Chapter Six: Welcome Intruder
Sam tucked the bottle of wine under his arm and quietly slid the door open, she was in the kitchen, her back towards him. He smiled as he discreetly placed the wine onto the coffee table – he was getting better at this sneaking lark. He stopped momentarily and took her in; she was beautiful – he couldn't believe she was his. He only hoped that he could be everything that she wanted, that she needed, that she would see in him someone she could confide in, someone she could talk to, someone she could be herself with. He knew that there would be hurdles to conquer, that she would hide away from him, that she would try to take the world on by herself but he was going to be there – even when she thought she didn't need him he was going to be there. He made his way across her living room and into the kitchen. Unbeknownst to him Addison was well aware of his presence in the room but she didn't reveal the detection – she thought it was cute that he tried to surprise her even if he was rubbish at it. Sam carefully picked his way around the kitchen table and stood behind her. She could feel his proximity, he hadn't even touched her yet and she felt the hairs on the back of her neck rise in anticipation, she'd had a long day and she needed his touch to sooth her as much as excite her. Sam took a second to drink in her aroma before wrapping his arms around her waist and kissing the skin of her bare shoulder.
"Hello," he whispered "hope you don't mind me breaking in, I bought wine"
"Wine? Well, in that case I won't dial 911" she smiled.
Sam planted small kisses along the length of her shoulder, working towards her neck. She emitted a small moan, clearly enjoying the attention he was paying her. Sam moved his hands from her waist and moved them up her back towards her hair, he gathered her locks in one hand, exposing the raw, soft skin on the back of her neck. Addison gripped the kitchen counter in anticipation of Sam's lips exploring her skin, how could he make her feel like this – he had barely touched her and already she felt her heartbeat quicken and her skin becoming astutely aware of the air surrounding her. She had been with men in the past that had made her feel good, men that had taken her breath away, left her wanting more but with Sam it was different, it was more than sex, it was more than love it was something deeper something she couldn't explain and something she didn't want to end. After paying close attention to the back of her neck Sam's lips moved to her right ear and gently traced the the its shape, he kept his distance barely making contact in a way he knew would make her want more. As a deep, gutteral moan escaped Addison's lips Sam couldn't hold back any longer; he had wanted to kiss her from the minute he had entered her house, no that was a lie, he had wanted to kiss her since he'd seen in her at the hospital that morning , since he had sat across the bed from her holding his granddaughter in his arms. A wave of passion washed over him as he spun her around and pushed her up onto the worktop his hands finding her thighs at the same time as his lips found hers.
"Mmm, I've been waiting to do that all day" Sam smiled as he broke their kiss and looked at Addison, letting out a deep uneven breath.
Addison smiled down at him whilst running her hands down the sides of his face and letting her hands rest on his shoulders.
"I missed you too" she smiled.
As she said it she realised just how true it was, she had been thinking about him all day. She had unexpectedly spent the majority of the day at the hospital on an emergency case and he had been busy at the practice. On hindsight, she thought, it had probably been for the best – being in the same building and pretending to be friends and colleagues was certainly a test of both of their resolves.
"I've been waiting to do that even more" Sam smiled as they both lay on the carpet in a state of happy exhaustion.
Addison smiled at his cheekiness, she had always liked that side of Sam; the boyish, cheeky part of his character that she had seen glimmers of in the past.
She smiled as she rested her head on his stomach enjoying the soothing consistency of his hands combing through her hair.
"About this morning," Sam began in a slightly awkward tone, Addison recognised the tone in his voice and was glad her face was turned away from him as a small grin spread across her face. "After you left, Maya and I talked and...well I know we didn't want anyone to know but...she...I..."
Addison smiled, she could hear something in his voice, nerves? He was nervous about telling her that Maya knew they were together? It crossed Addison's mind that Sam thought she was going to be mad at him. She had to put him out of his misery, she shifted her body and knelt beside him on the carpet.
"You always were rubbish at keeping secrets" she smiled at him.
"Addison I..." Sam's face still showed his nervousness despite her teasing.
"It's ok," she smiled "Maya knew from the minute we looked at each other, I knew she'd question you as soon as I left the room"
"You knew?" Sam was confused "And what? You're ok with it?"
Addison smiled down at him, as strong as he was he could still be a vulnerable little boy sometimes and she liked that, it made him real, it made her feel that she got more of him than anyone else, that when they were alone he was himself, he was real.
"Of course I'm ok with it, why wouldn't I be ok with your daughter knowing about us, plus Maya is stuck in a hospital bed, she needs all the gossip she can get."
Sam smiled as a sense of relief washed over him, she was ok with it; he hadn't ruined everything. He was amazed by her, no matter what she always managed to amaze him, she always managed to deliver more than he expected he had a feeling that she was letting him in, that she was opening herself up more than she ever had before, that she was taking risks and he was glad that it was with him because he loved the Addison he knew but he had an idea that there was a whole lot more of her to love too, another side to her, a secret side that she kept hidden from the world, that she kept hidden from the people she thought could hurt her but to him she was opening up, she was leaving herself vulnerable and he knew that for her it was a big thing, she was doing the thing that scared her the most; she was letting someone love her, she was letting him love her.
"It's just that I thought we weren't telling people and..." Sam contintued, he wanted to know what she was thinking, how she felt about someone knowing about them.
"Well you couldn't lie to her Sam, she's your daughter, she deserves to know the truth, secrets have a way of getting out." Addison soothed, she didn't blame Sam for telling Maya- even without being there she knew he stood little chance of convincing Maya she was wrong. She didn't like secrets, the new Addison, the Addison that wasn't being scared anymore, the Addison that was allowing Sam in didn't like secrets, she didn't want to keep secrets but she wanted time with Sam, time to explore their realtionship before it was exposed to the rest of the world, time for it to become strong, for them to grow strong, to prepare for everything the world was going to throw at them. For now she wanted it to be just them but she didn't expect Sam to keep secrets from his daughter, she knew that didn't work; it hurt.
"I think we should talk to Naomi" Addison said bluntly.
"Naomi? I thought we were..." Sam started to protest, it was too early to tell Naomi, he wasn't sure they were strong enough, that Addison was strong enough – he was scared she'd change her mind.
"Maya shouldn't have to keep secrets Sam, not from her Mom, not for you, for us, we can't do that to her, we can't expect her to..."
Sam understood, he understood where this was coming from- Addison had spent a lifetime lying for The Captain, had kept secrets that she shouldn't even have known. She wanted to do things right and he understood that.
"We'll talk to her tomorrow," he said planting a kiss onAddison's forhead as he ran his hands up and down the length of her naked back. "We'll talk to her together."
Addison appreciated this, she knew it wasn't easy for Sam either, she knew that he was scared; scared that she'd change her mind if Naomi couldn't accept it but something had changed between her and Naomi at the hospital, Naomi had come back to her, she had understood, she needed her, she loved her and she hoped that she wanted her to be happy.
