So sorry for the delay! I moved to a different country, so, yeah. Hope that you like this chapter!
Everything was morphed together, I didn't know what day it was, and honestly, I didn't care. All of a sudden, everything that I cared about, gossip, boys, school, didn't matter anymore to me. It was like it was ripped out of my chest.
I walked downstairs, as I usually did, I managed to look at the calendar that was hanging on the refrigerator; somebody was crossing off the days. It was the 15th, and dad and Ryan….died…on the 1st. Had it already been that long?
I looked at the table, as usual, there was no breakfast. I looked in the cupboard; there was barely anything in there. Since I never saw mom or Amy, I'd have to make a long walk to the supermarket. Amy would always leave early in the morning, and come back late at night. I didn't know what she was doing but apparently, she had recently joined a dance team and that had her booked.
Good for her, she was dealing with this the right way. Unlike me and mom, I excluded myself from the outside world, and mom, well; I don't know how she's doing.
I heard footsteps and I spun around, seeing my mom walk, at a snail's pace, down the steps. I looked at her in surprise, for the first time, my mom actually looked old. She was definitely skinnier then before, there were dark circles under her eyes from the lack of sleep. Unlike her usually bright face that was always full of makeup, I could see wrinkles around her face.
I got nervous; mom was in worse shape than me! She was starving herself! I went over to my mom and smiled. "Hi." That was the first word that I've said in a long time.
My mom looked at me; I could see pain and grief in her eyes. I looked down immediately, trying to get that picture of Ryan and dad out of my head. She didn't say a word to me as she sat down at the kitchen table, staring into space.
I got out some cereal and made her a bowl, pouring some for myself too. I put the cereal in front of mom, she pushed it away. I frowned, "Mom, you have you eat. Please." I said as I pushed the bowl in front of her again.
She shook her head, pushing the bowl away again. I grabbed the spoon and got a spoonful of cereal, pressing it against her mouth, though she didn't open it.
I could tell that she got annoyed. She swatted the spoon away, making the spoon fly out of my hand. She knocked the bowl over the table, making it break. She swiftly got up and walked back up the stairs. I knew that I wouldn't be seeing her for a while.
I looked at the mess that my mom made and quickly cleaned it up. I ate my cereal quickly and headed out the door.
As I got to school I looked around and almost smiled. People had finally stopped talking about what had happened and decided to go on with the rest of their lives, which was talking about something more interesting.
I walked to my locker as I spotted Temari. I felt bad for completely shutting her out of my life; she was really a good friend. I tried to smile as she looked in my direction. A weird expression came over her face, as if wondering why I would even dare to look at her. That was the face that she gave to nerds that tried to say hello. She slammed her locker shut and walked away.
I just stood there with my head down. I had lost everything, my dad, my brother, my relationship with my family, and even my popularity. I was down at the bottom of the social status, a place that I would have never expected myself to be at.
The lessons were a bore; I barely listened in class anymore, only scribbled down random letters and numbers. In math class my teacher handed me my math test that we took last week, she shook her head as she continued handing the rest out. I looked down at the paper, only to see a big fat F staring back up at me. I sighed, so much for the honor roll. For some reason though, I didn't care.
Lunch was the worst, usually I would always enjoy lunch, getting to be able to hang out with my friends and share the latest gossip. Now, I sat by myself, and being by myself was the worst thing possible. I had no choice but to think back to that night, to actually try and remember what had happened, most of the time it would usually bring me to tears.
I looked over at the lunch table where the gang sat, they were all talking a laughing, and Naruto was of course stuffing his face. I frowned when I saw 9 people at the table instead of 8. A perky little girl that looked like she could be on the cover of a magazine was sitting in the spot between Hinata and Temari, my spot. I sighed, they had already replaced me.
I scanned the room, the cafeteria was pretty full, there were no empty tables, the only one that I saw that had one person sitting there was, well, who do you think was sitting there?
I sighed; I hadn't talked to Gaara for days. I felt bad because all he wanted to do was help, even though that like many times before, I ditched him.
I walked over to his table and sat down. He looked up and stared at me in surprise. "….Hi." I said as I bit into my sandwich that I had made from home. How pathetic was that? I was actually making my own lunch.
Gaara smiled, something that I hadn't seen in a while, somebody smiling at me. "Well look at that, she speaks."
"I'm sorry, for everything. I didn't mean to ditch you."
He smirked, something that I wasn't expecting. "So you finally noticed huh? She's been sitting with them for a while now, I was wondering when you were going to find out that they replaced you. Her names Hannah, she's new to this school." He said.
I turned around and looked at Hannah, finding that she was staring right back at me. She was giving me a smug look, a look of satisfaction. Looks like they already told her about me. I bet she was just happy that they thought that she was better.
I still couldn't believe that I was here, sitting at the loner table, with Gaara. I sighed and looked back at him.
"Hey, you don't want to hang out with that crowd anyways, I was wondering when you were going to realize that they aren't the best group to hang out with. The rumor about me setting fire in the science lab? That's false; it was my lab partner, who turned the gas on to high when the teacher wasn't looking. I saw your little blonde friend Temari giving me a look, and she told the teacher that it was my fault. I got suspended for that." He said.
I stared at him in shock. He didn't do that? Well, it wasn't a surprise that Temari would do something like that. Maybe he was right about hanging with the wrong crowd.
"Well, Temari can be pretty good at lying." I said.
He laughed. "Pretty good? She told the teacher that the fire was black! Even the teachers follow what the 'in' crowd says."
I laughed, something that I hadn't done it a long time.
"So how are your mom and sister taking it?" he asked.
"Taking what?"
Gaara gave me a weird look, as if I'd gone mental.
Then I remembered everything. It hit me like a slap in the face. It was kind of weird; I had suddenly forgotten everything that had happened.
"Oh, well I haven't seen Amy in a couple of days, she recently joined the dance team and she's pretty busy. In my opinion I think that it's just an excuse to waste time. My mom isn't eating, drinking, or even sleeping for that matter, and I can tell that she's getting worse." I said with a sigh.
Gaara reached over and touched my hand; a warm sensation went through my hand and up my arm, which was weird. I looked at him in surprise.
He smiled. "Well, things will get better, I promise. It's just a phase, you all will soon get over it, trust me." He said.
The bell rang and we both stood. He actually gave me a small, awkward hug. "See you tomorrow at lunch." He said as he walked off to his next class.
I smiled, I actually couldn't wait for tomorrow.
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