A/N: Sorry for the long wait! Here is chapter 16. Remember I speak Spanish, so I'm sorry for the mistakes this might have. PLEASE COMMENT BACK, no one comments :( Even if you don't like it, tell me what you think and I'm all for constructive criticize ;)
Chapter 16
Charlie was a bit tired so I made a quick pasta with butter and cheese. Edward had already gone home. So Charlie and I were now still eating in the kitchen, Charlie's eyes completely on the food – not letting the tiniest of spaces between gulps.
"Wow Bell, this is so awesome." He mumbled as he finished his plate.
I rolled my eyes, but the compliment made me happy inside. "It's just pasta dad, I didn't make it… I just cooked it and added the butter and the cheese. You want more?" I asked as I stood up and put my dish on the washbasin.
Charlie clapped his belly with both hands. "No, I'm fine, thanks. And it's not just pasta; you have a gift for cooking."
And I just couldn't not smile from my inside. Maybe Jasper and I were more similar than I'd originally thought. Putting to a side the fact that he thought Wuthering Heights was a TV series, I think we could be quite fine together.
Charlie was still sitting on the table as I finished the dishes. That was something new – Charlie never stayed in the table, he would usually go and watch some game on the T.V. I had to peep at his expression from time to time while drying the dishes. There was just something odd in his face too – on his features. Like worry and… sadness.
"Alright, dad. What is it?" I questioned when I couldn't stand the anxious anymore.
Charlie incorporated in his chair putting his elbows on the table and looking directly into my eyes. Okay, now I was worried. What was this whole thing about?
When I thought I was going crazy for the mute of his voice, he sighed.
"Jacob Black is back." He almost muttered under his breathe. Jacob Black? Yeah, like I would know another Jacob… please, with one was enough.
I looked at my hands. "I know."
"What?" His tone had gained an anxious edge by now. And I was sure he was frowning. "How do you know?"
I seriously didn't want to revive everything again, so I just looked at him and made it quick. "He came here, he wanted to see me and know how I was. Luckily Edward was here too and he ----"
"Wa-wa-wait! JACOB CAME HERE?" Yep, Charlie was almost purple.
"Oh, dad, please… I so don't want to talk about it right now." I said defeated. Suddenly all the tension I'd been accumulated came all together making me want to fall asleep here and now. I was exhausted.
"Alright, if you don't want to talk about it you don't have to." He said with a worried expression on his face. I was sure my face wasn't so nice right now. "Just remember, I'm Chief Swan. Alright? Don't forget that, kiddo." He said and winked at me.
I laughed. "Don't worry, Chief Swan. I've everything under control." Charlie came to my side and gave me a bear hug.
"What would we do without Eddie, huh?" He shook his head and after a 'Good night' he went to the living room. Yeah, yeah… always Eddie! The truth was I was as convinced on that as my father was. What would I do without Edward?
The soft bed felt incredibly good to my tired legs. I was almost in heaven. The darkness overcame me so quickly that I thought the moon had fallen. But the light came again… and I was now in a totally different scenario.
The moon was full in the starry sky… there wasn't even a cloud. And I was in the boat, in Jasper's boat. But I was feeling so alive and at the same time I felt such an enormous peace inside… completely relaxed. Completely happy.
The water was shining beyond the light of the stars, and there was an awesome aroma in the air. I was almost like flying…
Suddenly I saw the back of a man's figure on the edge of the boat. And I smiled at him. He slowly turned around… and there he was, my best friend, smiling at me as lovingly as I'd just done.
He came closer to me, his steps sure. His eyes deep on mine.
"How are you, love?" He said with a soft voice and smiled that crooked smile of him. "I love you."
"I love you too." I sang.
His lips came closer to mine until they met them…
"OH MY GOD!" I screamed as I sat up from my bed in impossible speed.
"Bella, are you alright?" I heard Charlie calling from down stairs.
My head was spinning around. "Y-yeah dad, just a… nightmare."
"'Kay kiddo, sleep a bit more… it's just seven in the morning." But I couldn't. I was completely frozen, completely disoriented. I pinched my hand once again – didn't know why though, the dream was of course the other one.
But this seemed so surreal… Had I just dreamt that I kissed my best friend?! My Edward?! Oh My God… that was twisted! We were so attached to each other. How could I?
My bottom lip was almost bleeding of how much pression I was applying to it. But I couldn't stop, I was too nervous, I was going totally whacko. My masochistic brain would keep showing me again and again the time where his lips touched mine. And not just that… but the feeling. That strange feeling that overcame my asleep system when this happened.
Okay maybe the butter was off. Yes that could be a good explanation. The butter had expired and I didn't notice so I hallucinated last night. Obviously it was that.
"Dad?" I shouted with still a too desperate voice.
"Yes, Bella?" He said back – his voice seemed stronger.
"Are you feeling alright?"
"Umm, yes…" Charlie answered a bit lost.
"Didn't you have any problems on sleeping last night?"
"Umm, not really. As always… why, Bell? What did you dream?" Oh my God! Had he just realized it?!
"Nothing! Why did you assume I dreamt something bad? I'm just asking!" I almost chocked.
"Well, I didn't assume anything you told me you had a nightmare…"
"Oh, yeah… sorry about that." I shouted back as sheepishly as possible. "Have fun, don't be cruel with the fishes!" He was going fishing as almost every Sunday morning.
I heard him laugh. "Thanks, and I won't Bell. Say hi to Edward for me today. Okay?" He shouted as he closed the door.
And I just answered. "Blah, blah, blah." Edward, Edward, Edward! Is somebody kidding me, here?!
Jeez, I was seriously going loca. Please Bella; stop before Charlie finds it better to lock you in a madhouse! Well, better than this craziness…
I needed to talk to somebody, somebody that would always understand me, that would never judge me… that would say exactly the truth – not what I wanted to listen. But there it hit me, how could I if it was Edward the one that had all those qualities?
Edward had always been my person. The one I'd go if I needed something no matter how crazy it was. Once I actually asked him to please come with me to a chicken manifestation for stopping the kill of chickens to eat. Yep, I had that stage in my teenage years, and so he went with me… dressed like a chicken! We even had a song I made him sang with that spectacular voice of his. And he just did it. All for me and with a sweet smile the whole time.
But the thing was… that I'd never had to talk about him. Not something that implicated him in this way, anyway. So here I was, totally surprised and with no one to talk that would understand me like my best friend would.
I staid whining in my bed for like an hour. Just with my arms crossed around my chest and trying to think of white. Yes, that was the second thing that would always calm me down after Edward's smell. I couldn't have Edward's smell now, so I needed my plan B.
Thinking about white was like thinking about nothing… and now I sure wanted to think about nothing because if not I'd just think about something, and that SOMETHING would be Edward's lips. And Oh My God, I'm going totally crazy again.
Yep. I would just think and think about that again and again. And so I couldn't stand it any more and decided that the best would be to stand up from bed and just deal with it! Well… maybe not dealing with it, but standing up from bed was something.
The warm water over my confused body felt nice. Relaxing. I just let it flow as if it would wash away any disturbing thought of it. I stayed there longer than necessary, just enjoying the warm water and letting my body feel better.
But my mind didn't. I was disconcerted with myself, I felt weird. This had never happened to me, why would I dream this now? When I'd just found someone I actually liked to spend time with… when I'd just opened myself again after Jacob's incident. And even if Jacob was here… why Edward and not Jacob?
After eating the always nice cereals I had made up my mind. I seriously needed to talk to someone that would understand this as Edward. So I found the person that he was more alike but in feminine… in other words, our little pixie Alice.
Without thinking it twice I took the keys of my old truck with adrenaline and rushed to the Cullens. It wasn't as if I were masochistic, I new Edward wasn't at home now. He'd swimming practice at the early mornings. So I could talk with Alice and with no awkwardness. I really didn't want to see Edward face before having a good explanation of this craziness.
And so I had exactly two hours before he came home again. I needed to have my problem fixed in 1:59. Oh God, how I hated time!
My truck was speeding to its max through the streets that would lead me to the Cullen's. The poor thing was roaring all the way of how hard I was pressing the gas pedal, but it was just too old and I needed speed right now. Though I put 'Claire de lune' in the stereo – the one that Emmett, Carlisle and Esme had bought me for my previous birthday –no matter how many times I'd say I hated presents -, it wasn't calming me even a bit. I was with every minute passing by even more nervous, more anxious. Something was forming down in my stomach and I couldn't identify well what it was.
I stopped abruptly in the Cullen's house and got out of the car with a jump that almost left me on the floor. I cursed a bit under my breathe and after apologizing to my old truck for what I made to it, I almost ran to the Cullen's door and rang the bell.
Just there it hit that I hadn't said anything that I was coming. "Oh Bella, hello, I didn't expect you here now, what a nice surprise! How are you sweetie?" Esme sweet voice greeted me. Her hug comforted me a bit… She'd been like a mother after I came here. She'd always made me feel so comfortable, so loved. I'd never find the words to thank her for that… and her family.
"I know, Esme. I'm sorry… it was unexpected." I smiled still too anxious.
She scrutinized my face with a worried look. "Is everything alright, dear?" She questioned as she leaded me to inside.
Everything… just that I dreamt I made out with your son. But apart from that… everything is just awesome. "Yes, summer anxious." I tried to sound as convincible as possible and made the best to stop shaking my legs.
"Alright," She said a bit suspicious. "But Edward isn't here sweetie, he still hasn't arrived." Thank God for that!
"I know, I was actually looking for Alice." I grinned another-so-convincible smile at her.
"Oh, she is in her room. I won't delay you anymore; I can see that summer anxious flying through your veins!" She laughed and with that she entered to the kitchen. Esme was another one that was always so enthusiastic. And the one that had always let Alice do her things in her own way. She wasn't like Edward or Carlisle or even like Emmett… she was more like me in that aspect, she knew Alice was capable of amazing things no matter her condition, she'd always believed in her. And that was just… touching.
"Alice," I said as I knocked lightly on the white door of her bedroom. "Can I come in? It's Bella."
"Come in!" She cheered. "I knew it was you, I knew you were coming, don't know why though." She grinned as she combed her hair with a violet comb.
"Still with that psychic thing?" I sighed as I sat on her violet bed and stared to the place. This room was so amazing, a bit violet for my taste… but so Alice. Lovely.
She nodded and came to my side. "Still with that… I know I have a gift." She faked an important voice and laughed. But she truly had something special- that was for sure.
"So… what brings you here, my messy friend?"
I sighed and the heartbeats that were an instant ago calmer suddenly started going faster and faster. "I need to talk to you."
She arched an eyebrow and stared at me with puzzled eyes. "Alright… what do you need to talk about?"
I sighed again, as if that would dissipate the nervousness. "Please just--- just don't judge me or what I'm going to tell you, it's probably that the butter was off so I just hallucinated---"
"Wa-wait, Bella? The what? What does the butter have to do with this?" Alice questioned as she looked at me with a 'you-are-crazy' look. Jeez, I knew this wasn't going to be easy.
"Alright," I breathed. "Forget the butter. That's just a theory here, I'm not gonna tarnished the butter's name." I laughed. Alice frowned.
Edward would have sure laughed with that! Alice so didn't understand my mood. Psst.
"Okay, coming to the topic…" I mumbled.
"Yes, please." She sighed widening her eyes.
"So yesterday Jacob came to my house and well---"
"Yes, yes. Edward told him that he was your boyfriend. He told me that, proceed." She said with a serious tone and serious features. I just had to bit my tongue not to laugh; Alice did let herself in in the psychologist paper.
"Okay," I breathed deeply. "So then I fell asleep and I just dreamt I was in a boat in Jasper's boat, and then it was someone there too and I thought it was Jasper, I mean it had to be Jasper it was Jasper's boat. Right? It had to be him, I mean maybe it was him, just looking a bit different like not so like he looks usually but like different, but again how can I know how he usually looks if I don't usually see him it has just been one time that we went out and I mean it is summ---"
"Bella!" Alice cut me off, shaking my shoulders with her little hands. "Stop mumbling, please!" Thanks Alice, I was totally losing it!
"Sorry, you are right." I breathed again, a bit down.
"Now, just talk to me. Alright? I won't judge you or your situation; just tell me about it so I can help you…" She said with a soft voice. How grown up she was, really mature. It just gave me goose bumps.
I nodded. "You are right, thank you."
She grinned. "So, you were on the boat, on Jasper's boat but there was no Jasper there, right?"
"Right."
She waited a bit for me to continue but I just couldn't. I kept staring at her with lost eyes. "Right…" She said as she nodded with the same 'you-are-crazy' look. "So, it wasn't Jasper there, so who was it?"
The answer came seconds later. "Edward."
"Edward, like my brother, Edward?"
"No, like the baker Edward. Of course your brother, Alice! How many Edwards do I know?" I rolled my eyes at her evident question. The truth was, I was dying for him to be the baker Edward and not her brother. It would be so much easier… Well, if only there was a baker Edward here. If only there was a baker! Well, I was sure there was one in some supermar---
"Bella, can you focus in here, please?" Alice waving her tiny hand in the air cut my trailed of thought and brought me back to this weird reality.
"Sorry, I'm a bit in another planet today…"
She rolled her eyes. "Yes, I can see that. So, please, Bella! It's been like half an hour since you started with the story can you just finish it?"
Shoot! I had just a bit more of an hour to finish and listen to the answer and solve everything?!
I breathed deeply. "The thing is I was in this boat and there was your brother in there too… and then he… he just… he kind of… " God, Bella! Just woman up! "Well he told me I love you and I said I love you too, and then he KISSED ME!" I was breathing hard. It was just too much.
"Wow." Alice exclaimed with wide eyes.
"Tell me about it…" I mumbled and let myself splash to the bed. Too stressed.
"But why?" Alice said coming to my side. "Why did you dream that, Bella?"
"I don't know… " My voice came out as a weak whisper. "I truly don't know, I was hoping you could help me on this one." I shrugged.
She sighed with frustration. "I don't think you kind of---"
"No, no!" I shouted. I just couldn't let her finish. "Of course not, it was a weird thing; I never dreamt that, I don't know…" I was almost at the edge of the heart attack again. It was too confusing and I just needed my best friend!
"Look, Bella. It was just a dream, nothing else. You were obviously upset about the Jacob thing and as Edward told him he was your boyfriend you dreamt that he actually was your boyfriend. And besides… he's always there for you and well maybe when Jacob came – someone that has hurt you so much – and tried to hurt you again, having Edward helping you… that just made you dream that. Don't worry, it was just a dream!"
I breathed deeply trying to let her words sank in and calmed me down. "Yes, you are probably right. It's that." I said some minutes later, when I was much calmer.
Only one question stayed in my system. Why Edward was Jasper? And why did I feel what I felt? No way was I going to answer this now or any time soon. I just made it to a side; it was too stressing and surely something without importance.
There was one mre thing. "Please, just don't tell him anything, it would be too awkward." I almost pleaded to her.
"Of course! Imagine!" She grinned and brushed my hair in a sweet way. "I seriously can't believe you kissed Edward!" She laughed. And I had to laugh too, it was insane.
A loud guffaw made both of us jump with surprise. A too playful, too annoying, too deep guffaw.
"No way, Bella!" Emmett said between guffaws as he came inside the room.
And I just wanted to die. Seriously, die… Caput, hasta la vista! I was sure all the color of my skin was suddenly off me. Didn't know where, but not in me anymore. And my friend the heart attack almost invaded my system again. I couldn't move… I was like a frozen statue staring at that giant figure standing next to the door and laughing the hell out of him.
"YOU KISSED MY BROTHER?" He almost choked, still laughing. I was going to deny it - my mouth already opened, but…
"Who kissed your brother?" I heard a just too familiar – too velvet voice asking from behind Emmett with a frown. Oh, boy.
