*A/N: "Your Loves A Drug" by Leighton Meester spurred on this chapter and hopefully the honeymoon ;]. Thanks to my lovely beta and awbffe NessiesMomma for beta reading. Seriously without her I don't know if you'd have the rest of this story. More at the bottom.*

*Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or its characters, SM does. I do however want Edward Cullen to spend eternity in my bedroom ;]*


When I opened my eyes, I was in an all white room, on a plush bed with needles plugged in all over my arms. There was a monitor registering my heart rate, and someone had changed me into comfortable gray sweatpants and a white tank top. I looked around the room and saw auburn hair and immediately smiled. Edward's head was on my lap, and he seemed to be clinging to my hand as if he was afraid I'd disappear. I took notice of his dark holey jeans and his gray hooded sweatshirt.

I took my other hand, which he wasn't holding, and lifted it to run my fingers through his hair. The effort took most of my energy, and even that slight movement showed me the soreness of my body. Who knew vampires got sore? When my hand made contact with his hair, his body immediately stilled.

He lifted his head and breathed my name. "Bella."

I smiled at him and tried to talk but my throat hurt. I gestured for a drink and he immediately got up and poured me a glass, placing it in my all too eager hand. When I finished draining the contents of the glass, I brought my hand down to rest on his cheek.

"So, what happened? Where's James?"

He kissed my palm. "We took care of it. And the woman, Victoria, she ran off."

I pulled his face close to mine and touched my lips to his, whimpering. "Thank you. I'm alive because of you."

He shook his head. "You're in here because of me. The worst part of it was, that I didn't think I was going to make it in time. When I heard you scream, Bella, I thought I was too late."

"But you weren't too late."

"He drank from you. You lost so much blood, and he left the wound open. I… I had to seal it and then I didn't think we'd be able to save you."

I brought my hand to push back his hair. "You did save me." He looked up, and his eyes held such sorrow and guilt. "Edward, James said he knew you when you were… human."

"He did."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

He couldn't look at me. "It didn't register until I saw you there, chained up." He released a breath and then his eyes searched mine. "He didn't… he didn't touch you. Did he, Bella?"

I shook my head. Edward didn't need to know exactly how close James had come to touching me. The worry would eat him up inside, and I didn't want that for him. James' lust for my blood overpowered his need to be inside me.

"Edward," I paused trying to figure out how best to say this. "You can't ever leave me again. We can't be apart."

Edward touched my hair. "I'm here. Where else am I going to go?"

His lips kissed my forehead and held there before finally retreating and claiming my mouth. It was slow and unrushed, as if we were relearning each other. Our distance apart only intensified the love we held for each other. He reluctantly pulled back and sat besides me on the bed.

"Is Jake here?" Edward nodded. "Can you get him? I said some hurtful things to him and I'm sure he feels horrible."

"Bella, he kissed you against your will and then put you in danger. He should feel horrible."

"Edward." I scolded. "Please."

He squeezed my hand and stood up from the bed and walked out the door. I didn't even want to think about what happened between Edward and Jake. Obviously Edward knew that Jake had kissed me, and was furious about it. But, unlike Edward, I understood Jake's dilemma. Up until my eighteenth birthday it was always me and him. Now, I had a whole new life and a new boyfriend to top it off.

There was a light knock on the door. "Come in."

There, shirtless, was a distraught Jake whose face fell the second he saw me tangled with wires. I opened my arms and called him over, and he strode in three big steps and was suddenly in my arms. I hugged him close to me.

"I'm so sorry, Bella. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have left you on the beach."

His speaking was rushed, but full of pain. I knew immediately that he blamed himself entirely. What is with these guys? Does no one remember that it was me who walked off safety of La Push Beach where I was surrounded by wolves, to the loneliness of the Cullen household?

"Jake, you couldn't have known that I'd go running off."

He pulled back and looked at me pointedly. "You're so stubborn, Bella. I knew that's what you were going to do. That's why when I calmed down I came back. But you had already left, and then…"

I tugged on his hair. "It's not your fault. Okay? Do you hear me? You helped rescue me so stop doing this to yourself." Jake frowned. "Promise me, Jake."

"I promise." He mumbled.

"I mean it, Jake. I'm okay. You guys got there in time. Don't cause yourself all this guilt." I released my hold on his hair and punched him lightly on the jaw. "I don't keep you around for your moody disposition. I keep you around because you're a goofball."

I smiled to bring the fact home and Jake returned it. "Good to have you back, Bells." He brought his hand and smoothed down my hair that was surely a mess. "About what I said on the beach, I meant it. I don't want a mis-communication to stand in our way."

"As persistent as ever, Jacob Black."

He shrugged and gave me his best boyish smile. "I'll talk to you later."

I nodded and watched as he strolled out the door. I knew I had to do my best to not let Jake's feelings for me affect our friendship. That was the one thing I was always concerned about when it came to Jake, even before Edward.

I looked over just as Carlisle and Edward appeared at the door. Edward lagged behind Carlisle as he checked the monitors and secured all the needles. "How are we feeling?"

"Good. When can I get all these needles out of me?"

Carlisle chuckled. "Soon. How does the blood feel in your system? We had to do a few transfusions and I want to know if it had an effect on your makeup."

"I feel different, stronger somehow. But I'm comparing this to a couple hours ago."

"Are you hungry? Thirsty? Tired?" He pulled on one of the wires, causing me to squirm a bit.

"I actually feel full and like I've slept for a month."

"Interesting. We might have to do some further studies with that, but as long as the transfusions took, you should be out of here in a few minutes."

I actually released a breath in relief causing both Edward and Carlisle to laugh. Carlisle left the room with promises to return shortly, and Edward stepped over grabbing my hand.

"How long have I been out of it?" I asked him.

"Just the night. I was so worried, Bella."

His fingers began to run soft patterns along my palm. It was a smoothing sensation causing me to instantly feel relaxed. Then again, I never had that problem where Edward was concerned. I remembered right before I passed out telling him that I accepted his proposal and I was curious as to why he hadn't brought it up yet.

"What do you say we go to the meadow after Carlisle gives us the OK?"

I hummed in response. "That sounds perfect."


The hot water cascading down my back was working wonders on my aching muscles. The last remnants of the sedative were making their way out of my bloodstream, and Carlisle said I should be back to normal in no time. I turned the water off and grabbed the white towel folded over the glass door and wrapped it around my body.

As I scrunched my hair with my fingers, I tip-toed out of the bathroom into my bedroom to find Edward at the edge of the bed holding a black box. I froze immediately and stared at the box as he looked up and met my eyes with a brilliant crooked smile.

He stood and made his way over to me, taking my hand and leading me to where he had been sitting at the edge of the bed. He then knelt at my feet and kept his hand in mine. I looked to our joined hands, and slowly brought my gaze to his golden eyes staring deep within my soul.

"Bella, I'm aware I haven't known you my whole… existence. But, I would like to spend the rest of it doing just that. I've walked alone for most of it as others in my family have met and fallen in love with their soul mates. I know now, that I became what I am so that I could be around for when you entered this world. It isn't very often that change comes into a vampire's life, but you did just that, Bella. And I know I will never be the same because of it. So, Isabella Swan, I promise to love you forever, every single moment of forever. Will you marry me?"

Instantly I brought my mouth to his and wrapped my arms around his neck. If I could cry, I'm almost positive I would at this moment. I poured everything I was feeling into that kiss. Edward Cullen loved me, and not only that but he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me.

Edward pulled back chuckling. "Is that a yes, Miss Swan?"

"That's a hell yes, Mr. Cullen!"

He opened up the box where a small silver ring laid in blue velvet. The diamond sparkled as a ray of sunlight made contact with it. I instantly thought of Edward. Smiling, I held out my left hand and Edward slid the ring onto my waiting finger.

My hands went straight to his hair as I pulled him over me and laid us on the bed with him between my thighs. Our lips met and we wasted no time in tasting each other. My hands made there way to the hem of his sweatshirt,and I pulled it quickly off his body along with his t-shirt.

I stared unabashed at Edward's body. He needed to walk around shirtless more often, preferably in these jeans. I slipped my tongue back into his parted mouth as my hands made there way down to his jeans. I quickly unbuttoned and pulled down his zipper, placing my fingers in the loop of his jeans. I flipped us over and tugged on his jeans. Edward held his hips up as I pulled the dark jeans off his magnificent body.

There he was for me, in nothing but gray boxer briefs. I crawled my way back up his body and straddled his thighs. Edward's hands slowly roamed up my legs to my stomach and over my breasts, pushing the towel away from my body. When it was completely off me, he threw it behind me to land on the floor along with his clothing.

His hands stayed at the undersides of my breast as I bent over and whispered in his ear. "I've missed this."

I was rewarded with the sight of Edward Cullen licking his lips. I brought my teeth to his bottom lip and tugged gently on it, before releasing it and kissing my way down his body. I nipped and sucked on his nipples causing him to groan. The path I was creating finally made it to his glorious V, and I licked the length of both sides before freeing his erection and taking Edward completely in my mouth.

His hips instantly jolted forward, pushing him towards the back of my throat. I chuckled against him, letting it vibrate on his shaft and Edward moaned, loudly. I worked him with my mouth, pushing him near release and then bringing him down. I flicked my tongue along his head and pinched the inside of his thighs. Edward was an involuntary mess. He was grunting unintelligible phrases and moaning my name.

"Fuck, Bella." He moaned. "Please."

And with that word, I pushed him deep in my throat and swallowed just as he released. When he finished, I licked him clean, kissing his tip, and crawled back up his body. I rested my head on his chest, near his silent heart, and placed my arm across him.

"I love you." He breathed.

"I love you, too." I kissed his chest. "Now I have to shower again."

Edward laughed. "Can I join you?" I sat up and stared at him surprised. "What? I think it's perfectly acceptable if I shower with my fiancee."

"You'll have to catch me first."

I ran towards the bathroom, and Edward was right behind me, pinning me to the shower door. His face was mere inches from mine as our breathing became heavy. He reached with his hand to turn the water on and it sprayed on us as the room became foggy.

"That was the wrong thing to do, Bella." He licked along my neck. "You shouldn't run from me."

"What are you gonna do about it, Cullen?"

He smirked against me. "Hang on to that shower door."

I did as I was asked, and gripped the top of the shower door. Edward kissed down my neck, along my collar bone and down to the valley of my breast. As his mouth nipped and suck on my one nipple, his hand played with the other. His free hand worked its way down my body and slipped between my folds. Gah! How could he work so many parts of me at once? He switched breasts and then began kissing down my stomach and dipping his tongue into my navel.

"You taste so sweet, Bella." He bit my stomach. "Everywhere."

He continued his descent, dropping to his knees in front of me. His finger slipped into my entrance as his mouth nipped my clit. I whimpered. He slid another finger inside me and began to pump me as he sucked mercilessly. My hips ground against his face desperate for release, and he only sped up his efforts. Right as I was on edge, he pulled his fingers out of me and I groaned.

He moved his tongue to my entrance and pushed it inside me as his thumb rubbed against me. His tongue flattened inside me, and I my knees buckled. Edward's hand reached up and held my stomach against the glass as my grip tightened where I was holding on.

Right as I was on edge again, Edward switched his efforts and pushed his fingers back inside me. Once his mouth was on my clit, he curled his fingers and nipped on it. I came screaming his name and breaking the glass of the shower door, causing Edward and I to both fall onto the title floor of the bathroom.

When I came down from my orgasm, I looked down at Edward still nestled between my legs and we both erupted into hysterics. He moved to lay next to me and wrapped me in his arms and kissed the top of my head.

"Well," I shook my head in disbelief. "I'd say that was a glass shattering orgasm."

Edward winked at me. "Some of my best work, if I do say so myself."

"How did I get so lucky?" I turned into his chest, and rest my chin on my folded hands.

"We, love. How did we get so lucky."

I smiled, and he lifted us both so we were standing. He grabbed on of the towels off the back of door and wrapped me in it, leading me back into the bedroom. Once there, he grabbed his jeans and threw them on his wet, naked body. When did he get his boxer briefs off? I stood and raked my hands on his chest.

"This is definitely a look I could get used to." I pulled on the waistband of his jeans and bit my lip. "Easy access."

"Insatiable as ever, Miss Swan."

He walked away to grab me some clothing from my closet and I slapped his ass. "Soon to be Mrs. Cullen."

Edward's smile spoke volumes of adoration before he returned to his searching. He tore through the closet with his back turned to me. I quickly reached down grabbing his black v-neck t-shirt that he wore under his sweatshirt and walked over to my dresser pulling out a pair of white shorts.

I quickly grabbed a pair of white cotton panties and a black lace bra and slid them on along with the rest of the outfit. "Oh, Edward?"

He turned and his jaw dropped. "Oh for the love of all that is holy! I'll never get you out of this room!"

I giggled and threw his sweatshirt at him. "Get dressed!"

"Come on!" He pouted. "You know what you wearing my clothes does to me."

I walked over to him and lifted his arms to put the sweatshirt on and messed up his hair. It took some effort but I eventually got him out of my bedroom and down the stairs to our waiting family.

Carlisle was seated in the chair, as Emmett and Alice sat together on the couch. Alice smiled warmly as I made my way down the stairs as Emmett just had this big toothy grin and asked Edward for a high five, which Edward denied. Edward sat between them and pulled me onto his lap wrapping his arms around me.

"I'm so glad you're okay, Bella." Alice stated.

"Me too!" Emmett boomed. "Wouldn't be the same without you."

"Well," Alice chided. "Aren't you going to show them?"

"Show them what?" I played innocent, snuggling closer to Edward.

"Come on!"

I lifted my left hand and waved the fingers. "Oh, this?"

Alice squealed in delight, grabbing my hand and staring at the rock. Emmett slapped the two of us on the back, and along with Carlisle, wished us congratulations. After the fuss was over I felt the atmosphere in the room change and I knew it was time to talk.

"So," I began, "did you guys have any luck in South America?"

"We found the vampire that was impregnating women." Carlisle answered. "He took some finding and caused some trouble, but after he saw that we were just searching for answers he led us to an area where the hybrids might be."

"That's why I wasn't texting or calling you." Edward interrupted. "It was a remote area."

"Yeah, none of us could get a signal out." Alice added.

Carlisle continued. "That's where Jasper and Rosalie are right now. Esme should be here shortly, but Rosalie and Jasper stayed to get more from them."

"What did you get so far?" I asked and the nervousness in my voice was palpable.

Carlisle bent forward, resting his elbows on his knees and clasping his hands. "Bella, you're immortal."

I repeated an Alice-like squeal. "Are you serious? I'm not gonna lose Edward?"

"You weren't losing me either way, love." He kissed the hollow of my throat.

"You're also not venomous and you've matured at eighteen. We don't know much about the effect of diet on your make-up, but that's what I want to study more with you. And James was able to use his nail to break your skin. We think it's safe to say you would be effected by a vampire's bite."

"But we'll never have to worry about that again. I'm not letting anyone hurt you." Edward seethed.

"What about Victoria, Edward?" I whispered. "You killed her mate. She's going to want revenge. And I don't want to be useless again."

"You weren't useless. They drugged you, Bella. You were weakened."

That was the problem. I didn't want them to be able to weaken me. If I had all this strength but couldn't use it, what was the use of being a hybrid? I could protect myself or the lives of those that I loved. I knew now was the time to tell my family what I had decided.

I looked around the room at the faces of my saviors and then looked at the floor. "That's actually what brings me to this…. I want to be a full vampire." I turned to Edward. "And I want you to be the one to do it."


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