Late into the night, Booth laid on the floor in the living room in front of the TV. After his outburst, he had given Brennan some space. She hadn't come out of the bedroom since Jared helped her there earlier.
Booth was dozing off and on, watching replays from that day's Phillies game on ESPN. He had wanted to watch the game but he had been picking up Jared to go to dinner when it had started and he missed almost all of the game while he was at Lizzie's house.
He was woken by a dog barking a few houses down. Sitting up, he checked the time on the old VCR. It read 1:27. He stood up and immediately knew he should've gone to see Bren before they both fell asleep. Booth sighed and slowly made his way to the bedroom. He opened the door just wide enough for him to fit though and moved to the bed. He then took off his shorts and his t-shirt and lay in bed.
Brennan was sound asleep. She was on her side, facing him. He faced her, wanting to look at her. He kept his distance just in case she woke up. Booth knew if he was right in her face and she decided to wake up, she'd probably have another panic attack. But it was then she did decide to wake up, scaring him more than herself.
She didn't flinch, but instead looked him over. He looked worse for the wear. The bags under his eyes were worse than she had ever seen and worry flooded his eyes.
Neither spoke, Brennan waiting for him to say something first, and Booth scared to set her off again. He gave her an apologetic smile.
"I'm sorry," he offered. Brennan stayed silent, wanting him to say more.
"I shouldn't have yelled. Please, please forgive me. Can I ask…Why didn't you tell me about the car trunk?" he asked. She winced and she took on a fearful expression. Booth flinched at that. He knew he should've phrased the question better.
"I don't know. I told Hank and I thought it wouldn't matter if you knew or not. I'm not someone who parades what my past holds," she snapped.
He flinched again. "I'm sorry. I just didn't know how bad things were for you. My…experiences seem like nothing compared to yours. Please don't be mad at Pops for telling me about…"
"I could never be mad at Hank. He's done too much for me. He's wonderful," she said softly. Booth just nodded, knowing what she said to be true.
"I really am sorry, Bren. I'm so…deeply, incredibly in love with you and it scares me."
She laughed sarcastically and rolled her eyes. "So that's your excuse for what you did? Really, Booth?"
"I'm not saying it's an excuse. But, Bren, I really do love you. With all my heart-"
"Your heart is a muscle," she cut him off, trying to avoid the subject.
"No, not the way I see it. Just listen. The closer we get, the more I realize just how much I love you. I've never felt this way about anyone before, Bren. It's scary for me and I'm sure, right now, I'm freaking you out too. You helping me…with my…mom…just made me realize that maybe you feel the same way about me," he ended hopefully. He really wanted her to say something back. Something like, Oh, I love you so much too, but he knew better. He needed to take this chance on her.
Brennan just nodded slowly, trying to understand exactly what he was saying. She yawned and shut her eyes for a few moments.
"You're tired. We can talk about this in the morning," Booth stated. He smiled at her.
She gave him a thankful smile and moved closer to him. Booth lay on his back and pat his chest. Taking the hint, she rested her head on his chest, wrapping an arm around his waist. Brennan listened to his heart beat. Though she knew his heart didn't think and was only a muscle, she knew it was filled with love for her and she could only wait until morning to tell him that she wasn't about to think with her brain anymore.
A/N: Sorry this update is so short :/ I still can't get the finale out of my head and I've come up with another idea. The song playing at the end of the finale is called Kandi by One eskimO. I have the entire album and I was thinking about basing a short fic on each song and centering it around the finale. There's somewhere between 12 or 13 songs (one chapter for each song). Please let me know what you think (About this chapter and my idea for another fic)! Please and thank you!
