Chapter 22 - Choices.

Edward's POV:
I Couldn't think what was I to do? I Couldn't do this to her. It would hurt her so much. I didn't want to cause that much pain to her; it wouldn't just hurt her; it would hurt me also.

Should I do it? Could I do it? Was I even capable of doing this to her? Her sister was demanding me to do it.

Today the sun was hid behind the dark grey clouds. I wanted to avoid my room as much as possible; I walked out onto the deck and took an unnecessary breath.

Peoples thoughts were mostly about me but I didn't want to make a scene not here not now.

I looked overboard the waves were crashing against the sides of the boat; could a boat this big really sink? Was what Alice saw really going to happen?

So many questions were running through my mind. I wasn't able to answer a single one of them. My thoughts were trying to concentrate on her; but they couldn't everyone else ran through my mind.

Someone touched my back lightly; I turned to find my mother there.
She stood next to me then rubbed my back.

"Edward I'm scared; not because of this boat and it's possible future I'm scared for you. I've never seen you like this; I can tell she's always on your mind; ever since you met her it's like you were just a dark sky but she has filled it with stars."

I turned to her she just smiled at me.

"Go and talk to her; don't hide forever you don't have long … Edward don't let your head decide; let your heart decide please Edward I don't want you making the wrong decision."

She kissed my forehead then left me; she was right I didn't have long at all. There was a small breeze; maybe I should at least talk to Bella?

Bella's POV:
Ever since mother forbid me to see him again. He's been the only thing on my mind. Alice was still missing and the only one I could talk to about it I was forbidden to see him or even talk to him.

Today we were joining the captain and Mr Andrews: the ship's creator today for a quick tour then lunch.

Mother was bragging about the wedding once again; Jacob was busy discussing something with James and Molly was speaking with Mr Andrews.

I stayed at the back; Mr Andrews had told us about the life boats being able to hold up to 70 men per boat.

"Excuse me Mr Andrews?"

He turned and came over to me with Molly behind him.

"How can I help you miss Swan?"

"Well Mr Andrews I done the math in my head and I can't help but wonder why are hardly any life boats? There's not even enough for half the people aboard the boat"

He tried to think of an answer.

"Well Miss Swan you are right; the committee board thought that it would crowd the decks too much I was over powered you see"

I just nodded and Mr Andrews and Molly followed the captain, Mother, James and Jacob into the Captain's cabin. I felt someone touch my back softly I quickly turned to find him there.

"Edward"

I breathed as my heart once again skipped a beat. He placed a finger to his lips asking me to keep quiet. He took my hand and we found an empty room. I had to tell him to stay away; other wise he'd get hurt.

"Please Edward leave me alone"

Tears started to stream down my face.

"Bella listen to me; your trapped here this isn't you; last night that was the real you; except for the drunkenness anyway what I'm trying to say is that maybe this life wasn't for you; it's torturing you Bella I can see that"

"No Edward I belong here; I love Jacob I'm engaged to Jacob."

I could see it in his eyes he wasn't going to give up easily.

"Just think about it; okay"

I nodded and left to find mother. That was the most hurtful thing I have ever done. All I wanted to do is to run back and comfort him; telling him it was all lies. That I loved Jacob; that I was going to marry him.

The truth is that I wanted to marry him; I loved him.

"Isabella where have you been?"

I shrugged at my mother; she said something underneath her breath and walked off. I followed her thinking of Edward's words carefully.

I sat down and Mother was talking to Lady Jessica about the wedding again surprise surprise! I nodded briefly here and there; but I was trying to focus on a little girl sat opposite me.

She looked 7 reminded me of Lizzy a bit. She was slouched down on her chair but her other told her to sit up straight. The young girl placed a napkin on her knees.

Edward was right; this life has me trapped. The worse part is that I've only just realised it. Over my 17 years of life; after I meet this one person I see a whole new look on life.

"Excuse me"

I went to find Edward. The first placed I went was his room; I sort of remembered the way. I got to the door and tapped slightly; a women who had caramel coloured hair and an angel's face, answered the door. She stepped outside and closed the door behind her.

"Is Edward in there?"

I asked straight away; a smile appeared on her lips.

"You must be Bella; yes Edward has told me how wonderful you are I must say he was right; I'm Esme his mother and no he's not."

Edward said I was wonderful; I wanted to scream with happiness but I kept it in.

"I left him on the top deck earlier; he needed to make some choices and I see he made the right one"

"Thank you Esme"

I gave her a smile than ran towards the top deck. What was I going to say to him? I decided to start at the front of the deck. I noticed a figure right at the very front of the boat could I be him?

I literally ran towards the dark shadow; as I became closer I could tell it was my angel. His hair was all ruffled from the cold breeze; he was only wearing a thin shirt and some trousers wasn't he cold at all?

"Edward"

I breathed he turned instantly and he gave me a heart warming crooked smile.

"Edward; You're here, Esme told me…"

He just placed his lips on mine; I kept them there for more than a minuet before he broke away. He pulled me up to the front of the boat.

"Do you trust me?"

He whispered into my ear.

"Always"

He lifted me effortlessly onto the bars. He stayed behind me the whole time; I clutched onto the bars for dear life.

"let go"

I hesitated but finally let go of the bars and Edward took my hands in his. It was like I was flying but it reminded of the first time I saw his golden eyes.

The wind brushed though my hair; It was cold but I didn't mind; not one bit.

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