Janice Lester was a distant memory. She no longer existed, and yet, the past haunted her. She wanted above all else, was to be a starship commander. But, what is it being a captain the real reason she had planned all this? Or was it something else entirely?
James Kirk was the first man, who actually was interested in her. When they first went out during her academy days, she thought she had found someone who understood her. Someone who thought the same way she did. He would support her, be by her side, she was sure of it. But, it didn't happen. She often wondered if her father had been the real reason it all failed, and her dream of having the perfect partner, had been just that, a dream.
The body of James Kirk entered the lift, the door closed immediately. He asked for the bridge, and moments later he felt it move towards his destination. So many things kept creeping up in his mind. Images of the past, of a lonely childhood, no friends, or sibblings. But these were Janice's memories, not James Kirk's. His back made contact with the wall, and he stayed there, trying to find the courage he needed to fight the demons that kept surfacing. But, they just wouldn't let go, and he began to ...she began to remember...
"Dad, he'll be here any minute. How do I look?" Janice asked her father, nervously.
"You look fine. You could stand more upright though, you always had a tendency to slouch. Your mother's bad habit." Tom Lester replied disgustingly.
"I don't slouch!" Janice angrily replied.
"Whatever you say Jan, but I call them, as I see them."
"Dad, he's very important to me. Please, be supportive about this." Janice begged.
"Who is this mystery man anyway? Another plebe you found at the academy?"
"Hardly. His name is James Kirk. He's going places, hell, he's the top of his class. He'll make captain I'm certain of it."
The mood of Thomas Lester changed dramatically.
"Why didn't you tell me it was James Kirk. I've been hearing amazing things about him. Dammit Janice, so help me, if you screw this up."
"I won't. We'll make the best team ever Dad. I really love him. I think he loves me as well. We are so much alike, it's uncanny." Janice smiled as she thought of Jim.
"Knowing you, you'll fail. It's a pity, you know. How I wish I had a son. Someone I could look up to. Someone to be proud of. A starship captain your not, and you never will be."
'and you never will be...'
'and you never will be...'
'and you never will be...'
Janice Lester wiped the tear that fell down her face, as she waited desperately for the lift to return her to the bridge. She swallowed, feeling that knot in her throat. She spoke softly to herself.
"You're wrong dad. I wish you could see me now. I'll prove you wrong. I have to."
