Chapter 19 - Saying Goodbye Is Always Hard, Especially If You Love Them PART 2

Alice's POV:
He just sat there; I took a deep breath and made my way past him. I tried to ignore him as best I could. He just held his head in his hands; I wanted to say something but I stopped myself. I grabbed a few plain dresses and a few other things.

I made sure I grabbed the to photos inside my small drawer; one was of us together sisters forever and the other one was just her on the garden swing. She looked so happy and at peace in the photo.

"I…… I tried to make you love me"

I paused and turned so I was facing him but he still had his head in his hands. I quickly packed the few bits I had into a carry case.

"I never meant to hurt you; I only wanted you to love me. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you, I'm a monster, I just wanted to love you…… I just wanted to be loved"

He now stared to sob; I went to his side and my hand hesitated in mid air; I debated weather to comfort him or not. I forced my hand to touch his back; I rubbed it. He finally raised his head; he looked into my eyes and
all I could see was pain.

"James I can't forgive you for what you did; but I can help you move on; I obviously wasn't the one, but she's out there James you just have to keep looking; and your not a monster. Trust me "

He gave me a slight smile; I kissed his cheek and grabbed the small carry case; as I was about to leave he said something.

"I know you'll never be able to forgive me; I will never forgive my self for what I have done. But thank you Alice"

I left him there. I silently closed the door behind me and decided to walk past the grand hall once more hoping to catch a glance at my sister.

As I was about to reach the doors someone grabbed my hand; I turned to find Jasper; the most beautiful person god had ever made. He looked upset for some reason. He pulled me into a hug then whispered in my ear.

"Rose told everyone to get back to the room an emergency something to do with sinking then she mentioned you; Alice, what did you see?"

So I had no choice but to tell him about the dream; as soon as I mentioned Bella falling like that to her d… I just couldn't. Tears once more flowed from my eyes.

"James was waiting for me in my room"

Jasper clenched his fits to tightly; he had anger flash all over his face.

"Jasper he didn't do nothing; he came to explain, please don't be mad"

He finally calmed down. I looked up to find Bella starring at me; I knew she would come over so I grabbed Jasper's hand and we walked back to the room.

"Alice this is serious; Carlisle thinks you can see the future, he thinks you have visions. Rose keeps going on about keeping a promise to you; I don't want too loose you Alice it's taken me over 79 years just to find you. I can't loose you not now; not ever….. Alice marry me"

(* I WAS GOING TO LEAVE IT AT A CLIFFY; UNTILL THE 27ND OF DECEMBER BUT COZ IM SO NICE AND YOU ALL LEAVE AMAZING COMMENTS I'LL CONTINUE*)

I stared at him; he looked at my face sheepishly. I didn't realise he was waiting for an answer; I was gob smacked he wanted to marry me. All I wanted to do is scream how happy I was.

Instead I grabbed his head in my hands and pulled me towards me; our lips meet. It was magical. He obviously knew the answer; just then a door was slammed open. The next thing I knew I was being twirled around by two muscular arms, Emmett.

"Jazzy is going to get married to Ali"

"Emmett put her down and come inside we have things to discus"

Esme's voice came from inside; he actually listened but then moaned something under his breath about having no fun at all. Jazz I liked that name it suited Jasper.

He came over to me and put one arm around my waist; he sighed heavily then we entered the room to find the rest of the Cullen's except for Edward he was with my sister.

Jazz closed the door behind me and everyone's eyes were on me; Rose gave me a weary smile then Carlisle was the first to speak.

"Congratulations Alice and Jasper but now down to business why did you gather everyone Rosalie?"

Everyone's stare went from me to Rose.

"I made a promise to Alice to save one person from the boat sinking; I thought about it and I'm going to keep that promise; Alice I want Carlisle to change you now, to save you"

So that's what she meant by saving one person. Everyone apart from Rose looked confused and scared; they looked at me to explain.

"I had another dream again; this time it felt so real; the boat it was sinking it hit an iceberg so many people were dying and I stood there watching them die. I even saw my own sister fall to her …"

I couldn't finish the sentence; it was so hard to think about her like that.
Jasper rubbed my back soothing me. Esme came over and hugged me; so did Carlisle.

"Hold on a sec, why are we talking about changing people? little sis; it was just a dream, it's not real."

"NO Emmett It's Not Just a dream; I've had these ever since I was born and all of them have come true. Do you know what it feels like? Standing there helpless; you know what's going to happen no matter how hard you try you can't save a single sole!"

I didn't mean to scream at him like that; but I was right every dream that I had came reality sooner or later. Suddenly a wave of calmness washed over me; I gave a weary smile to Jazz.

"Emmett; I'm sorry I didn't mean to shout at you like that; it's just horrible to see some of the things I've seen."

I ran over to him and he gave me a huge bear hug. We were both sorry; Carlisle coughed and Emmett let me go.

"Is this what everyone wants? To Change Alice? Is this what you want Alice?"

I nodded eagerly; Carlisle rubbed his temples and nodded he took my hand and led me to the lower bunk.

"Will everyone please leave the room? Now Alice this will be very painful; try your very best not to scream it doesn't help at all. Are you ready?"

I quickly got off the bottom bunk and hugged everyone; then I kissed Jasper as passionately as I could.

"I'll see you when I wake up"

I whispered into his ear; I could tell he never wanted to let go but he did. I went back to the bottom bunk and laid ready for Carlisle.

Carlisle leaned in and his teeth broke the neck on my skin; it was so painful but I tried my best not to scream.

"I'll never leave your side"

Was the last words I heard before the fire began.

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