A/N: See? Nice and early update! I didn't want to have you wait too long. This chapter is the turning point of the story but some of you who like their citrus might be disappointed...You'll have it later (I'm not saying soon, but later), don't worry ;)! Enjoy...
This week had been one of the most exhausting of my life. Kate was tireless in her crusade for the love of my life. It seemed her story was so complicated and under wraps she made it a personal affair to see me happy and in a relationship. I liked her simple way of seeing things but she seemed oblivious to the obstacles that were still in our way. Even if Bella decided she wanted to be with me, our path would be very bumpy, to say the least.
It didn't seem to be the case, anyway. She had been cold and distant all week, keeping our exchanges impersonal. I was now completely despairing that the plan would work out. It was not a simple question of jealousy but of morality. She basically didn't believe we could be together, following some stupid rule or another. I had almost ended up crying in the middle of the school hall on several occasions. Fortunately for me and my high school reputation, Kate, Emmett, Angela and Ben were there to give me the strength to keep my chin up. I didn't know what I would have done without them.
Emmett had been luckier than me in his "Win Rosalie" operation. Since she first saw him with Irina, she had finally started to notice him and given him the chance he deserved. They had exchanged their first kiss last night and my brother looked like he was on cloud nine.
Kate had convinced me to go with her to Castaways in Port Angeles on Friday night. Apparently she had overheard a conversation between Miss Brandon and Mr. Grant about a girls' night where Bella would make an appearance. When I objected to Kate that we were too young to be in this club, she simply rolled her eyes, and muttered that "she had her ways". I was confused at first but I finally understood that she meant we would use fake IDs. Tonight, I'd be Jacob Jankowski, 21 years old from Albuquerque. Don't even ask me…
I dressed soberly but elegantly so that I looked old enough to be accepted inside. A dark grey shirt and black slacks with my Doc Martens should do the trick. I was very nervous because I didn't know how Bella would react to seeing me there. Would that push her over the edge, would she yell at me for being obvious? Maybe she'd ask that I leave her alone, I wouldn't blame her. What would I do then?
Mom was waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs. She had believed gullibly that Emmett and I were joining Angela and Ben for a movie in town, followed by a coffee at the diner. She seemed happy to see us having a semblance of a social life. In reality, Rosalie would be the one to join Emmett for a movie.
When we got to the pub, I was practically shaking I was so nervous. I had never been inside a club and I had certainly never used a fake ID before. The bouncer seemed to believe our charade and was convinced by Kate's cleavage because he let us in. Part one of the plan accomplished.
We ordered Cokes at the bar and scanned the crowd. The place was full of all sorts of people and it appeared we weren't the only one to cheat about our ages. No one from Forks High, though. It would have been the last straw if Jessica Stanley or Lauren Mallory had been there to spy on us.
I was standing patiently in a corner next to the dance floor when I heard giggling. A beautiful woman and a man were dancing and apparently having a good time. At the end of the song though, the energy seemed to change because the man suddenly seized her wrist to prevent her from leaving. She was about to fight back and I was getting ready to help her when she suddenly crashed into me, brutally pushed by a rude jerk who had visibly drunk too much. I was assaulted by the sweet and carnal scent I'd recognize anywhere. Bella was in my arms like I dreamed she would be all week. She came there unwillingly but still, it was something.
I expected her to freak out and flee from me but she didn't. She looked at me with an unreadable expression and suddenly pulled me in a dark corner behind stairs. We were pretty much invisible there.
"What are you doing here?" The music was loud but not too much so we could talk without yelling.
"I came here with Kate." After all, it was the truth even if my motives were very different from what she believed.
"Fake IDs right?" She said, smirking. "Don't worry, I've been there."
"Huh…" I didn't know what else to say, I felt stupid and embarrassed.
"So, is your little friend with you?" Her voice was suddenly very dry.
"Yes, probably near the bar, why?"
"Have you fucked her yet?" She asked as if it was the most normal question in the world.
I gaped at her, stunned beyond belief. I couldn't believe what I'd just heard. And then, I really looked at her, her chin was trembling and her eyes were filled with tears. I stopped thinking rationally and pulled her outside with me.
There was a dark alley next to the club and I dragged her behind me. I was a mindless creature and I wanted some answers.
As soon as we were out of view, I shot.
"Why did you ask me that?"
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have…" she sighed. "I've had one drink and maybe…"
"No, I'm done with excuses, I want straight answers. Why did you ask me that?" I barely restrained myself, I wanted to kiss her so bad and force her to tell me the truth. But it had to come from her, I knew that.
"Bella, tell me." It was like I'd said the magic words. She started pacing in front of me.
"When I saw you with her, I was torn. Torn you hear me? And I know I had no right to be but I was. How could I not know that you had a girlfriend before? I felt so stupid, and mad at myself. That's why I came here tonight, to forget about you, and you with her and…"
I stopped her rant and slowly drew her to me. I looked into her eyes and knew that I was going to ask the question that would seal my fate.
"What does it mean? Were you jealous?" I caressed her cheek. She melted into me.
"Yes, I was. I was mad with jealousy. I am still, I don't want you with her. God, I'm so selfish…" She cried, shaking her head.
"What do you want, then?" My voice was barely audible.
She took a deep breath, and I was hanging to her lips. Her answer would define my life, break me or make me whole. That's when she started kissing my neck and jaw and causing goose bumps to erupt all over my body.
"I want you."
Yes, I'm evil but you know that by now :). Next chapter in a couple of days, don't forget to review and tell me what you think.
