Yay! Chapter 5 is finally here!
I had planned to write it Friday night and upload it Saturday afternoon, but those plans fell through due to sleep deprivation and then a concert Saturday.
But anyways, here it is!
Btw, I own nothing save for the plot.
Enjoy!
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Kakashi was an idiot.
A grade A, dumber than dirt idiot. Well, at least he thought so. Why else would he have kissed Sakura?
Groaning he shoved the pillow that was under his head and placed it over top of his face in irritation. If he could go back a few hours and rethink the whole going to the bar decision he would.
At least, that's what he told himself.
Much to his displeasure he kept thinking about how she looked, with lust causing her eyes to glaze over. Lust for him.
With a muttered curse he turned over so he now lay on his stomach with the pillow now resting on the back of his head.
He was never going to get any sleep tonight if he kept thinking the way he was.
He had tired the old argument that she was a kid and that he was too old for her. Of course, in some ways he was too old for her, but she was far from a kid.
So that argument was useless.
Then he tried to tell himself that he didn't mean to kiss her, that it just happened. Now, that was true to a point, but if he was completely honest with himself he would have to acknowledge that he had wanted to kiss her since they began working in ANBU together. He wasn't sure when it happened, but at some point in those three years he had stopped looking at her like she was still a twelve year old genin and began to look at her as a fellow comrade. A friend even.
Maybe that was when everything changed.
But he had held himself back, telling himself that she was still practically a child, only a year out of her teens. She hadn't had the life experience he'd had, or the relationship experience. He forced himself to never cross that line. He had done a good job.
Until she almost died.
It had brought back painful memories that he had long tired to forget. He had shoved them so far back into his mind that he no longer thought about them. He had managed to keep them locked up for thirteen years. Thirteen long, lonely years.
Then she brought them back. That's when he knew he had to get away from her; being that close to someone only led to heartbreak.
That was why he needed to stay away from her now. He couldn't let himself get back into that place again. He refused to go back to that place. Refused to be the person it made him be.
He would be strong. He would live his life for his village, be happy with the friends he had left, and never let himself love another person.
With that resolved, sleep finally found Kakashi Hatake.
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Sakura had almost managed to forget the pervious hours and fall asleep. She had almost succeeded, until her mind flashed back to the very thing she was trying to forget.
Damn him.
She didn't know how it happened, or why. All she knew was that it did and her mind was still reeling over that fact.
One minute they had been arguing, then the next he had her pinned against the wall and was kissing her senseless.
Oh, that man knew how to kiss.
She got that fluttering feeling in her stomach every time she thought about it.
All that the previous night did for her was cause more problems, not fix anything. She already guessed that he was afraid of how close he had gotten to her. Hell, it scared her. Being close to people meant opening yourself up to being hurt, to losing those people. But what kind of life would you have if you didn't? Yeah, you may not get hurt, but isn't being lonely practically the same thing? Isn't living your life never knowing what a true friend is, worse than the possibility of losing someone?
Maybe she was biased? She certainly wasn't afraid to let people in.
Was she?
She had close friends. She had her family. She wasn't afraid of the bonds she had made.
Was she?
If she was completely honest with herself she would have to admit that maybe fear kept her from trying to pursue a true relationship with Neji.
She didn't want to give someone her heart only for them to take it with them when they died. She had seen it happen with her sister-in-law five years ago when her brother passed away from a mission gone badly.
She tried not to think about it. It had been the first time someone close to her died. The first major loss she experienced.
Shaking her head, she sat up and fluffed the pillow under her head in an attempt to get more comfortable.
Ever since that day she had made her mind up that she would never fall for someone until they were both retired. Then she would let someone have her heart. Only then.
Losing her husband killed her sister-in-law. She wouldn't let something like that kill her too.
She just needed to stay away from Kakashi.
Obviously they felt something for each other. He had already proven to be capable of being someone important to her, and in a different way than Naruto, Ino, or Anko was.
If she let him back in her life he stood a chance of stealing her heart and that wasn't something she could let happen.
She had to avoid him, not that it should be a problem. She was pretty sure he would be avoiding her as well.
With that thought, sleep finally found Sakura Haruno.
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Tsunade was not very happy to be pulled out of bed at an hour that couldn't really be classified as being night or morning. All she knew was that it better be good and very important.
Sighing and massaging her temples she sat behind her desk as a bunch of fidgety Jounin reported to her about their mission failure. Her attention only being captured when they said they had to pull out because ninja from Cloud that appeared to be their version of ANBU showed up.
"Say that again." She demanded.
"Before we could gather any information about the attacks three members of what appeared to be Could ANBU showed up. It seemed like they were threatening the local doctor; almost sounded like they were telling him that if he healed any of the injured from the attack he would be the one to suffer. Hokage-sama, I believe that Cloud is behind the attacks." Came the reply from the captain of the three mad squad of Jounin that she had sent a week ago to investigate and help the small village that had gone under attack at the edge of Fire's border.
"Alright, you are all dismissed. Get some sleep and I expect a full mission report by tomorrow afternoon."
With that everyone vacated the room save for Tsunade.
So it was true, Cloud was behind the attacks. She had her suspicions, of course, but this proved it. Why else would they come across Fire's borders to threaten the local doctor?
But why. Why attack a small village that had no ninja to speak of? Why threaten the doctor and not the leader of the village?
Sighing she once again rubbed her temples with her fingers.
She had to send another team in, one that would be capable of defending the village if it came to it and one that would be able to treat the injured since it seemed the doctor would not.
She knew the two she had to send in, but she was unsure how they would handle the situation of being thrown together. It would have to be undercover if they had any hopes of finding out what exactly was going on.
The only was a man and a woman could go under cover in that village was to pose as a married couple.
It was a very old fashioned place and men and women did not travel together unwed. No one would ever tell them anything or let them do anything if they went against the morals of the village.
She almost reconsidered sending them. Almost.
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Kakashi felt like he had only been sleeping for a few minutes when a knock at his door woke him up.
When he answered it there stood a masked member of ANBU tell him that the Hokage requested his presence. He had dressed in a hurry and arrived that the Hokage tower in five minutes.
He was shocked to find Sakura open the door to Tsunade's office not three minutes after he had gotten there.
She seemed equally as shocked.
Of course, her presence wasn't all that shocked him. No. What shocked him even more was Tsunade's voice telling him – them – that they would be leaving on a mission together in one day's time.
"You'll have to pose as a married couple."
Yep, that was the icing on the cake.
He didn't know how he would make it through this.
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So what do y'all think! Finally some inside clues to both Sakura and Kakashi's lives.
And yeah, I gave Sakura a dead brother. I felt it would give her a past and give her some angst.
Because there will be lots of angst to come from both side!
But the next chapter will have a lot of Kakashi and Sakura interaction as they embark on their mission together.
From here on out, I want to address some review that either have questions or have made good points and such. So at the end of each chapter I'll include some!
Yle: I like it!I love the pair and I like the fact that Sakura is 26, slightly older than most other kakasaku fic.
I'll wait for the next update,thanks for sharing!
I'm glad someone else likes an older Sakura in these fics. I feel that making her 18-20ish is just too young in most scenarios. I like giving her life experience and such so she and Kakashi have more in common. I feel like 26 is a good age. Of course, just my opinion =)
Scarlettsky: Omgosh, its kinda sad, but I know it probably won't stay that way. I'm looking forward to what's to come. 6 years might seem long to some, but the older you get, the faster it flies.
I agree. The older you get the faster time seems to fly. And no, it won't stay sad! I plan to give them plenty of happy moments!
Jen: As much as I love this pair, I hope they don't go home together yet. It just seems too soon in the story. I would love to see Sakura ignore Kakashi for now and give him time to come to his senses. Other than that I'm really enjoying this. Update soon... but after you get some sleep.
Totally agree. Sex too soon in a story can ruin it for me. Unless she has to end up pregnant or something, then I guess it's needed. Haha.
harvestangel99: lol. Thank Kami for alcohol, its been helping people get through awkward moments for hundreds of years.
No bigger truth as ever been said! Haha.
Thanks again to all the lovely reviews! I love reading what my readers have to say and answering your questions about the story!
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Until next time!
