I'm having a really bad writer's block…so I'm going to attempt to pull this chapter out of me. Maybe if I get this one out, things will go better. Wish me luck! (: Hopefully you'll enjoy.

Logan: Julia only owns-

James: *Shoves Logan out of the way* That's my job!

Logan: But Carlos got to read off the disclaimer yesterday.

James: Because I was unavailable.

Logan and James: *Really quickly* Julia only owns the O/Cs!

Julia: Thank you for resolving that peacefully. Story time! (:

Chapter 16:

-Kaitlin's P.O.V.

I. Hate. Hospitals. Period.

This was what I was thinking when I opened my eyes to find James by my side.

"Ja-James? Where am I?"

"Kaitlin! The hospital…you fainted. The doctor will tell you why in a little. Don't ever do that to me…to any of us…again!" James was crying. I reached out to him, as if to give him a gesture that I was ok. "I don't know what I'd do if I lost you."

"I love you James. I thought I was dead…but I saw you…in my sleep…and you were crying…over me. I knew I had to keep holding on…you drove me to survive."

"I love you too, Kaitlin. Don't ever let go." James hugged me tightly. He was shaking. I stroked his soft, light brown hair to comfort him. Everything was going to be ok. I wasn't about to let go. I was going to keep holding on until I was old and grey.

Kendall, Carlos, and Logan all came walking in seconds later.

"Hey Kait, how're you feeling?" Kendall asked quietly.

"Dizzy…and my head itches." I touched the spot gently.

Logan grabbed my arm. "You have stitches there."

"That would explain a lot," I said, sighing in resignation. "So why exactly am I so dizzy?"

"You um-" Carlos choked on a sob, trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to pour out of his chocolate brown eyes and down his tan cheeks.

Oh great, something was wrong with me…and it's probably not going to be easy to live with if these boys- who are barrels of laughs-are all near tears again, I thought with a sinking sensation in the pit of my stomach.

A doctor came into my room. "Hi Kaitlin, I'm Doctor Foally. I have a bit to explain to you. I'll start with the simplest details and work my way to the more complicated information."

Complicated information. That made me feel really uneasy. Shifting in the hospital bed with anxiety, I listened waiting for the worst.

"When you fell, you got a pretty nasty gash on your head. That was pretty easily taken care of. We fixed that with stitches, as you can probably feel," said Doctor Foally.

I nodded, understanding. That was pretty straight forward.

"With the fall also came a concussion. It's no big thing…the only problem is you might feel nauseous for a couple of days. It also can explain some of the dizziness at the moment."

He said some of the dizziness. He paused for a few seconds. I swear that he enjoyed seeing the conflict within me. He sighed and continued.

"Kaitlin, we ran some blood tests…your blood sugar was extremely high."

"Am I hyperglycemic?" I asked, remembering that my dad was.

"No, it's more severe than that. You're…a type 1 diabetic."

Complete shock. Why did this have to happen to me? My vision blurred.

"You're blood sugar was nearly 900. I'll check you again after we finish here. Now don't worry, I know it seems like the most awful thing, but diabetes is so easily taken care of. You need to think about diabetes as a lifestyle, not an illness," the doctor said, handing me a tissue.

"Will I be alright?" I asked, a frozen expression of gloom on my face. I clutched the tissue tightly, unable to move my arm which seemed to weigh thousands of pounds.

"Of course you will, as long as you do exactly what we tell you to. You're going to have to stay here tonight to learn about your treatment and options you may have."

I sighed, slightly relieved. There was so much I'd have to change about my life. Maybe I could have a little help from my friends.

"Um, I'm just wondering…but can I stay with Kaitlin tonight?" James asked, almost begging.

"It goes against hospital rules…"

James's face fell.

"But I think we can make an exception," the doctor finished.

A smile replaced the look of sadness on James's face.

"That's about all I have to tell you now. In an hour I'll be back to start showing you how to manage your diabetes. Right now I want to check and see where your sugar's at."

I winced as Doctor Foally pricked my finger. Oh the pleasures of diabetes.

"362. It's getting better. We are going to continue with the insulin for a little longer."

Sighing, I leaned back against the pillow as the doctor poked and prodded at me.

"You're heart doesn't seem as weak as before. That's a good sign. You should be perfect by tomorrow."

I looked over at James. He was staring at his hands.

"Are you alright?" I asked once Doctor Foally had left.

"Not really."

"James, talk to us. You need to snap out of the sadness and go back to your craziness. I'm not going to be happy dating a sad sack."

"Yeah James. We all care and worry about Kaitlin, but you heard the doctor. She's going to be fine," said Carlos.

"It's going to make things so difficult," James said quietly after a while.

"No it won't," I replied.

"Yeah dude, Kaitlin's alive. She's pretty much her old self," Logan reminded him.

I took James's hand and squeezed it. "I don't want you upset. I want you to support me and help me through my struggles. All of you. That reminds me of a little ditty called 'With a Little Help from My Friends' by the Beatles."

Logan started singing and eventually we all joined in with grins on our faces.

What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing out of key.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm, I get high with a little help from my friends,
Mmm, I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends.

Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.

What do I do when my love is away?
(Does it worry you to be alone?)
How do I feel by the end of the day
(Are you sad because you're on your own)
No, I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm, get high with a little help from my friends,
Mmm, gonna to try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.

Would you believe in a love at first sight?
Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light?
I can't tell you, but I know it's mine.
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm I get high with a little help from my friends,
Oh, I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody?
I just need someone to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Ooh, I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
with a little help from my friends

"See James, I'm still me, I'm just me with diabetes who needs love and support from her amazing boyfriend. Please cheer up because it hurts me to see you like this."

"I'm sorry Kaitlin. I'm just really afraid…I love you so much."

"I love you too. And I don't want you to be afraid, because I'm not."

Carlos, Kendall, and Logan stepped out of the room to give us some privacy. James sat there holding me. I leaned into his warmth and kissed him softly on the lips. I was blessed. Even though I was in a lousy position, James gave me a reason to fight.

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Aw cute. I feel bad for Kaitlin. What did you think? Let me know if there are any errors with anything. Updating tomorrow. (: Please review. Peace and love.