Hay there! I found some time! Yay, let's all be happy now. XD
Okay, back to normal. I wrote almost every evening a couple of minutes before going to sleep after studying for my exams. So now I'm in the half of my exams and I'm all ready sick of them. But think positive! I'll be graduated from high school after these so it's worth it. ^^
Well no more about my all too normal life, let's get too something more interesting. Enjoy the new chapter and sorry if I have more mistakes than usual.
Oh and btw, you'll get to read a letter, I'll warn you I actually think it could be better but I don't have any good inspiration thanks to a brain trying to process a lot of different things.
Disclaimer: I'm still not owning Prince Of Tennis for those who would have forgotten. :p
Persistence : chapter 3
FUJI'S POV
"Eh? What is this doing in my bag?" I said as Eiji curiously peered over my shoulders.
I was baffled to find a letter in my tennis bag as I put my bottle of water back in it. I hadn't noticed it before, so I took it out and my gaze fell on the two things that were lying underneath the letter. I heard Eiji take an intake of breath and saw his cheeks turn bright red at the contents of the two packages.
One of them was a package of condoms, strawberry flavoured and the other one was a bottle of lube. I looked strangely at the stuff and thought that this was a very stupid prank.
"Nya! Why are you bringing that to school! Fujiko, you pervert!" Eiji yelled before laughing at his own words knowing full well that they were probably placed there along with the letter.
I laughed as well and didn't pay attention to everyone who was watching me and had heard my best friend's scream. Everybody was curious to why I was a pervert according to the red head. Oishi came to try and calm down Eiji who couldn't stop laughing. And when Oishi saw the items in my bag, Eiji only had to laugh even harder at his boyfriends quickly reddening face.
"Fuji, th…this is inappropriate to have in school. Why is it in your b..bag?" Oishi asked while trying not to stumble and be louder than Eiji's constant laughing.
"Saa, I think someone put it in. I certainly didn't bring this along with me. I would have brought a different flavour." I casually remarked.
Oishi's cheeks reddened even more at my words and then asked if I had any idea why somebody would have put it in my bag.
"No…It's probably just a prank or something. I don't think it's anything serio…" I then remembered the envelope that had been in my bag as well. I had placed it on the bench next to it. I grabbed it and started to open the letter without finishing my sentence.
The other regulars had arrived as well, even Tezuka who came to see what the commotion was all about. I looked at him for a moment and saw a faint blush starting to form on his cheeks as well at seeing the flavoured condoms and lube. He was about to say something as I pulled the letter out and started to read. The captain stood next to me but I didn't think he read it. It was my letter after all and he wouldn't break my privacy. My best friend on the other hand was busy reading it over my shoulder.
Hey
I think you must have found my two gifts and I hope you like them. I went to buy them especially for you. If you want, we can meet somewhere after school to try them out, if you know what I mean. But you probably do, seeing as you are a tensai after all.
Are you one in bed as well? I'm dying to find out. I can just feel myself harden thinking about you, moaning, pleading for me to take you…. I'll make you feel really good and make you scream out my name. How I whish to touch you right now, to make you touch me, to force those pretty legs open and enter you… How I wish to place those delicious looking lips around me…. I can't wait, baby. I need to have you! You have no idea how much I yearn for your body.
I need to see you naked right in front of me! Seeing you in the clubroom changing isn't enough. And when you go into the shower after practice… Oh, how I want to see through those walls blocking my view.
Go out with me! And we'll have plenty of fun together. I'll make you mine and make sure that nobody would touch you. You would be mine alone to touch. You'll become my personal bitch, ne baby. You would like that don't you? You like me, I already know. You told it to that other boy. Why did you reject me then? You shouldn't be scared of me, you know I'll treat you very very well.
I'll see you after practice, my baby.
I shivered involuntarily in disgust and almost lost the grip on the letter. To know that somebody sees me changing in the clubroom while having those kinds of thoughts is enough to make me tremble. But those words, the way it was written was freighting familiar to me.
"Nya! That's disgusting, what kind of love letter is that!" Eiji yelled, again.
This made Tezuka look at me and he must have seen me shiver for his eyes then darted towards the letter. Some of the other regulars tried to read it as well, I didn't care about that. I was just thinking on why that it seemed familiar to me. There had been a lot of guys who talked to me in a way similar to this, but there had still been differences.
And then I finally made the click and I looked around. I saw Tezuka finish reading as he frowned in disgust as well while looking at my surroundings. His eyes immediately darted out in search for someone and I followed his gaze. His eyes landed on somebody who I couldn't clearly see. He was standing under a tree in the shadows, watching us and then I recognized him. It was Ito, I had been searching for him as well.
This meant that I wasn't the only one thinking that the letter and packades came from him.
I was saddened once again to know that all he really wanted was my body and nothing more. It wasn't like I wanted him to like him or to love me. I would reject him anyway. But having guys come continuously after you for trying to get into your pants, wasn't really all that great either. You could say that you developed some kind of complex from it. Was there really no one who wanted me for my character? That was what went through my head all the time.
I glanced another look at Tezuka and hoped with all my heart that he was different.
I hadn't noticed Eiji who had been looking at me. He knew that a letter like that brought down my mood, knowing it would hurt me. So he must have been watching me out of concern. When I did look at him and our eyes crossed I saw that his were widened in a way of recognition. Even though I had no idea what he had just find out. Maybe he too understood who had written the letter. After all I had told him what had happened, so he could make the link with this morning and now.
I looked back at my bag, ignoring everyone as I grabbed the condoms and lube out of it and then headed towards the clubroom. I noticed that all the eyes were on me but I couldn't care less. What I did care about was that Ito was walking in the direction of the clubroom as well which alarmed me. I tried to keep my pace even while I actually wanted to go faster. I reached the room and went inside. I came out a minute later with my hands empty as I had thrown the stuff together with the trash. I walked back towards the courts when Ito suddenly stood beside me.
I was startled and saw his mouth open, about to say something as his hand moved towards my body. I took a step back, carefully trying not to be too noticeable. But Ito just moved with me. Ito had closed his mouth again to grin at me with lust in his eyes.
"You liked the gi-"
"Fuji?" Tezuka came and interrupted Ito, which he most likely did on purpose. He went to stand next to Ito, and a bit closer to me than Ito was. I was relieved for the interruption. I didn't want anything to happen if ha asked me out and I had to reject him, again…
"If you get this kind of letter again, please tell me. This isn't just some kind of prank anymore and whoever did this will face dire consequences. I will make sure of that myself."
I opened my eyes as I looked at Tezuka. He definitely knew that Ito was the one who gave me those things and said this to make him scared. Ito would know that Tezuka would punish him, if he did something like this again. Tezuka's eyes looked strict and tensed but soft at the same time. He tried to reassure me that nothing was going to happen and give Ito a warning at the same time.
I looked at the other one and saw his dismay on his face. He was looking angry at my captain and didn't bother hiding it.
"Come on, let's go back to practice." Tezuka said.
"..Hai." I answered as I started walking next to Tezuka, trying to ignore the eyes that were looking at my retreating back.
"Are you okay?" I heard the man next to me ask in a softer tone. This way only I could hear it. I nodded in response as I unconsciously stepped a bit skew so I was closer to the brunette. Tezuka didn't seem to notice it or he didn't mind.
Practice was resumed and everything was back to normal, my behaviour was back to usual and I could concentrate on my tennis. But when it ended I couldn't help it but think back at the letter. He had been watching me when I undressed in the clubroom, when I went in and came out in only a towel after a shower. A shiver ran over my back at the possibility of having him watching me today once again. I didn't really appreciate it to be watched while dressing.
I remembered that when getting ready to shower, that there was actually a moment where he could see my naked backside. That was between pulling off my boxers and putting the white towel around my waist.
That was why I was standing for a couple of minutes in the clubroom in front of my locker without changing. I noticed worried glances from Eiji and our mother hen, who didn't even know a thing. Oishi was just concerned since I didn't act like myself.
Tezuka who stood next to me gave me some looks as well as he was changing. I saw him taking a towel and drape it around his waist so it would cover his private parts. I didn't look at his crotch even though somewhere in my mind I actually wanted to. A grin came over my lips for a small moment when thinking those thoughts before remembering Ito.
I felt a bit controversy because I didn't want people to look at me when naked, but I, myself wouldn't mind seeing Tezuka naked. I thought about the taller guy looking at me when I would be nude. And strangely my body didn't react as it would otherwise. Was it really that different because I loved him? If Tezuka's eyes were filled with want for me, would my body react in a positive way? I pictured it, his eyes darker than normal, seeing only me and I reacted in a tingly way with my heart starting to dance lightly.
I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn't noticed it when Tezuka came to stand right behind me. I looked strangely at him for his unusual act as he told me to change. I turned around towards him and was unable to see the window. All I could see was right beside me and in front of me where Tezuka was standing, blocking my view. I realized that this blocked the view for those who would be looking through the window. All they would see was a half naked Tezuka standing there. I smiled gratefully at him as I started to take off my shirt and my other clothes. I was completely at comfort even though Tezuka was standing this close to me. This supported my suspicion that Tezuka was indeed different for my mind and heart.
I remarked that he was discreetly looking away from me as I undressed and took my towel to also drape it around me.
"Ready." I said as he looked at me for a moment in his stoic way, though there was a small blush visible which made my heart flutter lightly. He nodded towards the showers and I started walking in that direction. Tezuka tried to stay behind me all the time so I wasn't visible from outside. I was so relieved that I could be sure that Ito couldn't see me that I didn't even notice the strange stares from the other regulars. Oishi and Eiji just acted like always, knowing full well that Tezuka never did something unnecessary. But I could hear Kaidoh do his trademark 'fssh' as Inui mumbled something that sounded a lot like 'ii data'. From the moment that the window was out of view because of the wall, Tezuka stepped aside and we each went into a shower stall.
I quickly showered feeling a bit uneasy once more and hadn't noticed Eiji coming to stand in the shower stall next to me.
"Ne, Fujiko?" Eiji whispered so I could barely hear him above all the noise.
"Mh?" I reacted as I turned my head slightly in his direction.
"Tomorrow? Will you tell me tomorrow?" He asked acting all mysterious and looking around him to see if nobody heard him.
"Will I tell you what?"
"Who you like, nya." the red head said a bit louder: "You couldn't tell it this lunch since everybody kept bugging you."
"If I recall Eiji, you were bugging me as well." I teasingly said.
"But you told me you would say it to me!" He did yell this time, making everybody look his way before turning and just shrugging it off as one of his antics.
"Yes yes, I'll tell you, tomorrow."
"Yay!"
I laughed at his joy over this simple matter, well maybe not so simple. Telling Eiji would be one thing, but making him understand why I didn't act on it, was another. I would have to explain everything to him and my fear for Tezuka being the same as all the others. It wasn't something I looked forward too. I could probably devoid his attention to something else if he would ask more than I wanted.
At reminding the captain I looked in his way and saw him standing two stalls away from me. He was ready as he came under out of the shower with his towel wrapped around his waist once again. I tried not to pay too much attention to his body, but the way his muscles moved and small water drops rolled down his body made it very hard not to look. I gulped once at seeing the guy I loved, look so handsome.
I quickly rinsed my body off, excused myself to Eiji who had been talking non-stop, and went into Tezuka's direction. He saw me coming and went first. I walked closely behind him and almost bumped into him as he stopped. I looked up and heard something that sounded a lot like a growl which was so uncharacteristic coming from the stoic boy. I looked over his shoulder in curiosity while standing on my toes.
I could see a person quickly running away as he looked like he had been caught doing something. I then recognized the jacket and another shiver made its way down my spine. I quickly ducked behind Tezuka again who turned around and saw my slightly opened eyes with a spark of fear in them.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"Why….What had he been doing?" I carefully asked not sure of I wanted to know the answer.
"He was looking through the window. I think he was searching for you...Do you want to notify the school board?"
"No, it'll be fine. He'll give up like the others did."
"Others? What others?"
"Nothing…Can I change now, I'm cold."
"Ah" he reacted but the tone in his voice told me that this wasn't the end of this conversation just yet. I blamed myself for saying that last sentence. Tezuka would inquire after those 'others' and I wasn't sure on how he would react to all that. Somewhere in my mind, I was curious to his reaction. Maybe he would be jealous. I really would like to see that.
It might also take away a part of my fear, if he would react with understanding and try to help me to get rid of all these guys. If he wouldn't want people to treat me like this then he wouldn't do it himself. At least that was what I told myself. I knew that Teuzka was different and wouldn't just treat me like some lust object. But the thought did stay in the back of my head.
After we changed and most of the regulars were ready as well, I said goodbye to everyone and then walked towards the school entrance. I walked out of the gate in the direction of my house as the weather was getting a bit cloudy but the temperature was still very high.
I calmly walked until I reached my house and entered, unaware of a following figure who had been trailing my every step.
"Tadaima." I said as I closed the door behind me, never noticing a grinning boy standing close to my house in the shadow of a cloud.
Okay….I'm not really pleased with this chapter and I still don't have any direction in which it needs to go. Normally I have the whole plot line ready and events that must happen. But not this time, so if it turns out to be a lame story, then I'll make sure to always have a story line ready when writing a new story. ;p
And also sorry if Fuji seems to be a bit weird, since on the one hand he doesn't like being a lust object and guys looking at him in a wanting way, but he kind off does the same to Tezuka. Just think that that's because he loves Tezuka and is attracted to him, not only by lust. okay? ^^
Please review, so that I feel at least a bit better and can get through my final week of exams. ^^
Ja ne xx
