*A/N: Thanks to my lovely beta and awbffe NessiesMomma for beta reading.*

*Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or its characters, SM does. I do however want Edward Cullen to spend eternity in my bedroom ;]*

*I don't know Quileute wedding traditions so you'll have to excuse the wedding for not using Native American themes.*


"Bella, you look beautiful. Let's go. We're going to be late."

I looked myself over in the mirror one last time. Leah had picked out just a cotton light green pleated dresses for her cousin Emily and me to wear. While I thought it was entirely inappropriate for me to be in the wedding party, Jake insisted that he needed his "best man" there. This, of course, would turn into a rather witty argument about how I was in fact not a "man" and then would end with us both being uncomfortable for bringing up our feelings once again.

Things had been tense between Jake and I. We both were about to be married and our feelings for each other hadn't lessened one bit. In fact, they grew stronger. Don't get me wrong, Edward is, and will always be, the only man I could never live without. But, with Jake it was something different. We both knew if the world was as it should be, without vampires and werewolves, we would be together and to quote Jake, "it would be as easy as breathing."

I tried to not let Edward feel the conflict racking constantly in my brain. Being the only one whose mind he couldn't hear had never been more convenient. Although, that meant Jake had to be equally careful about his thoughts. At first, we just steered clear of each other—choosing only to text and talk on the phone. But, that couldn't last for long once the wedding plans were in full effect. I had to be there. I didn't have a choice. Leah was my sister—for all intents and purposes—and Jacob, albeit my first love, was my best friend.

Leah was lucky. She didn't have to deal with the constant discomfort that was Edward, Jake and I in a room. She didn't know the silent conversations and death glares that were passed between the three of us. Leah was kept ever the happy bride-to-be. Only I had to deal with consequences. Only I had to assure Edward.

I turned around, ridding myself of the stress, and stared at my husband. I knew vampires couldn't change. They were forever frozen in time. But, if I didn't know better I would swear that since the day I met Edward several changes had taken over his appearance.

His eyes use to hold such pain and sadness and were now filled with light and playfulness and most of all… love. A smile was constantly on his face while I was in the room, even if it fell slightly at the mention or presence of Jacob. Edward was happier. His family had assured me that they saw the changes. The changes only those who had lived with him so long could notice. But, even through these assurances the doubts were still there.

What had I done to deserve Edward?

Edward had given me so much. His love, his family, his world. How did someone as ordinary and plain as me end up with one as perfect as Edward? I could tell by his glances that he saw me as the center of his world. His reason for living. It would truly kill us to be separated now. I felt I needed to constantly make it up to him, but Edward would once again prove his worth.

"You're not plain, Bella." He would assure. "There isn't anything plain about you. Even what you are isn't plain. It's unique and wonderful and beautiful. If I must I'll forever show you how special you are."

And with a kiss of his lips the doubts would leave my mind. For his kisses, his love, was the only way we were equal. And, boy, did it work so well. Making love with Edward was my favorite part of the day. It often did happen more than once though. As Edward had said, "My insatiable wife." But, he did that to me. He made me want him this badly. He made me let go off my worries and fears and just let go and be with him.

In a time of stress of uncertainty he stood by my side—my ever present protector. While his possession of me had lessened some since the Volturi showed up on our wedding day I could still see the stress it caused him to teach me to fight. Whenever I brought it up he brushed it off and a new determination took over his features. Edward didn't want his concern for me to ever put me in danger again. He wanted me able to defend myself when he couldn't.

And even with all Edward had given me, I couldn't erase the ache in my chest caused by Jake.

Jake and I had this conversation many times. He would always say, "It's possible to be in love with two people, Bells." While I agreed, it didn't help the nagging ache we both felt. How was it possible to be in love with two people so strongly? I felt as though I had two wires coming from me that latched on to both of them—binding me to them.

In a way I felt it was our situation that binded us together. Before I found out about my real identity, I had never felt this way about Jake. Sure, I toyed with the idea of us being together and I was certain he did to, but it was never this strong. This present. When Edward entered my life and we both felt the undeniable attraction between us it only made matters worse. In a way it was as if the lies had binded us. Keeping the two men who loved me close to protect me. Keeping the relationships strong to insure my survival. But I always wondered if I'd known the truth about my life all along would things be different? Would I never have fallen for Jake?

I would never know.

Edward walked towards me, a playful smile on his lips, and wrapped me in his arms. I heard the intake of breath as he sniffed my hair. Nuzzling into his neck I breathed in his aroma and enjoyed the effect it had on my body. Every live wire was at full alert and I felt moisture pool between my thighs.

I heard his soft chuckle. "We're going to be late."

"I don't mind."

He pulled back and examined me. "You don't mind if we miss your sister and best friend's wedding? I highly doubt that."

"Okay." I frowned. "Maybe I'd mind a little, but I'm sure you'd be able to take my mind off it."

My hands raked up his chest over the white button up he wore. I knew the Cullen's were all dying to get dolled up and dressed to the nines but this was to be a casual beach wedding. Leah and Jake only wanted their close friends and family. It was to be a quiet wedding with a barbeque afterwards. I knew somewhere downstairs Alice was pouting.

"I'm positive I would but I don't want you to miss it." He whispered huskily in my ear, "We have all night."

And it was true.

Since our wedding, I've been leaning more towards my intake of animal blood than the consumption of human food. Of course, I always got my daily dose of protein via Edward but I didn't mind that consumption at all. The animal blood brought out my more vampire tendencies which lessened the amount of sleep I needed. Now instead of the prescribed eight hour rest, I only had to sleep when I felt drained and even then it was only for an hour or two.

I liked that, because of this I was able to blend in more with the Cullen's. It also helped that now Edward wouldn't have to stay and watch me sleep for eight hours and instead we could make better use of our time.

"Okay, okay. You win." I nipped at his neck.

He smiled triumphantly and gripped my hand to escort me down the stairs. The Cullen's were all dressed informally much to Alice's disappointment and were waiting for us. We split up between Edward's Volvo and Carlisle's Mercedes. Alice and Jasper with us and Emmett and Rose with Carlisle and Esme.

"I could've made a beautiful beach wedding for them," Alice whined. "It would've been beautiful and low key."

"It's not what they wanted," I explained.

"I get that they want simple and laid back but a barbeque at a wedding? Even a buffet would be better!"

I huffed and chose not to respond. You would think Alice would be happy I even let her touch my wedding. It was beautiful, don't get me wrong, but I let her have full reign. You'd think that would've gotten the party planner out of her system. Then again it has been two years.

Two bliss filled years.

We pulled up to first beach and parked our cars. Edward walked over to my side and helped me out of the car as he escorted me towards the Beach. I immediately spotted Charlie and Seth talking animatedly with Old Quil who was going to presume over the wedding. The Cullen's went to look for their seats and Edward and I walked towards my father.

"Hey sis!" Seth called out as he ran towards me. "Hey Edward!"

"Hey Seth." I smiled.

Seth reached us and gripped Edward's outstretched hand. "Hello, Seth. You be sure to take care of my girl out there."

"I'll be sure of it."

My brother held out his arm for me to take and with a kiss on Edward's cheek I took it. "I'll see you after the service then?"

Edward nodded. "Of course, love."

He turned around and walked towards where his family was seated. I stared after him and with Seth made my way to the bridal party. Emily and Sam were already ready to go, clung to each other as Emily held on to her protruding stomach. She was due next month and I knew the whole pack was excited.

"Hey, Sam. Emily." I smiled. "You've gotten so big! I cant wait to see the little guy or girl."

"You and me both." She breathed. "This one is a kicker."

She gripped her stomach and I looked at her expectantly. She nodded and I reached out my hand to touch her belly. Sure enough, the baby was kicking. I giggled.

"Let's just hope I don't burst here." She mused. "Leah might kill me for stealing her day."

"Yeah, she will. Been crazy nonstop since Jake proposed."

Emily looked around and then leaned down to whisper to me. "How are you doing?"

I knew immediately she meant with me and Jake. "I'm fine. We love each other but not as much as we love other people." I decided to change the subject this was the last thing I needed to talk about. "You have to promise me you'll let me visit this one as much as I can."

"We'll need all the help we can get."

Just then I heard gasps and I turned around to see Leah, dressed in white, walking towards us. Her hair was completely straight and she had a crown of flowers atop her head. Her dress was simple and cut off right above the knee.

"Wow," I breathed staring at her in amazement. "Leah, you look beautiful."

"You really do, sis." Seth agreed.

"Thanks." She blushed. "Let's get this thing going so I can be with my man."

She ushered us forward and the wedding began. It was small, only the tribe and us Cullens invited. Jake and Leah said their own vows. Each expressing the love of which they shared with each other. They promised to love each other till death parted them and Old Quil stated the binding words.

"I now pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss your bride Jacob."

"Gladly." He smirked and gripped Leah with such passion as he planted his mouth on hers.

My heart ached but I didn't show it. I clapped as loudly as the rest of them as Seth howled. The truth was it was killing me to see Jake evoke such passion on another woman. I kissed and congratulated them as they made their way down the aisle and the barbeque began.

Jake and Leah danced to a soft beat that was unknown to me and he twirled around the floor keeping her tight to his body. Seth and I joined in along with Sam and Emily and the party was in full swing. Jake kept pretty much to Leah as I passed between Seth, my father, and Edward.

"Are you enjoying yourself?" he asked.

I nodded. "I'm so happy for him."

Edward's face hardened just as I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and was met with Jake's smiling face.

"Do you mind if I cut in?"

Edward handed me off. "No. Bella, I'll be over there with Alice and Jazz."

"Okay."

Jake took my hand and wrapped his other around my waist, pushing me close to him. The embrace was awkward and I smiled at him sadly.

"Thank you for coming, Bells."

I smiled. "I wouldn't miss it."

"I just wanted to say," he paused and seemed to be chewing on the words. "I'm sorry it didn't work out between us."

"Jake… Do we have to talk about this?"

He pulled me closer. "I may never get another chance. You'll be leaving soon."

He was right. Carlisle looked ten years younger than he was pretending to be we had no choice but to move on. It was killing me to have to leave my friends and family but I chose my life and I was ready to begin living it.

"I'll be back soon enough. You'll still be you."

His face dropped. "I'm going to stop phasing, Bells."

"Stop phasing? Why?"

"I want to grow old with Leah. How will it look if she's aging and I stay this way?"

I chewed on my lip. I was going to lose Jake. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but someday and I wasn't sure I was ready to deal with that. I wrapped my arm around his neck.

"Oh, Jake." I dry sobbed as my head fell on his shoulder.

We had stopped dancing altogether and were doing more of swaying back and forth.

His voice was merely a whisper. "I'll always love you. You'll always be the first girl I ever loved. I'm going to miss you so much, Bells."

"I'm going to miss you, too."

The song ended but we didn't stop moving. If this was my last chance with Jake I wasn't ready for it to end yet. I was moving and he was going to start aging. Eventually I'd become merely a memory. A girl he loved when he was younger. A girl who broke his heart.

Eventually we parted and I pressed my lips to his cheek. "Goodbye, Jake."

"Bye, Bells."

We released each other and I quickly said my goodbyes before heading over to where Edward sat. The Cullen's had already left so he sat, watching me, alone. When I reached him he stood.

"You ready?"

I didn't meet his eyes. The truth was I wasn't ready to let him go. "Let's go."

He placed his hand on the small of my back and led me to the Volvo. We sat there in silence for a long time as he let me deal with my thoughts. Edward deserved better than this and I had to give him all of myself. Never again would he have to deal with me entertaining thoughts of Jacob Black.

His voice broke me out of my thoughts. "You love him."

It wasn't a question.

"I love you more."

His hand reached over and gripped mine. "I know."

We reached the house and he opened my door. When I got out I realized the last thing I wanted to do was hang out with our family. I wanted to be alone with Edward in our bed. Let his loving completely erase every thought I ever had of Jake. I was Edward's and I didn't want to lose him over something like this.

"Can we go home?" I asked.

He nodded, taking my hand. We ran together in the direction of our cabin. I walked in first and headed straight to our bedroom. Edward followed and sat straight on the bed as I paced. He removed his buttonup and sat there in only his khaki's and tank.

"Is something bothering you, love?" he asked.

I turned towards him and frowned. "I don't want to hurt you anymore."

"Bella-"

"No, let me get this out." I interrupted. Walking towards him, I knelt between his legs. "I love you more than anything. More than anyone has ever loved anyone else. And to top it off you love me back. Do you have any idea how happy that makes me? How I want to give you everything, every part of myself forever. It's you I want, Edward. You. Not Jake."

He placed his hands over mine on his thighs. "I love you, Bella. It's okay."

"No it's not!" I screamed. "You don't deserve this. I'm your wife I shouldn't be thinking of other men."

"I'm confident enough in our love. I want your happiness."

I bit my lip and moved my hands from underneath his to both sides of his face. "Then let me try something."

I let the hold on my mind release and fall. Edward gasped and I thought over every memory I ever had with him. Our first meeting. Our first kiss. The first time he played for me. Every kiss. Every touch. Every thought I ever had about us played out in my mind for him to see.

"Bella…" he whispered in awe.

When I finished, he fell back on the bed and I straddled his lap. "Now you know."

He sat up and brought my lips to his, crashing them together as his hand went to the back of my dress. With expert fingers he unzipped the dress and broke the kiss to remove it from my body. I kept my mind open for him to show him how his touch felt, how his kisses melted me, how right it felt to be here with him.

His hands traveled up my waist and over my shoulder as he pulled me over and onto him. Giggling, I reached down and pulled on the hem of his shirt. He lifted both his arms and I pulled if off him. He fell back on the bed, arms straight up, as I held his tank above my body.

He rubbed my thighs. "You are in every thought. You're everything, Bella."

"Thank you for loving me, Edward. You changed me."

"You're still, Bella." He stated shaking his head.

"I meant I'm stronger, more myself, because of you. You helped me recognize things about myself. You helped me deal with things I was suppressing."

He reached up and brought his lips to mine as his hands roamed my body as we worked together to remove the rest of our clothing. When our bare bodies touched again, he placed himself at my entrance soaking himself in my juices.

Our eyes didn't leave each others as he pushed inside me and our bodies rocked together. We became one together. Two parts of a whole. My body tightened and coiled and released at his touch. He dropped all pretenses and became himself inside me. Together we brought out the best of each other. We became who we were truly meant to be.

As our bodies released and we came together, we clutched each other and didn't dare let go. And I would never let go of him for the rest of forever.


A/N: That's the end. Thank you all for your comments, PM's, and reviews. I appreciate it more than you know. I'd like to also thank NessiesMomma/LoveBadBoyVamps who took the time to read and beta each chapter as well as give me advice when I was stuck. She's the best! The ending of Breaking Dawn always bothered me because I couldn't see how Bella and Jake's feelings just disappeared after all the hurt it caused. That thought spurred on this story. Thank you again and I hope enjoyed it as much as I did!