't like it, for it made him look so weak and girly, crying over everything like that. Yet, as he deepened the kiss and sank his fingers inside Sasuke's dark locks with a slight brush to the surgical scar, he chose to ignore that fact and pushed it to the back of his mind.

They parted for air, and Naruto felt his face flush at the sexy expression he was given. He bit his lips as the want to get closer started pulling on his heart.

"Sasuke, I think I might have drowned too deep." He released between lips trying to suck on air.

Sasuke pulled him in for another deep kiss into which he said. "You better have, Dobe."

"So…there was something I wanted to clear out now that we are talking, you don't really hate me, right? It was just one of the lies you made up to try and push me away, right?"

The movement of Sasuke's hand halted and his dark eyes widened as he squeezed the beautiful creature into a tight embrace.

"I have never hated you, Naruto. I only hate myself for hurting you." Sasuke raised his eyes at the latter wishing from all of his heart to be able to see the magnificent face looking down on him. "Will you ever forgive me for stepping on your heart?"

Naruto wiped his eyes not to have them tear all over Sasuke's face and placed a chaste kiss to the other's forehead.

"There is nothing to forgive. You did what you thought was best for me. And even though I was the one being trashed, you looked more in pain than I."

Sasuke gave a tiny smile and whispered, "Kiss me."

And Naruto happily let himself fall into the warm arms of love.


"As we have been saying before Uzumaki-kun interrupted us, we think we may be able to restore your sight, Sasuke-kun."

Naruto's eyes widened with joy; he closed his hands tightly over Sasuke's and sat hearing what the doctors had to say next.

Another doctor took the chart off of the first one's hand and continued, "We think that if we can reverse the treatment of Tsunade-sensei, there will be a chance for us to get inside and treat the damage made to the nerve."

"But won't that affect his awakening?" Naruto asked with concern.

The brown haired female doctor shook her head. "Not at all, it's true we are reversing the process, but that's just simplifying the procedure we're going to take. In fact, it's a bit different from Tsunade-sensei's treatment, since we'll only rely on electricity and his neural system."

A glasses-wearing doctor made it more understandable for them. "In other words, we will be stimulating his neurons, to help his blood circulation. It's a complex process, but we have faith we'll accomplish it with success."

"But weren't Sasuke's eyes unapproachable to surgery earlier?"

"Yes," Kakashi stepped in, feeling left out now that the room was packed with doctors. "But the treatment Tsunade-sensei has done did more good than we gave it credit for; it removed the risk we feared when we wanted to operate on Sasuke's eyes."

"Which was?"

"Him going blind."

Naruto smiled back at the grin he was given, he looked towards the raven and his smile turned to a huge grin.

"Then, Sasuke will be able to see?"

"We hope so," The glasses guy said. "It all depends on him and how much he wants to recover."

"Sasuke?" Naruto directed questioning eyes at the raven; he received a reassuring smile.

"Don't worry, Dobe. I'm aiming to get my sight back. I'll work hard; you don't have to trouble your mind with this."

"Alright! Since we're done here for the day, everyone let's go." Tsunade cracked her neck and gathered the papers on the table. "The procedure and surgery are scheduled next week, on Monday."

"Wait, what? No, Monday isn't alright! I have my midterms on that day!"

Tsunade rolled her eyes following her doctors towards the door. "We won't stop our work just because you have petty exams."

"But I want to be here!"

"You don't need to be here; he'll be sedated most of the time and most likely won't wake up 'till Wednesday. So, just go take your exams and focus on them." She said, closing the door behind her.

Naruto sat back on the chair he was occupying with a sad look on his face. "No way…I want to be here."

"Naruto, she's right. There is no meaning in you coming, just go study and get good grades. I don't want you to use me as an excuse for not studying."

"Hey! Not fair! I'll never use you for something like that, no matter how tempting the idea sounds."

"Glad to see you're resisting temptation. Anyway, it's time for you to head back. I heard there will be a drizzly rain coming up this evening, so I'll prepare a car to take you home since I want you to go before it hits."

Naruto pouted climbing onto the bed and pulling Sasuke's blanket away. "No, I'm not leaving. I've called Iruka and he allowed me to stay the night."

"No you can't. Go home."

"Why can't I? We've agreed that you stop trying to push me away, right?"

Sasuke sighed and took hold of Naruto's hand guiding it to his crotch. The blond felt his face redden at the warmness.

"If you stay the night, I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself, Naruto. Now if you understand, get going already."

"Umm...Sasuke, I don't really mind."

"Stupid, sure you do! When I entered one finger, you went all crazy on me. And I don't think you can bear to have sex right now."

"W-We can try." Naruto said still feeling the warmth inside his hand.

"Look, when we have sex, I want to be able to see you. Memorize you. And recall every taste you have. I don't want to rely on my ears just like a fucked up bat! So, until I get my sight back. We can't do anything."

Naruto wanted to comment to this, but when the member under his hand started coming to life, his flush deepened.

"Sasuke, umm...you're getting hard."

"That's because I'm imaging our first time, remove you hand and step out. Give me five minutes and I'll be done."

"No I think…I'll help!"

Naruto removed his hand and crawled under the blanket, he came face to face with Sasuke crotch as his hand raised the Yukata away; he felt his face flame more as his heart began beating and his tips grew cold. Slowly, he pulled Sasuke's underwear away and came face to face with the throbbing cock.

"Dobe! Get away! I can do it myself!"

Naruto dodged Sasuke's troubling hand and gulped his own nervousness away. He pulled the underwear out of the way for good and touched the hot flesh intentionally for the first time in his life. Naruto grabbed hold of the member and started stroking with a slow rhythm. His azure eyes fell on Sasuke's face as he continued to quicken his hand's movement. When he touched the head of Sasuke's cock, the raven tilted his big head backwards, proving to Naruto just how much he was feeling it.

"You haven't had any sexual act in a while, right?"

"Besides you, no…unnghh..."

Naruto grinned and decided to try something he'd read about in the network. He slowly put his mouth over Sasuke's throbbing member and started sucking, the shaft inside his hands started hardening.

"Oh God, Naruto! What are you doing?!"

The blond smirked and said, "Swking your dwk."

The vibrations from his mouth had Sasuke digging his fingers into Naruto's golden hair. The blond's smirk widened for being able to control the reactions of his love for the first time since they've met, and took the cock deeper into his mouth, replaying a rhythm with both of his hands as they continued to play with Sasuke's balls and hardening dick.

"Dobe…stop it…nnmm…stop!"

Naruto ignored the protests and took a hard, deep suck from Sasuke's tip; he felt his own pants grow tight with each moan that escaped Sasuke's mouth and slowly, he pulled his left hand to unzip his jeans, getting his hardening length out to have some air. He developed a second rhythm with his own throbs.

A groan escaped his mouth radiating swiftly over Sasuke's cock. The sound of another pair of throbs being made, pulled Sasuke's mind from his own ecstasy, and he licked his lips as a naughty picture came to residence on his inner darkness.

"Narutocome here."

Feeling like a puppy having a loving hand extended to him, Naruto removed his hands and obeyed, already coming to sit on Sasuke lap with the blanket disregarded at both their feet. He looked down at their reddening dicks and frowned momentarily at the size of Sasuke's. No wonder he got scared of having that thing thrust up his ass. It was huge, for God's sake!

"Sasuke…hhaa…I…love…" Naruto released a breathy sound as Sasuke took hold of both their erections pumping them together.

Soft kisses were pressed against his exposed skin; Naruto bit his lips when the excitement was getting too heated for him to take. He put his hand under Sasuke's jaw, forbidding any other kisses and clashed their mouths together. He smiled when he thought of how Sasuke could now taste his own pre-cum, but it only proved into making him more exited.

"Mnnnhh...Sasu...'m dying!"

Sasuke traced his way into Naruto's chest and got a hold of a nipple, squeezing it gently, before coming to suck so lightly on the hard area. The voices his boyfriend was making felt like music to his ears. He stepped away and squeezed hard on their joint dicks.

It didn't take long for sweet milk to flow between their stomachs. Naruto slumped on Sasuke, panting and smothering his clothes with a white fluid.

"That…that was amazing!"

"No." Sasuke pulled the head in his lap to give Naruto a deep kiss that if he wasn't too careful with, they'd have to enter into phase two of playing with themselves. "You're amazing. Where did you learn to blowjob like that?"

Naruto grinned with a flushed face. "Happy you liked it. I picked it up from the wire. I think I messed up on some steps though. But as long as you're happy, 'm happy."

"I wouldn't mind getting a service like that from you every now and then."

"Hmm…I wonder if I should." Naruto grinned teasingly. "Guess it would depend on how much you pay me."

Tackling the blond on the bed, Sasuke released between loving lips. "How about my life?"

"Nah, I need something more precious…."

"More precious than my life?"

"Yes, how about those sheets from last year that got you straight As in all of your midterms?"

Sasuke tried to hold himself not to crack like popcorn, but the small laugh had to slip from his sealed lips. "Of course, you can have all of them!"

Naruto just grinned like the idiot he was and pulled the handsome man into his arms, not wanting to wake up if this really turned out to be one of the many dreams he had with Sasuke holding him tenderly in his arms.


"We should get back, Naruto, this isn't a good idea."

Naruto rolled his eyes at the raven beside him; he put the umbrella over their heads as the drizzly rain poured over them. "You said you liked walks under the rain, and I'm here taking you on a walk under the rain, be happy."

"Firstly, you gave me enough happiness in my bedroom earlier to last me a whole lifetime, and secondly, I like to see where I'm walking when I'm taking a walk in the rain, Dobe."

Naruto had to stop his eyes from rolling as he said. "Just think of me as your eyes, okay? And there's no such thing as enough happiness!"

Sasuke sighed at the cold air that hit his chest and allowed himself to be led. He felt the hand grabbing his tighten and sure thing, if he was able to see, there will be a big stupid grin plastering all over Naruto's lips.

"Where are we, anyway?"

"Walking on the grand park close to your estate of a house, Ita-nii allowed me only to take you here, he said once you recover, we can walk anywhere we want, but for now, we can only go this far. It's sad actually, since I wanted to take you to another place. But," Naruto spared a look at the park they were in, "this place isn't half bad, either."

"Why are you taking orders from him?"

"First thing, they aren't orders, they are requests. And second thing, it's just that; like it or not, he thinks of your best interest before anything else at heart. And I'll never do anything to jeopardize that. So, I'm going to change the subject now since I don't want to fight with you about how much your big brother loves you. About our basketball club, we have three more games left and we'll win the Interhigh, did you know that?"

Sasuke pulled Naruto close and released his left hand from the tan hold to wrap it around Naruto's shoulder, bringing them closer together.

"I did, Neji informs me with news of the team, and you."

"Me?"

"Yes, I haven't been able to see you so I wanted him to tell me what is new with you. He said that you've been hanging out with the bubblegum-haired Haruno chick a lot."

Naruto grinned at the jealousy. "And you're jealous."

"Don't I have the right to be? You're cute and she used to be in your heart. All the factors for you both getting together are present, can't I have the right to feel threatened?"

"I don't think you need to feel threatened at all, Sasuke. I love you. You, not her. Sakura is just a friend, and I'll sing it to you how many times you want 'till you get it through your thick skull. I love you!"

Sasuke stopped moving and turned his head to where Naruto was supposed to be. "Can you tell it to her?"

"To Sakura? Yeah, why not? I could tell it to the whole world if it will make you sleep in peace."

"You know how they'll react to it, society doesn't really open its arms to homosexuals, you'll get prejudiced on in life and most likely discriminated against. Can you live with that?"

Naruto released a big sigh and pulled Sasuke's lips close to his in a mouth-watering kiss. The raven picked up on a few surprised gasps from the people who were in the park alongside the sound of a woman taking her children away from them, obviously not wanting her beautiful kids to be affected with the wrongs in the world. Sasuke smirked as Naruto moved away and began walking them again.

"As I said, I will shout it to the whole world if necessary. I know people might treat me like shit, curse me and call me names, but there will always be people who would accept me for who I am. And honestly Sasuke, if a person doesn't want to see us together; he or she should just go fuck themselves!"

"Such a sudden courage, where did it come from?"

Naruto smiled into the faint rain. "From you almost dying on me. I can't bear to lose you just because I'm scared of the world. You're far more important that what people think of me."

"Then, I have to thank Deidara for shooting me that day."

Sasuke was hit softly on the arm. "Don't say stuff like that, you'll jinx us. And Sasuke," Blue orbs turned concerned but Sasuke had no way into seeing, so Naruto voiced his worry. "What happened to Deidara and Sasori-san?"

"Why ask about them?"

"I want to know, they didn't really kill him, right?"

The concern was obvious to Sasuke's ears; so he shook his head assuring the blond of it. "No, they didn't. I didn't allow it since nothing serious has happened to me."

"Phew! That's good then. So, where is Sasori-san? I haven't seen him in a while."

"Well, Deidara is being held captive in one of our facilities, and Sasori chose to keep watch over him. And since I heard he had acted up on Deidara's defence, things are all messed up since some members wish to have him imprisoned as well. They think that Sasori may aid Deidara in escaping the prison."

"What does Ita-nii think about doing?"

Sasuke released a tired air and put a hand over his head. "He wants the two of them dead, for hurting me."

"Oh no! That's awful!"

"I know. And I won't let it happen, trust me. I know why Sasori has done what he has done and the same goes for Deidara and I do believe they have suffered enough pain," Sasuke turned his head to where he thought Naruto's face was and continued, "We have all suffered enough pain."

Naruto smiled softly into the face apposite of his and wished to take Sasuke's hand again to give his love another kiss in public which was going to have the people shouting out ridiculous names at them and maybe even start throwing stuff. And he didn't wish for Sasuke to come close to any harm right now, so, having nothing in his power to do, Naruto settled for a squeeze to the hand around his shoulders.

"Come on, I bet you're tired of walking."

Naruto started taking them to where the seats were, he looked for a bench that didn't have many raindrops on it and guided them to sit. He winced at the cold bench and hoped that Sasuke's body wouldn't get affected by it.

"Comfortable?" He asked with a hopeful tone.

"Will be."

Naruto nodded and they remained in silence. Only the sound of children playing in the newly formed mud with their childish laughter and the calming sound of the drizzly rain was their heavenly background music. The blond found a serene smile flatter on his lips, the memories of when he was a kid, and was still happily living with his mother and father, came back to him upon seeing a boy with blue eyes being helped off the swings by his laughing father because the drizzly rain was starting to be a bit much. It reminded him of when he and his father would go play by themselves at a playground forcing his mother to hunt them down and force them to abide by the weather's rules.

Yes, this was one of the few times that he would feel the true meaning of losing his parents and how he much he misses them.

"I think it started out like a day like this."

Naruto was taken from his own thoughts by the soft whisper his love was making; he turned attentive eyes at him. "Excuse me?"

"The day I lost everything. It started out as a calm day just like this one. I remember how excited I was, my father has finally trusted me enough to allow me and my mother to stay home alone while he and Itachi went to our summer house, to take care of some businesses. At that time, I was very attached to Itachi, but when giving the choice between his company and mother's, I would always choose mother's. It was because she was very sickly, and I would rarely find a time to spend with her. That's why, when father gave me the order to protect her, I jumped from happiness to finally be acknowledged as a worthy Uchiha."

Naruto knew how hard it was for Sasuke to be telling him these specific details about his life. So, he put his right hand over Sasuke's left and encouraged him silently to continue telling his tale.

"The events after my father and Itachi left all happened in a flash. I was caught up in the garden, picking up some roses for her since she felt like drinking rose's scented tea and I took it upon myself to make it for her since she never asked me for anything, but as I was happily being an idiot, I overlooked the guards shifting and Danzo's men taking over. I saw him as he was walking out of my mother's room. I saw the sinister smile on his face and I knew he had done something to her. But by the time I got to her room, to her, everything I loved was gone. My mother was peacefully sleeping on her bed. The doctor said she died softly in her sleep, but I knew better, he'd killed her. He's used some twisted drug and was feeding it to her day by day, using one of his inside men to do it. And still, as little as I was and as powerless as I was, I was unable to do anything for her."

Sasuke took a moment to make the guilt inside his heart lessen enough for him to speak. It was hard, but he had to do it, he had to tell a soul about what was eating him away, about the sins he'd committed that day and about always holding this pain that seemed attached to his soul by now.

"When we got the news about father and Itachi, and the fire that had happened in our summer house, I Knew it was his doing, Danzo's doing. But I couldn't do anything since his men infiltrated our house and were stationed in every corner. I was hopeless, and helpless. The pain of not being able to do anything was too much for me to bear, so I blocked it all out and in a complete state of desperation, I tried to kill myself."

Naruto's eyes wend wide for a minute but then he understood, he had also thought about ending his life when he was a child, and he knew if he didn't have Iruka in his life, he would have gone and done just that. So, he squeezed his tan hand on Sasuke's; assuring him that he was still listening and was familiar with that desire.

"I tried it three times; the first time, I had no idea how to kill myself, because I was a mere seven year old kid who knew nothing about the world, so, I jumped off into the pond beside my room, but it wasn't as deep as I wished, and was rescued with only a head pump. The second, I tried to fall from one of our hotel stores, but again, a guard saw me and I got away with a few broken bones, finally, my third attempt, I slashed randomly at my body, I would say that was the worst suicide attempt I had ever tried, for it hurt like hell. It was also a failure because even though I did it inside my room with the doors locked, Kakashi has found me and, against my will, he rescued me to a doctor. After, he gave me a lecture on how bad it was to want to kill myself and how my dead family members would feel if they saw me like this."

"Did it work? Was that really your last try at it?"

Sasuke released a small smile for finally hearing his love's voice since he started pouring his old past out.

"No, I was more impressed with his anger than affected really, so the idea of killing myself was still there. But officially, there are only three attempts since the last one I tried; I stopped myself before I anything bad happens."

"What was it?"

Sasuke stood up and tugged on the hand linking him to Naruto. "It's getting colder and I think the rain is pouring harder, let's head back."

"Wait! Tell me first! The house will still be there after you finish!"

Smiling fully at the pout he knew was present, Sasuke reasoned. "At home, Naruto. Come on we have to hurry, I can sense the rain coming."

Not commenting on the improvement of his love's senses, Naruto stood up following his motion. He steered them towards the exit, and made sure that there was nothing that would trip Sasuke in his path as they neared the big huge estate. Getting inside, Naruto nodded to the front door guards since they have become friends by now –due to the chase they did with him this afternoon. And finally they neared Sasuke's room. But before they could make their way inside, a calm voice called behind them.

"I hope you've enjoyed your little walk."

Naruto perked at the voice and Sasuke tried to remain as passive as ever, even though he was letting go of his resentment towards his big brother and right now his leader, he was still steps away from acting all brotherly and lovingly with him like he used to do.

"We did, Ita-nii!"

"How about you, Sasuke? Did you enjoy it, as well?"

Sasuke nodded to the place where the voice was coming from. "It was pleasant."

Naruto almost flew out of his clothes from happiness, and from Itachi's facial expression, the little steps Sasuke was making to try and mend what was broken didn't go undetected to his ears.

Sasuke felt a familiar feeling creep down to the forgotten part of his heart when the somewhat cold hand found its way towards his hair and a small pat was delivered to it.

"I'm very glad to hear that, maybe one day the three of us can go somewhere together, what do you think?"

Naruto knew who the question was for and he nudged his newly defined boyfriend to answer. Feeling a bit rushed to figure out what the familiar feeling was, Sasuke released a swift answer for his big brother.

"Maybe."

And it was good enough for Itachi to take for now, feeling like maybe; just maybe, he didn't lose his entire right to be Sasuke's older brother. With that, he said his goodbyes to the two, and left them be.

As soon as Sasuke hit his own bed, the drizzly rain they just came in from turned into a heavy downpour in a second. He nodded to Naruto about how right he was for them to leave before this heavy storm had them bedridden with pneumonia, and Naruto just rolled his eyes at him.

"Sasuke, you still haven't told me what that fourth attempt of yours was!"

"Oh, that, it was easy, I swallowed some pills that I stole from one of the maids' cabinets here. The funny thing was that when I did that, the pills had a horrible side effect to them, they made me extra hyper, and so, I had to find something to do with myself. That day, I remember going through my old stuff and amazingly, I found my old basketball…and then I remembered how Itachi and I would spend our days competing with each other, and how every time he would beat me at, I'd promise to beat him one day. Then, after all those memories came back, I went to play some basketball with myself, and as I was doing this, I felt for the first time since my family was gone that I didn't want to die, yet, that there was something in this world that I still wanted to do. So, I went to my bedroom and threw up all the pills I had taken."

"So, ironically, your last attempt at suicide is what made you realize you didn't want suicide."

"Yes. And I'm glad it did, 'cause it would have been very amusing to meet you when I'm dead."

Naruto released a soundly chuckle. "Yeah, I think I'll be very freaked out if a ghost came on to me."

"Oh," Sasuke snatched Naruto by the hand, tackling him to the bed. "I believe you'd be wooed by my handsomeness and you'd fall to your knees the next minute begging for me to take you as my lover, regardless of me being a ghost."

"I think your ego is failing you here, babe."

"Then how about I just demonstrate how much you will want me, babe?" Sasuke mimicked.

Using his natural charm to his advances, Sasuke glued his lips to the laughing lips of Naruto and trapped him in a passionate deep kiss that left them both panting for air. Naruto wasn't one to back out easily, so he easily pinned Sasuke on the bed, and sat triumphantly over him with his knees on either sides of Sasuke's midsection and his hands hugging Sasuke's head.

"If that's the best you can do to win me, then you have a long way ahead of you, Sasuke."

And Naruto stole those rosy lips into his own, grinning when he forced his way inside his beloved's mouth and played as much as he wished there. He released him to take a gulp of air before diving in again, but the thunder that struck so suddenly had Naruto jolt to Sasuke's side with every sexual battle he was thinking of ever having with Sasuke, blown to the back of his mind.

"We are scared now, aren't we?"

The smirk was obvious to the blond; he hit Sasuke softly on the arm. "Shut up, 'm not scared, just a bit…surprised."

"Yeah right, surprised."

"I am!"

"Sure."

"I honestly am!"

"I didn't say otherwise."

Naruto felt a pout form at the corner of his mouth. "But you don't believe me either."

"Let aside what I believe and let's just sleep, I'm too tired, every muscle in my body aches."

"Now that you mention it, I haven't slept today at all, I was forced to wake up extra early even though today is a day off because Sakura came over to help me study…and then I rushed here and we didn't do anything relaxing still."

"Okay, then let me call in one of the maids to prepare a room for you since you have no desire ever of going home tonight."

Sasuke's hand was stopped from doing whatever they did around here when they needed to call on maids and if he was able to see, he knew he'd be looking at big pleading puppy dog eyes.

"What, Naruto?"

"Do I really need to sleep in another room? Can't I just sleep here with you?"

"If you don't mind being jumped at night, sure." Sasuke replied sarcastically.

"Come on, Sasuke! You're too tired to do anything to me!"

"In that aspect, I don't trust myself."

"But I trust you."

"Then you're an idiot."

"Sasuke! Don't be like that, how about I sleep on the floor then? I'm sure your family has one or two futons laying around, I can just borrow one."

"No, Naruto just the thought of you sleeping in the same space as me, flares me. You have to be in another room so I can feel assured I will not wake up in the middle of the night and rape you! And that's it!"

Puffing his lips when he was pushed aside for the pale hand to push on a button that was placed on the right of the bed, Naruto crossed his arms at having to sleep at a different room when he was finally able to come visit Sasuke's house for a sleepover. And as the door to Sasuke's room was opened, revealing that red haired woman that Naruto came to know as Sasuke's own personal butler, the blond's expression didn't improve one bit.


"Why are you doing this?" A faint whisper that collided with the iron bars shackling his every move rose in the darkness surrounding them.

"I had time on my hands, and I said 'why not? I'm bored anyways.'"

Golden locks fell so softly when their owner lowered his head, biting his already dry lips. "That's not a good enough reason."

"It is to me."

"You had a good life building before you, by doing this, helping me like this, you're ruining it."

Sasori's mouth released a smile. "What I had was a calm life. You know I hate staying calm."

"No, you don't. You're always calm."

"Don't you just know me too much?"

"I don't. I just…"

And Sasori didn't pressure his friend to complete those words. The cell Deidara was placed in had a vintage smell to it, and even though it was made modern, Sasori could smell the faint blood scent that circulated the parameter, indicating how many different prisoners had been confined and tortured within this cell's walls. It was his own choice to be confined here with Deidara, for as long as they wished to imprison him, he'd be with Deidara. The brown haired man spared a glance at the hopeless young man sitting a few meters away from him. Deidara had definitely seen better days. The blond hair that he loved so much was filled with dirt and sweat and the once alive complexion had turned pale and lifeless. Deidara was withering away and there was nothing he could do about it.

This was their third week being here, and Sasori knew how exhausted the other was. Their meals weren't being tended to, and the treatment they were getting was not as much as he liked it to be. On the surface, they said he was the guard for Deidara. But he knew, right now, no, from the moment he opened his lips saying words in Deidara's defence, he had been marked as nothing but a traitor, and he wouldn't have it any other way.

"You're a moron."

"I don't want to be told that by the person who so foolishly pointed a gun at his future leader."

"He isn't my leader," Deidara released within clinched teeth, "I will never admit him as one. A person like him, knowing no pain, living life as he wanted, and on top of that getting the privilege to love and lead a happy life, that kind of person…that kind of person is better off dead!"

Sasori sighed and crossed the small distance separating them, he kneeled and with his still functioning right hand raised the sorrow-filled face to meet his gaze. At the startled orbs, he blew a hot air from his mouth.

Not having enough strength to push the other away, Deidara was only able to turn his face away, revealing so faintly his other hidden eye. Sasori gave off a smile.

"Have you come back to your senses, yet? You know as well as I do that Sasuke-sama's life was everything but easy. He suffered his share of the pain, and even now, he is still suffering. He wasn't as fortunate as you having a person to relay on from point one. Because from the beginning, he could only come across enemies and the only ally he was able to secure was a brown ball."

"What do you mean me fortunate?! Fortune was never a friend of mine. I have lived my life depending only on myself! No one was ever there for me."

Sasori's calm face turned a bit angry. "Deidara, I knew you were stupid, but not to this degree. You had me! I was there with you every step on the way, what do you think I have been trying to do all of these years sticking in a family that I wasn't even related to by blood?!"

Deidara's face turned free of all emotions at those words, and his brain refused to process the letters being thrown at him. "W-What do you mean not related by blood? Your mother was an Uchiha…wasn't she?"

Short red locks moved with the shaking of their owner's head. "No, she wasn't. She was only a maid who tended to the late Mikoto-sama and was provided the privilege of being named an Uchiha when she was pregnant with a boy from a person outside of the family. Had they known about this, she would have lost her head. That's why the late Mikoto-sama pleaded with the late Fugaku-sama to give my mother protection by making her an Uchiha and secretly adopting her into the family."

"But…what about your father?"

"He wasn't my real father, the late leader made him marry my mother to secure that no doubts about where I came from arise and they find out that my mother was never an Uchiha. And since he was already in love with her, he agreed to it."

"...No, that can't be…if…if it's true, then you mean to tell me that you and I…that we aren't fucking related!"

Sasori didn't avoid the hard push he was given. It was to be expected, he'd hid this truth from the day that old servant that had posed as his father for all these years finally cracked and informed him of his true origins, and even though he wanted nothing but to disbelieve him; the results that came out when he investigated further were absolute. There was no where he could run to from the truth and he had to come in terms with who he was by force.

"When did you find out?" Deidara asked after a while of a much needed silence.

"When I was fourteen."

"Then…" A shaky voice resonated in the locked up cell, "you were just lying to me all of these fucking years!"

Sasori bit his lips at the traces of tears threatening to fall down. He made a notion to stand up and go closer to the betrayed other but Deidara's eyes told him that it would be a very bad idea to do so, so Sasori sat in his place and tried to explain.

"I wasn't lying, I was just not telling you all there is. I was merely afraid of losing you. If you had found out that I wasn't a part of the family, you would have completely shut me out. You would not want anything to do with me since you value only the family. And I couldn't live apart from you. I would lose my path if you were not beside me."

"And by lying you thought I'd stay by your side?!"

"I…just wanted to spend as much time with you as possible. And even if you wounded up hating me, it would be enough to just know that I had a few more years with you."

Deidara clenched his clothes as his right eye released a tear. Yes, he felt like shit right now. He had always thought that no matter what life threw at him, he would be able to cope with it, and live past it, because he knew Sasori was always there beside him, that blood was always thicker than water, that no matter what wrongs he was doing or who he was serving under, Sasori would always be there with him, because they were family. But now…what was he to do?

How would he live past this betrayal?

"I always thought we were brothers, that you'd always be there for me and I'd always be there for you…"

Sasori's heart refused that statement and since he had already wrecked everything, he was sure to state his reasons for it.

"I have never thought of you as a brother, well, not since I knew who I am."

Okay, he was prepared for everything, but hearing it being stated to him so bluntly, Deidara felt his core shake. Why were bad things always happening to him? Who did he anger in his past life to be treated this way? His only resolve was pressing hard on his shackled hands 'till blood seeped free from his them, indicating that even though his heart was as numb as ever, he was still alive.

"Get out…I don't want to see you."

"Unfortunately, I won't be able to do that seeing as how I'm in this mess with you."

"Well, you can just fucking tell them what you've just told me! That you have nothing to do with me! That we aren't fucking brothers or anything! I will back you up, so fucking disappear!"

"Deidara," Sasori looked with calm brown eyes at the mess on the floor, his heart squeezed when he saw the blood and what his words has done, but he couldn't do it like this, this wasn't right, he had to tell him the whole truth. Watching Deidara hurt like this, wasn't giving him any satisfaction. "I love you."

"..."

With slow steps, he walked towards the other. "Deidara, raise your head and look at me."

"…"

"Deidara, I'm crazily in love with you! Why do you think I still stayed after knowing I wasn't part of this blood-thirst, pain-filled family?! It's because I couldn't leave you alone. I've loved you all my life, and not as a brother, but as a man. I would tell it to you as many times as you want to hear it. I love you!"

"Stop. Don't say anything anymore. Just leave me."

"Dei-"

"LEAVE ME!"

Deidara's bloody hands were covering his head; shaking with disbelieve, anger, shock, sorrow and the pain he was trying so hard to withstand. All of these emotions were obviously too much for his fragile malnourished body to bear right now and before Sasori could release any other word from his mouth. The blond dropped on the hard ground with a thud. And that's how Sasori's heart came to break in two.


Okie! There! Finished. It was a hard chapter to write, since I was inside a damn block for over two weeks now and wasn't able to write a single sentence, but there you have it, folks! Tell me what you think? :D I love Deidara's character and it would have killed me if I didn't write him in the story as nothing but a bad-guy. Thanks for reading!