*A/N: Thought I would surprise you with another chapter. I want to write out and attempt to figure out how long this story is going to be, so until then I wont be able to update. Hopefully you'll stay with me. Thanks to my lovely beta and awbffe NessiesMomma for beta reading.*

*Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or its characters, SM does. I do however want Edward Cullen to spend eternity in my bedroom ;]*


We left the meadow, and now we're on our way back to the Cullen's house. I hadn't spoken to Edward since his refusal. While the sentiment was nice, was he seriously proposing marriage before sex? He was a 104 year old, virgin vampire for fucks sake! And on top of it all, he was concerned about his virtue and made me feel like the evil hybrid twirling her imaginary mustache trying to steal it away.

I didn't know if he wasn't attempting to talk to me because he knew I would scream at him, or he was pissed at me for the childish way I was reacting. While I knew deep down I was being childish, his refusal made me feel less than him. The woman was supposed to be in power over sex, and he had made feel powerless and unwanted.

We pulled up in front, and he let me open my own door. As he walked in front of me, he suddenly stopped. "I'll understand if you don't want me to come up tonight."

He continued walking and we were met with an empty household. "Where is everyone?"

"They're hunting. We're planning on beginning the search tomorrow."

"For the other hybrids." I paused. "Right." I chewed on my lip. I didn't like the discomfort we were in.

Awkward silence passed between us before Edward finally spoke. "I'll be in the basement if you need me."

"Oh. Okay."

He walked away and I was alone. I felt tired, so I retreated to my bedroom. It felt empty and cold without him there. I frowned and decided to call Jake.

"Hey Bells! How are you?"

"Hey. I'm fine. Really wishing everyone would stop asking me that though." I half joked.

"Sorry. I'm just concerned, you know."

"I know." I paused. "So I guess I'll be in La Push tomorrow."

"Really?!" I could hear his excitement over the phone and it made me smile. Jake was so easy to please.

"Yeah. Edward told me they're beginning the search tomorrow."

"That's so great! I'll have to tell Sam to switch up my patrol so I can spend time with you."

"You don't have to do that. I'll be fine on my own."

He chuckled. "You're crazy, Bells. I want to."

"Alright. So what do you have planned?"

"We'll figure something out. Always do. Are you staying the night?"

"I guess. I haven't really thought about it." I began running ideas in my head. "It's either stay here in an empty house… I guess I could stay at my house."

"You could stay here. I'll sleep on the couch. At least you'll be safe here you know?"

I thought about it. Sue still seemed kind of upset about the whole Seth thing. Highly doubted she wanted to put up with me while the Cullen's were gone. "You sure? I don't want to put you out."

"You won't be. It'll be just like old times."

"Okay that works then. I'll call you tomorrow and let you know everything. Thanks Jake."

"Anything for you." I could tell he meant it.

"I better let you get some sleep. As well as me… it's been a long day."

"Yeah. Sweet dreams, Bells."

"You too. Night, Jake."

I hung up the phone and went to grab one of Edward's shirts he had left here, and changed into it. Crawling into bed, I realized how alone I really felt. Had his being here really affected me this much? I didn't want to be like this with Edward. He was here for me just as much as Jake was and he didn't know me half as long. After attempting to sleep I realized how useless it really was without Edward singing my lullaby, and chasing the bad dreams away. Pulling back the covers I walked down the three flights of stairs to the basement door.

He was playing my lullaby. I walked down the stairs and leaned against the wall listening to him. He stopped abruptly at hearing my arrival and looked me up and down. "Are you trying to make this more difficult for me?"

I shook my head. "What do you mean?"

He gestured to my clothing. Or lack thereof. I was only wearing his white v-neck and a pair of booty shorts.

"Sorry." I stated. "Don't stop playing." I walked over and sat beside him on the bench, leaning my head on his shoulder. "And I meant I was sorry for earlier too."

He began playing. "You do get where I'm coming from though?"

"Yes. You're bizarrely moral for a vampire."

He chuckled and I closed my eyes to listen. "My virtue is all I have left. You know I've stolen. I've lied. I've coveted. I want to do something right, especially where it concerns you."

I sighed. "I suppose you're right. But you're going to have to sex it down so I don't jump your bones every time I see you."

I felt him kiss my hair and smile against it. "You're insane. But I love you."

"I love you, too." I definitely could get use to this.

He finished out my lullaby and wrapped both his arms around me. "You're exhausted and damn too tempting. Let's get you to bed."

"You forgot something first."

He looked around the room and furrowed his eyebrows. "What?"

I tapped my index finger on my mouth and he smirked. He brought his lips down to mine and I was home.


I woke up to the feeling of fingers combing through my hair. Smiling, I opened my eyes to find Edward with a goofy grin on his face. This, of course, turned my sexy smile to match his. The things that boy did to me.

"What has you all smiling?" I asked.

He hummed and leaned down pressing his lips hard against mine and backed away far too soon.

"I love when I hear you say my name in your sleep." I blushed deeply and I felt his hand travel lightly down the side of my body. "And don't think I didn't get your whole tactic avoidance last night, Miss Swan."

I looked at him confused. "What tactic avoidance, Mr. Cullen?"

There was hunger in his eyes. "Ignoring my comment of marriage, by coming downstairs in my t-shirt."

"I actually completely forgot about that. I just wore it to feel like you were here when I was attempting to sleep by myself."

"So, now that we are back on topic, is that something that you will consider with me?"

"M-Marriage?" I question and he simply nodded. "I'm only eighteen, Edward."

"You've never thought of it?"

I shook my head. "We're still getting to know each other. Maybe at sometime in the future. You're a big part of my life, even with knowing you this short of a time. I don't plan on letting you go."

He kissed my nose. "I guess that'll have to do for now."

"So, you've thought of it?"

"Every second since I've known you." I'm positive my jaw dropped. "I'd ask for your hand right now if you weren't so adverse to it at the moment."

"It's just with everything going on at the moment--"

He placed his hand on my lips. "I'm not rushing you, Bella. I want you to marry me not because you're afraid of upsetting me but because you want to spend the rest of your life with me."

"But, I already do want that." I assured.

"Well, it's a moot point then. When you're ready I'll be."

I frowned but agreed. "You're leaving today."

"Yes, I am." He moved over me supporting himself on his elbows. His fingers still playing with my hair. "Are you going to be okay? I can stay if you need me."

"I'll be fine with Jake. I did have a life before you, ya know."

He smirked. "Oh, did you now?" His nose grazed mine before moving across my face. "I'm almost positive he didn't make you feel like this."

I pretended to think about it. "Hmm. I'm not sure what you mean, Edward."

"Oh, I think you do." He brought his mouth down to mine, slipping his tongue inside. I held back a whimper and felt the wetness between my legs. He pulled back. "The evidence is right between your thighs."

Two could play this game. I lifted my hips to rub against his, feeling satisfied at feeling his hardened erection. Quickly, I flipped us over sliding down to straddle his thighs. "I wouldn't be so… cocky, Edward." I slipped my hand under his briefs. "Are you implying that there are others that made you feel like I do?" I don't know where this confidence was coming from but I liked it.

He groaned. "Only you, Bella."

Using both my hands I gripped his briefs, sliding them down and lifting my body. When he was free of his boxers, I gripped his dick and began working him with my hands. Edward's golden eyes never left mine, and my stomach was clenching with the thought of having him in my mouth. As if on cue, a little wetness seeped out of his tip.

Sliding my hips down for better access, I brought my tongue to his tip, and licked it. Edward's hips immediately went to shift up, but my hands held him firmly down. Shaking my head at him, I quickly brought my mouth down and slowly moved down, pushing him deep into my throat. I hummed, and the vibrations caused him to curse.

"God, Bella, your mouth."

Using my tongue, I licked the underside of his shaft and swirled my tongue around his tip. I loved the feeling of Edward filling me this way. I could only imagine what it would be like to have him fill me… elsewhere. I worked him in out of my mouth, varying in different techniques, testing what would drive him wild. When I knew he was close, I lightly dragged my teeth along his shaft before pushing him deep into the back of my throat and swallowing. He released into my mouth, shouting my name over and over.

I licked him clean and released him with a pop before climbing up his body and laying my head on his chest. "I'm going to miss this."

"I hope you're talking about our time, and not what you just did because if you are, I just became the luckiest guy ever."

I slapped his chest lightly. "Get your mind out of the gutter. You know I enjoy doing that, but I meant I'm going to miss you."

"I'll call and text you as much as I can, but I'm pretty sure Jacob will keep you occupied."

I chuckled. "Yeah, he's a good buddy."

"Bella," I lifted my head up, propping myself on his chest, "just be careful, okay? Jake wants more from you than friendship."

This isn't how I wanted to spend out morning together. "So, let me get this straight," I attempted my best pissed off voice, "I just gave you a pretty intense orgasm, and you want to talk about Jake's feelings?"

"Uh, you're right." He flipped us over, causing me to yelp, and attacked my mouth with fervor. My hands were everywhere. Pulling on his hair. Scratching along his back. I needed him closer. Wanted him closer. His hands traveled down my side, hitching my leg on to his hip and ground himself into me. I moaned into his mouth causing him to kiss me deeper.

When we finally came up for air, Edward huffed. I arched my eyebrow in question. "Alice is screaming in her mind to let you go downstairs."

I pouted. "But I don't want to."

He chuckled and kissed me chastely on my bottom lip. "Neither do I. But, it appears my family's as in love with you as I am."

"It's okay. I love them more than you." I smirked and he began tickling my sides. "Ok! Ok! I love you more! I love you more!"

He released me. "Better."

We removed ourselves from the bed and he threw on a pair of shorts as I clung to the sheet. He kissed me on the forehead before racing out the door to his bedroom for a shower and some clothes. I smiled after him, still feeling his lips on my forehead. I sprinted into the shower, soaping up my body and washing my hair. When I finished, I wrapped myself in a towel and walked to my closet searching for something to wear.

I spotted a simple white eyelet lace dress and a jean jacket. I found a matching lace bra and underwear set and quickly slipped the outfit on. I walked back into the bathroom to quickly blow dry my hair and let it fall into soft waves down my back. I packed my suitcase quickly, throwing in various articles of clothing. When I finished, I looked myself over in the mirror and liked what I saw. I flattened my dress down, and smoothed my hair when suddenly, I heard the door open. I turned to find Edward staring at me.

"What? Too much?" I asked.

He walked over to me and ran his hands down my arms. "Perfect. You look beautiful."

I blushed. "Thank you."

He shook his head at me. "You're really not helping in the whole 'operation get Bella downstairs' fiasco."

"Too tempting?"

"Exactly."

I kissed him and ran my fingers through his wet hair. I pulled back and saw Edward in dark jeans with a white V neck shirt under a leather jacket. I may have moaned, loudly, at the sight of him and was rewarded with his lopsided smile.

"Okay. You. Downstairs. Now."

I turned to walk and he slapped me lightly on the ass. Damn that felt good. "Can you do that more often?" I smirked.

"You're insatiable."

I ran, and he chased me down the stairs before grabbing me and twirling me around in his arms. He kissed me forcibly and plopped me down on my feet. I turned and was met with the eyes of the rest of the Cullen family.

Alice's hands were clasped together. "Bella! You're learning!" Before I could question it, she answered. "You look gorge, doll."

"Thanks, Alice. So, when are you guys all leaving?"

Carlisle answered. "In a few hours. We want to make sure you'll be okay in La Push."

"I'm positive I will be. I'll practically be living with the pack, and no worries, I won't wonder off."

"Thank you, Bella. That was what I was concerned about." He smiled warmly at me.

"No, thank you. Thank you for taking me in, for putting up with my slight tantrums, and for accepting me into your family. And thank you for searching for others like me."

Carlisle walked over and wrapped me in his arms. "You've always been a part of this family."

"That means a lot."

He released me and Esme practically knocked him over to get to me. "Are you sure you'll be okay there? We can work something out to have someone here at all times."

"I'm sure. The more of you searching, the quicker you'll figure all this out."

"Okay, dear." She kissed my cheek before walking over to stand by Carlisle's side.

"You all be careful too, and promise to let me know as soon as you know anything."

"Sure thing, little sis." Emmett boomed. "I got your back."

I chuckled as Edward took my hand and entwined it with his. I was a part of this family and they were a part of me. They were separating from each other to help me find out who I was. This is where I truly belonged.

After Esme cooked me breakfast. Omelets. We all talked for awhile about where they would be heading. Rose and Emmett were going to Africa, while Alice and Jasper went to the Southern United States, and Edward, Esme, and Carlisle searched South America. I was flooded with relief when I heard Edward wouldn't be alone. I had enough worrying on my plate. I hugged each of them goodbye as Edward led me outside and into his Volvo. I stared one last time at the place I had come to know as home and the family who was risking it all to save me.

"I want you to have the Volvo."

I eyed Edward. "Are you serious? Edward my truck works just fine."

He reached over and took my hand in his. "I'd feel better if you took it. Please, Bella."

"Fine. But, I probably won't leave La Push, unless I'm going to visit Charlie. And I'm pretty sure he would come to me."

He squeezed my hand. "Just to ease my mind."

"For you, babe." I tried to fully smile.

About a mile from La Push he pulled over to the side of the road, and pulled me over the console, and pressed his mouth firmly to mine. This kiss was full of passion and promise and I never wanted to let go.

"I'll." Kiss. "Miss." Kiss. "You."

I pulled him closer one last time, moaning into his mouth, before finally pulling away. "I'll miss you, too. I love you, Edward."

He reached down to his wrist where his cuff with the Cullen crest was, and snapped it off. He fastened it around my left wrist. "Take this." He kissed me chastely before turning back to the steering wheel and pulling us back onto the road.

We reached the treaty line, and I saw Jake's Rabbit before I saw him leaning against it. Edward stopped the car, walked over, and let me out while grabbing my suitcase. He held my hand firmly before we met Jake in the middle. The boys nodded curtly at each other and I grabbed my suitcase from Edward before leaning over and kissing him.

"I love you, Bella." He whispered.

Edward watched as Jake grabbed my suitcase and walked me towards his car, placing me in the passenger seat. I smiled sadly and waved as Jake started the car and drove me away from my heart.